家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvd8jjbP4j
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和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVL9hR48O4
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日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXvuAM7H2tF
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJadiD9Adv
終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1b2sHYepW
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面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDvM1qFxkV
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkP2fiKv4Q
面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRORapQx9eX
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tCwLYjZgN
「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYLgv5bBnR
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRaan7ruyQI
「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3rnMEgaup
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeJ0vYzMtd
「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkI1dtLpymn
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAw1095SHT
掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWV0FSNziLF
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0F58vGjKH
「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfmk8vp6gk
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家宜沉默了。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5TRhQnNY1
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekOrJLjbeu
媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5LSEAuKMg
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMis1lnFxZp
這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrgOeZYqVmC
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbElJe9Rl5E
原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZzSQAKEF4
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM70BJyBVtT
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbCf998uwI
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeaC899l0dg
有人說她成熟了，進步了。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhn3tJGZDb6
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSw4A8jr7R
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGq54OXFZI
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5M0pNrwoBT
似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3j2XxUUNk
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYbrCBRuqe
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFmcJurhZG
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還是向現實低頭好了。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnLUMziDIq
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pBMk1Cpoi
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHjuYLlVsk
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFgBgBEhk2f
這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKCmeWgdZB
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRqADKMoxH
「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6HOVPPMnV
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡedzU7oYENc
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8EjPNtrUR
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBsrNwFW9J
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFhlz5Y7zy
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuTjzBm4ewX
家宜沒答話。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapqSNDnrSs
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf52RwUUCJV
望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhtkFWNDu8X
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJpHXmDw0dy
當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPk5uflwuB6
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODMneEnxhA
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCfiv7OzsM
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpCZHwGN0ie
當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHSBmlKd5Lz
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNRjMHY2lo
當初…916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGYyW2gUne
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpZbMMKcUc
整個晚上，媽一言不發。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3x79IBTmw
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhDJFRFEmh
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1moVMPsqX
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmLgSYjGhT
但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtt8DPALD5
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVE518HISV
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvq9t2Gxqt
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7O4E9BHkM
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUSsmDKUi2
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDeh6jMIHs
根本不是她的錯！916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoqOsuRF3h
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但道歉可保住一椿生意…916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1qTEvoqD4
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卻扭曲了自己…916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvaxePVR0F
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值得嗎？916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWEo3Am3wA
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「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4svW1YDpMm
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbekwLAFFA
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95gXKijBmU
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZZM8Glxjh
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzGb94hl0M
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40Y7mnOJxl
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzszZ01KWf
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJNeY1lPAI
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnm8eYxLpL
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHE2Jfg4I0
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfseOYiTTW
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSr6bV9Fs7D
「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRh45PdZbQ
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzulYkgJuba
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡniIBL7EejD
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGNxREFYKC
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90rUep1qvt
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ68z1NWBxIE
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGEG0ig5rN
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvm5OIolSJ
理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaC4j4opbcu
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難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqcu7HExVHC
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還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxdipgoSVaE
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不管了，先遞信吧！916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGwkDTGKAY
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「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxoGWSofteg
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家宜呆了。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF70VHEGppR
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「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6Bd8NwEQB
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqbDuGPOa3
她沒即時否定——猶豫了。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6PFCBc80M
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4QmxMMPHG
「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCNGJhsOPv
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這是…放棄了嗎？916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQODhqRa39
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家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmI7K5qkId
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡanLUE4xCKM
家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiAHULGTTVq
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家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzIwNPmYaf2
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7h6P1G0Xzw
昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs72NBTE42E
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當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwoTSoIeb5
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMyTNx2Pqc
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmTV4GUvmfM
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbauk95PMrB
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg5NmcgL9ER
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxZeC7N3b0
「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBAN65BtUC
916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5RjqL2a92
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzqYEkgGoL
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媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwoxrl7oVs
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「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3eZM5k3Se7
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回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。916Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLP6UZji6S7
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