這是寫給一位舊朋友的話。50Please respect copyright.PENANAs2xY5TUV0a
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他是一個我小學時認識的男生朋友。或許也算是個故人了吧。50Please respect copyright.PENANAmb01OsU07j
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那時候因為家庭的事情、學業的壓力、老師過高的期望等的種種因素,加上在學校和一位鄰座朋友因為理念不同而絕交了,我陷入了長久的低谷期。50Please respect copyright.PENANATvhK9kVGvr
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那時候的我心裡的情緒很不平衡,然而我表面還是嘻嘻哈哈的,學業也沒有大幅倒退,也沒人察覺我的異樣。50Please respect copyright.PENANAAvVmMSobQP
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再過了些時日,班主任給我們換了座位,我總算和那位關係破裂的朋友分開了。50Please respect copyright.PENANAMOxjQ6wKB4
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取而代之的,是他。50Please respect copyright.PENANAVMdQ4biG2z
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那天的我本來心情很差,伏在了桌子上,企圖把自己和外界隔絕。也忘了我有沒有哭了,大概有吧。50Please respect copyright.PENANAxA7VTDoym3
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待我抬頭的那刻,他沒有問我發生了什麼,只是朝我笑了笑,給我遞了一顆糖。50Please respect copyright.PENANA2DcIvaH5LK
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那一瞬間,我突然覺得……這個世界可能沒有自己感知到的要糟糕。50Please respect copyright.PENANAr9eUcKvOnB
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他啊,不算特別高,卻已經比我高了一個人頭;不算特別帥,笑起來卻特別好看。他成績不算好,但音樂運動方面卻是校隊裡面的表表者。50Please respect copyright.PENANADvte7q4hhD
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那時候的我根本沒幾個能說上話的人,更加沒有半個能交心的人,卻意外的和他合得來,便熟了起來。50Please respect copyright.PENANAF9EoTTs8FU
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他的家境不錯,常常買很多最新款的文具,也常常和我交換來用—儘管我的都是最簡單而且破破爛爛的舊文具。50Please respect copyright.PENANA359E9P1PNo
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我和他經常從上課聊到下課,聽課的時候自然是毫不專心,也挨了很多頓罵—然而我都覺得甘之如飴。50Please respect copyright.PENANA9ZLIHBuoSt
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後來老師總算看不過眼,把我們分開了—各坐在可是的兩個角落,鄰座也是相對沉默寡言的人。50Please respect copyright.PENANA6MaDz15gDL
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然而明顯這並沒有阻擋我們的交流,傳字條啊、做口型啊、眼神交流啊……現在想來老師應該也發現了吧,不過無奈地選擇不戳破而已。50Please respect copyright.PENANAmMxFiuYZIc
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那時候的我不知道什麼是真的「喜歡」,我只知道和他一起的時間,是我難得特別開心的時間。50Please respect copyright.PENANAjlEFUQVvbO
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記得那時候被老師分開後,我依然改不了不專心上課的本性,總會偷偷的看向他那邊,被其他同學發現了後又裝沒事的看回書本。50Please respect copyright.PENANAkeT89ii7rS
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我這輩子都不會忘記,當我看向他的時候,他也托著腮,看著我自然的笑著,和我四目相對以後慌忙別過頭的瞬間。50Please respect copyright.PENANAUwrAxfkgiW
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我更加不會忘了他那刻的笑容;那是我出生以來看過最耀眼的光。50Please respect copyright.PENANA3XBIoYE1eg
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分開坐後,我和他漸漸也沒像開始的時候要好了,也沒有整天黏在一起,卻還是會有數不盡的話題。50Please respect copyright.PENANAkCIRdtYIwI
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直到畢業的時候,我和他因為成績上還是有一定差距,而且各自搬去了不同的區域,自然也升讀了完全不同的學校。50Please respect copyright.PENANAWCTewrYxIM
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我以為我們還能有機會和以前一樣地相處下去的,可是,沒有了。50Please respect copyright.PENANAdb2SMnpLJ8
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畢業沒幾天後,他便退出了班群,通訊軟件帳號整個刪了,電話號碼也改了。我出席了幾次校友活動,卻始終不見他蹤影。50Please respect copyright.PENANAXI4qPW6cCI
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那時候的我已經隱隱察覺到,我和他大概很可能不會再見了。50Please respect copyright.PENANAaO1VY7dqzH
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畢業後的那個暑假,我去了趟旅行,還是給他帶了禮物;那份禮物至今仍然靜靜躺在我的書櫃裡,不曾成功送出,卻也捨不得自己用。50Please respect copyright.PENANA7XCt3bXqX5
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久而久之,我終於意識到了,我和他可能再也不會有任何交集了。那時的我初初升學,在學業、人際、家庭等方面也遇到了不少煩心事。50Please respect copyright.PENANADt7ZeuUXhR
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我再次陷入了時間更長,情況更嚴重的低落期,也有了更強的自殺傾向,有幾次甚至差點遂願了。50Please respect copyright.PENANAysnxTHnM0h
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那時候徹底擊垮我的,大概不是別人投來的種種目光,也不是源自內心深處的迷茫徬徨;而是告訴我,我已經離自己心裡的那道光越來越遠的理智。50Please respect copyright.PENANAXfbuILpWhv
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我清楚,這一次就沒有一個人從天而降般出現在我身邊,給我一顆糖,朝我笑一笑了。50Please respect copyright.PENANAGPqz94SDVw
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那一兩月我真不知道我是怎麼度過的。直到之後遇到了很好的朋友,我才漸漸從最晦暗的角落走出來。50Please respect copyright.PENANAZZnlCyXk4W
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再一次改變我的,是在幾個月之前,我在外婆家裡找到了我小學的紀念冊。我把他寫的那張的放在了第三頁,僅次於兩位老師之後,我也沒需要花時間去出他的那頁。50Please respect copyright.PENANAWiQJUXIEyf
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我看了看他那熟悉的字跡,居然已經想哭了。50Please respect copyright.PENANAU2h3xpA1FH
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紀念冊的後頁有一部分,提供了一些形容詞(聰明、可靠之類),然後讓填寫的人寫上對應的同學。50Please respect copyright.PENANALbs7Oav07w
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有一行是可愛,而他寫的是「可能是你」。其中「可能是」那幾隻字寫得特別擠,可以看出來大概是候加上去的。50Please respect copyright.PENANAKhkV4Z1SfW
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我也不知道我為什麼第一次看的時候居然沒看見,等到已經沒有聯絡才注意到這點。50Please respect copyright.PENANAJ15xM4yxFq
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他寫上的聯絡方式已經不再適用,我卻還是反覆把這張紙讀了很多次。那些簡單的寄語似乎是我和昔日那段回憶的最後憑證,也是我最後能抓住的稻草。50Please respect copyright.PENANAXgDf261n8b
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去年秋日,我在社交媒體上找到了他的帳號。我毫不猶豫的加了他的好友,思前想後卻終究沒有傳出一句問好。50Please respect copyright.PENANAVNijB3mBq3
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那時候的我才重新找著他沒幾天,他就又一次下線了,再也沒有出現。幾個月前我倒有看到他有上線幾天,之後又無聲無息地消失了。50Please respect copyright.PENANAg9MlrFhELv
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要說沒有失望的話,那絕對是假的—畢竟那也是我曾經喜歡的人—儘管那不過是小學生的幼稚情感,他於我而言卻仍然是特別重要的人。50Please respect copyright.PENANAyYZl5xldtO
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他曾是最苦的日子中唯一的糖,是最黑的世界裡唯一的光,是萬千鋒刃之間唯一的溫柔,是不斷襲來的魔鬼之中唯一的天使。50Please respect copyright.PENANAkB2aH1gEIc
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是他,成就了今日的我的一切。50Please respect copyright.PENANA1vYBfeQSAX
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因為沒有他,我大概活不到現在。50Please respect copyright.PENANALMFn9gF1xA
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如果可以回去當時,我應該也不會説什麽喜歡你,但我大概會很衷心的說一句謝謝。想感謝的太多了,所以真的……謝謝你。50Please respect copyright.PENANA1HziuDHSDw
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如果可以回去當時,我可能也不會悄悄牽上你的手,但我大概會在臨走之前和你再拍張合照,最後再多看你幾眼,就好了。50Please respect copyright.PENANAF02wE8QGpy
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那至少,我這幾年不用靠看你沒有我的的老照片,才能看到你熟悉的笑容;或者聽你Youtube頻道的老影片,才能聽到你以前的聲線。50Please respect copyright.PENANAn3er6b5TQb
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那至少,我不用害怕我哪天就會忘了你。50Please respect copyright.PENANAyfLlRNvd1D
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其實呀,寫這麼多的原因,其實也只有一個,相信大家看標題也知道了:今日是他的生日。50Please respect copyright.PENANAXlQ25uWAQX
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好希望以後的你,都能和當年一樣,仍舊像個太陽一樣溫暖地點亮別人的生命。50Please respect copyright.PENANARFOCezZkU9
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無論如何還是希望你,一切安好。50Please respect copyright.PENANA60b2hsNoFW
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即使知道你並不可能看到這段文字,最後還是想要簡單說一句:50Please respect copyright.PENANAO1sbwwrJfY
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生日快樂,還有,謝謝。50Please respect copyright.PENANAwpHS9vpsbR
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—此致那親手賦予我翅膀的天使。50Please respect copyright.PENANApXSoK76uHR