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今天是一個微熱的冬天。太陽的光線很和暖，暖得灑在皮膚上顯得有點微燙。剛剛踏入這cafe的人，是一個曬成小麥膚色、挷著馬尾、素顏的年輕女生，她穿著薄薄的白色毛衣和格子百摺裙。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWgoA0AHmA
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她是屬於夏季的，氣息飄散著青春，但眼神帶點神秘，像是一片寧靜讓人無法探究的藍海。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnk67rNljTi
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cafe的女主人——家敏是這樣猜想這位今天第一個踏入的客人。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7SCUlyystw
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這女生叫阿初。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOTNxFXXCc
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「HI!你好。」阿初爽快地和家敏打招呼，露出潔白的牙齒。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxtJom7nQ9
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「HI!想點些什麼嗎？」說畢，家敏覺得自己有點笨笨的，客人才剛踏進，餐牌都還沒看，怎會知道自己想要什麼。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCf24WWKmi
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「我先看看餐牌。」阿初笑笑，轉身徑自放下紅色背包坐下。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvgcBbl7we
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阿初最後點了一杯冰玫瑰梳打，就這樣靜靜地發呆。cafe播放著輕快的JAZZ音樂。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXV9OymKy1
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阿初是大學四年級的媒體系學生，今學期她想製作一個以咖啡店為主題的故事短片。其實她還沒有什麼想法，她還在尋找靈感的階段。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtnot8N5gzy
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不知不覺，阿初在心中幻想她是這間cafe的老闆娘。她就這樣站在櫃檯的位置，每一天都被動看著形形色色的客人人來人往，雖然她是老闆，卻無法控制、預料進來的客人會是誰，可能會有可愛的人，或是態度差勁的消費者。她不會了解到有什麼人會闖進自己的空間裡。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXofzGtKl3j
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就在這時，有一個穿著黑毛衣的女生走了進來。她一進來就對著家敏臭臉，怒氣沖沖地點了外賣烤三文治，馬上又別過臉生氣地來背對著家敏。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQ9zzYcUig
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阿初覺得這女生好奇怪，好矛盾，好可笑。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3LdrT1dIgG
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但家敏從頭到尾都只維持平靜的臉，一副無所謂的模樣。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZM6O2GDDn
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阿初思緒飛快地抽離目前的境況，她幻想著，如果剛才她是這位老闆，她看到自己踏進來的一刻，她會覺得自己是一個怎麼樣的客人？419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNN2cQN3uD3
她走出cafe後，這位老闆會對自己留有印象嗎？419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3FfkbBBIH7
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她這個人對於這間cafe來說，只是一個來歷不明的陌生人，只有她知道自己是誰而已。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2lBjff9MH
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隨著客人離去打開店門發出的鈴鐺聲，阿初返回現實空間裡，而臭臉的客人已不在。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡek9L6Lm1sR
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阿初低頭望一下手錶，她知道自己上課快遲到了，她飛快地結帳離開，也留下一串鈴鐺聲。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3PR8bVGeZ
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第二天，阿初選了另一間cafe光顧。這是她特意上網花時間搜尋的，她看到這間cafe有好多好評，而且還有蠻多雜誌刊登過它的報道，既然她拿不定主意，就交給他人的意見幫她抉擇。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzJdMzZRp1K
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這間cafe以黑白為主要色調，感覺較冰冷，對比的顏色具有張力，待在這裡，阿初覺得整個人不太自在，不像Soulmate cafe以木製桌椅為主，桌上也放著小植物，阿初較喜歡木頭那種令人心境平和的感覺。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwGeji7NdDm
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阿初不自覺把兩間cafe比較起來。其實兩間cafe都各有特色，沒有誰比誰好，只有合不合適自己罷了。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2eS1TPjuUE
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她只知道她不喜歡這間黑白cafe。那到底她想尋找一間怎麼樣的cafe作為功課的靈感呢？她好像還是不太清楚。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2T3PcrTSEH
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第三天，阿初來到一間也是以木頭裝潢為主的cafe，水吧檯旁邊放了好多粉色系的花草，地上鋪滿不同印花的階磚，椅子上也掛上天藍色的格子布作裝飾，感覺跟Soulmate cafe有一點點像，卻多了好多少女風的氛圍。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkv6C98Y9eH
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這裡連餐飲也只有玫瑰口味的飲料，阿初又是點了一杯冰玫瑰梳打，喝時也想起Soulmate cafe來。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM974MnQA1w
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這cafe的老闆是個中年男人，樣子蠻帥的，但身形粗獷，穿著簡單的黑色上衣與破洞牛仔褲，行為舉止也很大刺刺的，與這間店的氣質不太相符。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCjimjGz4C
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阿初主動走上前跟男老闆聊天，她對他沒有產生什麼情愫方面的好感，她只是好奇他一個這麼MAN的男人，為何會開一間這麼女生感覺的cafe。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡahq9d4jihp
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男老闆聽畢只毫不掩飾地大笑了兩聲：「這問題有好多人問過我，這個問題背後只突顯了發問者背後的思想框架。我能說的，就是我只是做我自己而已，沒什麼特別的。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWiqatfZtbF
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阿初徑自發問另一個問題：「那你會擔心遇到自己不喜歡，或是不滿意自己的客人進來嗎？」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4EZqBmsqZ
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男老闆認真的回應：「知道自己是誰，心夠強大，就能勇敢面對，不會輕易給別人拉扯。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCkZebU603
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阿初其實聽不明白老闆的這番話與她的問題有何關係。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqZdywaKIu
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第十二天。阿初每天都去不同的cafe流連，沒有一間是重複的。直到今天，她想重回Soulmate cafe。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ41xRWa5w1
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天氣有點變冷了，家敏覺得今天終於有點寒冬的氣息了，而在這個與冬天相符的日子裡，她又遇到那個屬於夏天的女生。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrDrcYjKnm
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阿初今天多加了一件淺灰色的大外套，仍舊挷著馬尾。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFn3Xu3axS
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阿初看到桌上放著一個聖誕雪球，雪球裡面飄雪紛飛，看得阿初有點入迷，當她觸摸著雪球的玻璃時，她想起來一個她曾交往三年的舊男友。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUbgON4qaK
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那時，每個星期男生都會帶她去不同的cafe，阿初沒有跟他說過，其實她並不喜歡吃cafe那些精緻卻不滿足的餐點。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKHfOQbQ4a
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男生喜歡夏天的熾熱，喜歡去天氣炎熱的沙灘島嶼度假，阿初也從沒跟他表示過，其實她喜歡冬天，喜歡寒冷，喜歡下雪的地方。她想被潔白的雪深深包圍。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKT3ypW7LgH
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男生一直以為阿初喜歡天藍色，因為自從他送過她一個天藍色的手繩後，阿初就開始挑選天藍色的東西來買。直到後來，男生才發現阿初最喜歡的顏色是白色。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAraU7l9vR3
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阿初從來沒有發現自己的勉強配合，她一直都習慣了這樣淹沒自己……419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuWUVIR5ubU
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最後，男生在分手時，不溫不忟跟阿初說：「妳就是不肯讓人了解妳，不肯接納自己的個性與渴望，只在討好別人換取愛。這讓妳嚇跑了不少人，包括我也會這樣逃跑吧。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBSnr9HcIP
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當下阿初聽到他這樣說，也只是細聲「喔」了一聲而已，不知道是認同，還是滿不在乎的。但她就當回應了他的揭穿，和完成最後的句號。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdFNjClrwF
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在Soulmate cafe裡，阿初閉上眼，雙手掩臉，她雙眼感受到手指的溫暖。直到她再張開眼時，她看見這間cafe的天花下起雪來。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrnPIrQ7WR4
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整間cafe都飄起半透明狀的點點雪花，好迷幻，但這雪好像只有阿初看到而已，或許也只需要她一人看到就好，那只屬於她一個人的渴望。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHd4FgUyxVb
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她的頭髮、肩膀、眼睫毛、手指都沾上沒有溫度的雪。其中一片雪花，緩緩降落在阿初的手中慢慢溶化……419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQIbBlNxXu
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阿初決定了，她要握起手心來，捉緊……419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQwnVP5ubR
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也許SOULMATE 不一定要是他人，也可以是自己與自己的一場認識。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhtglQysrG
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