I ran a bath with some lavender oil and took some aspirin placing my pager on a chair by the tub I quickly slipped out of my clothing hanging them neatly over the clothing hamper and slipped into the water. The warm water soothing I closing my eyes and sighed, as the water soothed my aches once again my mind went over what could happen if perhaps they find out about him.
My mind took me to places I didn't like and so I hurried out of the water. I reached for my thick fuzzy bath robe pulling it on and tying it loosely in front of me, I then reach for my pager and turn towards the mirror I slipped the pager in my pocket and picked up my hair brush. I begin to pull it through my hair in long even strokes and my vision begins to blur.
After brushing out my hair I put the brush down up and turned to pull out another uniform, placeing it neatly on the cedar chest at the foot of my bed, I would be ready if I was somehow paged that night. I sat down on the bed and looked at the alarm clock; it was 9:45 pm I lay down staring at the ceiling and closed my eyes bidding sleep to come.
Later on that night, as I sliped into a happy little dream world, my mind was drawn into a dream that much resembles the lovely evening spent in Paris. Octavian is dressed in a simple maroon sweater and black pants, sitting on top of the picnic table that we had eaten at the night before. "Good evening Stephanie..." I was instantly flooded with a tumult of emotions and uncertain of how to handle them all I replied simply and quietly almost a whisper.. "Octavian" 222Please respect copyright.PENANAf7ObdSfUoR
"I've surprised you haven't I?" He moved and extended his hand out to me, waiting for my hand to help me to come sit up on the table next to him. "I can leave if you so wish it.." I had been pacing nervous like looking at him briefly as I spoke. "What I want, What should be, and what most likely will be, are all different things Octavian." He arches a brow very slightly as he moves, pulling his hand back and folding his hands in his lap. "Well, perhaps if you tell me what you want... what you think should be.. and what will probably be... perhaps we can find a way to make all three of these ideals into one working order"
I looked at him her cheeks kinda white and then looked away knowing if i looked at him too much I would either cry or cave and not be strong enough to talk to him rationally. I briefly remembered my dream of searching for a silk nightgown in my fuzzy robe. I closes my eyes and imagines myself in my EMT uniform. My hair tightly pulled back in a bun and I felt with my would be armor I was better equipped to tackle any task. Without turning around I spoke. "What I want is something even I am afraid to put to words, What should be is you should not be with me ever again. What most likely will be is that because of me you may be harmed and I would.. don't want to think of you being harmed because of me and my stupidity." 222Please respect copyright.PENANAb5hvKuHXup
Octavian watches as I changed my clothing into my uniform, and he listens quietly to what I had to say. He sighed slightly and shook his head. "Well, it does seem that there is a bit of a problem. So, why do you believe that I should never be with you again, or that I will be harmed because of you?" I looked at him like he might possibly be a little crazy, how could he not know? I took a deep breath, fine if he wanted me to explain it, "a bit.. a bit of a problem.." I rolled my eyes at this and sighed, "That's an understatement." I was slowly walking closer to him, "Octavian, I text-ed Kayla that," I could feel myself blushing slightly, "I had had such a wonderful time last night." my face had to have had a near dream like look, "I really want to shout it from the rooftops... but in the light of day I have come to realize I am a liability to you." I paused for emphasis, "They are trying to hunt you .. they would hurt you if they could, " I was standing in-front of him now. I was slightly nervous that he would see my eyes looked confused and sad and even I didn't notice my hands were fidgety, but he did. "They may even use me to hurt you, and I am not strong enough to stop them or to protect you." I sighed and looked down at my feet. "I don't lie very well, though I am sometimes good at telling when others lie but even then its mostly medically related. You deserve someone stronge, someone who can be your equil". I looked up at him, "You really do deserve someone stronger Octavian." He listens very intently to my rambling, and when you step in front of him, he moves and reaches out his hands to enfold them gently in his, holding them he listened without interruption. A faint smile comes to his lips as he moves lifting a hand under my chin, turning my eyes to his as he finally spoke. 222Please respect copyright.PENANAA0O0OfHtqL
"Such a wonderful time you couldn't help but tell anyone.. I'm flattered." He gave me a little bit of a smile and a wink. "However, the geas has not been broken, which means that you did not tell your friend Kayla who it was. I don't want you to have to lie about things, your honesty and integrity are certainly two of your most admirable qualities. Surely, you don't think one little slip to your friend is going to bring me in absolute harms way do you?" He paused and I thought about it briefly before he moved on. "Look, you haven't revealed that it was me who you went on the date with... it's fine. I can give you another name that you can call me, a name by which you can use with your friends if you would like.. " He leans over and whispers in my ear softly, "Perhaps a secret code name, after all, you're the one who says a woman needs her secrets..." He comes back and leans his head against my own forehead. "I am aware of the risks that I am taking by courting you. I don't need someone stronger. I am strong enough to take care of myself. What I need is a person like you, with your heart, and your compassion." As he turned my eyes to his he could see that mine are sad and close to tears. I couldn't help but blush as he told me that he's flattered and when he leaned in to whisper in my ear I tried not to let it effect me and closed my eyes and as he laid his head against mine I gave a tiny whimper and bit my lower lip. I listened to all he said. "Like Sam's wife I am not all that able to do much. Do you not see that it would nigh unto kill me, if they were to use me to get to you and then hurt you." He moved swiftly and wrapped his arms around me as I leaned into him, resting his head against mine he spoke softly. 222Please respect copyright.PENANAAPCfWzkuYr
"My dear, you are no ordinary sleeper. You are one of the awakened. You are not as weak as you think you are. Yes, you are new to this world, but weak you are not. And if someone tries to hurt you, or use you to get to me..."his arms tightened about me, "they better hope to whatever gods they pray to that I do not find them. While I detest violence, there are certainly... non violent ways to make someone regret such vile actions.." As he wraps his arms around me I slipped mine around him in return and it felt comforting. He could tell I was still shaking slightly. I sighed and listened to him before replying. "why is it Octavian .. that you know all the right things to say to alleviate my fears and make me feel better?" At my 5'6" I leaned my head against his shoulder and absently slipe one of my hands up to rest on his chest and sighed softly. "I like this I just wish it wasn't only in a dream." He just held onto me and covered my hand on his chest with one of his own, though I could feel the slight chuckle as it rumbled deep in his chest. "Umm... I was born a woman... Octavian is my post-op name.." After he says it he actually laughs a bit out-loud, hoping that the joke will lighten the mood. "Soon my dear, I will hold you again in real life.. but if you'd like.. I can make sure you remember this dream.." I noded against him and said softly "I would like that very much" 222Please respect copyright.PENANA9v4cxpwckA
"Very well then.. I'll make it so you remember this as a lucid dream my dear..." He grined a little and moved his hand, and I saw the EMT outfit change into a much more fetching long deep purple dress, with long sleeves. "There, far more fetching for a woman of your beauty." No longer in uniform I feelt a bit uncertain and unsure of myself I looked up at him and gave a nervous half laugh. I whispered... "I am amazed at how brave you are." I leaned up and brushed a quick kiss against his lips, and leaned back to smile softly up at him. "Thank you Octavian.. Had I been on a mountain I would have wanted to shout it from there." I blushed deply but didn't look away, "I relay did have a grand time. One thing ... The other name .. Octavian .. that I may call you. I do not want to forget that either. I never want to forget anything you tell me or that we share, in my dreams Octavian... It only helps to make me feel uncertain, can you understand?"
He just smiled, and chuckled when I say that he is brave. "I'm hardly brave, I am just stubborn, and when I set my mind to something I want, I am determined to make it happen." He returned the kiss I could feel my lipstingle. He moved, taking my hands and in a seemingly effIrtless move, he lifted me up to sit on the picnic table next to him, placing his arm around me protectively. "Of course, I will make it so you remember all of our dreams together. And just, call me, Dorian Grey." 222Please respect copyright.PENANANIKu6M61Fe