“Lady Hania, a moment if I may,” a deep, rich voice called out from across the great hall.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8vFKLwYom
I had just finished my breakfast and was now adjourning to the chapel for morning prayers. Clutching my hymn book to my tightening belly, I halted when I saw who spoke. Argath Mercer trotted towards me, tugging a pair of riding gloves over his large hands.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8W6z7cb6g
People didn't frighten me easily. Most of the time, they were all too easy to solve. Even those who thought themselves mysterious were merely conceited. But Argath Mercer was not like those people. His predatory eyes set me on guard as he approached.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡGymdOA5GYa
I didn't trust him anymore than he trusted me. Neither of us would be considered likable and nor were we much bothered by this fact. Perhaps we were too similar to ever seek common ground.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡuaj0P3Ll2a
“Yes, what is it?” I kept my voice indifferent and met his eyes, refusing to show weakness.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡIsjEyTMK4S
He nodded towards the book. “You are very devoted in your faith. The late mistress of Highfire, Sidimund's mother, you are like her.”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1LrnYfY3VW
I smirked, unsure of how to take his statement. “Wasn't she accused of witchcraft and adultery at Primiad?”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡeq7yqWCciE
“She was acquitted, of course.” He shrugged, furrowing his brow. “I have heard that we will not only be welcoming one but two of my late master's children into the world come spring.”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡm06GFEzspE
“Yes, that is correct. His mistress is with child as well.”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡkqpLOo1MsW
“The woman was never publicly recognized by Lord Sidimund though.” He shifted his weight and stared down at me. “Why have you decided to give her the title?”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡIGnPfNMRZ4
I hated being talked down to by those so clearly beneath me. “Squire, I am unsure why you feel you are allowed to ask me these questions? For the time being, I am the Lady of Highfire, wife of your former master and potentially the future bride of his son.”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡvm5C2LgCdG
Argath retreated a step with a flicker of a smile and dip of his head. “I do not wish to offend you-”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡgy7FkV3lHv
“Then I suggest you keep your questions to yourself. I have no time for them.” I whipped away.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡiqcFfrt2is
“You know I am the bastard of the late Lord Vultuff, I am Sidimund's half brother.”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OPcqSYHub
I halted and glanced back at him. “Why was that never said before?”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKKvq4quq7
“I was never recognized as you have done for the nursemaid and her child. You are good to give the child a chance for more than just servitude in life.” copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0IydoOERQX
He flashed the first real smile I had seen on him. It was the same alarming charm that Sidimund had possessed, but like Theodric, he hid it just beneath the surface. copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXM9ac19Uw
I clutched my book to me. “Perhaps. Good day to you, squire.”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡkih4NH9dcz
The man's unsettling attentions stayed with me even as I entered the chapel. Perhaps the reason why he had disturbed me all along was that he and Sidimund were blood. Argath was certainly more serious than Sidimund but his presence was as commanding. His eyes were as cursed as Theodric's. I feared the sons of Sidimund would look the same when they grew to manhood. If Estra and I were to have any sons.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡlchTpGH4xy
I prayed hard for male heirs that day and fasted through the afternoon even though Teàrlag has forbade me to do so. I needed to show my entire devotion to Dylene. Estra found me half awake at the alter by nightfall.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SwO2G14PV
“You are going to kill yourself, my lady,” she grumbled, helping me from the cold stones and to my feet. “Then where we all be?”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡAaeRf1zofL
“I am making sure the doors are opened to us, lighting the path,” I babbled, my head spinning with hunger.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBYgvoWdsu
“Begging your pardon, my lady, but you are being foolish. You need to eat something.”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvmhjpYktO
I did not argue with her. Estra had become more bold with me ever since our agreement. She would never be as confident as Teàrlag but her apprehension around me was fading. I still hadn't decided if that was a good thing.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3ZuUewuDL
“The men are due back at Highfire within the hour. They are bringing a guest,” Estra whispered in the hall as we entered my solar.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡfCneSSCO55
Emalia looked up from the hearth where she sat playing with her rag dolls that Cook had made for her. Even with all the lovely gifts her father spoiled her with, Emalia loved the shredded, blank faced babies made from ragged linen and wool. She leaped over to us and reached for Estra's hand, not mine. I was too weak to be bothered by it.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQAG8U57fy
“Lady Mother, we have been waiting all day for you. You must be hungry.” Emalia danced over to make me a plate with slices of wheat bread and hard cheese nearby. Pouring me a cup of watered wine, Estra hand it to me with a nod.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwBU0w9x1N
After getting something on my stomach and the drink settling my thoughts, I sat back in the chair with a sigh. “What guest?”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡihpFvhy76D
“A man from Primiad, I hear.” Estra leaned forward, “The servants have been gossiping.”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpuO6CIbKY
I scoffed, “Is that anything new?”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡJFulAvSK2T
“It seems he was the one your husband was visiting during those trips to Primiad. A very powerful man, Tulin Odovacar.”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡylaX1FfzNm
My one regret during my marriage to Sidimund was that I had never swallowed my pride and begged him to take me to Primiad. I much preferred my solitude in the Highfire chapel and my walks around the lake. City life had never appealed to me and the thought of visiting one was dreadful. But now, I wished I could have garnered a better understanding of the politics there. Especially with what Theodric had suggested to me weeks earlier.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1MHPSjx34
He hadn't spoken of our conversation since it had happened. I had only seen him a handful of times and his behavior was pleasant but distant. I wondered if I had dreamed it all up, his words of treason, usurping Ervig's prince to put a child of mine on the throne.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNJ08kv15x
“Who is he, this Tulin Odovacar?”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡUDS5BTLRsy
Estra sipped her own glass of wine and called Emalia away from the window. The wind howled with another snow storm that had crept up from the low lands. The men would be frozen to the bone when they arrived. “I would think you'd know the name.”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFz0mpTGXW
“Why?”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtKutTPZUU
“He is your father's second cousin. I hear tell it was his scheming that had you married to Lord Sidimund so soon after-”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡwPypUajF1M
“After my father died.” I finished her sentence with a growl. “I knew a noble from Primiad had something to do with it but was never told his name.”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡefrNgOd9va
“Yes, well, he is very rich and very well connected. It was his influence that almost won back the throne to your family line for your father. Of course he lost.”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gDQK7KA6E
I smirked and stretched my aching back in the chair. “You certainly do soak up a lot, don't you?”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCt32ndl3f
Estra nodded as Emalia sat in front of her. Combing her fingers through the little girl's hair, she began to braid it. “I am not on your level but neither am I equal with the servants. Hovering in the middle of the social classes within Highfire, I am nearly invisible. And so, I learn much from sitting in shadows.”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7hvz4LniVT
“You are becoming quite a surprising ally,” I commented and Estra beamed.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡs195SUdCuj
I studied her hands as she folded my daughter's golden curls into a plait. Estra noticed. “Would you like to try, my lady?”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZWK3Y8hjb
Emalia didn't look at me but clenched her knees to her chest. I knew apprehension when I saw it. My daughter feared me like so many others within Highfire. For the first time, the knowledge of this bit me to the bone. “Yes, if she will have me.”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrs10xNoPI
Emalia obediently scooted towards me but didn't look in my direction. Taking the bone white comb from Estra, I dug the teeth into the thick curls. Her looks were so different from me, she looked more like Estra's daughter than mine. I had been told she took after my husband's mother, the late Lady of Highfire with an explosive reputation. Honey haired and amber eyed with a mouth like a rose bud and a sharp chin, we were as opposite as cream and charcoal.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhKqnDkAgO
“Your hair is very lovely, daughter.” I attempted.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxOQiROq88
“Thank you, Lady Mother.”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFz4HzCuXr
I tied a strip of cloth around the end of the braid. Emalia hopped up and took a step away from me. She looked towards Estra. “May I be excused to the kitchen?”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡdeJYF6CZHS
Estra glanced over at me, her gaze awkward. “Miss Emalia, you must ask your mother.”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡOCqCsIuh9D
Emalia turned to me and folded her hands at her back. “May I?”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLiZQZzsux
I wet my lips. “Of course-”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIMCGrJjrr
She darted away, grabbing her rag dolls as she left the rooms. I played with the teeth on the comb in my lap.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡbf3BSwkmNt
“She asks about you often.” Estra broke the silence. “She always wants to go to chapel but I don't want her to disturb you.”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdfid5iNxM
A year ago, I would have agreed with her. I wondered what had happened in such a short amount of time to make me want to take on my role as a mother. It could only be the pregnancy warping my perspective. The thought that I would never be close to my daughter was painful.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrv63byNuZ
“Yes, perhaps,” I replied, setting the comb on the table between us.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGfii7PDtC
Estra drew breath to speak but the heavy throb of hooves on the snowy cobblestones below drew our attention. Like adolescent girls, we scurried towards the window. Theodric and Argath were already dismounting. Behind them were three more riders, one richly clothed in a gold embroidered cloak.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tQmL4r4RZ
“That must be the man from the city. Only a fool would ride these roads in such expensive clothing. He is practically begging to be robbed,” I snarled.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbqliuxQh2
“I wonder if he will invite you to speak with him, I can only assume there will be a modest feast with them.”copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxJ5Q1cFEG
“Invitation or not, I will have his ear.” I tapped my fingers on the sill as the man dismounted.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLa98WdA04
After what he had condemned me to in marriage with Sidimund, this Tulin Odovacar owed me that much at least. I would not have Theodric directing both my and my child's destiny. If we were to make a try for the throne, I would have a direct hand in matters or I would refuse to lend my name to it at all.copyright protection174ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRg0cyuKpM
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