I’m tired.537Please respect copyright.PENANAJ0ytgk7JSE
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by537Please respect copyright.PENANA0S5oGGygL4
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead537Please respect copyright.PENANAdWmephyiQF
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy537Please respect copyright.PENANAbjuMHi0M0U
to pick them up and set them back down.537Please respect copyright.PENANA7X8qIqb7qd
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing537Please respect copyright.PENANAxgWkP182Su
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk537Please respect copyright.PENANADx4KYb8XfK
like a normal person, thank you.537Please respect copyright.PENANAgA5wErcUpA
I try.537Please respect copyright.PENANAjDGZo4sjRY
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking537Please respect copyright.PENANAmjRisZyTOp
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground537Please respect copyright.PENANAck4bLxAyw9
just barely making it from one place to another537Please respect copyright.PENANADa4dLzXgNG
without damage.
I’m tired.537Please respect copyright.PENANAWWQcfrrBad
Just this Wednesday I was driving home537Please respect copyright.PENANAiGIqkhuclk
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road537Please respect copyright.PENANASUpoLaUEpP
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and537Please respect copyright.PENANA2hTj3rIlq6
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me537Please respect copyright.PENANAx1FOl4BEc5
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken537Please respect copyright.PENANAkRGiwQdONq
for those I’m not sure how to help537Please respect copyright.PENANAplrQbOfehg
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.537Please respect copyright.PENANAK1ns8LQ2rk
And while I was driving down the highway537Please respect copyright.PENANA2T5Ty3g9p4
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel537Please respect copyright.PENANAqAFQx3seci
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the537Please respect copyright.PENANAh2MBhlVdRv
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to537Please respect copyright.PENANAmrhcNPuMyx
collide with the wall, break through and destroy537Please respect copyright.PENANAX4O9kcMDdC
the other side.537Please respect copyright.PENANAkAJnvNBA4S
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right537Please respect copyright.PENANAx1fo4LAMT1
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t537Please respect copyright.PENANAhoUPxE4RRt
harm anyone else in the process. But I537Please respect copyright.PENANAt6m7RBEa2l
didn’t do either, even though I537Please respect copyright.PENANAMzAmH0WCIi
got so scared for a minute537Please respect copyright.PENANAPKIRLvyU52
that I would.
I’m tired.537Please respect copyright.PENANAajVKtPeVGC
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar537Please respect copyright.PENANA0RhhqmTr28
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough537Please respect copyright.PENANA7WgN14TNtM
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt537Please respect copyright.PENANAT1DSIq1STu
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten537Please respect copyright.PENANAJxvdmapq2l
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife537Please respect copyright.PENANAUHRnrnxCCc
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart537Please respect copyright.PENANA8UT1OBIT3e
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.537Please respect copyright.PENANASrQ4XoXjW4
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to537Please respect copyright.PENANAl1tkUsCfNO
draw blood, but it was the first time537Please respect copyright.PENANAHlHlIyP85e
I had allowed myself to537Please respect copyright.PENANALZNYOyX98b
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.537Please respect copyright.PENANAoHAE2tOBQy
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never537Please respect copyright.PENANAovfCd3NKZN
actually reach out and go through with it537Please respect copyright.PENANAk8lUhQuEn3
I think because I’m afraid of not existing537Please respect copyright.PENANAvxGO3quVPP
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I537Please respect copyright.PENANANa22uo3Gdw
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure537Please respect copyright.PENANAWgRNII3IZw
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people537Please respect copyright.PENANAQ60A7sVyDX
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself537Please respect copyright.PENANAjYXpcH6qPK
and give up. I have thought about dying every day537Please respect copyright.PENANAeyZ40CjLsr
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just537Please respect copyright.PENANAFXoVCMVRR5
go through with it.
I’m tired.537Please respect copyright.PENANAQqRhDkbvMQ
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing537Please respect copyright.PENANAK4qNi9HHsb
for people to care about me when they should537Please respect copyright.PENANAsHhNqEwxRe
care about me on their own. I often think that537Please respect copyright.PENANA6wNSePzpct
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that537Please respect copyright.PENANAYIGSgUXtNX
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.537Please respect copyright.PENANAhepOYLo3oV
She often hurts me more than she improves my life537Please respect copyright.PENANA8TpXRLcz5B
but I’m too afraid to say anything because537Please respect copyright.PENANAo1Fhq00MTn
I need her. I need her to exist537Please respect copyright.PENANA6Q2nPnv7Un
in my existence, and I need her to537Please respect copyright.PENANAjzywbbgfvF
be by my side.537Please respect copyright.PENANAYO2GZy22Ru
But I’m tired.
I’m tired537Please respect copyright.PENANAo9BXkA1c3i
of being tired537Please respect copyright.PENANAvW8pFQIhyj
in this tiring life.