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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqyC17E3LoU
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxl0jYOPTjw
和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzhKBAzPVY
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY3GApuQFdX
日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdwzqb5t8k
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBwrRt8rVG
終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiimrATKKda
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0rRpduWOE
面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzdwiCIKI1
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjfmTndKNaZ
面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHh5NaRyS9
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZUu0Qxgpa
「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhgVMXd6KqC
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIyySA9ri0v
「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEz5ps4JHb
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSBvOoDEmG
「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNjjGYZ2Ew
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD3hc0gtwWQ
掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYf9xc0bmJ
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5W5S4IeMMe
「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIIzM7TZofA
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZKbQZTPfp
家宜沉默了。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQU4isa6Zz
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEitnLJnFeJ
媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYY3aqsItL
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7aZKmDQJY
這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdc3yxDzZrW
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquhgwSTGtP
原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡroE5uhXbeh
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8j4CnxeV4W
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1thm2ayQU
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqXD4KGM4Go
有人說她成熟了，進步了。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkw8z8M94G7
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEtFqzgh4H
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgsUX7fiKs
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ04KjS73bj
似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMYlYNtdT6
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1q4MhAyx81
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1QpjEe1Cs
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnsw0VAwPb5
還是向現實低頭好了。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xhsgr0LWp
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHO71Gjdh7
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8Gi8Z8i0R
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39LPM6gEBR
這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6IY6obyIo
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqoLw09uNuM
「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJX7XiHMIX
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZ9uukBLQz
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRq9jMsWAko
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrR6Fo127Zo
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgUwSKBGNx
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnxHvehtmr
家宜沒答話。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSq9cBIubKX
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEX8VAlMCR
望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCD3K4Ez6E
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsL2H1hkeLc
當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡARXDbxloT1
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLVQy0gs77
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGeb9TenbZ
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGzBVtkLhR
當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsw8b8gnXNe
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOOKxyf7NV
當初…828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCwMFn8KFB
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsTwPprA8r
整個晚上，媽一言不發。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtuYsjSIGUg
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJSA3TiR8A
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnbgWlqyumG
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrqWCMgVBs
但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBr9u97s8xZ
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9asBpDM5y
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkqfcL88LbX
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2YKjkU7sU
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEPFoUYvSY
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87W4KDMh2C
根本不是她的錯！828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1q5ZIoHffK
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDigPz2t4gU
但道歉可保住一椿生意…828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmaRxIMCDGX
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2V0jhIjQl
卻扭曲了自己…828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnlgOuKZIC
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJfJynoacEG
值得嗎？828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBP1sdGfc1
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlo5MCCtFw
「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs09tMYNdW7
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZdrRodSPI
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFO18o35XCW
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡry0IYpzT5V
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnLwvjcx5i
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkr2itUZ01
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGFyoyAHDd
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC5PqajcGAH
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpUpO2993T
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1bWh88Rv0
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZB1RzoPNo
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRMsQXvSq5T
「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqH8v787Ylf
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OpsXql9el
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLhjCUtd02J
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtPqP38gVbN
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGVaCW8MfvC
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf47DrhujDn
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUlCPiJ0Ny
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyosAhd6pdI
理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOXipAGPLi
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡErrwCcudK4
難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5enw5Kldgi
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKcDFyzgng
還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PwRJYViPw
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19jkLbxOHY
不管了，先遞信吧！828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJxJ0R8puk
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFMOe6jecj
「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNjhH0t8qp
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwcEUFwKDd
家宜呆了。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6sqZn9XYN
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiidvSM73pI
「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Tf6LiOVyU
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBSy6ZKl8C
她沒即時否定——猶豫了。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCZPVWePrR
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXkOwaeHM6J
「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7SAXHisjn
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3QfRQZiLj
這是…放棄了嗎？828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bqhFo2ufW
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KFkYUJqg2
家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58aJDv0Pi4
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVomnzByEi2
家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNc1FLOJzY4
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74CHKbGUqf
家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMsRglcTw9
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWfsGA2kzl
昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNvg7foAYY
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQThlhyTu6H
當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGBcrW9Hpm
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJFWkIaEDYu
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡanYq8ImhhX
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmp7kzYV2m
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPO7ayxydG0
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjyhvQj1Cp
「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQW77XGaV7y
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UdNeEirap
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyC4aGeEefn
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0iRWgqWFI
媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6J3R8uDUt
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ0rwpt3nj6
「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMG7aPnwxm
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGpNPI8QihK
回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSU0l8jmbie
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpd7SD5TSFV
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