When I come to think about how things with Damien started it felt a little bit hasty. I was still with Alex when Damien kissed me for the first time. And then I was getting over Alex when I kissed him the night we got together.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Svf7LAFJe
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But then again, my feelings for Damien were always there. It wasn’t something new. He wasn’t just a rebound guy. I was always in love with him. My thoughts were interrupted by a set of lips brushing against my neck.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTAf5A8nRL
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“Jeez!” I jumped up. I was standing in the kitchen, making a pile of plates as I unloaded the washing machine.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVYPcgTqzT
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“Scared you?” Damien chuckled. I nodded and turned around. He leaned down and kissed me; his lips cupping my own.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXUsioclcp
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“Third person in the room!” Max said as he walked passed us. I pulled back and blushed.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zsyw7UUbK
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“We’re leaving anyway,” Damien told him. Cleo walked in the kitchen at the same time.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZPaJKcGrS
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“Wait a little longer, I haven’t finished here,” I told Damien.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwjsl4Jcju
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“I’ll finish up,” Cleo said “There’s nothing left in the living room.” Her voice was all wrong.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpFKIip2kU
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“Are you sure? You sound tired,” I winced. Maybe she was indeed tired.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1uqDrGwey
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“Yes. I’ll unload the washing machine and go to bed. Eliza, the cleaning lady, is coming over tomorrow,” she assured me. “Oh, I got your stuff,” she smiled; it seemed a little bit forced.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgG2rQ2EqV
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“Thanks,” I smiled back and turned towards the dining table that she motioned me towards. “What’s that envelope?” I frowned as I looked over the A4 white envelope that was sitting over my jacket. Damien towered over me.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEuAHnB9TRi
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“Your gift,” she grinned “Open it.” That smile was legitimate and made me feel better.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54EHusaRnI
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“What is it?” I frowned and opened the envelope. Max was there in a second. “Will you back up? Jeez,” I frowned at the Simmons brothers. I teared open the envelope and pulled out a magazine; ELLE magazine. A paper came with it. I burst out laughing and turned to look at her, but both Damien and Max were blocking my view in order to read the paper. “Move away!” I pushed them and almost run to Cleo. I threw my arms around her and hugged her. “You bossy little freak!”529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡca04NNvDn9
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“I have to put some sense of fashion into you! Your initiation is great, but you needed this!” she chuckled for the twenty-four months subscription she bought me.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRy04rAQ83m
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“Can we go now?” Damien asked sounding bored and impatient as I pulled away from Cleo.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3dKwcYR2JQ
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“Don’t push your luck,” I warned him and turned to Cleo again “Thank you,” I smiled at her.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9iQiMLtaB
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“Weird gift,” Max mumbled and made me chuckle.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnIqTzX9k5
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Damien did not waste time once we got inside my renovated garage. As soon as I turned on the air-conditioning and removed my jacket he walked up to me and cupped my cheeks; a sweet smile on his full lips.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbm2w25G29a
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“Had fun tonight?” I asked; enjoying his touch.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrw03cCR4ba
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“Yes,” he nodded smiling and leaned down and kissed me. His hands squished my butt but I stopped him.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4U3nnpDxW
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“I’m not having sex with you,” I mumbled against his lips. He didn’t seem to believe it and kissed me again. This time I pulled away from him. “Going to take a shower before lying down,” I said indifferently.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNJzAUu0jz
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“We’ll see about that,” I heard him mumbling as I took off my heels. I walked into the bathroom and let the water running before pulling down my leggings.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmO14KGlv4w
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“For now, see me closing the door to your face,” I mocked and closed the bathroom door before locking it. I wasn’t really mad at him and I knew that if he came in the shower with me I wouldn’t be able to stop him.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfS6b2xcAe
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He took a shower after me as I wore clean knickers and an oversized jumper that left my right shoulder uncovered. I was sitting on the sofa, surfing the internet when he joined me. He sat on my right side and kissed my shoulder as he put his hand on my thigh; no sign of lust in his moves.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJaFG6kHMH0
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“So, how do you feel?” I smirked mockingly.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygjDL8NCNU
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“You’re twenty-five,” I replied; retaining the smirk on my lips. Damien chuckled. “You’re old,” I mocked and he lunched himself at me causing me to laugh. I always enjoyed fighting with him; especially after we got together.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqc5y83JJa9
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“Crazy people never get old, ladybug,” he smirked as he pinned me against the sofa cushions. He gripped my wrists and I tried to free myself with no success. He bit his lip as he positioned himself between my legs.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMu8ErYqlIz
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“Go away, I’m still mad at you,” I mumbled; frowning.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBp5g07a3L
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“Can’t do that,” he raised his eyebrows and without a warning he crashed his lips to mine. I parted my lips from the surprise and he found the opportunity to brush my tongue with his. I couldn’t help but kiss him back eagerly. I could feel him growing between my legs and the moisture ruining my clean underwear. I moaned into the kiss and tried to push him back. I was suffocating in that jumper.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhcuOPcLDsP
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“It’s hot,” I mumbled and he relaxed a bit. “Do something useful while you’re there,” I mocked as he sat up on his knees. I pulled the jumper up to my breasts and he helped me remove it.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWAZpNJKZZ
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“I thought you said you won’t be having sex with me,” he smirked. I sat up quickly and got up.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYeQUtCM6N
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“I won’t,” I confirmed and got into my bed. He chuckled and followed me. I didn’t resist as he lightly pushed me back to the mattress and climbed on top of me. “And I’m not helping you with that either,” I raised my eyebrows referring to his erection.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV08XXcHiUC
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“Baby, we will have sex,” he said; a dangerous smile on his lips. I narrowed my eyes and pushed him away. I tried to avoid looking at his eyes. Those grey orbs were dangerous; I could lose myself in there. Not that kissing him was easier. That’s why when he leaned down and kissed me, forcing his tongue into my mouth, I kissed him back. I couldn’t help it. And he knew it.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGpnY1ZGUZT
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He pinned my hands against the mattress over my head with one hand and moved down to my neck. I moaned lightly at his every touch.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBHgnOgfKP
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“Go away,” I mumbled but it was muffled by a moan as he sucked in my nipple. My body ached for him.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZigvnOpq8
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“I love how responsive you are,” he said. His voice wasn’t the typical hoarse tone; I could hear his lust into every word. I knew I was hopeless as he pushed my underwear to the side and brushed his fingers over my wetness.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNzpWGdMUp1
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“It’s the hormones,” I explained flatly “I won’t have sex-” but as two long digits entered my wet folds I gasped and forgot how to speak.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhaePTTl8ml
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“You know you want me,” he smirked as his fingers moved in and out of me causing me to moan. He moved up to my ear, his fingers never stop moving. “Admit it Erica,” he whispered against my ear “You want me inside of you.”529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwwy1bj6Yfy
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“Oh God,” I moaned as his fingers moved to my clit. I couldn’t say no to him. But I would. This game was fun. “Go away,” I breathed firmly, my eyes snapping open.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclsng7QXrl
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“No,” he said and we stared each other for a moment. He removed his hand from my wrists and cupped my jaw; forcing his lips to mine. He then moved to my ear for a second; his retrieving his fingers from between my legs. “If you really want me to stop, say something irrelevant and -” he said; his voice soft and gentle.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCz76lhdLD
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“I’m fine baby,” I assured him and he kissed my temple before pulling back. He took advantage of the little pause to grab a condom from the drawer and removed both of our underwear. I was putting all my strength to my thighs trying to keep my legs closed as he put the condom on.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzs9T2qvtO
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“One and half week, damn it!” I groaned. Damien chuckled. He knew he had won this already. He managed to part my legs and positioned himself between them.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXUoLAnm7u
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“You know,” he mumbled and kissed my lower stomach “You want me,” he said as he kissed my belly and moved up to my lips. Before I ever had time to think, he pushed inside of me. I released a loud moan, my fingers clutching his back as his long and thick erection filled and stretched my depths.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSnrABgQfDE
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He grabbed my hands and pinned them against the mattress before he drove into me again and rocked my body with each pounding thrust, and my grunts and gasps chorused the slicksounds our bodies made sliding against each other.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLrERvfUUX
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“Yes, Damien,” I mumbled.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquYviBdgrB
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“I told you, you wanted me,” he said between moans. My fingers were clutching thin air as he held them down. I wanted to wrap them tightly around him. I arched my back, colliding my body to his and he released my hands, putting his against my sides; his grip tight.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBruHBZVC4
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As I felt him throb and pulse and begin to explode inside of me, I squished his back, pulling him towards me. His body swayed and his groans seared my mind. It added fuel to my fire and my sweaty body suddenly shuddered and convulsed. My vision went white and I came hard, clinging to him with every muscle in my body, I trembled and spasmed hard in his arms.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckgecvk7YF
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I was gasping for air, my body and mind dizzy and not quite back to myself as he collapsed on top of me. It took me a few moments of lying there, breathing and assessing tender places, to gather my strength enough to collect my thoughts.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhVmvBv0Wr3
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“Damn it,” I mumbled “I hate you,” I groaned. Damien chuckled against my chest; vibrating my body as well. “I can’t stay mad at you,” I complained.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYGHu4ci7T
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“You can’t stay mad at anyone baby,” he laughed and pulled his head up to look at me; his grey eyes were darker around the edges.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHBtFTMqMO
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“Kiss me,” I mumbled and cupped his unshaved cheeks. He leaned over me; touching his lips softly to mine. I tightened my walls around him and he groaned against my mouth. He pulled back after a moment and he left the bed to go to the bathroom.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN3I0eQcRbb
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He reentered the room and went to the coffee table. I saw his naked figure leaning there and taking something. He lid up a cigarette and came to bed. I couldn’t help but smile as he walked back to me. He was gorgeous; wide shoulders and muscles flexed as he moved. We’ve been together for a month and I still couldn’t believe that we’re finally together; that I have him to myself.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡceGpqeDBzQ
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“What?” he grinned; the cigarette hanging from his lips. I’m going to die.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHPgHx0CXk
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“Sometimes I wish you would stop smoking,” I smiled as he sat down on the bed. I shifted and turned to my side “But then you look so ridiculously hot with that death stick between your lips,” I sighed. Damien chuckled and pulled me into his arms. I curled up to him, my head against the crook of his neck. My fingers were tracing the scanty hair on his chest while he turned his face the other way everytime he breathed out the smoke. I was almost asleep when I heard him speak.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHyREA7suW
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“You guys weren’t five,” he said.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbO5wI97jpZ
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“Hmm?” I mumbled confused.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVMCRLzRMm
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“I was eleven years old,” he said thoughtfully “So that makes you four,” he continued and I was listening still confused “Max just discovered how to torture you. Every time I was pulling you away from him, you would hug me and call me your superman,” he said and I chuckled now understanding what he was talking about. “And once, when you were five,” he chuckled “you told me not to grow up so that you could marry me,” he said and I could hear his grin.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP37vh1WCHB
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“You were always my superman,” I mumbled and kissed his chest. “Though superman wasn’t torturing the people he saved,” I frowned.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRu2BpTZVvs
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“It was fun,” he chuckled lightly and kissed my forehead. “It still is,” he smiled against my skin. The memory he shared send a warm feeling to my heart and I wanted to talk to him so bad. But how? How do you start talking about something like this? What if he felt suffocated?529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ25UcESq9z4
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“Hey, are you okay?” he asked when I didn’t comment back on his joke and I could hear the concern in his voice.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9RBOk6Kuc
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“Yeah,” I breathed out.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5PAcPKorj
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“Come on, you can’t lie to me,” he said and pushed me away lightly so he could see my face. I pulled back from his arms and covered my torso with the covers as I laid on my stomach; leaving just the edge of the sheet over him. Damien sat up against the headboard of the bed; waiting for me to talk. I can do this. But my mouth wasn’t cooperating with my brain.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttmOA445Le
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“Ah,” I groaned and threw my head down to my hands “I can’t do this,” I mumbled, my pulse increasing. He put out the cigarette and turned back to me again.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFP9dsN6eze
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“Erica, what’s wrong?” he whispered and reached out for my hands. He pulled them away from my face and searched for my eyes.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡslGRb5Airp
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“I’m scared,” I breathed. It was the only thought I could voice.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYi0pHgM2i3
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“Of what?” he breathed. He winced as if he thought I was being irrational.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9JwLLqtlt
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“Shit, you’re already losing patience with me,” I winced and turned to the side. I wanted to be alone. He was losing patience and he would leave me. I knew it was a matter of time. I had already turned my back on him and was ready to get up from the bed when he grabbed my wrist.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4oC0hkwSm
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“Don’t move,” he said; that intimidating tone on his voice. It was enough to bring me back from my breakdown. He shifted and pulled me backwards until my bare back was touching his naked chest as he sat me between his legs. “Talk to me, don’t walk away,” he whispered to my ear as he put his arms around me. Tears threatened to run down my cheeks. He covered our bodies with the blankets and held me there tightly against his body; his fingers laced with mine as he had his palm over my hand.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlrOFI3IyVG
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“I want to,” I mumbled “But I’m scared.”529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgXqi74reH
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“But why?” he asked softly “It’s me,” he said and stroked my hand “You have nothing to fear,” he whispered and with one hand he pushed my hair away from my neck and brushed his lips against my skin.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqOF8cFMSm
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“I’m scared of how you’ll react; of what will happen next,” I rumbled.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWdXVuQod6
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“Erica, I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again,” he said squished my body to his “I’m not going anywhere,” he assured me.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpUSchgc4g
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“Is just,” I began and had to swallow the lump in my throat “Things happened too quickly between us,” I mumbled and I heard him exhaling. It almost sounded as relief but I wasn’t sure.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOydflvseN
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“Is that all you’re worrying about?” I guess he didn’t understand my concern.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvsM5YmnIvE
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“I’m scared that it will go away just as quickly,” I said my voice barely audible as I stared at the black and white stripes on the sheets.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGA8zzRGb1
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“I won’t let it if you don’t,” he whispered to me and stroked my skin. It wasn’t a promise like the usual promises that would terrify me. He was only saying that if I don’t let go of what we had, he wouldn’t either.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnjESI0a8s2
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My breathing increased and I could barely keep my tears back. I hated talking about how I felt about him or in general talking about things I’ve kept bottled up. It always made me cry.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhA1cJFEuyt
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I sat up, the covers fell back on the bed as I moved, and put my legs on either side of his waist and my arms around his shoulders to hug him. I kept him tightly against my body as he put his arms around me.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvzWVULwdI
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“I won’t,” I whispered to his ear and kissed his skin. “I thought I was ready to start talking, I have things to tell you, but I-” I mumbled but he interrupted me.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58G1AeKjIL
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“That’s okay, it’s late,” he whispered at me and made me lie down. “Get some sleep and words will find you,” he smiled as he leaned over me and kissed my lips.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTMu3mYY00
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“Don’t be so good to me,” I whispered as I barely managed to control my voice.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJiFaNd0HR
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“Go to sleep,” he said, completely ignoring me and kissed my forehead.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpU8YNHh71
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“Okay,” I smiled a small smile. Damien lied down behind me and put his strong arms around me; pulling me towards his body. “You’re my superman,” I giggled and he chuckled.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3TustxBlla
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I didn’t sleep well. However I didn’t toss and turn because I didn’t want to wake him up. I just lied in his arms enjoying the feeling. He was so beautiful. Damien was everything I ever dreamed of and I was ruining it all with my insecurities. I loved him so much my heart ached.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJJax1F18b
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Several times I caught myself opening my mouth and was about to tell him those three little words but I couldn’t. I couldn’t even say “I love you” to him while he was sleeping. I was terrified.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmhMcUegRj
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How could I explain to him how I felt all those years when I couldn’t even voice it? It was pathetic. I was pathetic.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCufTYYDaNP
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I spend New Year’s Eve with my family and relatives and met with the twins and Damien later on to celebrate, like we did every year. Cleo was keeping her distance from Damien and me during the night. She was a little bit moody every now and then but nothing too serious; towards me at least. I never paid too much attention due to the large amount of vodka I had. But it was registered to my brain; Cleo had a problem with Damien and me being an item.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3EzIFnK89
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Two days afterwards, I was sitting in my place with Max playing cards and watching television. He was the right person to ask about the weird situation. He would say the truth no matter what.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJSy7fYCSbu
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“Dude, what’s up?” he frowned and threw the cards on the table “You’re very distracted.” I took a deep breath and released it.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qgVbOgwbD
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“What’s going on with Cleo?” I winced “I mean, she’s okay with me but she talks a bit weird at Damien,” I explained my question “And she’s also tensed when Damien is near me.”529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtzDRjQItf
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“I thought she would come around by the time you would start worrying for real,” Max sighed and leaned back on the armchair.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeljUs68dYo
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“What do you mean?”529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVWHRE7Bpz
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“You should talk to her about it,” Max winced a bit, feeling uncomfortable talking about it. So something was going on! And Max knew about it.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPJ6YS7X0x
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“Oh yeah! Like we’ve talked about Damien and I when I confessed, right?” I scoffed “She’s ignoring the whole thing! It’s like the big elephant in the room!” I exclaimed. “So tell me what the fuck is going on and I will talk to Cleo, I assure you,” I told him.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLvDmERijL
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“She doesn’t talk to Damien,” Max breathed.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡti37mnqxrZ
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“What do you mean? They talk -” I frowned as the Christmas day came to my mind.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOO24zVNKT1
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“She only talks to him when she has to, like when you’re present,” he said. I was stunned.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzGMQZBAKs
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“Wait,” I put my palm in the air towards him “If something irrelevant to me happened, one of them would have talk to me about it. Since no one of them did, I’m guessing it has something to do with me,” I thought out loud. Max looked at me; a sympathetic look on his face.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDYlfbeQFK
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“I think it’s best if you talk to Cleo,” he suggested.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOCq8QoPKf
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“Yes,” I said and grabbed my phone. She wasn’t talking to her brother? But why? If she didn’t approve, then I guess she wouldn’t have talked to me either. Or she wouldn’t be talking to me at all!529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BVTiixACI
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Max told me he was going to see Lexie and I knew Damien was at work, so I drove to Cleo’s house after I made sure she was home. She was waiting for me in her room. I thought it was best not to burst in there like wanting to kill someone. Therefore, when I arrived I called her, as I always did, to ask her if she wanted something to drink. I took two glasses of juice and walked up the stairs.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡChQRcI2Zko
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“Hello,” I smiled “Here,” I told her and gave her the juice.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXcv8Yq7Qq9
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“Thanks,” she smiled back and took the glass “What’s up? I thought you were going to start revising your first class today,” she asked and pulled her sketches towards her to make me space to seat.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPJYkGgWmx
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“No, no leave them, I’ll seat here,” I told her and sat on her desk chair. “I was,” I replied to her question “But I wanted to ask you something first,” I said and she looked at me sipping my juice. “What happened with Damien?” I asked and she drew a line on the pad she had on her lap. “You’re not talking to him.” It wasn’t a question.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonUXJEbAe8
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“Nothing happened,” she mumbled.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXo9UUSKJy1
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“Yeah, okay!” I nodded mockingly “Cleo, it’s me, remember me? Your best friend?” I raised my eyebrows. She didn’t speak. “I’ve been ignoring the fact that you’re ignoring my relationship. I tried to give you time,” I spoke.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6a4BxMare
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“Is something I have to solve with my brother,” she said, never looking at me.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLBIKNpLiw
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“It has something to do with me though and I don’t like that you two are not talking because of me,” I explained. I hoped she would tell me so we would solve this.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqCEN7q8pk
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“You’re his girlfriend,” she said as she changed the pencil with a color pen.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMsiJJjtz68
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“I was your friend first,” I mumbled “I am your friend,” I frowned.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xM2ik6YXG
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“Okay then! Since you put it that way! I’ll tell you!” she said and looked at me; her tone rose up slightly. I waited. “You’ll get hurt! He’s always between relationships. Never stayed with one girl for too long!” she rumbled on. I felt dizzy.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFLVBf2G8C
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“I know,” I whispered.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEopkPqM6V
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“If you know, what are you doing with him?” she asked and I breathed through my nose trying to keep the tears back. “He’s not for you!” she breathed.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUOBuGO7vWS
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“He is not for me? Or I’m not for him?” I asked; my voice broke at the end. I didn’t want to give her time to respond to my question because I didn’t want to listen to the answer. I was afraid to. “I know I’m not enough for him,” I whispered and got up; the tears blurred my eyes “I’ll never be enough,” I shook my head and opened the door.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdxmZ0pJual
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I heard her calling my name but I didn’t stop. This is what I didn’t want. This is why I kept my feelings to myself for so long. Because I knew I wasn’t enough for him; so why really bother?529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuvmKAqaS9
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I didn’t understand why she was talking to me and not to him. But it didn’t matter anymore. I didn’t want to be in the middle of them! No matter what the reason was, they were brother and sister; they should support each other.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4yTwGaNmX
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I couldn’t be in the middle. I would never be the girl that made him choose his girlfriend over his sister. Ever! I couldn’t bear to do that. She is my best friend and I love her, I would never take her brother away from her. Even if it was her choice not to talk to him; I was the reason and I hated it.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DLw4lKJSI
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I entered my house and sat in my parent’s kitchen. James had left yesterday afternoon to go back to his apartment. Maybe I could visit him, just to be away from all of this for a while. And I knew that underneath it all, the only thing that made me want to run away was that my own best friend didn’t approve me for her brother.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnhH0Wkivd
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“Hey kid,” he greeted on the first ring.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTx0C19htTW
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“Hi,” I breathed.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDM1DQv4gO
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“What’s wrong?”529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDH5fYfG0z
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“Can I come over and stay for a while?” I asked.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxqZjh7sOG
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“Of course, but what happened?” I could hear his frown.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYWuDTgoEA
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“I’ll tell you tonight,” I told him and got up to pack my things. He wasn’t staying too far away. His apartment was one and half hour away but it was too far for him to drive everyday to go to the university. I called mom to let her know that I was visiting James and she of course made me take four tuppers of food.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA1iUW6Rw6p
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I decided to call Damien as well; he had to know I was leaving. He didn’t believe I was fine when I told him. Reasonable since my voice had less color than a black and white film. He only asked me to wait an hour before leaving because he wanted to see me. At first I thought of saying no to him because I didn’t want him to see me like that but my ego didn’t let me decline.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjMvJoyoEzy
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I really wanted to see him. An hour wouldn’t hurt.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFdRC0RGTe
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