Though the chamber we occupied had no windows, I sensed it was dawn when I stirred awake. My son was mewling in the cradle by my bed. Sometime in the night, Emalia had sneaked into the room and fallen asleep next to me. Her curls were splayed across the pillow, her mouth pursed and brow furrowed in some perplexing dream. copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡoMOLOTIcnA
A pang of joy stabbed at my heart that both my children lived and breathed beside me. As a child, I had heard too many tales from my mother of births that had gone terribly wrong. It was Dylene's mercy. Somehow I had even escaped my brother's bear form, Theodric having saved of our lives. copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBu9Ubvqfe
I settled back into the pillows after retrieving my son to nurse him. My hand went to his one foot. I gripped it and bit back fear. We had come this far, I would not let such a thing keep him from his destiny. We would find a way to make it play in our favor.copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3Kt22QqFe
Rustling skirts echoed down the silent hallway outside. I heard Teàrlag's raspy cough, her throat dry from smoking her pipe too often. My heart froze. Éibhear. Surely he was fine, he was a Tormod with the gift of the Changing. copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡI31wOPpw1N
Teàrlag's drawn expression in the doorway told me otherwise, the heavy lines in her ruffled skin somehow deeper after only a few hours. I clutched my baby in one arm and reached out, lighting a hand onto Emalia's downy curls. copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7voCEjO9K3
“If you are well enough, you best come with me, my lady,” she whispered.copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡos68V9bLzQ
Shifting under the sheets, I laid my son back in his cradle. My muscles were loose and unsure as though I had never walked. Just the same, I wrapped a heavy woolen blanket over my fresh nightshift and stepped into my slippers. A raw ache ran up my back but I ignored it. copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0iT1PIRffS
Teàrlag led me down the hallway. We stopped at the bedroom across from the stairs. The door squeaked open. Gray morning light washed over the window panes. Theodric stood next to it, arms tight around his chest as he gnawed on his knuckle. Argath stood at attention next to the bed, his gaze hard in front of him and posture rigid. copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mnqZ2JNbu
The only sound was Estra weeping softly in Abbán's arms on the floor. A bloodied bandage was wrapped around Éibhear's middle, the sheets permeated in red. His face matched the snow outside, beard and ragged hair bright orange. I knew he was dead before anyone said anything. copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzWXIR7TCH
“He passed just as you left the room, Tearlag." Argath didn't look at any of us as he spoke.copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDZCFPlw4A
Teàrlag gripped my hand and we walked together to the death bed. I blinked down at him, clenching my fists. I opened my palm. I hadn't realized I had picked up my prayer pendant out of habit as I had left my room. Leaning over his body, I opened his mouth and placed the pendant under his tongue. Such a boon would surely see him directly into the halls of his ancestors. copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡp6WNxWPhJ0
I met Argath's eyes as I straightened. “What happened?”copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAAHxiyFbb
“It was fast.” Argath's eyes snapped away. “While I was trying to restrain Haneric, Éibhear went into the Changing as he was coming down the stairs. Before he could reach his full stature, Haneric lashed out at him and caught him in the gut with a claw. I didn't even know he was wounded until we had restrained Haneric and we all regained our human forms.”copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUOmxtbS0g
Abbán gripped Estra as she wailed, Argath's fist closing around the hilt of his sword like it was Haneric's neck. Abbán peered up at me, a smear of blood on his throat. “I chained up Haneric and we carried Éibhear here. But there was nothing we could do. The wound was too deep.”copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡspmpcUl1b5
I stumbled back from the bed as the Tormod cousins mourned their fallen kin. Sinking into the seat by the window, I stared blankly out towards the dark forest. Theodric exhaled heavily through his nose and rested his hands on the window sill.copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WFCEdUcT6
“This is all my fault. I knew that Haneric was too far gone to be saved but I couldn't just leave him there to die at your family estate. Not after all he had endured-”copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡng1cCyGOrG
“What he endured?” I hissed, clamping my hands on the black wooden arm rests and leaning forward. “I would take that blade from your hip and go kill him myself right now if I had the strength.”copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4T5rjilFkw
Theodric narrowed his weary eyes at me. “No you wouldn't. Not your own flesh and blood.”copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmtrZ7EUky
“By the lives of my children, I would. He threatened me and mine, my son before he was even born. I would kill him right now.” copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HO1UrAAg1
My vision blurred with exertion and I fell backwards into the seat, chest heaving. I was all raw nerves and veins bulging. Anger filled me like a tonic, fueled by the wails behind me. A murderer twice over, no one needed to tell me. Haneric killed both Éibhear and Brisam. Two men whose worth was three times that of my useless, little brother.copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡglVmMeE8UY
Theodric knelt in front of me, gathering my trembling hands. “Do you know how Haneric came to be that beast?”copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFl96kgLeA
I swallowed hard and looked away, narrowing my gaze at the floor. I didn't want to hear. I didn't want excuses, I wanted justice. But curiosity led me to listen just the same.copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡjei8gczQMP
“Your father was killed on a hunt, correct?”copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3aMpX135W
My gaze ripped back to his face. “Yes.”copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LBnUIHbuW
“I was with him when he died. It was the same day I came under the curse of a mercenary Tormod shaman.”copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOa4Wqhwg4
The body of my father was brought back to Ignit Covert covered in a bloodied horse blanket. A hand had fallen into sight, blue with severed veins as futile as unearthed roots. copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡl87wVwuWAA
“Shredded to pieces by a beast,” I breathed.copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDlv0gdIrH
“That beast...it was me,” Theodric's voice cracked. “We were seperated from the main group of nobles hunting stags that day. The shaman found us. We later found out was employed by the Vittamars, seeking to put a stop to your father's claim to the throne once and for all. The shaman set his curse on your father's seed, any son in his line would experience the Changing. For our people, without the knowledge of the Tormod's, this is a death sentence. I shot an arrow at the man and missed. I don't know how, perhaps the breeze-”copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdvPisfzYw
“And that is when you were cursed as well.”copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkELRAilxT
“Yes. Unlike your father, however, I was the one under the curse. One moment I was a man and the next, a bear. I don't know what happened but I woke up naked and being carried by Sidimund to a litter. I was covered in blood. I later was told it was your father's.” Theodric gripped my hands tighter but I didn't notice. I was numb, a harsh rushing in my ears and body shaking violently. “When you experience the Changing without a guide like Argath to aid you, you are powerless. It consumes you and you have no memory of what happened. Slowly it drives you mad. Your mother spent years trying to rein in your brother, spending money like mad to cure him. We didn't know until Haneric told us himself when he came here.”copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqwiVxy9fZ
The money my mother begged from my husband. It hadn't been for gambling. She had spent it trying to find a way to break the curse over her son. And drank to drown the hopelessness of the situation. I pulled my hands from him and laid my face in my palms.copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUcmJvPZ4N
“I thought- I hoped I could help him here. But he proved to far gone.”copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡvI8auZKNlh
I sniffed hard, rubbing my forehead. “What do we do with him? He is a danger to himself and others.”copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡGhIczDK7MZ
“I think last night finally broke him. He isn't making any sense down in the dungeon.”copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DUk0DPQCU
“So what are you saying? He'll stay here?”copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8CLj7L3U6
Theodric shook his head with a groan. “I don't know what else to do but keep him down there. We can make it as comfortable for him as possible.”copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡlAn4NXHx5u
“And he'll live out his days an insane prisoner?” I rose to my feet. “Wouldn't it be best to kill him? Show him mercy?”copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡxc8rw95lZI
Theodric stood and turned back to the window. A rose colored dawn spread out over the spiny trees. He sighed. “I cannot kill another member of your family.”copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡfDQSp9ZadU
I wobbled on my feet, massaging my temples. It was all too much to grasp especially after the night I had experienced. My mind reeled, trying to configure logical outcomes for my brother. I had no luck.copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzvEDiClQH
“I will do it then.”copyright protection241ＰＥＮＡＮＡQoTYQq8VM8
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