「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來,328Please respect copyright.PENANA5KqGySFQPp
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒,328Please respect copyright.PENANAZqd0BX9oIY
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的,328Please respect copyright.PENANAEScJs86TFW
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幼小我的父母就離異,328Please respect copyright.PENANAnM4j1Kb7Ur
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了,328Please respect copyright.PENANABcGaLvt69q
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對母親的記憶還是有,328Please respect copyright.PENANAabjKKtup8E
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記得她很常酗酒,328Please respect copyright.PENANAbW2AV2hFWx
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後來的日子,328Please respect copyright.PENANAqD5C1QgFcM
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活,328Please respect copyright.PENANAztnFD3qPPd
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忙於工作的他,328Please respect copyright.PENANAOJ1XeydW0j
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園,328Please respect copyright.PENANATullXRYf8U
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到了上課時間再直接上課,328Please respect copyright.PENANASOvlUurcep
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什麼?為什麼能睡在那裡,328Please respect copyright.PENANAM66z5YN3rs
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師,328Please respect copyright.PENANAvqlCoIB3n4
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡,328Please respect copyright.PENANAHGRuorzPxk
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼,328Please respect copyright.PENANAhOmo5c9w6o
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課,328Please respect copyright.PENANAx3YUxN1wsv
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父親工作的地方不一定,328Please respect copyright.PENANAC2so5gyHVn
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輾轉的換了三所小學,328Please respect copyright.PENANAJk2VO1YjLQ
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲,328Please respect copyright.PENANAADaULZBiha
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他開始會喜怒無常,328Please respect copyright.PENANAhphUJzy3N1
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沒來由的找我發脾氣,328Please respect copyright.PENANA19hqVsVzna
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺,328Please respect copyright.PENANA6xliFt6sv3
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很小我就與異性交往,328Please respect copyright.PENANAmmFPNHLDTf
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親,是一名水電工,328Please respect copyright.PENANAc2YJc4W8Cs
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作,328Please respect copyright.PENANArfVs5HJHFb
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作,328Please respect copyright.PENANAH6DL2lDVJN
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我會睡在工地,328Please respect copyright.PENANAvPacnNoGN9
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩,328Please respect copyright.PENANAhTcUNDSb1d
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業,328Please respect copyright.PENANAcqgHfRrESl
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級,328Please respect copyright.PENANAq8yC33jNt1
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他開始會講貶低的話語,328Please respect copyright.PENANATCu9pWWbNB
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那些原本用來工作的用具,328Please respect copyright.PENANARM0tI1VdXO
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具,328Please respect copyright.PENANAZve4DHONUD
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他會拿著水管說:「你信不信我會打你」328Please respect copyright.PENANAcUuJNQBJbz
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有次,他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我,328Please respect copyright.PENANAxWsU6C3d9W
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課,328Please respect copyright.PENANAUl8ER8QBQs
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要我轉告給老師,328Please respect copyright.PENANACxE1AfzPDf
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電話裡他說:「老師吼?有種你就報警」328Please respect copyright.PENANAndC6XFTbBm
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老師報了警,結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後,我偶爾會逃家,328Please respect copyright.PENANAK3P5vy0ZwY
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班,328Please respect copyright.PENANAbllysl7WfZ
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那樣的對待仍然持續,而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來,328Please respect copyright.PENANAyGxQnJnTzE
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細細去回想每個片段,328Please respect copyright.PENANAcEMoZJz7Q0
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父親,很不容易的照顧了我的起居,328Please respect copyright.PENANAJKXsIpwULz
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩,328Please respect copyright.PENANAce9vETMvCL
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對他一個大男孩很不容易,328Please respect copyright.PENANAXJ0aUv2yJB
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所以他很常說:「我是個意外不該出生」328Please respect copyright.PENANAD4JBRQAH5m
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許,我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒,328Please respect copyright.PENANAspfAi68QqI
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣,328Please respect copyright.PENANAviRsSILg1I
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我打開冰箱,拿出冰牛奶,328Please respect copyright.PENANAJxrC9xgdBD
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐,328Please respect copyright.PENANAwqqEiMBnhM
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點,328Please respect copyright.PENANA3pT25c13a2
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶,328Please respect copyright.PENANAhHxzsAS9Oi
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我喃喃自語到:「好想失憶啊~」328Please respect copyright.PENANAsdvWIxkx7d
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正準備吃下第一口時,328Please respect copyright.PENANAZE32E2xbiM
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞,328Please respect copyright.PENANA61qijGWYuV
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時,回憶到了我國二那年。328Please respect copyright.PENANAqMKIV6txLC