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（01）442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVYtxKTWpyF
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一九九三年，他六歲。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CgYiUi0n1
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夏夜有風。媽媽替他更換小背心當睡衣，撥扇哄他入睡。睡得香甜，不願醒來，懶理微微發癢的臉頰。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NgS8eyUbE
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夏日惡毒，毒不過他臉頰上的無名腫毒。媽媽焦急收拾銀包和證件，說要帶他到醫院。爸爸睄他一眼，認為他近日吃過量煎炸食物，長暗瘡，純粹熱氣，無需花錢求醫。媽媽沒好氣，匆匆拖著神智不清的他前往醫院。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9NjpFGvHs
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醫院離家不遠，不過二十分鐘腳程。相識的鄰里、熟悉的街景，既近且遠，扭曲模糊折疊……天旋地轉，手腳一軟，眼前一黑，倒下。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMguNBNHrvR
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看不見，聽得到。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIP8aN93FsY
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尖叫，呼救。心跳，鼻息。人，車。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhO5sAiI32
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電車。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEfH4ayUG3C
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他曾取笑它慢吞吞。媽媽說電車再慢亦會比他快。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5KpFzwU89
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媽媽喜歡電車那叮叮聲，平凡而獨特，隱隱卻嘹亮。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvP1efElYB
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他仔細聽、認真聽。平凡而獨特，隱隱卻嘹亮。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SuO3VQb9I
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刻骨銘心。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwN1lyrQCE
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叮叮——叮叮——442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8IMPdr1T7X
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（02）442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlME6yumfT
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看得見，聽不到。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHavjCXzf0
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聽不到醫生說他內耳受感染，無法康復。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bBsulESMQ
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聽不到爸爸怪責媽媽疏忽照顧他。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAy7m4uW3rR
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聽不到媽媽自責飲泣。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovs0Sl6UHZ
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但他統統看見了——他看見聲音。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFLFzB8n43
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絕望聲音是揚沸的黑煙。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUYozmY0Qf
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憤怒聲音是燃燒的血紅。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAopN82XzG
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罪疚聲音是混濁的海藍。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9UPA13vDAy
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世界五顏六色，暴烈狂亂。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHWgsAK4pF
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他受驚瑟縮在家，直至媽媽的顏色徹底消失。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNje1hQw6h
442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCR8pkgefJw
爸爸指向電車，比手畫腳，示意媽媽昨夜在電車自殺。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1uZ5UAQ6dv
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叮叮——叮叮——442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvjF2lSVAaY
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叮……442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkCjnHmnQN
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（03）442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATCMsxwjtS
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二零二三年，他三十六歲。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzuLKXJVyQ
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當年媽媽離世後，爸爸帶他遷離港島，遠離電車，遠離傷心地。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLIXDv8M44
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時日漸過，傷痛漸退，他漸漸看不見聲音的顏色。他明白那是幻覺，是自身心理防禦機制產生出來的，用以舒緩情緒和壓力。聲音的顏色日益淺薄，如煙如霧，再也妨礙不了他的人生路。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaVzbrQ2M0B
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他決定要勇敢，走出陰霾，好好過活，不然會像爸爸一樣帶著哀傷終其此生——爸爸去年自殺，同樣在電車上。明明爸爸比他更抗拒港島和電車，為何偏偏在電車自殺？因為媽媽？沒能知道，沒能問個清楚明白。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QTuJQjhjE
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二十七年來，他首次踏足港島。心情緊張，有如當年踏入新居。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7X7CXuHgQx
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熟悉傢俬配上陌生單位，有形無神，是家不是家。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuRzZooxXUl
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常見事物配上獨特氛圍，舊瓶新酒，突兀不協調。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASDVGVHtZj
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周遭顏色頓變濃稠，阻擋視線，如屏成障。看不見前路，聽不到指引，忽爾忘記將來。人總沒法拋棄過去吧。過去構成現在，現在組構將來。過去如何，將來也必如何……442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbzTftdRCI
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一抹綠影突然冒出，撥開重重色彩，在他眼前掠過，緊隨而來是隱隱卻嘹亮的聲音。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFalnY4pDUl
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叮叮——叮叮——442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx751qVdFyV
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震驚。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh30l6bRLwo
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怎麼可以聽到聲音？442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8RhnMn4Quv
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叮叮——叮叮——442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIuZIYEdXN
442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xzouC1GqC
一股莫名衝動驅使他拼命追趕電車。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡelzB6pOg9Y
442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3HBJiAVTPH
累。電車再慢亦會比他快。他再快亦追不到那些經已遠去的。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJNBXO2neWz
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他開始不明白自己為何要追趕。他沒有追趕的原因。他再努力亦無法追回那些人事物。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qsZWH6ghP
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他不想再追。很累……442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqbEZnOVTF
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叮叮——叮叮——442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYVI0jFNtH
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乘客陸續發現行為怪異的他，將手提電話伸出窗外拍攝。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAmpqQf8FO
442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOo659rDZs
電車似是擁有生命，生出無數觸手，向他招迎。當中有兩隻全綠的右手沒有手提電話。揮動姿勢與其他手臂不同，是多麼的熱情親切，充滿期盼，彷彿在講：「來！快來！」442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0Wd59vcum
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他咬咬牙，跑得更快，想要看看綠手主人——會是他們嗎？442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLFehsJAvk
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他沒能看見綠手主人的臉，但他堅信那是父母的手！442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvovVlW3hp
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這可能是他有生之年最後一次與父母團聚！442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwysHSp356
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父母都是自殺的，在他毫無心理準備之時離他而去。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjN2nErwhT
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他接受不了。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9LGrMwHPe
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叮叮——叮叮——442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyj9MJvWWjn
442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadZWykB8xe
電車準備靠站，他快要追到。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlYhLYhve9
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綠手開始氣化。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡecyHVz7H1o
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再努力亦枉然？一切努力只顯得他是那麼無能無力。他唯一做到的僅是無奈接受……442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjkpU0fpyL
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綠手在他眼前消散無痕。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3cP9Z8XAD
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他力竭倒地，哭得像個孩子。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHHbxZ6ZqT
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叮叮——叮叮——442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJXhOGqfhn
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電車靠站，乘客分道揚鑣，世界運轉如儀，沒有因為他的怪異行徑而改變本身命運。正如他沒有因為努力而及時握著兩隻注定要消散的綠手。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlIMRbb7Ce
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緣盡。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjOfhcCe0n
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無謂執著。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8UZt2mJfpg
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忽爾澄明。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1UrgybJBOB
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汗止，氣平，淚盡。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ302o8dO93v
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他重新站起來，拍拍褲管塵灰，抬頭挺胸走向電車站。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQspI9u9vT
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排隊，付款，上車。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqjpkRojAgB
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如同其他乘客。442Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwp5BJ6k8T
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如同其他同樣平凡而獨特的乘客。
