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天亮，上班。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡch8hsirQFs
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbve7KwgXa
擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNQ9ByH3ss
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkDFumsIGs
車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOVv0AbtUf
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMuNM4rpMiV
食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4Fa634H2Y
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqJlpVZF0h
到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawjUHR0uuW
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIFfJuUFKn
看不見，罷。
天黑，下班。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumr5aCWzBE
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfB6poDIfcD
身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlXcStk3QGd
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZeAkjE1h7I
「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bUNxTzMiG
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJUjGF581R
我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xbGVEh81B
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFzcoQx7xR
「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzf2JrbKIT
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobzHvcexIk
「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCRBNNuA8k
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0nq4hk5sL2
「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。
公司，午飯時間。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr6UPkdgiVi
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzszA47qJXf
甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HFjT5hye2
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Sz0u6xWBW
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkeVV0esYM
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3ayBTKZPK
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6DATQ21eWh
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMhSFtzV7A
還是……942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11qeRaxztX
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCjnul2p4oF
其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！
公司，工作。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡka4TI8AgnL
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPewhm8bLc
被上司罵個狗血淋頭。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdyIkQe5qQ
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3eby2TjO1
大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VOHGcZxtI
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRE2qB98ocO
很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ct6kVu4kL
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNYGmqB9OQ
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0RBn4bo1I
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOqAbv4wNy
快意，笑了。
酒吧，喝酒。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfAzs9WeA0
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbiDQZ7Zz00
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCX9mhVK2vW
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtl0WqvRax
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrSlTAguum
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsMPBpjb42u
「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwPhkaGNnA
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlRxIaL9O8
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ituk6WzuQ
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKioyTex3L
醉倒。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyq4yuPtv3M
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tpgvRTstn
迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgMAQ0c2cW
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpJFkQDe10
「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIvryEKKUo
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtPOnooQ5Zq
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。
假期，醫院。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdJffX2r0U
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMDc0FYXZ7
媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT96t0az2je
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Epfa510D0
看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKxT6KWWfpT
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtam2zL41S
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ApQpXRA2W
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoeylUu7UpR
大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHP1dEtsEk
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYUpaFqoAA
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ48CZfS5r2
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡddH2ei5vRo
死寂。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEvSwLfS0jC
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkQ8M5kxWS
出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。
回家，晚飯。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwLRGz9NKi
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqGgFCPSMa
一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzww5RUUEGN
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ifMVfbLjZ
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5clOPMucc
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmhBUurFj8X
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuw9B5aysBO
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsz3OYCbCZL
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9a41EuYrI
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDKRrhaQML
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Dfeb5BEoJ
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDxQHnM56k
久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCVKcp4M8oC
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXbszhmPBN
但我知道，我永沒能走遠。
男友家，床上。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZSs7AWH1u
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5eEXA1fgWI
前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUB4A8x0Gx5
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRPyuUgDma
産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEyRj6AyEQs
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAozoMflUG
我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEXiMF6yJsN
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsaW4QXaXCm
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCqyIb5k3F
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrAasupdibv
說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjOkskxGi3z
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06e9BprlFi
「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJ55EIcx6b
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxAxP4MJ8u
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnb2mIupRq
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQaAh6OPAE
「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ATkUphNoR
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwPK2m685IN
「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLluUxqHCa3
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe578ZFjwz7
「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6M0Cwq65Gq
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3CAYcIOW8
「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01kR6TuwRN
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYTCzn5yzK
今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdabkzFTn7h
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBe8GWfqvq
「在你體內。」942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5SXIJdiUM8
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkeV4IMPZdR
「甚麼？」942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwARbf6r4x
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8gCeYayQX
「蟻。」
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEI9LyxCVF
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBKwfyelA8
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKyHU2aUft
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkI5kDEhGnw
結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqN7keKSdEj
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoIp6ksLZbR
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY81BsbYrbO
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmoa6YwZqLD
「誰？」另一聲音反問。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfoIu0Tuxz
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuz7uZgdWXx
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRtI92Shls
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB0TXyta690
靜。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiE6I66fjAO
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YUGaa39fj
我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0XZOHJcncD
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡouKLxKknIE
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuOtWhmLWw
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NFFhuDSiU
我：「我有精神病？」942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGpb3v7dB9V
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0O1clfH1oQ
醫：「是情緒病。」942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8WCNQ5yWp
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsftJLcJZrQ
我：「怎麼辦？」942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1yGaF1K3c
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzW2wT8ZJYw
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0mj96mXfVZ
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgB7E0zbz3R
我：「謝謝醫生。」942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasd2WvXeuZ
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYHzzuRlU2
醫：「不用謝。」942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rl0uz6tn8
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk75lAqAaOe
離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdS3Z7HeaTS
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRE3EHt5IyU
不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrFk7KwPBa
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡytiIkvxqLo
醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRb1b3D9UX4
942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVdzwOdeZzc
男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；942Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4h1jXBLzib
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臨死前，我看見那東西了——不是蟻，是……
