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    The next day, Jessy doesn't show up to school all day, nor the next day. I'm worried to death for him. Also at the end of class, I will question Amy in order to obtain his address. She gives a little smile which immediately makes me think that she is going to rush to find Chad and tell him but, honestly, I don't care. At this moment, I don't care about my reputation, all that matters is this boy who has already indelibly marked my life and for whom I worry so much. I have to struggle for a little while and make up a crazy story, but in the end, I leave the school with the coordinates in my pocket. Immediately, I went to his house. He lives in an old two story house which has retained its incredible charm, despite the renovation work it has undergone. The paint, a light yellow, was redone recently. It’s just the kind of well kept house my dad likes. This thought makes me smile. A covered terrace, where a bench and two armchairs have been installed, shelters the entrance to the house. I climb the three steps and ring the bell. I don't have to wait long before the door opens for Jessy.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbV92q1fdpG
    — I’m not in the mood to worry, he told me point blank.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfU1ExIVhqB
    He looks tired, preoccupied. Despite his obvious bad mood, I'm happy to see him. These last two days without seeing him seemed like an eternity. His mother comes up behind him. I can only glimpse it briefly.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PQ4Vul3ik
    — It’s for me, mom, he tells her.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOdjxxIpHrg
    Understanding that he doesn't want to talk to me in front of her, I decide to play on it and, leaning towards him, I whisper to him : 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhstciTkRts
    — I'll stay until we've talked, and it's too bad if your mother asks me what I want.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAYLbyE0mv
     His green eyes stare at me, trying to see if I'm bluffing or not, finally, he gives in.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWBfpDhbKd
    — Very well, I’m coming.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtDFa3DaTf
     He grabs a denim jacket before following me down the street.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUrq4aYook
    We walk aimlessly, following the roads that pass before us in complete silence. I don't know how to start the discussion, I'm afraid of offending him, or of upsetting him if I question him too much.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOaEsYloqEI
    — So ? You wanted to talk to me, go ahead ! He says in a bad mood, as we arrive near an abandoned factory.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RFWgGGVCz
    Intimidated, as always by his presence at my side, I take it upon myself to get started : 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡglM8zfdMzi
    — You haven't come to school for the last two days...413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWs45WHNnM
    — Oh yes, you noticed, well done ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPeusNaWOAr
    — Don’t be sarcastic, please. But you let me down for the presentation ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWxLV5B71qM
    — Oh, and you probably want an apology ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0lk6XZ1EW
    — No, I don't care about this duty.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKB3kerrko
    I use a calm tone so as not to annoy him further.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7GkqKPibg7
    — Why did you come to see me ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRm2r3lHThU
    He stops walking.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUtdTQOQsg
    — I was worried about you.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUA0r2ewQj
    — Well then ! Instead, admit that you want details so you can tell your friends everything afterwards ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMH4mWETMSy
    — I don't plan to tell anyone about it.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2E2mllcH5
    He examines me for a long moment, seeming to search deep in my eyes if he can trust me.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmhO169DFYy
    — How long have you been HIV positive ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4eNVEJ6B2A
    — It's been about a year now.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIj6gfCHae
    — And how did you catch it ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPeEbts2a7
    — One evening at a friend’s party, I met a girl…413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqEyTgSwzN
    — And you slept together ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFwPdyeKtQ
    — No, we watched cartoons ! He said, really angry.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB34PvslMbG
    — She didn’t tell you she was HIV positive ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkc1wuf3Fe
    — She didn't know at the time... A doctor called my mother a few weeks later, Haley had taken a test which came back positive. She had informed the doctor that I was one of her partners. I had to go get tested myself and that’s how I learned that she infected me.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9G3acGbOT
    — Just for one night you spent together.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8RRMkKYSo
    I whisper this sentence as if to myself.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj951znJEBz
    — Not one night, just a short moment and a lack of condom and this is the result. A word of advice Meg : When you decide to do it with Chad, don't forget the condom otherwise you'll end up like me, a walking corpse ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5haGBFHmPD
    — Jessy, stop saying that ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbMAmkP4NT
    — For what ? It's the truth ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkG17wQ5hBM
    — No, you are in good health, it doesn't even look like you have this virus so you have to be optimistic.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZ0IQLBMM2
    — As if that could cure me ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0s7Z2QGQ6U
    — Yes, it can help you hold on until the doctors find a cure.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCMAf9rvUi
    I spoke more firmly than I wanted. Jessy looks at me, surprised.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGc3bu6DQj
    — You're right, you have to be positive and enjoy life, right ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGETXTWp5B
    Suddenly his gaze changes, it becomes darker. He approaches me and takes me by the waist, holding me tightly against his body. I pull away from him immediately, not out of fear of illness, but as I would with any boy who did it this way.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0b6tmdsHe
    — Hey, weird ! You don't want to kiss me anymore ! This surprises me greatly ! Go find your fantastic and healthy boyfriend and leave me alone ! he shouts as he walks away.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEpyCPgIlrj
    — Jessy, you’re wrong, that’s not it ! Come back ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjMWEdiHKLK
    My words are lost in the silence.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4K2AEUHXy
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    The next morning before classes, which start later today, and where Jessy will certainly still be conspicuous by his absence, I am sitting in a corner of the snack bar. It’s a café where all the young people from high school like to meet for a drink, listen to music and chat. The room is quite large, with its light green imitation leather benches, its silver metal tables and its fifties decoration all in pink and blue. I found Chad there, who is having fun around a pinball machine with his friends a little further away, while I read Jessy's book. In fact, this is the third time I've devoured it since he lent it to me. The story of this man who fights alone against everyone to obtain his freedom after having been condemned in advance by public opinion now takes on a whole new meaning for me. Between these lines, it is Jessy’s life that I see. I can't stop thinking about him, and it drives me crazy. I'm dating Chad, I like Chad. So why do I only think about Jessy's lips on mine ? Why am I so worried about him ? How come I miss him so much ? I have already gone several days without seeing Chad, when he went on vacation with his parents, without ever feeling this emptiness in the pit of my heart. Yet I am in love with him.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6zuRUGDRg
    Do I like Chad ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhQsO2yJWn
    Ah, I'm going to go crazy if this continues ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9sHsJj3DFz
    I raise my head and look at him, he looks at me and gives me a smile that I have trouble responding to, before he turns his attention back to his friends.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyu8rl8p7wg
    Why don't I feel anything when I look at it ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7boKr16VG
    Putting my thoughts aside, I carefully dive back into my reading when Amy approaches me. That day, more than ever, I had no desire to talk to him. As I expected, she reported my comments to Chad and, as always, I had to justify myself. Luckily we have this talk to give, it gave me the perfect excuse.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIid6MuRYZ
    Amy lifts the cover of my book and whispers : 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYngZ85G0M
    — Put down that book ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgfEOcvXex
    — It’s a great book ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXUM5jZ5GXp
    — I will never understand how you could want to read outside of class, there are so many things413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8JIRQ31bm
    much more exciting to do…413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1HVfJ5mp9
    — Excuse me…413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bXkqvhT3i
    I get up quickly after seeing Jessy passing in the street.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡguW73pV4Db
    Hurriedly, I leave the café.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1FGOuspB2o
    — Jessy ! Wait for me ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OKx213o7F
    As usual, he hears me, but continues on his way.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTnEs7O38o
    — I have your book ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNo5phwYYTQ
    This time, I manage to catch his attention, he stops on the sidewalk.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1PfjwfQXj
    — What do you want from me ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfaxCX5vW48
    — I just wanted to give that back to you.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJWGx1gc8X
    I hand him his paperback, staring at him, my heart rate increasing.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJxop3BtBK
    — And then, I wanted us to talk.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9JfdcnmLW
    — I think we said everything. You should go back to your boyfriend.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyM4hMYxJb
    — I don’t want to talk with Chad, but with you.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60Dp4BKWyb
    — Thank you, that’s a pleasure, says a familiar voice behind me, making me jump.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV68P67kdfC
    I quickly turn around to see my boyfriend.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2kUuFwtxZ
    — It's not what you think. But I need to talk to Jessy.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4WMH79QDk
    — We have nothing to say to each other, he repeats.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg5FykrA3Hi
    — Glad to hear you say that ! Stop hovering over my girlfriend ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjyFeAa9TX
    — Hey, I’m here, Chad ! You don't have to speak on my behalf and even less tell me who I can talk to or not ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZa5i4wFqj
    — There, I agree with you, replies Jessy.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91kEb57noT
    — We didn't ask you anything ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl9vhgTlzhP
    — Leave him alone ! It’s me who wants to talk to him ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38myQ6CHIB
    — Are we having a threesome now ? Chad angrily grabs my arm.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOmSzj7HVC
    He squeezes it tightly and takes me with him towards the snack bar.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡriuC0oEHDS
    — Let me go, I demand, trying to get out of his grip. You're ridiculous ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM35polwW3D
     Chad tightens his grip further.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtbG77APt8
    — I just want to talk to you.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjx03DfCCSR
    — So let go of me, you’re hurting me ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWacJihEiLI
    — Let her go ! Jessy demands, interposing.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPcMpeX0fRW
    — Don't get involved ! My boyfriend shouts, finally releasing my sore arm before pushing Jessy along the wall of the establishment.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIdm0zzm3V
    — Don’t hit me, Jessy warned.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWWIToA1XW4
    — Ah, Monsieur gives more orders, says Chad angrily, putting his fist in the young man's stomach.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSPQqhYEJD
    In shock, Jessy doubles over, dropping his book.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJKHWJuN2a
    — Chad, stop ! I scream in the middle of the street.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQ58gG1kuM
    Jessy, still hunched over, rushes at Chad and knocks him to the ground. He finds himself straddling him, trying to keep him on the ground while asking him to calm down. But you don't know Chad very well to think that he's going to let himself be controlled so easily. Soon they are rolling on the sidewalk, almost falling onto the road. Chad finds himself on top of Jessy and punches him in the stomach again. Then he stands up, waiting for Jessy to get up. When he gets back to his feet, he spreads his hands in a sign of appeasement, but Chad rushes at him again and hits him in the cheek.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuR5pFWT50P
    — Chad ! Leave him ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymujrHGTwV
    Jessy picks up his book and walks away, but Chad comes at him again and hits him in the back. Jessy falls to his knees as Chad walks around to face him and grabs him by the collar of his T-shirt.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphRige3a5r
    No matter how much I beg him, Chad doesn't listen to me. I am about to betray my promise when, fortunately, two police officers intervene to separate them, surrounding them.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhZPyOm8B8
    Jessy immediately regains his calm while Chad continues to struggle in order to continue the fight.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwl3crjxYL4
    — What is happening here ? Asks the officer holding Jessy.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SRR0yqL9C
    — This guy is hitting on my girlfriend, Chad shouts, still annoyed.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQKWjkMgcP
    — Anything ! I shout angrily. Jessy is a friend and there’s no way you’re going to forbid me from talking to him ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7iaZTghme9
    My boyfriend stares at me in astonishment while I think I see recognition in Jessy's eyes. This has the gift of calming Chad who lets his arms fall while blowing.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfpOf9Lxnt9
    — Can we let go of you ? Asks the second police officer.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84EtPdM4WD
    Both boys nodded weakly.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfRdSBuk6C
    — It’s not over yet, Chad says, staring at Jessy, before heading back to the snack bar.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1rAabbH5K
    — It'll be OK ? Asks the other agent. He hurt you, do you want to go to the hospital ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FC9SUp1nc
    Jessy's complexion suddenly turned pale.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntDT13Goxp
    — No, it’s okay.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSLzkOIihS
    — I’ll take care of him, I intervene, moving closer to him.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHyurZhs7f
    With a knowing look, the two police officers walk away.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5iGMADMhKd
    — Thank you, Jessy sighs.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVBXy2TS5lM
    — You seemed panicked at the idea of going to the hospital.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpLn0EFuIB
    — Yeah, I'm not a big fan of it. I've already just left my doctor's office, I'm not going to spend the rest of my day on a stretcher.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdBN3AQfyV
    I pick up his book and give it back to him.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOABAO4dNJH
    — Do you want to talk now ? I ask.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgeHNMa0NI6
    Jessy purses his lips.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdhfLQpevoh
    — You never give up ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvirnV0Xv3q
    — It depends on the subject but when it’s something important to me, no, I never give up.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyRXYhPdXg
     Jessy seems touched by my words, he lowers his head and nods, pursing his lips.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOChtIFUGsd
    Without even asking him if he plans to go to class this morning, we head towards his house.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUviJfaPGux
    — Did you like the book ? He finally asked after a long silence.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKELyZ6HTV
    — I devoured it ! I'll have to buy a copy.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHMNodR0h2
     His smile is radiant when he tells me : 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHWfbK0FRr
     — I'm glad you liked it. You're the first person I've told about this.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomFhjhoMqV
    I take advantage of this confidence to try to learn more.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfbSNXTNfdp
    — You told me you went to the doctor, are you okay ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqO6xI8adlA
    — My doctor told me that apart from being HIV positive, I am in great shape. She will do regular blood tests to monitor how the virus is progressing and has also encouraged me to join a support group of people who have the same problem as me, he tells me as he stops walking.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQAZ02Iy0S
     I meditate on his words for a few seconds, I know how important the subject is and I definitely don't want to focus on it.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXR0Dk7U25h
    — I think you should try going to one of these meetings. After all, what are you risking ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16YMvVAUI6
    He raises his face to the sky and observes a cloud which moves slowly, pushed by a light wind.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjQm5FXkbf
    — Maybe you're right.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UjihrJmwI
    Satisfied with his answer, I leave him in front of his house. As I head back home, I'm torn between the pleasure of being closer to Jessy and the anger that overcomes me when I think of Chad. I know this situation has gone on for too long.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCtv956Vap
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    I had barely crossed the threshold of my house when my mother told me that Chad was waiting for me in the garden.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqoNavWSKNe
    — Neither of you have been to class and Chad looks upset, she said. What's going on, Megan ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡscV2VwVhd5
    — I'm sorry, mom. I should have warned you. Chad and Jessy fought before we went to high school. Chad crossed the line, Jessy is hurt, and believe me, he really didn't need this.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtcpnJntU5
    My mother examines me carefully. I'm not going to lie, along the way I thought about how events unfolded and the more I think about it, the more my anger grows.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNwMZVsYjbI
    — And this fight happened because of how you feel about Jessy ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNLU6o97z3
    I agree, nodding my head.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHcBucobbj
    — Now, do you know what you are doing ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzLAAK8U6g
    — Yes, even if it is painful, I can no longer hide my face.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaR0wTGiDCK
    My mother gives a little knowing smile.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoOLXb77Jmm
    — GOOD. I don't like it when you skip school, but this time, I'm giving up. You will go to class this afternoon. In the meantime, go and sort this situation out. Good luck.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu87Zlfh6Qb
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     Chad is pacing around the yard when I open the back door of the house to join him.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJYR2XDBSU
    — Finally you're here ! Were you with him ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEx7D6ZXfTA
     The tone of his voice is icy. If he thinks I'm going to let him talk to me like that, he's sorely mistaken.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8FJMb5llY
    — Remind me, when did we get married ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHjce0y5b2E
    — Pardon ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8CDrFqRQu
    — No, because the reason you're acting like an incredible asshole is because we've been married for years and you think I'm your property, right ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNNGiIxgemH
    Chad puts his hand to his forehead and bursts out into mirthless laughter.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYQD7W3MEW
    — I should have known you were going to take his side. Damn, Meg, you don't realize this guy is manipulating you to separate us ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9lRM7cyi67
    If until now I had managed to keep calm, his words made me lose all control.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNg1MI6Ftt
    — But you are completely delusional ! I'm not your thing, I'm free to do what I want ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡllFIaEw6cK
    — Like sleeping with him ! ? He writes to himself, clenching his fists.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHNAAgvs4F
    — I'm not going out with him ! I scream. And I'm not going out with you anymore ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡilw3q07sdi
    In shock, he takes two steps back.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcuUUgy0vA6
    — What ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLVH4SdQeN
    — You understood me very well. It's over Chad.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldXfkRmVbo
    — He succeeded then ? He wanted to separate us and you become his accomplice.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5U09RDmrv
    This time it’s me who’s in shock. Where did he get such an idea ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CSzkYmsXU
    — No, but do you hear yourself ? I'm talking to you about us, not Jessy. He never even suggested that I break up with you, even after you hit him earlier.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3YAPdJUou
    — You're not going to make me believe that it's enough for you to realize that you don't love me anymore.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2n5iQ8ihT
    — Since we have been together, I have asked myself a lot of questions, I admit, going to sit down on a chair in the garden furniture. We have nothing in common. I know that I annoy you when I talk to you about literature and you annoy me when I try to share a moment with you and you are so captivated by a match on TV that you don't care.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96uMCmIyNF
    Chad opens his mouth to respond but remains silent.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9BdUNRjJF1
    — You know I’m right, I insist calmly. You and I have known each other since we were kids, we have always been friends and I think we should have stayed that way.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOi3xjRFRnu
    He takes a deep breath as his eyes water.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwaDEqGg7I
    — So you don’t love me anymore ? he whispers.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQggPlnwpSE
    — Yes I love you but, contrary to what I thought, I realized that I am not in love with you. I love you as a friend, not as the man of my life.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbK8CQyqus
    — And did you realize how you felt, before or after falling in love with Jessy ? He get angry again. It’s not over Meg ! I'm sure this guy is hiding something and trust me I'll find out what it is ! You will come back to me Meg ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSoIVydxZUs
    — Chad ! Chad ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEO3z228Zf0
    But it's too late, he's already slammed the door behind him.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtanns4Wns
    I feel relieved to finally have been able to put into words what had bothered me since the beginning of our story, but I am also worried at the thought of Chad discovering Jessy's secret. I hope his threats are out of anger and that after he calms down he will realize their stupidity.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTLcLuY6Po
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    In the afternoon, I head back to school and smile as soon as I see Jessy arriving in the main hallway.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtD2JX0prz
    — You’ve decided to come back, I comment.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLCrsQwDLaV
    — Yeah, I don’t want Chad to think he’s got the upper hand on me, he replies as we walk down the hall towards our class.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSd4y8DKZC
    — Good choice. But I need to talk to you.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEpFh0rkEb6
    Without waiting, I pull him by his jacket away from the crowd of students and lead him into a corner near the boys' bathroom. I don't want anyone to hear our exchange.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp89Pal9qZY
    — What is happening ? He asks me, frowning.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDaXASVxg6B
    — Chad was at my house when I got home.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1OOtJN5KS
    — Okay, he says slowly.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8ZSSFHEou
    — I broke up with him, I admit abruptly.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOvgssjh7Fa
    His already piercing gaze locks on mine and never lets go. I wish I could drown in it but I only have a short time before the bell rings.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mGrCsudrZ
    — He is very angry with you. He thinks you made me dump him.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQWFAT4rq4
    — I have never done that ! He writes to himself, shocked.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6PcbAJKuI0
    — I know that perfectly, but I think he's looking for someone to blame for our breakup, when there's no one to blame. We're not meant for each other, that's all. Anyway, he told me you're hiding something and he's going to find out what it is. So be careful, okay ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtAlRJTUm3c
    — Yeah.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiqgVhCacEO
    He leans against the wall behind him and whispers, with tears in his eyes : 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvicsIhIJdV
     — I don't want it to start again like in my old school, I couldn't stand it.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2CEirlzRN
    Seeing him abandon his armor in favor of sincerity upsets me beyond words. In these moments of fragility, I meet the real Jessy, not the one who takes a cold attitude to send me away but the sensitive boy who has suffered too much.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbGwT3Ydec
    — That won’t happen, I reassure him. You are not alone here, I am your friend, I will always be here no matter what happens.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0NMsYazip
    — Thanks Meg. I thought about what you told me earlier, about the support group for HIV— positive people. I called my doctor to ask for the contact details of the center.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjir0egLGMB
    — Great, I smile. It will help you to talk with people who have the same virus as you, you will certainly be able to help each other.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgQKMnI7g7
    — I don’t really believe it, but I’m going to try to go to a meeting, he said, resuming a distant attitude. So maybe you'll let go of me a little ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3nicZZ8TN
    The bell which announces the resumption of classes interrupts our discussion.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwv7BuWcbH
    — Here, I said, handing him my notes. That way you'll be up to date on math.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnagrfoZbcZ
    — Thanks Megan. Sometimes it’s good to have you in my life ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotCTNZVda3
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    The last bell announcing the end of the day has barely sounded before a rumor invades the establishment. I'm putting my things in my locker when I hear whispers about Jessy. I turn to him who is standing a little further away in front of his locker. He lowers his head, shoulders hunched and lips pursed.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJsSpt6rNZH
    Around us, the students murmur among themselves, stunned. At the time, AIDS was still a little— known disease; we were only in the early stages of medical research. There are lots of rumors about how and why this disease spreads, but the truth is that people still know very little about it. The only things we know for sure are that AIDS is scary and deadly. All eyes are fixed on Jessy, those who pass behind him move aside to make sure not to touch him.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡybWOjJQXxU
    A student I vaguely know passes in front of me, I intercept him to ask him what this new rumor is.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1idq4L2qW
    — You are not aware ? Jessy Sutter, the new student, he has AIDS and what's more, he's homosexual ! He announces to me proudly. Above all, don't go near him, you never know.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlza0dg4OwL
    I don't have time to send him away, he's already moved away.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhocq8QdIE2
    I look at Jessy again. He raises his head, fixes me with a burning look of anger before leaving the school as quickly as possible.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUrYaxzj3H
    I do not understand anything. How can everyone know ? One thing is certain, given Jessy's fury, he thinks I betrayed him.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLft013IiW
    I rush after him but when I get outside, he has already disappeared.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCk8LGhJ0XM
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    After looking for Jessy all over town for what seemed like hours, imagining him alone, depressed, I gathered up my courage and went to his house. The door opens to reveal his mother.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wzLQmXp2i
    — Hello, she greets me kindly.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtWFyROoM6
    From the first glance, I feel that she is an understanding woman. Her long blond hair and green eyes identical to those of her son reflect the gentleness that I also detect in Jessy.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XIxlVBr0Y
    — Good morning. Is Jessy there ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQNIH6rIma
    — No. You're Megan, right ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpksHdEEyW8
    I nod in agreement.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfa2R11eofS
    — Jessy told me about you.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0pvOppBcvJ
    — I've been looking for him everywhere since school ended, hasn't he come back ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9jGomv5KKr
    — No, I have not seen it. He must be walking somewhere now that everyone knows Jessy is infected.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHnIK7dWiB
    I look at her, surprised that she was able to guess, she continues : 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnvHYGOLrw
    — I received a call from the school. Apparently, parents of students learned of the rumor and immediately reported it to the school administration. I am called this evening to talk about my son's state of health and to see if he can continue his education in this establishment.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXFP3pTSAY
    — My God, this is nonsense ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCA63aYtJYf
    — Unfortunately that's what happens when people know Jessy has AIDS. Everywhere he goes, he is rejected. This has happened before in Allentown, and it's happening again here. Everyone is afraid of being contaminated by simple contact, even my husband can't stand living under the same roof as him.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1Hcx2RSGj
    Mrs. Sutter shakes her head as if her thoughts could evaporate with that gesture.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Fc3OC4UhV
    — It is so unfair. I need to talk to him. Contrary to what he thinks, I did not betray him. I don't know how his secret was revealed. You don't know where he might be ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10tSl9iML5
    — He sometimes leaves alone for hours.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKMuGsKksp
    — You are never afraid that he…413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQNjSrkCkdl
    Mrs. Sutter looks at me as if to say, “Would that be worse than what awaits him ?”413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVQf0keZpB
    I thank her and go home, totally dejected. Not only do all students now have to know about Jessy's condition, but even the administration is threatening not to keep him.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtj8qlWmchp
    When I walk through the door of my house, night begins to fall. I hear my parents talking.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIAdY3hnpS
    — Meg, it’s you ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡikK2WYtDry
    — Yes Dad.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNIbyjhugc
    — Can you come ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVahagF3dR
    I walk down the hallway and into the kitchen, where my parents are sitting around the table.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ELLZLHSyz
    — Nina told us what is being said around town about Jessy. Is it true ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZaWXZMPRL
    I nod silently.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqz4nqdUbRS
    — How long have you known that ? Ask my mother.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaMe2oQ6mw
    — Since the other evening, when he stayed to eat. He admitted it to me when I took him home.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0rsBxu9Ij
    — You could have told us about it ! My father points out.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHL1baCw8g
    — I told him I wouldn't tell anyone. I didn't want to break my word...413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4VFJCIPP0
    — Then how…413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkoWnPw658
    — You can believe me mom, I keep asking myself that question. I only see one answer : Chad. This afternoon, he was very upset with Jessy and promised to find his secret. However, I don't know how he found out about it.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1TlAMRJMsu
    — Is it true that Chad fought with Jessy because you wanted to talk to him ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwO9Cf0FHIz
    I nod.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSnAYxKppn
    — Chad wanted to force me into the snack bar, Jessy intervened to defend me.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFQu50jUu9D
    My response makes my father clench his fists and he says : 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNq1NAGdC8m
     — He loses nothing by knowing what I think of his way of fighting like that and the rest.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlN2pQWk2q
    — Are you aware that Mrs. Sutter has been summoned to high school ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicnyYHxqdR
    In front of my parents' questioning looks, I tell them the words of Jessy's mother.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrwYhp4bI5
    My mother makes a few phone calls and tells us : 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2HMVa4yB4
    — The parents’ council is meeting this evening with the administration. Officially, they can't fire Jessy because he's sick, but they can send a report to the academy who will judge what to do in such a circumstance.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3A1ed4AIHY
    Seeing my dismayed face, my father said to me : 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2bvJLcu7g
    — Don’t worry, darling. We will go to this meeting and we will support Ms. Sutter. It will be fine.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5UjX4zjJsi
    Less convinced than my father, I go into the garden and sit on the swing. Alone with my thoughts, I realize that I have suddenly aged. Before I met Jessy, I was a carefree kid with few worries, but now I see life differently. And to think that it’s only been ten days since Chad’s party. I wanted to become an adult, I'm served ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHxtWhtsYs
    Jessie, where are you ? I sigh, mulling over the latest events. I don't hear Nina open the back door.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04UtldSP5h
    — I was wondering where you were, she says, making me jump. The parents are out, Chad is there. He wants to see you.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaG4OaDXcuK
    I sigh again. After what happened this afternoon, I still don't want to talk to him. But he doesn't wait to hear my opinion before following my sister who, feeling the storm brewing in the sky as much as with my ex-boyfriend, slips away.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Q65egVPej
    — I came to apologize for my behavior this morning. If I had known Jessy was gay, I wouldn't have been jealous of you talking to him.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEG0lWlYDV
    I huff, exasperated. Chad looks at me, I see the incomprehension on his face.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJyda0cO1KS
    — He is not homosexual. It was a girl who infected him ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPSe9lTw0z
    — Sorry, but how could I have known ? You don't tell me anything anymore ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeULpyzpO5H
    — Sorry, but when someone tells me a secret, I do my best to keep it. Were you the one who revealed Jessy's illness to everyone ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLisovf0KKf
    His false innocent appearance betrays him even before he confesses. I think I see a little boy having done something stupid with his hands in his pants pockets, squirming for words. Even when we were children, he behaved this way. His attitude makes my anger explode.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGaJGRPbwB
    — It's about time you grew up, Chad ! You are so immature at times ! Do you realize that now everyone knows about their state of health ? That he might be kicked out of school ? That you're ruining his life ? But no, you don’t care as long as you make him pay for my breakup ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vHLTwalqC
    Annoyed, he lowers his head. This attitude annoys me even more.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1xwDQhUaC
    — I know, I screwed up. But if you had told me everything...413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1OmkEsWwJ
    I give him a murderous look. He's old enough to know how to behave.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQqVj0rKVJs
    — Don’t ever ask me why I broke up with you again ! If you want to have an answer, look at yourself in the mirror... That is, if you can ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8yWdYYnHC
    — You don't even realize that since he arrived in town, you have completely ignored me ! Chad gets angry in turn.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXnunOLxAe
    — It’s nothing to do with it ! I'm the guilty one, the one who understood that we are too different. Jessy had nothing to do with our relationship ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Z4djdPcnm
    — I know, he whispers. I heard him say it this afternoon.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46pNl274aJ
    My eyes must be as round as saucers because Chad continues : 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0sxn8Pg4Av
    — I was behind the bathroom door when you were talking. I heard your conversation, that’s how I knew.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwTRYOkji6H
    — Oh my God ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡow2IIByLZi
    With tears in my eyes, I place my hands over my mouth.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLzCE3DirP
    — I’m sorry Meg. I didn't want things to go this far.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUa5vEmCm2P
    — And you rushed to repeat it to the whole school ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUw9XzmCowU
    — I only told a few friends but it spread quickly. I really blame myself.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhpC7xT9bS
    My eyes filled with tears, I whisper : 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQr0rasXLk
    — You can.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMon94uRrbd
    — You’ll never want me again after this, will you ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjZouMmxnY
    I shake my head.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1R9eRrLKQ8
    — You disappointed me a lot, Chad. You are still my friend but I no longer trust you. I'm sorry.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlklr9z7KnY
    — You don’t have to be, it’s my fault. I went way too far. The role of the jealous boyfriend doesn't work for me, he smiles sadly. Do you want us to remain friends ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeeNji9HPVm
    I nod in agreement. I know that after digesting these events, I will forgive him. I can't not have him in my life, he's been part of it for too long.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcbL7BuZdJ
    Chad is about to enter the house again when, turning around, he says to me : 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfHWV066y6
    — By the way, if you're looking for Jessy, it seems he hangs out near the bridge over the highway.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HqFoZmwhX
    As soon as Chad leaves, I put on my black parka and head in the direction he told me. Night has now fallen, the air is heavy, the storm threatens to break out at any moment. I hurry the three kilometers, running half the way. I arrive on the bridge, out of breath, but happy to see Jessy there. It is a narrow bridge, reserved for pedestrians, it allows us to reach a corner of the forest which encircles the city. Jessy paces along the steel guardrail, watching the cars and trucks speeding by on the dual carriageway just below. His face is half lit by the streetlights placed all along the highway. He turns to me as I approach.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOx6q3k3P76
    — What are you doing here ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Cc7wh8w88
    His tone is dry.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuVDXPXdrra
    — I've been looking for you for hours.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxArjLAKhwq
    — Well, you found me. You see, I'm still alive, you can go back now.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6e49TnVGW0
    — I'm sorry for what happened. I discussed it with Chad, he was the one who spread the rumor.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUYtKcqI2KW
    — So you came so that I could forgive him ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTReYEvN3G
    I look at him, incredulous; However, I have to admit that he is not entirely wrong. I wish we could all be friends, but I know that is a utopian vision of our friendship. However, even if she is often embarrassing for his interlocutors, I like Jessy's frankness.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs31QpBjtHg
    — I came because I'm afraid for you. It's late, come home with me.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ090UtzfFN4
    Jessy looks at me with a disillusioned look but doesn't answer. He starts walking along the railing again, moving away from me. He seems hypnotized by the vehicles passing beneath our feet.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5yoDuBoKgj
    — Ever since I’ve known you, you’ve spent your time moving away. Why are you running away from everyone ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrlSvWtkVUt
    I shout to cover the sound of a heavy truck passing below.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡocIxHQIKfZ
    Suddenly a lightning bolt tears through the sky. Jessy turns around angrily.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2QV9ftnGG
    — I'm not running away from anyone ! It's the others who never want me ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGSuim9d5t
    He sits on the railing which is only a few centimeters wide, passes his legs over the air, wraps them around the metal bars. A new flash of lightning illuminates the sky. Despite the heaviness of the night, I tremble and move closer to him to hold him by the back of his jacket.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkRo8HSJeb
    — Jessy, please. Come back ! You're scaring me ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXQBOJ90kJ
    — I'm a danger to others, Meg ! I'm just on reprieve from this crap ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvIFoocx5P
    The tone of his voice is no longer charged with anger, but full of despair. It squeezes my heart.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeS44UxnaFM
    — No ! You are not a risk to anyone ! And you are still here, alive and well ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCrx0RNAAd
    Thunder suddenly cracks, startling me. I move closer to him and tighten my grip.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8z5DbNLWX
    — Do you want to know what brought me here ? He says to me, letting go of the railing with his hands.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlq5YKnXSwg
    He opens his arms wide, closes his eyes and falls forward, screaming in rage. Despite my efforts to hold him, his leather jacket slips through my fingers and I let go.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjoVmPcy07
    — Jessy, no ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrs1nccPn7v
    I scream as loud as I can as I see him fall into the void.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQrMSHPXcP
    I put my hands to my mouth while closing my eyes, not daring to open them because I am so sure that he has thrown himself under the wheels of the vehicles passing underneath. And then I suddenly realize that I care about him much more than I wanted to admit to myself until now. Yes, he's HIV positive, angry at the whole world and he spends a lot of time telling me off and yet, without knowing why yet, I can't help but think about him every minute. Suddenly, I hear him scream again at the same time as thunder cracks near us. I slowly open my eyes to see him hanging by his legs above the void. With a quick movement, he manages to stand up, then sit down again on the railing before coming back to my side. I admire his flexibility as I breathe with relief. He rushes straight towards me angrily.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7awV3QtfTC
    — I'm going to die, Meg, my life expectancy is so low that it's not worth living ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9nyn3c4eKa
    His voice is thick with anger and despair.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8DY4Jxhpp
    — No, I said, crying. You're not sick and you may never be sick, but you have to keep breathing, keep fighting this shit ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigKwvMKksg
    — To do what ? What awaits me in this cursed life ? Everyone will start turning their backs on me again, whispering in my way, being afraid of me.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLCKw8jE7XH
    Do you think that’s what it’s like to live ? 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrZdDeGGVx
    He points to the highway.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgAjEPdkwy
    — AIDS has already made me fall into a void, vehicles have already crushed me. And none of your prayers or hopes can save me ! he shouts.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgeh4mqo7WS
    My tears increase in the face of my helplessness. Jessy is going to die, it's just a matter of time and, in this second, I am fully aware of it.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTutzumYtbt
    — This virus is circulating inside me and nothing anyone says or does to me will make it go away ! I will have to live the little time I have left carrying this burden alone ! I can't, I can't take this anymore. Reliving what I experienced in Allentown is beyond my strength ! 413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgi3KBIV6KI
    He lowers his arms, weariness written on each of his features. Cries that he has had to repress many times flood his face. I go to snuggle up against him, immediately his arms embrace me.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEADonLzS8A
    — I’m here, you’re no longer alone. I'm here Jessy, I repeat to him several times, hoping that my words penetrate his bruised heart.413Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCoiDm8Qkbt
    Above us the storm calms down as the rain unleashes, mixing our tears with those of the sky.8964 copyright protection409ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwfBEYao72 維尼

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