我在書枱前呆了大半日。熱茶已涼，但我未嚐半口，心思都在眼前電腦屏幕上——剛輸入的文字不停被刪。字越少，心越亂，人越躁。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZapos9dv0Q
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不了。受不了。我離座往廚房換茶去。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0R4eUUeo5U
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廳中老妻瞄我半眼，大概知道發生甚麼事，沒有作聲，繼續看電視。我對她的不表態不勝感激——她以最聰明的方法維護我的尊嚴。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4JTAHsAxm
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滾水撞上茶葉，水仙香氣隨著冉升白煙溢散開去。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZHv9XFtu5
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壓力似乎一併消散。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBbAobqPgQ
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茶盡。我再續杯。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfymG88gxq
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添茶不是長遠之計——屏幕白頁上始終沒有片言隻字。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEyHWMSFf42
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嘆一口氣，慨嘆自己太天真可愛。怎麼會相信自己有寫作天分，而且一信就是幾十年。幾十年來，不停寫，不停發表，不停被無視。我只得不停安慰自己說旁人不識貨。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLoojWxMuo9
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口不對心。心裡其實清楚自己料子如何。但我還是堅持寫下去。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9p36KtD7kr
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是習慣、面子、尊嚴緣故，更是不想承認自己做了一個長達幾十年的白日夢。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUu9h5qltFL
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夢醒一場空。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAsFmPBGu6
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我本平庸，無甚專長，唯獨寫作能力相對身邊友儕略高丁點。丁點而已，卻足以讓我樂透幾十年。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEe9T16z6JQ
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工作不順利時，我會告訴自己——我的專長不在工作上，所以被罵亦是無可厚非；人際關係不如意時，我會告訴自己——如果世人只能用文字溝通，我該是表達能力最好的人；走倒運時，我會告訴自己——我正在為快要誕生的偉大作品累積靈感……556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwdkDDuwTZ
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一切都是有意義的。如果我真有寫作天分的話。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwebOUdJiw
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捧著熱茶回到座位。身在心在能力不在。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa82Ap3aOEf
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在刺眼的屏幕白頁前，我又嘆一口氣。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVP8oJkyxV
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我不曾長大，仍是幾十年前那個我，沉浸在中文老師讚賞的我。同學們紛表羨慕我的寫作天份，請教我如何想出精彩故事、練出動人文筆。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkvX5z8z6N
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我沾沾自喜。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbt8bEQqev
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細心回想，我當時已覺竅門不在天分，而是努力。努力鑽研文字的運用，努力細味名著佳作當中的韻味，努力思考故事情節起伏，努力觀察分析人世百態……名副其實的將勤補拙。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgxgziAb3v
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但我沒有向同學們坦白。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQDjSD8veO
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因為我喜歡被讚賞的感覺。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38FhmVbvfd
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努力，努力，努力。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡytiNq2tHN8
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我的寫作技巧與日俱增，亦在多個學屆寫作比賽中獲獎。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBkYx9kWvC
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我以為自己將來鐵定能夠成為作家。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6trnaO3KT
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以為。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxiA3nwdZ3
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告別校園後，我成為一個普通文職。普通收入，普通打扮，普通生活。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyc9fktqKQ0
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普通得輕易被取代。普通得難以承受。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQhubPdfiei
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我不得不告訴自己我是多麼的有寫作天份！我是多麼的獨特！556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFpFkN36e7
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某夜下班回家，我泡了一壺水仙，乘著茶香全情投入寫作世界。沒有外物打擾，我的世界只有我。一切如願。那麼順心，那麼安寧，那麼快樂。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGatTPwF1MI
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我的作品感動了我。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLypQypb0Bf
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我希望藉此找到更多懂我的人。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66iEHRfIGI
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幾十年來，不停寫，不停發表，不停被無視。我的世界與真實世界不斷相互碰撞。面對無止境的打擊，我不曾問自己為何堅持。因為一旦心生此等疑問，變相在內心種下「自我質疑」的根苗，一發不可收拾。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT59tNY6oe2
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無法接受自己幾十年堅持建基於一個沒可能實現的夢想。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGZ0YDfLvO
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無法承受自己生來就是如此普通、平凡、平庸……556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJInuYBAOu3
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熱茶又涼了。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoUgMutj0ff
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屏幕白頁上始終沒有片言隻字。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGi69h6EBQb
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老妻繼續以不表態維護我的尊嚴。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQ1wyyZ4in
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我的作品只感動了我。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGCYrOLPXk
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因為我的感受只有我讀得懂。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXAGDC0EBq
