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（01）443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUrKX6ZuYx
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一九九三年，他六歲。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdF0evGCTSr
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夏夜有風。媽媽替他更換小背心當睡衣，撥扇哄他入睡。睡得香甜，不願醒來，懶理微微發癢的臉頰。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBeX0g45Gzi
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夏日惡毒，毒不過他臉頰上的無名腫毒。媽媽焦急收拾銀包和證件，說要帶他到醫院。爸爸睄他一眼，認為他近日吃過量煎炸食物，長暗瘡，純粹熱氣，無需花錢求醫。媽媽沒好氣，匆匆拖著神智不清的他前往醫院。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAXBSBtQ0J
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醫院離家不遠，不過二十分鐘腳程。相識的鄰里、熟悉的街景，既近且遠，扭曲模糊折疊……天旋地轉，手腳一軟，眼前一黑，倒下。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57AEQJDI3l
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看不見，聽得到。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGy5iKQQM9q
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尖叫，呼救。心跳，鼻息。人，車。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqBtU8VbUD
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電車。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8i5eizgYN
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叮叮——叮叮——443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqTpKRuJYQ
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他曾取笑它慢吞吞。媽媽說電車再慢亦會比他快。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5G73RrReNm
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媽媽喜歡電車那叮叮聲，平凡而獨特，隱隱卻嘹亮。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYIW6Lq3vn
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他仔細聽、認真聽。平凡而獨特，隱隱卻嘹亮。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwekSrbKt7
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刻骨銘心。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9wnPmlL8c
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叮叮——叮叮——443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrZPcOAJxE
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（02）443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo0esewik38
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看得見，聽不到。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWPhS6R8c1
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聽不到醫生說他內耳受感染，無法康復。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUbHOIyiGy
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聽不到爸爸怪責媽媽疏忽照顧他。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKacMeLmQWw
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聽不到媽媽自責飲泣。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzJe5ACY4S4
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但他統統看見了——他看見聲音。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHoZaezDXC
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絕望聲音是揚沸的黑煙。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzzKyPvWff
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憤怒聲音是燃燒的血紅。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsrumrD0BL
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罪疚聲音是混濁的海藍。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiJPSzGt93
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世界五顏六色，暴烈狂亂。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡllwEmXgMEe
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他受驚瑟縮在家，直至媽媽的顏色徹底消失。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmSfKUiHEE
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爸爸指向電車，比手畫腳，示意媽媽昨夜在電車自殺。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhMhlijIPk
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叮叮——叮叮——443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVRPODuvie
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叮……443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVmXSsqLRq
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（03）443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdftzbu8Nyv
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二零二三年，他三十六歲。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwr0lZQkVU
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當年媽媽離世後，爸爸帶他遷離港島，遠離電車，遠離傷心地。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzedx0khYG
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時日漸過，傷痛漸退，他漸漸看不見聲音的顏色。他明白那是幻覺，是自身心理防禦機制產生出來的，用以舒緩情緒和壓力。聲音的顏色日益淺薄，如煙如霧，再也妨礙不了他的人生路。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojN4wummnX
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他決定要勇敢，走出陰霾，好好過活，不然會像爸爸一樣帶著哀傷終其此生——爸爸去年自殺，同樣在電車上。明明爸爸比他更抗拒港島和電車，為何偏偏在電車自殺？因為媽媽？沒能知道，沒能問個清楚明白。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9JziAbGHTO
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二十七年來，他首次踏足港島。心情緊張，有如當年踏入新居。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5aXm7TeLBA
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熟悉傢俬配上陌生單位，有形無神，是家不是家。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSHboSZjXT
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常見事物配上獨特氛圍，舊瓶新酒，突兀不協調。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48KYcmFrcn
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周遭顏色頓變濃稠，阻擋視線，如屏成障。看不見前路，聽不到指引，忽爾忘記將來。人總沒法拋棄過去吧。過去構成現在，現在組構將來。過去如何，將來也必如何……443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEiXc8Rpz5U
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一抹綠影突然冒出，撥開重重色彩，在他眼前掠過，緊隨而來是隱隱卻嘹亮的聲音。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dUkgKjptd
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叮叮——叮叮——443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdF4Cq7Vtj
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震驚。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJKGMayLsA
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怎麼可以聽到聲音？443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMMLMk6utg
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叮叮——叮叮——443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6i0PqdHyFh
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一股莫名衝動驅使他拼命追趕電車。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡniRe9QmYYA
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累。電車再慢亦會比他快。他再快亦追不到那些經已遠去的。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf61lJEUcay
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他開始不明白自己為何要追趕。他沒有追趕的原因。他再努力亦無法追回那些人事物。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdaMWTYZr1u
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他不想再追。很累……443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjOtYc23Dj
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叮叮——叮叮——443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqIXdRbkLm
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乘客陸續發現行為怪異的他，將手提電話伸出窗外拍攝。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLn2bljDGqQ
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電車似是擁有生命，生出無數觸手，向他招迎。當中有兩隻全綠的右手沒有手提電話。揮動姿勢與其他手臂不同，是多麼的熱情親切，充滿期盼，彷彿在講：「來！快來！」443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWHm0sLoDB
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他咬咬牙，跑得更快，想要看看綠手主人——會是他們嗎？443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOXVT7ML2N
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他沒能看見綠手主人的臉，但他堅信那是父母的手！443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ4ofqo9fvB
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這可能是他有生之年最後一次與父母團聚！443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJRJHrnHBK
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父母都是自殺的，在他毫無心理準備之時離他而去。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6o3TOboHu
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他接受不了。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5frzLU6iFN
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叮叮——叮叮——443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrgxKmeQA9
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電車準備靠站，他快要追到。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIfxVLEn2TV
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綠手開始氣化。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yAX5BKJbm
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再努力亦枉然？一切努力只顯得他是那麼無能無力。他唯一做到的僅是無奈接受……443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMfPhiWgpa
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綠手在他眼前消散無痕。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYejQya0Up
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他力竭倒地，哭得像個孩子。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmRWwxfWVg
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叮叮——叮叮——443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cB9sjVJx9
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電車靠站，乘客分道揚鑣，世界運轉如儀，沒有因為他的怪異行徑而改變本身命運。正如他沒有因為努力而及時握著兩隻注定要消散的綠手。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2rQUQYW7p
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緣盡。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡenDyErbDIY
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無謂執著。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMHiJDDnFt
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忽爾澄明。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCd7HGJVqZ
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汗止，氣平，淚盡。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpmP4bEcSx
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他重新站起來，拍拍褲管塵灰，抬頭挺胸走向電車站。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIYjPUHCP8
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排隊，付款，上車。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkC3a4IvWY
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如同其他乘客。443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2orE7OGsGT
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如同其他同樣平凡而獨特的乘客。
