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「現在天時暑熱，為何要吃糉子？」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3OgVCjJ9q
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「紀念屈原。」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFtS1oyxO1
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「為何要紀念一個自殺的人？」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9cQCjt2fq
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「大家的著眼點不在於他的自殺行為，而是讚揚他以身殉國的高尚情操。」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJmM1dbzKa
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「你認同他？」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNmWKpRZDkf
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「不認同——怎麼可以放棄生命？萬事該以自己為先！」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFx6yBabSKv
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我不敢回話，低頭吃糉子，邊吃邊從廚門隙縫瞥望媽媽。只見她的雙手於不銹鋼煲與砧板之間忙碌來回，間中搞拌煲內食物，偶爾從雪櫃拿出食材。無論怎麼移動，她總是背對著我。憑這不著跡的刻意舉措，我斷定她正在流淚。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKETC1ilTP
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我的目光不期然往下掃，落在她的左小腿——一隻人造義肢……524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Sqwqu6WmU
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「不想吃糉子嗎？」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkiiEjA2pVE
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「不是……不是。」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOSx9SrhXtw
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「那為何這樣多話？」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OWtmrRObv
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「熱嘛！躁呀！」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSmaaMCVkr
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「喝涼茶吧——我煲的。」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxpSgWN8Pt
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媽媽匆匆給我端來一碗涼茶，然後開啟電視，逕自坐在梳化上收看龍舟比賽，看得出神，似在重溫昔日風采。聽說她自小是運動健將，婚後繼續參與多項運動比賽，在龍舟比賽的戰績尤其彪炳。爸爸反倒是個文藝青年，不擅運動，卻總會抵著日照高溫到比賽場地為媽媽打氣……524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYBvUmBgIj
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冒著被罵的危險，我上前拿走電視遙控器：「我想看周星馳。」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGp8mgIu58G
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媽媽沒反對，依然安坐梳化上。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRLMcNS2dD
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又是《西遊記第壹佰零壹回之仙履奇緣》。我對早已滾瓜爛熟的橋段不感興趣，但為了媽媽，只得勉為其難看下去。電影接近尾聲，紫霞仙子為救至尊寶而被牛魔王刺死當刻，媽媽突然失控痛哭起來。哭著哭著，她又無故笑了。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlpQwAOCal
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我沒有安慰她，氣沖沖擸起遙控器，將頻道調回龍舟比賽那邊。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoMjFwNR1aW
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「隨你喜歡。」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLoEeZOZp4
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沒待媽媽回話，我回睡房上網去。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qwjU8iw1n
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萬事該以自己為先，不是嗎？524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwk2MoyQOCq
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日落西山。肚子餓得咕咕作響，我才記得自己還沒有吃完午餐。惟想及面對媽媽時的尷尬，我不禁猶豫起來。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJuNHMdSPb
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湊巧，媽媽敲門示意晚飯已然備好。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxcHo7s7kZ
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「不了。我剛剛約了朋友。」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCTigYAFv9
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「嗯。隨便。」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5fFKwlA3a
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媽媽非但沒有如常斥責我交待不清楚，甚至輕易放行。這讓我感到意外。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUXxot81JA
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因為午餐時的不愉快事情嗎？524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfOsoipEPD
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「怎麼愣住？不是要外出嗎？」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMdsQLEomg
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「是。」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQX8v22QjO
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更衣，套上波鞋，步出大門之際，我瞥見飯枱上的碟子放有兩隻不完整的糉子。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntPrOfYaiQ
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「午餐的剩菜？」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0SimrBRIu
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「不要浪費。」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKuUvNG935
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說畢，媽媽捧著碟子走向梳化，全神貫注地看電視，不再理會我。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL94pyYfZ0o
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我漫無目的慢步大街上。嗅到餐廳傳來的食物香味，反而更無食慾，心念都在今午的事情上打圈轉……524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQG3KswrVl
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我提著兩個外賣飯盒趕回家。一個留給自己，一個遞予媽媽：「不要吃糉子。已放涼了一整個下午。」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUKciqotHD
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媽媽接過飯盒，默默低頭吃飯。我也保持沉默，靜靜享用飯盒。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4hNSubZFGd
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飯後，我和媽媽齊齊坐在梳化上看電視新聞。新聞提及今午的龍舟比賽。這無疑再次挑動媽媽的神經。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHyEubmRhi
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三年前的龍舟比賽結束後，爸媽在巴士站排隊候車。誰料在巴士抵站之際，媽媽突然中暑失去意識，往馬路那邊倒下。爸爸不顧一切衝前推開她。收掣不及的巴士輾過爸爸，停車一剎車輪剛好壓住媽媽的左腳……524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ewKqfhwbz
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我無法回應媽媽的悲傷，正如她無法放下爸爸。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapfHwqfi9s
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怎麼辦？可以怎麼辦？不知道。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xVndVvLAX
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我全身突然乏力，有意無意輕倚媽媽身上。媽媽沒有迴避，抵著悶熱，任我靠依。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpCnYjTxwQN
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聽嫲嫲說，媽媽曾因爸爸離世生起自殺念頭，惟念及家中尚有我這個乳臭未乾的十歲女兒而堅強活下去……524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaV8owoF5WW
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「媽媽，明年端午節，我不要再吃糉子。」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHBCNbP5smZ
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「為何不想吃？」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvc5yBJwTru
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「不想紀念屈原。」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rP5W5xpNG
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「好的——其實我也不想紀念屈原這傢伙！」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtWfo6QuwvJ
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我和媽媽相視而笑，笑看新聞報導裡每名熱情參與端午節慶祝活動的市民。
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