「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgKTudBs3j
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrokC1s2IpC
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4LZ9OEDgBv
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幼小我的父母就離異，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOZ14qXmrX
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHYgT0q1gH
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對母親的記憶還是有，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl6z28azhL5
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記得她很常酗酒，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡebbxaycNaw
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後來的日子，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5ozMObVTC
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIfGieccR5j
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忙於工作的他，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZBx5fZMR6
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4trUD1owT
664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6y30z82Y7O
到了上課時間再直接上課，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrz7rRKSrU
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDyAW0JttH7
664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFvwJMZI4C
因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0GZc2mOBmp
664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lKhGACNlq
所以我總能寄宿在那裡，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGT0Gutn0ZA
664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcclrgEgKAz
剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNrVHEzqKL
664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhJDwj12OK
漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2hJtT1TPx
664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bMLBAiaov
父親工作的地方不一定，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkkFzjFUOd
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輾轉的換了三所小學，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumNqLYTiIH
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFa0eyETe3
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他開始會喜怒無常，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5Y20rXX1r
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7uXsijoeC
664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rV55M2Ajz
下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKG08185Xnj
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很小我就與異性交往，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDBLkiKUNn
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdlPSrRVASw
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIJYywSdEc
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtUhqlbv60
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我會睡在工地，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKorLCp6YVy
664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFH6I1Vmon
用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ye1Kit0gZ
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5mqufy26W
664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfyPSPnAbO
委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRlEyrxXJD
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他開始會講貶低的話語，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmobhEHUT5
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那些原本用來工作的用具，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCt9bB8RMj
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqJVyeQiD8
664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyyTuXTbPw
他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QM3n6KmWw
664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxFj73RfYm
有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWEwtKX2iI
664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zOhp75ygk
他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJfSkYr93d
664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpdHInoM8v
要我轉告給老師，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfh2MedYAw
664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJH1BOD9WBZ
電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKcyZHyoBV
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa52tvhwhn6
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrifnAYcVtJ
664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZSEDQoiUA4
那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSWM2vtUo7
664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDBuJDb7hKa
細細去回想每個片段，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXqXpX8TGb
664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwK7NufFCp
父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpFA1He4UY
664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27jbUG2ZcU
仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEeU6u5bzv
664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyLbAsKnBg
對他一個大男孩很不容易，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf382h8cqPP
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDuMawx17ou
664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTU9AGf2t32
卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CddNPXo1x
664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWXOD1zg4C
走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVzTPvnqVd
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGWQ0awwXv
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2v5CUrdtL
664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHvFJXvCaj
是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwRGFFLgNK
664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bBFoHrBZV
還是有很多屬於他的回憶，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcgkAPTAlTG
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2xbPCfUKy
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正準備吃下第一口時，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnbhOzs5K8O
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OTYeOu1XA
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlaRKSecWLD
