I can hear noise, talking all around me, but it's faint and taking a deep breath in, the air is sweet and when I open my eyes, I see a light misty purple background all around me, but the floor has one white circle of light that I'm sitting in, darkness seeping into it slightly and being rejected.
This whole room feels like it's pulsing, like it's alive and looking up at the roof, I can see in the very corner of it is the number: 13
13 is said to be a bad luck number, but is it really? I'd beg to differ personally.
And then it hits me. Becky's in control while I'm locked away inside just like she used to be when I was in control.
If I don't re-gain control, perhaps even forcefully take it back, what happens to me? Do I exist forever as merely an observer or... But before I can finish posing my question, the light begins to dim and the pulsing stops and I feel my sisters chatter begin to fade and it's like a voice I can't make out is telling me to let go because I'm worth nothing and would be better off dead and should just leave Becky to her life as this life isn't actually mine, it's hers and I'm in no way entitled to it.
I just merely looked after her body while she wasn't present because of whatever Aiden, Veronica and Mitchell did to us. No, her. To her, not us.
"Oh, for god sake, Libby Biscuit. I didn't go to the trouble I did just for you to let it all go. Becky's a monster and doesn't appreciate the life she has."
Looking up to see who's talking to me, I see it's Aiden dressed in his trench-coat. I try to clammer away, but he sits down and grasps onto my foot, preventing me from escaping. "Let go!" I beg.
"No, no, pretty one. I'm not done with you yet."
"What do you want with me?!" I cry.
"For you not to give up the gift of opportunity I've given you."
"I'd hardly call it that and Veronica and Mitchell took the fall for you so you could avoid jail-time.
They're locked up now, due to be trialed and sentenced. They put everything on the line, risked their own lives and now freedom to take care of me. They are real friends as opposed to a fake friend like you." I tell him, serving him what he deserves.
"Sware at me, go on."
"What?" I respond, confused. "Sware at me." He answers.
"Why would I do that? No!" I disagree.
"So you don't have it in you. Do you have even a bad bone in your body of some sense?"
"Aiden, what's this supposed to mean? And you don't know me, what I'm capable of too."
"Nah, I think you're completely self-less."
"Aiden, get out of my face. Just go away."
"As you wish, but do you know why you're here?"
"Because you forced me to be here."
"True that, baby and don't blow it like I said, but this is more than that. I didn't create this, I couldn't have. You can't just create another person inside an already existing person."
"Debatable... So, what are you asking?"
"Do you believe in a higher-power?"
I think for a second. "I don't know what to believe, I've haven't lived in Ender Falls very long. I need time, more time to process what's going on and figure out to co-exist with Becky."
"Right, well this has all been majorly pointless then, but hey, at-least there is now another side to Becky and I surely hope over time, you're all that's left."
And he let's go of my foot, standing up and I see a light bruise on my ankle.
"That hurt." I whinge.
"Yadda, yadda, don't care, Biscuit. See you around hopefully, but not Becky."
"What does that mean? You're dead." I point out.
"I know, and I'm leaving."
"Wait..." I whisper, looking all around us and the room seems to brighten up a bit, beginning to pulse a bit more.
"You're really new to this it seems. I wonder how long till you have a true grasp on reality." He taunts me. "What's that supposed to mean?" I ask and then he grips my chin, forcing me to look up at me.
"Libby, take Becky's body from her otherwise you'll die. They're can only be one of you and your existence is a gift I never thought possible.
You aren't an alter. She'll have other runs, you might not."
And then he let's go. I turn around to call out to him and extend my arm, but by now he's miles away vanishing into the light and I turn back around, tuning into the noise of the room and I can see it, the world through our eyes.
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The police must have transported us here, why aren't we in a cell back at the station? I can hear Mel talking to someone else in the room.
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Becky shouts at me.
"W-What?" I stammer, and the world feels like it's spinning, the colours and lights are pulsing strongly.
I'm now in control and feel my hand clench around the cold bed rail.
Something is around our wrist, restricting movement. But not completely.
Becky's crying out in pain inside, but no one can hear her. I see a monitor and it shows our vitals dropping.
People in the room are panicking, but now our vision is blurry. I feel someone touch our wrist, the sound of something like velcro being undone.
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That's Mel, I can just make out her standing over us.
"Our chest." I choke out, although maybe I never physically said it and she didn't hear me as she doesn't respond and then I feel our head flop back, then nothing. I can't will us to move, I can't control anything.
Becky and me are both locked out.
Taking my last breath, exhausted, it goes all black.
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A sterile smell hits my senses and I can hear gentle beeping in the background.
"Libby, are you with me?"
I force my eyes to open, a dimly lit hospital room comes into view. Kacey and Ian above me.
"W-wha?" I whisper, voice strained. "Don't try to talk if it hurts." Someone says a familiar voice.
Turning my head, I see her. Dr Mel. "How are you feeling, Libby? Any pain? Blink if it hurts." She requests.
Shake my head slightly and she lowers a clip-board. "You're lucky." She tells me.
"What happened?" I manage.
"Kacey, Ian. You best be getting home. Emma is in reception." She tells them, not answering my question. They reluctantly leave, but not before both giving me a brief hug. Mel takes a seat beside me, laying a hand on my arm.
There's an IV inserted, a bunch of leads on us, all kinds of stuff.
I try to will my body to move, but the left side is numb. "Why can't I move properly?" I croak.
"You had a seizure, we pushed some meds, but you're okay again, for the moment...
You need a new heart, you're time is running out. We have found you a donor... Surgery will be scheduled to implement it. Just take it easy for the moment.
I cut her off. "What will it take for people to believe I exist too?" I cry. "I'm Libby!"
And she stiffens. "I'm sorry, Libby..."
"It's okay, just recognize my existence too." I tell her. "We already do..." She responds.
I yawn. "Oh, you're tired... I see, well I'll leave you to rest, you're out of the danger zone. I'm sorry, sweet dreams, Libby." She tells me, standing up.
"Wait!" I beg.
"Get some rest, Libby. We'll talk more in the morning, I have to go home for now. There is a night doctor on duty, and several nursing staff.
I've informed Becky what happened, but I thought she'd forgotten, but it was you switching places with her."
And then she's gone, leaving me alone in a dark room. I can see it, wrapped around our wrists and feet.
I know what they're doing... I turn my head slightly, managing to look out the window, two bright shining moons in the sky.
"Becky?" I call out. "Are you even here or is just me?"
I hate you.
She's here. I'm sorry-
Spare me the pity party. This is painful having to co-exist with you. I can't be free to do the things I want to do.
My life was hard enough before, but I found some happiness and then you come along to fuck it all up.
Hey, don't take this out on me! It's not my fault, I didn't ask to be born or whatever this is. I'm trying to get along with you, but I sense reluctance on your part and even if I could give you control and privacy, easier said than done.
I wish you'd just go away, you bitch.
Feelings mutual. I respond.
While you were out cold, Dr Melissa told me a heart was found for us, and we're getting shipped to psych also.
They're sending us to a big city, just over after we get out heart transplant, and we'll have to attend court.
And who's fault is that?
Biscuit-face.
Excuse me?! Becky, can we not do this now? I feel awful, light-headed, sick. Don't you?"
No, I feel just fine. But, go ahead and rest. I'll just have control, and stew on stuff in private.
I love you.
I don't want to hear it, Biscuit!
And I feel her take control.
I want some time to myself.
And I feel her shove me down, away and out. I let go to make this easier so we don't hurt ourselves because of what's happened and I feel like I'm drifting underwater, but I can breathe easily and looking up, I can see a rippling circle of light on the surface, but I'm far below it.
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