“Lady Hania, a moment if I may,” a deep, rich voice called out from across the great hall.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjoeCy8vrb
I had just finished my breakfast and was now adjourning to the chapel for morning prayers. Clutching my hymn book to my tightening belly, I halted when I saw who spoke. Argath Mercer trotted towards me, tugging a pair of riding gloves over his large hands.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡ98UGxI68F4
People didn't frighten me easily. Most of the time, they were all too easy to solve. Even those who thought themselves mysterious were merely conceited. But Argath Mercer was not like those people. His predatory eyes set me on guard as he approached.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡHadrDoGzFX
I didn't trust him anymore than he trusted me. Neither of us would be considered likable and nor were we much bothered by this fact. Perhaps we were too similar to ever seek common ground.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡNRhb6UJeqb
“Yes, what is it?” I kept my voice indifferent and met his eyes, refusing to show weakness.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzkjgS2m1H
He nodded towards the book. “You are very devoted in your faith. The late mistress of Highfire, Sidimund's mother, you are like her.”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIRFav3Q4J
I smirked, unsure of how to take his statement. “Wasn't she accused of witchcraft and adultery at Primiad?”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡORA63G1MVr
“She was acquitted, of course.” He shrugged, furrowing his brow. “I have heard that we will not only be welcoming one but two of my late master's children into the world come spring.”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡYl0jFgbHDc
“Yes, that is correct. His mistress is with child as well.”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5VgK5LOWQ
“The woman was never publicly recognized by Lord Sidimund though.” He shifted his weight and stared down at me. “Why have you decided to give her the title?”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLI8SLPTyL
I hated being talked down to by those so clearly beneath me. “Squire, I am unsure why you feel you are allowed to ask me these questions? For the time being, I am the Lady of Highfire, wife of your former master and potentially the future bride of his son.”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡlx6lQLC1sf
Argath retreated a step with a flicker of a smile and dip of his head. “I do not wish to offend you-”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRl975fTTc
“Then I suggest you keep your questions to yourself. I have no time for them.” I whipped away.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrXsAPeqJN
“You know I am the bastard of the late Lord Vultuff, I am Sidimund's half brother.”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4khqb32cw
I halted and glanced back at him. “Why was that never said before?”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡirnDAvJPoC
“I was never recognized as you have done for the nursemaid and her child. You are good to give the child a chance for more than just servitude in life.” copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡ184ZBEPP4z
He flashed the first real smile I had seen on him. It was the same alarming charm that Sidimund had possessed, but like Theodric, he hid it just beneath the surface. copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgDXx38B6l
I clutched my book to me. “Perhaps. Good day to you, squire.”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oNv2n0Ldp
The man's unsettling attentions stayed with me even as I entered the chapel. Perhaps the reason why he had disturbed me all along was that he and Sidimund were blood. Argath was certainly more serious than Sidimund but his presence was as commanding. His eyes were as cursed as Theodric's. I feared the sons of Sidimund would look the same when they grew to manhood. If Estra and I were to have any sons.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡofysea740b
I prayed hard for male heirs that day and fasted through the afternoon even though Teàrlag has forbade me to do so. I needed to show my entire devotion to Dylene. Estra found me half awake at the alter by nightfall.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDrhBZlJAr
“You are going to kill yourself, my lady,” she grumbled, helping me from the cold stones and to my feet. “Then where we all be?”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IQTdTgeEu
“I am making sure the doors are opened to us, lighting the path,” I babbled, my head spinning with hunger.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2JcvYmC2m
“Begging your pardon, my lady, but you are being foolish. You need to eat something.”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡOFZgWAghkQ
I did not argue with her. Estra had become more bold with me ever since our agreement. She would never be as confident as Teàrlag but her apprehension around me was fading. I still hadn't decided if that was a good thing.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡJqzzjMtA07
“The men are due back at Highfire within the hour. They are bringing a guest,” Estra whispered in the hall as we entered my solar.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4EaOQGMdiO
Emalia looked up from the hearth where she sat playing with her rag dolls that Cook had made for her. Even with all the lovely gifts her father spoiled her with, Emalia loved the shredded, blank faced babies made from ragged linen and wool. She leaped over to us and reached for Estra's hand, not mine. I was too weak to be bothered by it.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7uznraEJv
“Lady Mother, we have been waiting all day for you. You must be hungry.” Emalia danced over to make me a plate with slices of wheat bread and hard cheese nearby. Pouring me a cup of watered wine, Estra hand it to me with a nod.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtV42fQwQR
After getting something on my stomach and the drink settling my thoughts, I sat back in the chair with a sigh. “What guest?”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVvOJmuvzM
“A man from Primiad, I hear.” Estra leaned forward, “The servants have been gossiping.”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡk8UPIihSW0
I scoffed, “Is that anything new?”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrtjvwzm2q
“It seems he was the one your husband was visiting during those trips to Primiad. A very powerful man, Tulin Odovacar.”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGlIu44YAE
My one regret during my marriage to Sidimund was that I had never swallowed my pride and begged him to take me to Primiad. I much preferred my solitude in the Highfire chapel and my walks around the lake. City life had never appealed to me and the thought of visiting one was dreadful. But now, I wished I could have garnered a better understanding of the politics there. Especially with what Theodric had suggested to me weeks earlier.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVMFLvX2oU
He hadn't spoken of our conversation since it had happened. I had only seen him a handful of times and his behavior was pleasant but distant. I wondered if I had dreamed it all up, his words of treason, usurping Ervig's prince to put a child of mine on the throne.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Mlx5Q4Fd7
“Who is he, this Tulin Odovacar?”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qNq9iveh6
Estra sipped her own glass of wine and called Emalia away from the window. The wind howled with another snow storm that had crept up from the low lands. The men would be frozen to the bone when they arrived. “I would think you'd know the name.”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡS22EINaGQy
“Why?”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTkWrqNv60
“He is your father's second cousin. I hear tell it was his scheming that had you married to Lord Sidimund so soon after-”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbqqCzI8N0
“After my father died.” I finished her sentence with a growl. “I knew a noble from Primiad had something to do with it but was never told his name.”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡeF3hkM4vsU
“Yes, well, he is very rich and very well connected. It was his influence that almost won back the throne to your family line for your father. Of course he lost.”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33Oo0fONLU
I smirked and stretched my aching back in the chair. “You certainly do soak up a lot, don't you?”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡOo6eOJOxSC
Estra nodded as Emalia sat in front of her. Combing her fingers through the little girl's hair, she began to braid it. “I am not on your level but neither am I equal with the servants. Hovering in the middle of the social classes within Highfire, I am nearly invisible. And so, I learn much from sitting in shadows.”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7iBoDns8P
“You are becoming quite a surprising ally,” I commented and Estra beamed.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡncTbAUrpHc
I studied her hands as she folded my daughter's golden curls into a plait. Estra noticed. “Would you like to try, my lady?”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvBqKpazX2
Emalia didn't look at me but clenched her knees to her chest. I knew apprehension when I saw it. My daughter feared me like so many others within Highfire. For the first time, the knowledge of this bit me to the bone. “Yes, if she will have me.”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡcv9u6y8t0h
Emalia obediently scooted towards me but didn't look in my direction. Taking the bone white comb from Estra, I dug the teeth into the thick curls. Her looks were so different from me, she looked more like Estra's daughter than mine. I had been told she took after my husband's mother, the late Lady of Highfire with an explosive reputation. Honey haired and amber eyed with a mouth like a rose bud and a sharp chin, we were as opposite as cream and charcoal.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡjotdA471uO
“Your hair is very lovely, daughter.” I attempted.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOkPf4fpEc
“Thank you, Lady Mother.”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQIClOathb
I tied a strip of cloth around the end of the braid. Emalia hopped up and took a step away from me. She looked towards Estra. “May I be excused to the kitchen?”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBAfOakVcO
Estra glanced over at me, her gaze awkward. “Miss Emalia, you must ask your mother.”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡJqC4gR9vhN
Emalia turned to me and folded her hands at her back. “May I?”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKEqnZfytx
I wet my lips. “Of course-”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡJe8kuWuORH
She darted away, grabbing her rag dolls as she left the rooms. I played with the teeth on the comb in my lap.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡCB8fFo6PUo
“She asks about you often.” Estra broke the silence. “She always wants to go to chapel but I don't want her to disturb you.”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡCD9g4wgj4J
A year ago, I would have agreed with her. I wondered what had happened in such a short amount of time to make me want to take on my role as a mother. It could only be the pregnancy warping my perspective. The thought that I would never be close to my daughter was painful.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOYZ8sVDgN
“Yes, perhaps,” I replied, setting the comb on the table between us.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTps85RfUL
Estra drew breath to speak but the heavy throb of hooves on the snowy cobblestones below drew our attention. Like adolescent girls, we scurried towards the window. Theodric and Argath were already dismounting. Behind them were three more riders, one richly clothed in a gold embroidered cloak.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxoNNtj4Mn
“That must be the man from the city. Only a fool would ride these roads in such expensive clothing. He is practically begging to be robbed,” I snarled.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDbMCkeyXv
“I wonder if he will invite you to speak with him, I can only assume there will be a modest feast with them.”copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡmioLKwQBMK
“Invitation or not, I will have his ear.” I tapped my fingers on the sill as the man dismounted.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqhMd5fw91
After what he had condemned me to in marriage with Sidimund, this Tulin Odovacar owed me that much at least. I would not have Theodric directing both my and my child's destiny. If we were to make a try for the throne, I would have a direct hand in matters or I would refuse to lend my name to it at all.copyright protection314ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXF5JhqXQn
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