我在書枱前呆了大半日。熱茶已涼，但我未嚐半口，心思都在眼前電腦屏幕上——剛輸入的文字不停被刪。字越少，心越亂，人越躁。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnsNgX4UjQj
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不了。受不了。我離座往廚房換茶去。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadR3YXsvDE
562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxkAfzS1ON
廳中老妻瞄我半眼，大概知道發生甚麼事，沒有作聲，繼續看電視。我對她的不表態不勝感激——她以最聰明的方法維護我的尊嚴。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTflAlpj8X
562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4e7rbBjTtk
滾水撞上茶葉，水仙香氣隨著冉升白煙溢散開去。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kzJKcbgM9
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壓力似乎一併消散。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡenURVXcXaK
562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ2QFzg1lJD
茶盡。我再續杯。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTm5GMdVf6
562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNTLtrE2Lv
添茶不是長遠之計——屏幕白頁上始終沒有片言隻字。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPvljvlYmL
562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgNvp9WbBC
嘆一口氣，慨嘆自己太天真可愛。怎麼會相信自己有寫作天分，而且一信就是幾十年。幾十年來，不停寫，不停發表，不停被無視。我只得不停安慰自己說旁人不識貨。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKZMfCRbQ0
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口不對心。心裡其實清楚自己料子如何。但我還是堅持寫下去。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1p31KoVgVu
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是習慣、面子、尊嚴緣故，更是不想承認自己做了一個長達幾十年的白日夢。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCn0jxRx3LQ
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夢醒一場空。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2A3qQUb4Ko
562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡebrVDGn0FK
我本平庸，無甚專長，唯獨寫作能力相對身邊友儕略高丁點。丁點而已，卻足以讓我樂透幾十年。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyQMaDcCJL
562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH5trBmAusN
工作不順利時，我會告訴自己——我的專長不在工作上，所以被罵亦是無可厚非；人際關係不如意時，我會告訴自己——如果世人只能用文字溝通，我該是表達能力最好的人；走倒運時，我會告訴自己——我正在為快要誕生的偉大作品累積靈感……562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbUhnaj7Yv
562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Xss2DnTaw
一切都是有意義的。如果我真有寫作天分的話。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2RYGJWK783
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捧著熱茶回到座位。身在心在能力不在。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeD9X4wHJQp
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在刺眼的屏幕白頁前，我又嘆一口氣。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9kv7kt1Fu
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我不曾長大，仍是幾十年前那個我，沉浸在中文老師讚賞的我。同學們紛表羨慕我的寫作天份，請教我如何想出精彩故事、練出動人文筆。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTHjhMTAtX
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我沾沾自喜。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaciNUY7na4
562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xXrOY8r5h
細心回想，我當時已覺竅門不在天分，而是努力。努力鑽研文字的運用，努力細味名著佳作當中的韻味，努力思考故事情節起伏，努力觀察分析人世百態……名副其實的將勤補拙。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFS9yg6QwX
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但我沒有向同學們坦白。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGH85ZxnTMz
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因為我喜歡被讚賞的感覺。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iEZvyW3cx
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努力，努力，努力。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnmcvfpwLu
562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLI8UXRe4p
我的寫作技巧與日俱增，亦在多個學屆寫作比賽中獲獎。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMbyyqYOovS
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我以為自己將來鐵定能夠成為作家。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BwvStE0MJ
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以為。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAxrv0SGiYm
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告別校園後，我成為一個普通文職。普通收入，普通打扮，普通生活。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9lUamLvzi
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普通得輕易被取代。普通得難以承受。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQlRm4qDwps
562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG0a0sp33YM
我不得不告訴自己我是多麼的有寫作天份！我是多麼的獨特！562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtEyTK64SZI
562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZb4Xr3F1H
某夜下班回家，我泡了一壺水仙，乘著茶香全情投入寫作世界。沒有外物打擾，我的世界只有我。一切如願。那麼順心，那麼安寧，那麼快樂。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jObXHthRC
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我的作品感動了我。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3cQOlT7FYB
562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteAdairY6P
我希望藉此找到更多懂我的人。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYeEmaiN8D
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幾十年來，不停寫，不停發表，不停被無視。我的世界與真實世界不斷相互碰撞。面對無止境的打擊，我不曾問自己為何堅持。因為一旦心生此等疑問，變相在內心種下「自我質疑」的根苗，一發不可收拾。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjI6fw4EjoR
562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcGk3k6cWy
無法接受自己幾十年堅持建基於一個沒可能實現的夢想。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1sKrKjnq3
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無法承受自己生來就是如此普通、平凡、平庸……562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyf3Ich5OI
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熱茶又涼了。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMAn17nh0ut
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屏幕白頁上始終沒有片言隻字。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGc8XV2mrCU
562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2E6GoOAKN
老妻繼續以不表態維護我的尊嚴。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdQTDt3Xug
562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfShNYqOTQl
我的作品只感動了我。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmUV09Bc81
562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbIK7eig7m
因為我的感受只有我讀得懂。562Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLt6NJrZd3Y
