I woke up at eleven in the morning, had breakfast and left for home. The drive back was easier, mostly because I was so excited to see Damien after three days.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IgCS7KGCM
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I was planning on going home, do laundry and find Cleo. I wanted to try and talk to her one more time. We were best friends since we were babies, her opinion meant the world to me and I wanted to be clear about that; even if she haven’t contacted me at all since I left town.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEXv6FMManJ
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As soon as I arrived I went towards my parents kitchen; not even bothering going into my garage.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbAw4Vo1rF
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“Hello,” I greeted my mom as I entered the kitchen from the back door.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkhtd8otYt
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“Welcome home baby,” mom replied “How are you?”413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhoxWEoQmQ
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“Fine, you?” I smiled and left my bag on the floor.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBdhScToNw
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“Got dirty clothes?”413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEpmMOz9W3
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“Yup,” I grinned “Why aren’t you at the office?”413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7tSc0M16z
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“Have to visit a client in a bit,” she explained and narrowed her eyes when she noticed I was smiling at her. “Don’t look at me like that, do laundry yourself.”413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZt1XE5wIy
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“Fine,” I groaned and I retrieved my bag before walking towards her. I kissed her cheek as I passed her by and exited the kitchen. I turned right and entered the laundry room. I left the bag on the ground once again and took my mobile out of my back pocket. I dialed Damien’s number and put it on speaker phone. His phone was disconnected. I put the phone back into my pocket thinking he must be at work.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkiqebZL4dF
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After putting all my clothes into the washing machine I sat in the kitchen with my mom until she left for work. I tried calling Damien again and like earlier his phone was disconnected. I sat into my parent’s living room to watch some television, though I should probably be into my garage and try and study.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58OQGWCSyx
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I dialed Max’s number and put the phone on speaker. It took three rings before he picked up.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0b2NqwCKB
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“Hey,” he breathed, sounding weird.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZQFv79SOD
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“Hello to you too,” I frowned a little bit “Are you okay?” I asked referring to his weird greeting.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYnz3vA5zn
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“I’m okay, how are you?” he asked, still sounding weird.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5cejcz5Kp0
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“Fine,” I replied “Where are you? I’m home!” I smiled. He didn’t reply for a moment.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHTTpkWreNL
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“Fuck,” he mumbled “Dude, I’m gonna have to call you back,” he said; the word rushing out of his mouth.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0MoJxgWj8i
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“Okay, don’t be late because I’m so bored!” I replied and hung up. I wanted to call Cleo but something stopped me. So I texted her instead. “I’m back home, if you want a coffee.” I remained on that couch until three o’clock in the afternoon when Max finally called me.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFDJSHFdhG
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“Hey, “ he breathed “Offer still stands?” he asked.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvcTRBNlA0
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“Of course,” I replied “Come over!”413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnoCRNq5vjm
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Max turned up soon afterwards. He said Cleo was trying to finish a project that she working on since I left. She was trying to keep herself occupied as I understood.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgjlQumGPrr
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He told me she had a date with Mike two nights ago and that she looked very optimistic. It looked like Max was trying to avoid mentioning Damien, so I left it at that, doing the very same thing but not really understanding the reason.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwtFFIEouj
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About an hour later, that I still haven’t heard from Damien, my mom returned home. I refused to cook for myself because I was cooking the whole time I was living with James, so her arrival made me extra happy.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcl6ggwbQBm
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I was sitting with Max in the kitchen sofa playing cards until the food was ready. Thankfully mom had prepared the meat and now I only had to wait half an hour until it was grilled. At some point I heard mom talking on the phone, telling someone to bring a soda for us. A while later Evita, the twin’s mother, walked through the kitchen door.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksmvdsvybG
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“Hello guys,” she greeted us “Welcome Erica.”413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xR4UhvYZL
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“Hello Aunt,” I smiled and got up to take the soda that she put on the kitchen counter. “How are you?” I smiled.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYpcl301Lh
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“Here,” my mom said at the same time and left some money on the counter.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrinBHT2DOc
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“Don’t even think about it,” Evita replied to her. “I’m still trying to digest the fact that my baby left again,” she sighed.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡamqVeQBaYL
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“Which baby left?” I frowned with a half smile as I walked towards the cupboard with the glasses. Max was here. Cleo was at home. That only left one person that could leave…413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhStPCursUd
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“Damien,” and a deep sigh escaped her chest the same time the realization hit me. My heart fell. I blinked; staring at the shelves. My chest started going up and down quickly as my heartbeat increased. I swallowed the lump in my throat and took one glass in my hands.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxu9roNxnp
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“Wasn’t he supposed to leave in two weeks?” I asked trying to sound as casual as possible. I took another glass out of the cupboard and opened up the soda bottle.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcR5AOyWlB2
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“Yeah,” Evita said “But he said he got a call this morning at work from some friends and he’s meeting them in Rome before going in Tuscany,” she explained. I felt a strong pain in my chest as I tried to keep the tears back.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN3n21Tm9nk
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“That’s nice,” I noted and put the soda into the fridge; never turning my head towards Evita or my mom. I wanted to keep my expression hidden because I didn’t even know how I looked like.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzjYtgtoaO
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“You kids should go and visit, using those tickets he got you for your birthday,” she suggested as I was walking towards Max.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIZoAgrLaW
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“Maybe after their exams,” my mom spoke. I put the soda on the table in front of Max, never looking at him.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1pMja5Wbpk
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“Yeah, after the exams,” I replied and sat down with my back towards the kitchen. I didn’t care if Max saw me crying, but I didn’t want Evita to see me. I took a deep breath and focused on my cards.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSfwebA5sN
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“Your turn,” I said to Max. He didn’t move for a moment.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMxlCzBDrX
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“Yeah,” he breathed after a while and put a card down. I sipped my soda and took a deep breath. I couldn’t stop staring at my phone. We haven’t even finished the game when I grabbed it from the table and dialed Damien’s number.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZPJct4yJk
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Nothing. His phone was disconnected. My breathing started to increase and I leaned forward, touching my elbows on my knees, as I tried to calm myself down. “Why would he leave like that? Things were fine last night” I was thinking over and over again.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwzDMeyG8f
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My mom approached us then, holding two plates with grilled chicken and left them on the table. I thanked her, not really talking, and pulled the plate in front of me.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQt3ZB26nXD
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Max closed the door behind us as we walked into the renovated garage. I took small steps towards the bed and sat down; my chest aching.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhjLe8KvQ2
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“Did he…” I breathed “Did he really left?” I frowned looking at Max for the first time.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hWn7Pjmkx
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“Fuck,” he mumbled and leaned against the door “You didn’t know. He said everything’s okay,” Max frowned.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTA4JEz4YT
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“When did he say that?” I asked; my voice fainted.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4cnFa6LTr4
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“He woke me up this morning,” Max breathed and took a step from the door “And said he’s leaving. I asked where he’s going because I got confused because I knew he went into the office this morning and he said that he got a call from a friend and that he’s meeting his old buddies in Rome before going up to Tuscany,” Max explained like he knew I needed to hear the story one more time.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLIvZ25ETrj
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He walked towards me as he spoke again “I followed him to the door and I asked if you knew about this,” he said and finally sat down beside me. I swallowed. “He said “everything’s okay kid”, hugged me, hugged Cleo and left,” he breathed.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhosFaS04po
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I couldn’t speak. Everything was fine last night. He was excited that I was finally coming back home. What could possibly change overnight? Or if nothing changed, and everything was okay why he left without calling or texting? Or at least answering his phone?413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR0wZoxtpAf
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“I…” I stuttered “We spoke last night…” I breathed. “I don’t understand,” I whispered and pulled back on the bed, pulling my legs against my chest. Max turned towards me and put his hand on my ankle; stroking my skin with his thumb.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEt9OiRflpT
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“I’ll talk to him. He’ll call sooner or later,” he said.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5tYl89sGux
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“No, no,” I rapidly shook my head.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNB6SrOwMvE
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“Why not?” Max frowned.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ298FCr2LnS
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“Don’t get involved please,” I shook my head again but slowly this time.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HmhFbr6tk
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“I wanna know too,” he blinked.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBv2e8YJgVo
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“Please don’t. For the past two months I’ve been trying to keep this casual, like I wasn’t dating your brother. You getting involved will cancel all that out,” I explained.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObC7bkOepF
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The truth was that I was afraid. I didn’t want him to feel pressure about anything. If his brother got involved he would probably feel pressured and that would pushed him further away from me. If it was possible to be further apart.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwGEEegkdto
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I should have left. I should have taken the chance to go away for university. Then none of this would have happened. Even if I have taken up on Alex’s offer. I wouldn’t have stayed and Alex wouldn’t have broken my heart and most importantly I wouldn’t be around to fall in love with Damien once again.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfAtl5Gt8Tw
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It hurt so badly. What I was feeling now was nothing compared to how I felt when Alex cheated or when we broke up. My heart was shuttered into a million little pieces inside my chest and everytime I had a thought of him it was like those little pieces cut through my flesh; burning my insides and killing me even more in the process.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkloDp9jU0b
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I even made my mother cry when she came to check on me that day. And it hurt more. I was avoiding the mirrors because I didn’t want to see how I looked like. The way I felt was enough.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqZOpv874a
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There were moments that I couldn’t understand why he would leave like this. Moments that I was going insane, running our last conversations over and over and over again into my mind trying to find what went wrong. And I would pick up the phone and dial his number.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡraO8oeK7fj
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He never answered; even if the phone was now working, two days after he left. And why would he? We didn’t belong together. I wasn’t enough. Why would he stay with me? It was a miracle we even had those two months together. I should be happy I had those two months. I should be happy I got to taste his bittersweet lips, stare into his mesmerizing grey eyes. Deep down I was glad I never got to tell him how I really felt because he would probably laugh.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZD8YDja1J
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But what about all those times he held me into his arms and stared into my eyes? The times when he wanted me to say I was his. Why would he do that if he never cared? Or when he assured me that he would never cheat on me. Why would he do that? He knew I hated big words. He knew I hated promises and yet he would say those things.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FCmsJwPTX
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Every time the phone rang my heart fluttered. But it was never him and the soft pain in my chest returned again. Max was calling regularly to check on me; trying to get me out of the house. Cleo had texted me, asking if I was okay but I wasn’t ready for her or the outside world yet.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7zwWXMjZM
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Only the third day I got up from the bed and opened my laptop, trying to slowly have a connection with the outside world. Yesterday and the day before that my mother came home from work to cook and bring me food; that only made me feel more pathetic but I never argued.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTGTi5dBkr
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After I was done eating and I was ready to sit on the couch and ignore the world around me, including my examinations, my phone rang. My heart fluttered but fell when I saw that it wasn’t him. It was Alex. I had completely forgotten about him.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRqzfivnr5
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“Hello,” I answered; my voice completely lifeless.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1K5fndMFph
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“Hello,” he said slowly and I could hear the frown on his features “Are you okay?” he asked, sounding anxious. I breathed sharply.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGJf6DdtJi
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“Yes,” I lied automatically.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoOpzvaEMyO
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“I thought that by now you’d know better than to lie to me, love,” he said softly.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ5JQfiNNU5
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“I’m not in the mood Alex,” I replied; the impatience coloring my voice.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3nGipHEGu
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“I’m coming to pick you up,” he said but by the time I refused he had already hung up the phone.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksHE1B9uLH
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He arrived sooner than expected; right when I was done getting ready. Not that I made an effort. I just put on a pair of jeans and a simple black top. Thankfully it was daytime and I could hide my red puffy eyes under my black sunglasses.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVn9SBYWCWn
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I greeted him heartlessly as I sat beside him in the black Aston Martin. He breathed a greeting back and never spoke again until we were at the mansion.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdgljJIjjq
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“When did you arrived?” I asked as we got out of the car.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJuRpTG7fVB
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“This morning,” he replied as he walked beside me towards the double doors of the entrance. “How did you know?” he smiled.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6RGPuTUwU6
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“You came too fast,” I made an attempt to smile but failed. Smiling felt strange. He looked at me for a moment and then turned around, opening the door and walked inside.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ckcVbrMdc
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I never thought that I could talk to Alex so freely about what I felt. Maybe it was because when we were together it was the only thing I never wanted to do. But I didn’t care anymore. I knew he wouldn’t judge me for having feelings for Damien.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLqmahRPvl
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When, at some point, I burst into tears he pulled me into his arms and held me there. And as he kept me I realized that maybe I shouldn’t have talk to him at all. Three days ago our positions were reversed, maybe it was selfish talking to him; after all he had his own problems to deal with. I pulled back and wiped the tears from my eyes.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9cgPwJ7LZ
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“Are you okay?” he asked softly.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT23Ii3sHZf
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“I’m better, thank you,” I swallowed and pushed my fist against my chest, trying to ease the pain. “How are you?” I looked at him, trying to keep my mind occupied. I saw him looking at my hand that was against my chest before looking at my eyes.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtaQDpL3H1W
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“I’m better too,” he smiled.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡokbhSaGlSo
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“Have you gone to the cemetery?” I asked. He turned forward and looked at the floor, brushing his face with his fingers.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4zGEWEzrl
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“We’re gonna go together,” I told him “I’ll be there with you,” I assured him. He breathed and nodded. “What about your father? Have you talked to him?”413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwieVa6Sn7
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“No,” he said his expression hardening “My father and I don’t talk.”413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6wD7Pof9u
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“Well, he’ll notice when you’re better and everything will be okay,” I told him and took his hand in mine. He turned towards me and looked at me; his brown eyes liquid.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlXTB3LgY3U
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“I admire you for being able to do that,” he mumbled.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡikXVnzn77p
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“Do what?” I blinked.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1cCaR5vML
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“There’s no strength left in me,” I whispered, shaking my head lightly and looked at the floor.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV62SXKgQ4n
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“Hey,” he said and searched for my eyes. I turned to look at him before he spoke again. “You’ll get over this,” he said sounding confident.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjrgWOozv4w
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“I can’t,” I winced and my tears betrayed me once again. I turned my head away from him and tried to wipe the tears away.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrf1y4nT7h
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“Come here,” I heard him saying right before he pulled me to his arms again. He put his palm against the side of my head as my cheek was laying against his collar bone. “Calm down,” he whispered and a déjà vu hit me; Damien holding me as I was crying over Alex. I pulled away abruptly from him as my breathing fastened and the pain in my chest hardened.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9S8swRUdj
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“I’m sorry,” I breathed. Alex looked at me shocked.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpjVelj6gQ
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“What?” he asked confused “About what?” he frowned and I got up.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Q4Ecx24bn
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“It’s my fault. Everything’s my fault,” I mumbled as the air filled my lungs quickly; my chest going up and down rapidly. “Four months ago he was the one holding me,” I begun talking quickly and started hyperventilating “As I was crying over you. Now it’s happening again but in reverse. It’s me. I keep doing this,” I rambled, tears oozing from eyes.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3OdcLQXAy
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I was doing this. Alex was never the right guy for me and maybe neither was Damien. Maybe that’s why it hurt so bad, because I wanted him to be that guy so bad. My chest was going up and down quickly and aching. I didn’t noticed Alex moving, until he was standing in front of me.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAtBIHZpkG
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“Erica, calm down,” he said, putting his palms against my cheeks and looking at me. I bit my bottom lip trying to calm down with no success. Everything was great before he kissed me that day in the swimming pool for the first time. Why would he do that? I was fine before. I was fine just imagining that kiss, imagining him looking into my eyes with care. I was fine before.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLnMJlmueM
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But I was glad I lived it. Grateful that I was free to caress his beautiful face and that I saw the way he looked and smelled after sex. I was thankful even if now my insides were aching and burning like a demon’s flesh that’s being touched by holy water. I breathed out a whimper and put my palm against the center of my chest.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1cEzeHA2br
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“It’s the same thing isn’t?” he asked; looking at me. I just stared at him. “Let’s go,” he said and grabbed my hand.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA5ONW6v14P
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“Where?” I asked breathlessly.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLr6Aq0aoST
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“To the hospital,” he said; his voice colored with his intimidating tone.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rgPF9ttCT
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The ride towards the hospital helped a little bit, mostly because Alex had my window wide open. If I cared the slightest about myself at that point, I would be worried about getting pneumonia.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXOGUbcajr
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At some point I heard him talking on the phone to one or two people but I didn’t pay attention. I was just glad that he didn’t know the twins or my parent’s number. Or at least I hoped he didn’t. I was too lost in my trance to worry about that. My mind was spinning and I had lain back enjoying the ride.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4YJalXHxDp
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Only when we walked into the Emergency Room I became aware of what was really happening. The pain in my chest wasn’t so bad anymore but I still felt something. Maybe it was my heart that was ripped out.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQnAkQThKS
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I guessed that the phone calls that Alex made as he drove me to the hospital were to a doctor because we didn’t have to wait at all. A doctor led the way towards one of the beds and told me to sit down. When he asked how I felt I was very tempted to say that it felt like I was hit by a truck but I thought it would be better to avoid my bitter humor.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62MtGUguRD
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“Does it still hurt?” he asked as he took my pressure. Alex was standing on the end of the bed, his one arm against his chest and the other over it as his fingers were tracing his mouth; the whole time staring at me.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLQlfOBgvcR
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“No,” I replied “But it tickles,” I frowned not sure if that was the right word to describe the feeling.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGn0fYiH7Gd
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“Mr. White, can you please pull the curtains close?” he asked Alex and then turned towards me. “Lift your shirt please, I need to listen to your heart,” he told me. I nodded not even thinking that Alex was there.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmN013s6am8
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“Do you want me to …” Alex told me, pointing outside. I shook my head politely. It wasn’t like he would see anything he hasn’t seen before. That thought brought a scoff to my lips that I chocked as the doctor place the stethoscope to my chest and then my heart rate increased again.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSdwut8fn5
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“Take another deep breath please,” he told me and I noticed a light frown. My sight blurred for a moment but then I controlled myself and did what the doctor asked. “Okay, turn around,” he asked and I turned towards Alex; my top still upwards. I blinked to control the tears and gave a weak smile to Alex. “Okay,” the doctor exhaled and removed the stethoscope. I pulled down my top and turned towards him again.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiZUEsFmCb
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“You just had an anxiety attack,” he looked at me.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbsi7faMatd
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“But I’m not anxious about anything,” I frowned. I didn’t give damn about my classes at this point.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvyTiZirCnv
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“From your symptoms, pounding heart, shortness of breath, hyperventilation and insomnia I can come up with one answer and that is anxiety attack,” he begun. “But I can say that grieving can also be a cause. Grieving is a powerful emotion that can have physical effects on our autonomic system and can even cause arrhythmias or bursting of weakened blood vessels,” the doctor explained. I wasn’t surprised he thought of “grief”; my red eyes were one of my symptoms.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5bOL8awuU
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“Oh,” was all I managed to say. “What can I do?” I asked.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8YqYtFJJu
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“Because this have happened again in the past, I’m going to prescribe something to just calm you down,” he said.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0iA6GfKBSV
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“Anti-depression drugs?” Alex asked.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JwJIy0q15
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“What?” I frowned “No,” I turned towards the doctor as I realized what drugs he meant. “I have my exams to study for,”413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKy8BQtLhoc
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“Alright, take one before you go to sleep for two nights in the row. It will help you sleep and rest. Then take them if you start having any symptoms again, okay?” the doctor smiled and wrote something on a paper and left it. “Though I don’t think it will happen again soon.”413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9H0AUNpgA
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“Thank you Dr. Wallace,” Alex said as I nodded. The doctor smiled at him and shook his hand before leaving us alone. I exhaled deeply and got up from the bed. Alex walked next to me, his hand on the back of my waist as we exited the hospital.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ACKf3w8Z9
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“That was interesting,” I smiled as approached the car. “Many people have been dumped before but how many were they diagnosed?” I laughed.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHI6ssVeTF
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“I need to know that you’ll be okay,” Alex told me as he sat opened the passengers door for me.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3b0c8xqHO
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“I’ll try,” I mumbled.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIKg6UOXqz
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The next two days I did sleep well thanks to the drugs the doctor gave me but the third night was as the same as the first night I learned Damien left. I tossed and turned, curling up into a ball. I tried to avoid taking a pill again because I’ve heard that you can get addicted to anti-depressing’s.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSzljl9izbV
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I wanted to hear his voice so bad; to hear that everything was okay. And I made the mistake to pick up my phone and call him; because this time he picked up. My heart almost exploded.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Z72N0ZIUP
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“What?” he asked so abruptly that made my heart shutter into a million pieces.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ745hsfhJ3S
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“Hi,” I breathed.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpz4LtsWZd1
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“What the hell Erica?” he asked. I never thought it would hurt this bad to hear him calling my name “It’s four o’clock in the morning!” he replied; his tone cold and distant.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCA899Vhas
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“I’m sorry,” I whispered “I just needed to hear your voice,” I swallowed hard.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr6OY7KePme
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“So what?”he breathed out. He sounded like he was struggling too but it still hurt so badly. Tears filled my eyes and I hung up the phone before throwing it at the end of the bed. I wasn’t ready for this. I fell against my pillow, covering my face and smothered the sound of my sobs.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQmBJs4Ccp
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And that’s when it happened again; the pounding pain returned to my chest. I sat up trying to calm down and looked at my phone, thought of calling Alex but I didn’t want to wake him up. So I stood up and walked into the shower. But again, tears came out of nowhere. I couldn’t calm myself down. I wrapped my towel around my body, between sobs, and walked into the room again.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiSG7zbdVEJ
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“Yes?” Alex answered his phone sleepily.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡov0L0qO0ND
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“I’m sorry,” I said softly “I…” I trailed. And that’s when Alex must have realized it was me on the phone.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ETpVQ7kNy
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“Are you okay?” he asked anxiously.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAQ4Wn52xS
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“I don’t know,” I whispered but my breathing was still quick.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC1QLU5aWMr
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“It happened again?”413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC1Dur0U8UD
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“Yes,” I breathed.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMDvMZG20W
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“Get dressed.” He said and hung up the phone; not even giving me the chance to argue with him.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡReQE72mGQ3
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This time the doctor that examined me thought it was best to keep me in. He said that it was suspicious for a girl my age to get those episodes so regularly. I tried to delay notifying my mother as much as possible as I didn’t want to scare her. I was lying in a bed, with stickers against my chest and my heart beat was beeping through a machine for the entire room to hear.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3C6UznBuUH
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“You need to call your mother,” Alex said from the foot of the bed. I studied him for a moment and noticed that I never saw him dressed so casual and I frowned.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfz1SZ4D60C
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“You’re not wearing a button up shirt,” I stated. He chuckled and shook his head.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXw1tx8yIcb
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“Yeah, sorry,” he smiled “I didn’t have time for a formal outfit,” he mocked.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSf5EL8407m
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“Thank you for coming,” I smiled at him. He looked at me for a moment and then sat down at the end of the bed; exhaling deeply.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHIeq6DWIH
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“Three days ago, when you’re having that episode, you said something,” he begun “You said that you keep doing this to yourself,” he said. I felt uncomfortable and the beeping sound on the machine picked up. He looked at the machine for a second and then took my hand in his. I swallowed waiting to hear what he would say next. “You didn’t do anything wrong. I was just at the wrong place at the wrong time,” he sighed.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lS56iSIej
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“What? You’ve lost me,” I frowned.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡogvvEssRxI
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“If we haven’t met that night, you wouldn’t be in here now,” he explained but I was still lost.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu13k3gFM5X
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“I’ve been thinking about this since that night at the club you had the first episode,” he explained and that’s when I realized what he was talking about. That night when we were out together after the second time we got together. I couldn’t breathe inside the club and accidentally told him this was happening often since he left.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFIEg4EPdkt
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“Oh my God,” I frowned “This isn’t your fault,” I breathed and tried to sit up.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx2LfcqQwuj
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“Stay down,” he said and stopped me from getting up “This is my fault. I damaged you so badly and he…” he trailed. The thought of Damien brought a sharp pain into my chest that made me ignore what he said.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡghipaaKQAI
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“He broke me,” I smiled a humorless smile; the machine giving me in. Alex looked towards it and stood up.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1aZwvVskmc
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“Damn it, I shouldn’t have brought this up now,” he frowned. “Here,” he said and gave me my phone “Call your mother. It’s seven a.m.”413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmArIoU4nrb
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I looked at him and sighed. It was best to hear it from me that I was in the hospital; to see that it wasn’t anything serious. Or at least I hoped it wasn’t.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1S0sU6yu7
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