#1 Entry: Why I Started This.747Please respect copyright.PENANAfL5JPMJjYA
This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.747Please respect copyright.PENANAdEWpijEAqw
A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 747Please respect copyright.PENANA5JqSHY2szt
His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.747Please respect copyright.PENANA8lOQzT2sIi
Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 747Please respect copyright.PENANATNkG8o7GKb
Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 747Please respect copyright.PENANApyMmw6bBLP
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 747Please respect copyright.PENANAcV5MaEXxWj
I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 747Please respect copyright.PENANAIkHvLQVJ7q
So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 747Please respect copyright.PENANA6FY1b75OVA
...747Please respect copyright.PENANAtF8w2ePbfP
And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?747Please respect copyright.PENANAJvfs9CUxSG
Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.747Please respect copyright.PENANAkYq2a9FqWH
But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)747Please respect copyright.PENANAlm1Hx6F74j
So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 747Please respect copyright.PENANAajDyuZV0iL
I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 747Please respect copyright.PENANAnQuR9aLP1n
But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?747Please respect copyright.PENANAt7JVAujlzg
I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 747Please respect copyright.PENANAwKtmySJVRe
So calling it off, was it that bad?747Please respect copyright.PENANAuWPm9g7r99
Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 747Please respect copyright.PENANAYLc1fwouV9
BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)747Please respect copyright.PENANAhIMuTbcdur
But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 747Please respect copyright.PENANAPmKE2dII2Z
If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 747Please respect copyright.PENANAtaRbQAUZus
But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 747Please respect copyright.PENANAGHK601H8zL
He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 747Please respect copyright.PENANAqnIzTP2vfA
So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 747Please respect copyright.PENANADuIZhUXZWX
Henceforth, we have this. 747Please respect copyright.PENANA4JkpGXi6Ot
Thanks for bearing with me. 747Please respect copyright.PENANA7GouANVOeS
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