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今天是一個微熱的冬天。太陽的光線很和暖,暖得灑在皮膚上顯得有點微燙。剛剛踏入這cafe的人,是一個曬成小麥膚色、挷著馬尾、素顏的年輕女生,她穿著薄薄的白色毛衣和格子百摺裙。207Please respect copyright.PENANAH37AQAtzOr
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她是屬於夏季的,氣息飄散著青春,但眼神帶點神秘,像是一片寧靜讓人無法探究的藍海。207Please respect copyright.PENANA9YBGVwbIHQ
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cafe的女主人——家敏是這樣猜想這位今天第一個踏入的客人。207Please respect copyright.PENANANUnzF3wUCB
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這女生叫阿初。207Please respect copyright.PENANA09hxVWvQWJ
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「HI!你好。」阿初爽快地和家敏打招呼,露出潔白的牙齒。207Please respect copyright.PENANA6U3Dbx2rNJ
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「HI!想點些什麼嗎?」說畢,家敏覺得自己有點笨笨的,客人才剛踏進,餐牌都還沒看,怎會知道自己想要什麼。207Please respect copyright.PENANAr6hl0HW0JQ
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「我先看看餐牌。」阿初笑笑,轉身徑自放下紅色背包坐下。207Please respect copyright.PENANAsG6eTTHsrE
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阿初最後點了一杯冰玫瑰梳打,就這樣靜靜地發呆。cafe播放著輕快的JAZZ音樂。207Please respect copyright.PENANAQlfyz6pn3N
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阿初是大學四年級的媒體系學生,今學期她想製作一個以咖啡店為主題的故事短片。其實她還沒有什麼想法,她還在尋找靈感的階段。207Please respect copyright.PENANASsrkkk8RKV
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不知不覺,阿初在心中幻想她是這間cafe的老闆娘。她就這樣站在櫃檯的位置,每一天都被動看著形形色色的客人人來人往,雖然她是老闆,卻無法控制、預料進來的客人會是誰,可能會有可愛的人,或是態度差勁的消費者。她不會了解到有什麼人會闖進自己的空間裡。207Please respect copyright.PENANA4vmJmJVeP7
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就在這時,有一個穿著黑毛衣的女生走了進來。她一進來就對著家敏臭臉,怒氣沖沖地點了外賣烤三文治,馬上又別過臉生氣地來背對著家敏。207Please respect copyright.PENANA1vp8k9Wx9l
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阿初覺得這女生好奇怪,好矛盾,好可笑。207Please respect copyright.PENANAgCstkmarxx
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但家敏從頭到尾都只維持平靜的臉,一副無所謂的模樣。207Please respect copyright.PENANAINPRPzJIyU
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阿初思緒飛快地抽離目前的境況,她幻想著,如果剛才她是這位老闆,她看到自己踏進來的一刻,她會覺得自己是一個怎麼樣的客人?207Please respect copyright.PENANAAlemv0LJcU
她走出cafe後,這位老闆會對自己留有印象嗎?207Please respect copyright.PENANAPnybdYpXjB
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她這個人對於這間cafe來說,只是一個來歷不明的陌生人,只有她知道自己是誰而已。207Please respect copyright.PENANA9KQGs2iFh7
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隨著客人離去打開店門發出的鈴鐺聲,阿初返回現實空間裡,而臭臉的客人已不在。207Please respect copyright.PENANAlJ9NYfnkqR
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阿初低頭望一下手錶,她知道自己上課快遲到了,她飛快地結帳離開,也留下一串鈴鐺聲。207Please respect copyright.PENANAHUbc1N68wx
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第二天,阿初選了另一間cafe光顧。這是她特意上網花時間搜尋的,她看到這間cafe有好多好評,而且還有蠻多雜誌刊登過它的報道,既然她拿不定主意,就交給他人的意見幫她抉擇。207Please respect copyright.PENANABAnwIyLSce
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這間cafe以黑白為主要色調,感覺較冰冷,對比的顏色具有張力,待在這裡,阿初覺得整個人不太自在,不像Soulmate cafe以木製桌椅為主,桌上也放著小植物,阿初較喜歡木頭那種令人心境平和的感覺。207Please respect copyright.PENANAToqU4iXdhF
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阿初不自覺把兩間cafe比較起來。其實兩間cafe都各有特色,沒有誰比誰好,只有合不合適自己罷了。207Please respect copyright.PENANAparYwmPFDh
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她只知道她不喜歡這間黑白cafe。那到底她想尋找一間怎麼樣的cafe作為功課的靈感呢?她好像還是不太清楚。207Please respect copyright.PENANA8k0HuGu0DP
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第三天,阿初來到一間也是以木頭裝潢為主的cafe,水吧檯旁邊放了好多粉色系的花草,地上鋪滿不同印花的階磚,椅子上也掛上天藍色的格子布作裝飾,感覺跟Soulmate cafe有一點點像,卻多了好多少女風的氛圍。207Please respect copyright.PENANAm5yKrRT9hl
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這裡連餐飲也只有玫瑰口味的飲料,阿初又是點了一杯冰玫瑰梳打,喝時也想起Soulmate cafe來。207Please respect copyright.PENANAqhdFGm8kxu
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這cafe的老闆是個中年男人,樣子蠻帥的,但身形粗獷,穿著簡單的黑色上衣與破洞牛仔褲,行為舉止也很大刺刺的,與這間店的氣質不太相符。207Please respect copyright.PENANAKAafRTih8v
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阿初主動走上前跟男老闆聊天,她對他沒有產生什麼情愫方面的好感,她只是好奇他一個這麼MAN的男人,為何會開一間這麼女生感覺的cafe。207Please respect copyright.PENANAj11rna8hOG
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男老闆聽畢只毫不掩飾地大笑了兩聲:「這問題有好多人問過我,這個問題背後只突顯了發問者背後的思想框架。我能說的,就是我只是做我自己而已,沒什麼特別的。」207Please respect copyright.PENANAccmZAnHfwr
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阿初徑自發問另一個問題:「那你會擔心遇到自己不喜歡,或是不滿意自己的客人進來嗎?」207Please respect copyright.PENANAWZV2Z3nbyK
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男老闆認真的回應:「知道自己是誰,心夠強大,就能勇敢面對,不會輕易給別人拉扯。」207Please respect copyright.PENANAGAkTiagTKC
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阿初其實聽不明白老闆的這番話與她的問題有何關係。207Please respect copyright.PENANA0jZoTNsLrL
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第十二天。阿初每天都去不同的cafe流連,沒有一間是重複的。直到今天,她想重回Soulmate cafe。207Please respect copyright.PENANAxkYHeqMDSR
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天氣有點變冷了,家敏覺得今天終於有點寒冬的氣息了,而在這個與冬天相符的日子裡,她又遇到那個屬於夏天的女生。207Please respect copyright.PENANAf67mLuwbUr
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阿初今天多加了一件淺灰色的大外套,仍舊挷著馬尾。207Please respect copyright.PENANA1Ye2VqrjJz
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阿初看到桌上放著一個聖誕雪球,雪球裡面飄雪紛飛,看得阿初有點入迷,當她觸摸著雪球的玻璃時,她想起來一個她曾交往三年的舊男友。207Please respect copyright.PENANAMSZr4HOcd0
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那時,每個星期男生都會帶她去不同的cafe,阿初沒有跟他說過,其實她並不喜歡吃cafe那些精緻卻不滿足的餐點。207Please respect copyright.PENANAUyXHUqoqeN
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男生喜歡夏天的熾熱,喜歡去天氣炎熱的沙灘島嶼度假,阿初也從沒跟他表示過,其實她喜歡冬天,喜歡寒冷,喜歡下雪的地方。她想被潔白的雪深深包圍。207Please respect copyright.PENANAKtIWcurtJP
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男生一直以為阿初喜歡天藍色,因為自從他送過她一個天藍色的手繩後,阿初就開始挑選天藍色的東西來買。直到後來,男生才發現阿初最喜歡的顏色是白色。207Please respect copyright.PENANAmPcFsE1J3q
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阿初從來沒有發現自己的勉強配合,她一直都習慣了這樣淹沒自己……207Please respect copyright.PENANARMZC8G9HsM
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最後,男生在分手時,不溫不忟跟阿初說:「妳就是不肯讓人了解妳,不肯接納自己的個性與渴望,只在討好別人換取愛。這讓妳嚇跑了不少人,包括我也會這樣逃跑吧。」207Please respect copyright.PENANAVWbKwmx0ee
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當下阿初聽到他這樣說,也只是細聲「喔」了一聲而已,不知道是認同,還是滿不在乎的。但她就當回應了他的揭穿,和完成最後的句號。207Please respect copyright.PENANAmi7gEGO4lo
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在Soulmate cafe裡,阿初閉上眼,雙手掩臉,她雙眼感受到手指的溫暖。直到她再張開眼時,她看見這間cafe的天花下起雪來。207Please respect copyright.PENANAZBwFAzTyOl
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整間cafe都飄起半透明狀的點點雪花,好迷幻,但這雪好像只有阿初看到而已,或許也只需要她一人看到就好,那只屬於她一個人的渴望。207Please respect copyright.PENANAp7vgjM99Zz
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她的頭髮、肩膀、眼睫毛、手指都沾上沒有溫度的雪。其中一片雪花,緩緩降落在阿初的手中慢慢溶化……207Please respect copyright.PENANAZgkzFbB6K1
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阿初決定了,她要握起手心來,捉緊……207Please respect copyright.PENANAADpmUMpUKU
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也許SOULMATE 不一定要是他人,也可以是自己與自己的一場認識。207Please respect copyright.PENANATtBu2yu9A4
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