Jim's countless hours of playing with Hannah was enough to finally make him feel happy again, but that apparently (in the counselor's words) "wasn't good enough." Jim was still required to see his counselor on a regular basis. The counselor would constantly tell Anthony and Ellen that Jim needed to learn to find happiness in other places other just playing with Hannah. Although Anthony would never say so out loud, he often had severe doubts that Jim would ever find happiness in other places.
Although it was a major drag for Jim (and a major disappointment for Hannah) to have to stop playing and speak to the counselor, he did so nonetheless. It was also always pretty clear that Anthony hated the appointments and always wished that they would end sooner. To Anthony's (and pretty much everyone else's) surprise, Jim actually did end up progressing in his appointments. It happened very slowly, but it was still happening. This was shown by how well Jim's mannerisms began to improve in areas other than playing with Hannah.
Although about ninety percent of Jim's day was focused on Hannah, he slowly began to interact with the rest of the Burleson family more and more. Jim not only began to speak in full sentences with Anthony and Ellen, but he soon began to have conversations with them. The conversations were usually very small, as he didn't want to take too much time away from playing with Hannah. The conversations were usually Jim talking about how he was feeling or about some of the interesting things he had done with Hannah (he often liked to go into detail about some really wacky games of Castle). Anthony and Ellen would smile the entire time no matter what Jim was talking to them about. It was just great to finally see him being social again.
In addition, Jim also was communicating a lot more with the three boys. While Jim didn't spend several hours a day playing with them, he would still talk to them every so often (mainly whenever Hannah was taking her nap or eating a snack) and began to form some sort of relationship with them. They often would end up having some of the most ridiculous conversations.
"Hey Uncle Jim," Daniel (eight at the time) once asked as he and Elijah came walking into the living room. "Who would win in a fight, Bruce Willis or Jackie Chan?"
"Well Danny," Jim replied. "Bruce Willis is just an actor, Jackie Chan is an actual martial artist. So I'm sure that Jackie would probably know how to fight better than Bruce."
"But Bruce Willis uses guns in all of his movies. Jackie Chan only uses karate and stuff. Wouldn't Bruce shoot him with his guns?"
"Yeah, but Bruce can't do that in real life. It's against the law to shoot anybody."
"But it's also illegal to use karate on people," Elijah (seven at the time) said. "So Jackie Chan can't hit people in real life."
"Exactly, so a fight between them wouldn't even happen," Jim said. "Because it would be illegal for them to even fight each other in the first place."
"But what if it weren't illegal?" Daniel asked.
"Well...then I guess Jackie Chan would win since Bruce Willis probably would think it's wrong to shoot somebody with a gun."
"But it's also wrong to..."
"Okay, okay. If Bruce Willis used a gun, he would win. There you go."
"Yeah! I knew it!"
Anthony, who had been listening to the entire conversation, rolled his eyes and drank his coffee.
Being a lot more social would have been a tremendous improvement all on it's own. But Jim's other actions were also enough to show great signs of improvement. As the years passed, Jim soon began to wake up by himself without the need of Anthony or Ellen (though this was probably because he was anxious to play with Hannah). He also began to make lunch on his own and eat dinner with the rest of the family. This was definitely a major improvement over only eating once a day and not even finishing his food most of the time.
As Hannah began going to school, Jim at first would use the time to just lay down or walk around a bit. He would have a conversation with Ellen every so often, but they usually wouldn't last too long. One thing that Jim eventually began doing to pass the time was cleaning the house. He wouldn't just clean to help Ellen, but just clean because he just wanted to do so. Whether it was sweeping, washing dishes, wiping services, cleaning the bathroom, or even doing laundry, Jim would often randomly start cleaning the house without Ellen even noticing. It was safe to say that Jim's past obsession with cleanliness hadn't left for good.
"I guess I'm out of work now," Ellen once jokingly said to Anthony.
Of course, Ellen tried her hardest not to leave all the cleaning to Jim, but it was quite hard when Jim would often start cleaning before she even had a chance to notice something that was dirty. Unlike Jim, Ellen wasn't that much of a "neat freak" (as Joel would often refer to Jim as behind his back) and would only clean something if it was noticeably dirty. Jim cleaned something when it showed the slightest infraction of being spotless and would sometimes even wipe down surfaces and sweep the floor when they were perfectly fine. Basically, Ellen didn't even have a chance to help with the house most of the time.
"Well, at least he's found a way to stay occupied without Hannah," Anthony once said to Ellen.
As more time passed, Anthony and Ellen began to keep less and less of an eye on Jim to the point where they often would not even look at him for several hours (this obviously changed after Anthony and Ellen began devoting time to spend with Jim and Hannah). Eventually, Anthony and Ellen felt that they could finally trust Jim to stay at the house by himself. There were times where Ellen would run to the store or other places and she would leave Jim at the house alone (as he cleaned it). In Anthony's opinion, this was the greatest accomplishment.
"See, what'd I tell 'ya?" Jim's counselor once said after Anthony and Ellen explained to him all of Jim's improvements.
Anthony didn't believe that Jim's improvements were entirely because of the counseling, but just because of happy Jim was about his bond with Hannah. Needless to say, Anthony became quite worried after that bond started to fade away.
Although Jim assured Anthony that he would never hurt himself again, Anthony still felt quite worried about Jim. Anthony still wanted to make sure as sure that Jim wasn't going to go back to the state he was in years earlier. Anthony began to heavily question Jim day by day, constantly asking to make sure that Jim was feeling alright.
"Anthony, I told that I'm not going to hurt myself," Jim would respond each time. "Stop worrying so much."
Interestingly, Jim's mannerisms hardly changed after he stopped spending time with Hannah. He still woke up and made food on his own, he still heavily cleaned the house, and he still socialized with everybody every so often. While Jim and Hannah weren't playmates anymore, they still had a great relationship and would still talk to each other every so often. Jim often liked to ask her about kindergarten and what fun things that she was doing. Anthony still loved to watch conversations between Jim and Hannah.
Now that Jim was no longer spending countless hours with Hannah on weekends, he now spent the majority of his weekdays either laying on the couch, cleaning the house some more or talking with the boys. Their conversations just continued to get even more bizarre and interesting.
The major difference between Jim's mannerisms before and after he stopped spending time regularly with Hannah was that he now smiled less often. It was clear that Jim saw no reason to smile often due to having no real reason to feel happy. While Anthony was relieved that Jim's improvements hadn't gone anywhere, he still would often feel quite upset whenever he looked at Jim. If only there was something else out there that could make Jim feel happy again...
Anthony always tried his absolute hardest to make sure that Jim was feeling happy. He began to ask him at least three times a day if there was anything that he and Ellen could do to make him happy and Jim would always reply: "just let do my own business and I'll be fine." Jim's tone of voice clearly showed that he was annoyed by Anthony's constant attempts to make him happy.
Even then, Anthony and Ellen both tried their hardest to keep Jim from feeling the least bit uncomfortable. While Jim never minded what Anthony or Ellen made for dinner and always seemed to enjoy it no matter how well-made it was, Anthony and Ellen always went out of their way to make Jim's dinners extremely well done and extra special. In addition, Anthony and Ellen also eventually saved up money to buy Jim his own personal couch to lay on (Anthony and Ellen still kept the old couch for themselves). The couch was expensive, elegant, and very comfortable to lay on. Anthony and Ellen refused to ever sit on the couch and even told the kids to stay off of it whenever Jim wanted to lay down. The couch was only for Jim.
Though Jim said "thank you" each time Anthony and Ellen did these nice things for him, it was clear that he was a little annoyed by the fact that Anthony or Ellen were going slightly overboard in trying keep him comfortable. However, Jim never called Anthony and Ellen out on their overly nice behavior (although Anthony and Jim had both once agreed that there should be no limit to how much kindness you should show towards others). It seemed that even with his annoyed attitude, he still wanted to show respect towards Anthony and Ellen.
The only time that Jim ever actually wanted anything from Ellen and Anthony is (sadly) when either Cassie or Meagan's birthday came around. Just like before his suicide attempt, Jim wanted a cake to celebrate every birthday that he was not part of. Unlike before, Jim preferred to celebrate Cassie and Meagan's birthdays alone and would not sing "Happy Birthday" out loud. Instead, he would light the candles and just close his eyes for a moment. Afterwards, he would blow out the candles and then sit in silence for a few more moments.
Even when Jim formed his bond with Hannah, he kept up with this tradition. Although he loved playing with Hannah as much as possible, he always made sure to set aside time to celebrate Cassie and Meagan's birthdays. Although Hannah always had a difficult time with Jim leaving her to spend a few minutes alone, she always would become ecstatic after Jim returned to tell her that the cake was all for her (which Anthony and Ellen, of course, didn't let her eat all in one sitting).
Even with Jim continuing to show improvement, Anthony and Ellen still often worried about him. It was safe to say that a suicide attempt was not something that was that easy to let go of. However, Anthony and Ellen both at least agreed that Jim was much more stable than he was when he first began living at their house. This became apparent when Jim one day brought up some very unexpected news. He had an upcoming interview at Starbucks.
Two or three months after Hannah began kindergarten, Jim had begun secretly applying for jobs online (using Joel's laptop). He also had started making unknown phone calls whenever Anthony and Ellen weren't looking. Needless to say, Anthony and Ellen were beyond surprised to hear about the interview.
Jim told Anthony and Ellen that he had been secretive about the job searching as he felt that they would try to talk him out of it, something Anthony perfectly understood. This was mainly due to the fact that Anthony wanted to talk Jim out of going to the interview right then. While he was comfortable leaving Jim alone by himself for a short while, he wasn't sure if he was ready to take it to this level. All of Anthony's memories of Jim severely hating all of his past jobs (other than his job as a College Teaching Assistant at A&M) didn't help out at all.
However, it was clear that this is what Jim wanted to do. Nobody, not even the counselor, had even considered that Jim search for a job. Jim looking for a job was one hundred percent his decision. Anthony knew very well that part of keeping Jim happy as possible was respecting all of his decisions.
"Good luck at the interview then," Anthony said after Jim made it clear that he was not changing his mind. "I hope everything goes well."
In the end, Jim was hired at Starbucks. He worked full-time, meaning he was at the house much less from that point on (including weekends). This obviously meant that Anthony and Ellen finally had the chance to clean the house themselves most of the time.
"Whoop de doo," Anthony sarcastically said after Ellen brought this up.
Anthony at first was expecting Jim to hate the job as much as he despised all his past jobs. Interestingly, Jim did not seem to dislike his job at all. If he did, it certainly didn't show. Whenever Jim came home from work (usually around six or seven at night), he would immediately lay on the couch and fall asleep. He would hardly even mention work when he was at home. If Anthony or Ellen ever asked Jim how work was going, Jim would give them one word answers such as "great," "alright," or "okay." He also always replied in a very calm voice.
In addition, Jim actually turned out to be a very strong and hard worker at Starbucks. According to another Starbucks employee (who Anthony spoke with in private), Jim's performance at work was excellent and the managers were all very impressed with him. Anthony was beyond happy and excited to hear this. It was clear at this point that Jim's improvements weren't going anywhere anytime soon. The hard working Jim was back and here to stay.
Sadly, Anthony knew that Jim would more than likely never fully recover. As long as Cassie and Meagan were gone, a large part of Jim's heart would forever remain broken. Anthony didn't feel that that was something that could ever be fixed through any "growing process."
It was still very clear that Jim still had a large amount of heartbreak inside of him even with all of his improvements. At one point, Anthony and Ellen discussed the possibility of getting a pet, and Jim quickly pleaded them to not get a cat. The reason that Jim gave for this was "they'll leave cat hair, which is hard to clean up," but Anthony already knew the real reason.
"We'll just get guinea pigs," Anthony said as a lump formed in his throat.
In another instance, Jim became very upset after seeing two blonde little girls happily running around together at Wal-Mart (he had come with the rest of the family to buy new work shoes). Although Jim denied he was feeling upset, Anthony could tell by how unusually quiet he had suddenly become and how deadpan his voice was. Anthony couldn't help but feel sick to his stomach for the rest of the day.
In the months that followed after Jim first began working, nothing really that eventful happened at the house. Anthony, Ellen, and the kids all continued on with what they normally did as Jim continued to work full time while saying "hi" to the family every so often and seeing his counselor every two weeks. While Anthony wished he could see Jim more often, he was at least happy that Jim usually kept a smile on his face whenever he talked with the family.
That following summer, Jim told Anthony and Ellen something that nearly made them drop their coffee mugs. Jim wanted to move out of the house. The news came so randomly and out of nowhere that Anthony needed at least thirty seconds to even process it.
"I'm...I'm not so sure about that Jim," Anthony suddenly said, shaking a bit.
"I'm not asking you for permission, I'm telling you that that's what I'm going to do," Jim said in a very firm tone of voice. "My mind is made up."
It had been almost five years since Jim's suicide attempt, but Anthony was still haunted by it. Although Anthony could now trust Jim to be alone by himself for several hours and leave the house alone, this was taking it to a whole new level. Anthony just wasn't comfortable with the idea of Jim living by himself with nobody to keep him company. Especially when that heartbreak was still clearly inside him...
"Jim, I really don't think that's a good idea," Anthony said in a slightly more firm tone of voice.
"Anthony, I'm a grown man," Jim said, sternly. "This is my life and this is my choice. This is what I'm going to do."
"Jim, please! I really don't want you to..."
"Anthony, knock it off! I've told you several times that I'm not going to try to kill myself again! Everything I tell you seems to keep slipping through one ear and out the other. Seriously, knock it off with that!"
Anthony said nothing. A lump began to form in his throat.
"Anthony, it's been five freaking years since that happened. Five freaking years. So what, should I throw my independence away for good because of that? Am I not allowed to live my life normally ever again because of that? Should anybody who attempts suicide be forced to throw their life away? Huh?"
Tears began to form in Anthony's eyes.
"Anthony, I just want to get back to living my life. That's it. I don't see what's so hard about that. I don't have all the same problems that I had years ago. I'm doing perfectly fine. I just want to get my life back on track."
Anthony said nothing.
"Plus, didn't you tell me that I needed to move on all those years ago? Isn't that what you told me?"
Anthony took a very deep breath. Tears began to drip from his eyes.
As much as it upset him to do so, Anthony eventually just decided that it was best to follow Jim's wishes again (not that it was Anthony's choice). Using money that he saved up from work, Jim bought a house that was about ten minutes away from Anthony's house. Thankfully, Jim was willing to let family members (including a reluctant Anthony) help pay for the house. It seemed he was willing to get as much help as possible in order to "get his life back on track."
The neighborhood that Jim moved in to couldn't have been any more familiar to Anthony. Jim's new house was only a few blocks away from where he and Anthony's paternal grandmother, Claire Burleson, used to live. Anthony and Jim had spent the majority of their childhood at their grandmother's house due to their parents always working. They not only would stay there after school, but sometimes they had to spend the night there five days a week due to their parents getting home very late so often. Basically, Claire had been the one who had brought up Anthony and Jim during most of their childhood. They were both much closer to her than their own parents and were both beyond sad when she passed away about two month after Jim's wedding. Anthony had not forgotten how he and Jim cried together for several hours after hearing the news.
Claire's house was put up for sale not long after her death and somebody eventually bought it. Anthony hadn't been to the neighborhood in nearly twenty years, but he had no trouble finding it. He couldn't help but shed a few tears as he passed by his grandmother's house now being inhabited by some family that he didn't know. At least they hadn't made any changes to it...
Jim began to move into his new home only a few weeks after announcing his departure from Anthony's house. Because Jim had very little furniture (all he had was the couch that Anthony and Ellen had bought him), Anthony and Ellen began going out of their way to get him as much as possible. They not only began to buy Jim several nice looking tables and chair, but they also gave him some of their own furniture as well (including an overstuffed armchair that Anthony treasured). Although Jim seemed reluctant to take everything, he never objected. Even with his strong desire for independence, Jim still clearly didn't want to disrespect his family.
"Thanks guys," Jim said to Anthony and Ellen after he was completely moved in. "I appreciate all the help."
Jim smiled as he spoke, but a look in his eyes showed that he was still feeling quite upset about something. Anthony didn't doubt that Jim was being honest about wanting to return to living his life, but it was still obvious that Jim was not "perfectly fine," as he had said. It seemed that Jim knew very well that it was extremely unlikely that he would ever truly get his life back on track.
Just as Anthony predicted, the months that followed after Jim's departure were beyond difficult. Even with Jim "promising" that he was feeling fine, Anthony worried severely whenever he thought of Jim. That sad look in Jim's eyes was very hard to forget about.
Anthony began to call Jim every single day, much to Jim's annoyance. Although Jim stated that he had no problem with talking to his family on the phone, he was clearly irritated by Anthony constantly calling him and asking him to make sure that he was not feeling upset. Jim eventually stopped answering the majority of Anthony's phone calls and claimed that he was getting "too busy" to speak on the phone every day. Although this was clearly not the actual reason, Anthony was at least glad that Jim was trying his hardest not to sound rude to his family. Eventually, Anthony reduced his phone calls to no more than twice a week and did nothing more than ask Jim how everything was going. Though Jim always told him that everything was going fine in a very cheerful voice, Anthony was not at all convinced. It was just too unrealistic for anybody to be always doing "great" whenever they were called on the phone.
Jim visited Anthony at his house at least once a week (usually on Saturdays, the day that he was usually off from work). He usually didn't stay for more than a few hours and would usually do nothing but talk about everything was going with Anthony and Ellen and then quickly say "Hi" to the kids. Jim, of course, always smiled and talked cheerfully as he spoke with the family and the things he talked about with them overall sounded positive. After working at Starbucks for a year and a half, Jim was promoted to a shift manager (Anthony was surprised that this hadn't happened a lot sooner). He also generally got along with people that he worked with and would sometimes have conversations with them. In addition, Jim had formed a great relationship with an elderly couple that lived about two blocks away from his house. He sometimes would have dinner with them and even watered their plants for them every so often. After seeing Jim turn into a recluse all those years ago, it was beyond refreshing for Anthony to hear that Jim was forming relationships with people.
However, that sad look remained in Jim's eyes the entire time that he spoke. Even with all of the positive things that he was going through, Jim clearly still had pain inside him. Pain that would more than likely never go away.
Jim, for some odd reason, never invited Anthony and Ellen over to his house. Whenever Anthony asked Jim if he planned to invite him and Ellen over, Jim would always turn it down, saying things like "I'm too busy" or "I'll just come over myself." Anthony had only seen the inside of Jim's house twice (both times were to help Jim move a refrigerator, which kept on breaking down on Jim for some reason). In addition to being one of cleanest houses that Anthony had ever seen, what really stuck out about Jim's house was that practically every inch of the wall was covered with framed photos of Cassie and Meagan. Every picture that Jim had taken of the girls as babies, toddlers, and their one and only visit was framed on the wall. Several more picture frames sat on top of tables, desks, and counters. The picture of Cassie and Meagan hugging each other while wearing the dresses that Jim bought for them during their only visit was the largest picture and had the most beautiful looking frame. This particular picture hung directly in the middle of Jim's living room wall while several other framed pictures of the girls during their visit hung around it. It seemed that Jim was quite organized when it came to the placement of the picture frames.
In addition to pictures of Cassie and Meagan, all of the drawings that they had made years ago were also framed on the walls. All of Cassie's cats and Meagan's scribbles looked just as fresh and new as they had all those years earlier. Cassie's "I Love You Daddy" drawing was framed right above Jim's bed.
Anthony always shed several tears whenever he walked inside the house. So many memories...yet still not enough...
Jim's house had two bedrooms. Rather than use the extra bedroom as a guest bedroom, Jim decided to do something special with it. All of Cassie and Meagan's toys, clothes, and blankets that Julia had left behind the day that she took the girls away remained in boxes in the room. Cassie's little bed and Meagan's crib were also in the room with the sheets and blankets still intact. The beautiful dresses that Jim had bought for the girls during their visit were hung in the closet along with the two pink dresses that Jim had bought for the girls' first intended visit. Everything was kept extremely clean and organized. It was definitely one of the saddest rooms in the entire world. Anthony immediately broke down in tears both times that he entered the room.
Despite Jim not wanting to have visits at his own house, he still maintained a great relationship with Anthony and Ellen. He continued to see them every week and have conversations with them in a generally happy tone. As upsetting as it was that things were still quite hard for Jim, he at least was willing to spend time with his family.
That is, at first.
As time went on after Jim was promoted to shift manager at work, he began to spend less and less time with the family. He made excuses such as "I've been busy" or "I've been so tired." It got to the point where Jim would only visit the family once a month and would only answer phone calls every few weeks.
Of course, Anthony grew very worried about this and began to heavenly question Jim about it whenever Jim did visit or answer the phone. Jim (with a smile and annoyed tone of voice) would always reply: "I'm doing fine. Stop worrying so much."
Every so often, Jim would send Anthony text messages saying things like "Doing fine" or "If you're worrying right now, don't. I'm fine." Sometimes he would throw in a text smiley face to express how "fine" he was doing. These messages hardly made Anthony feel better. It wasn't normal for Jim to just randomly start spending less time with his family. There clearly was something going on.
As more time passed, Jim began to spend even less time with the family. It was now at the point where Jim would only visit Anthony and Ellen whenever they bothered him enough to do so and he would only answer his phone one out of a hundred times. The constant "I'm fine" messages continued to spring up. What made matters worse is that Jim now replied in a very aggravated tone of voice whenever Anthony or Ellen questioned him about his sudden lack of contact.
"Please stop worrying so much about me!" Jim once shouted at Anthony after seeing him for the first time in three months. "I told you I'm doing fine! I'm a freaking grown adult, so quit acting like you're my freaking guardian!"
It was safe to say that Jim wasn't exactly trying his hardest to remain respectful to his family anymore.
Anthony soon began to grow so worried about Jim that he eventually began going over to his house to check on him. Each time, Jim would either answer and say: "I'm fine, but I'm busy right now" or he would just flat out not answer the door. Anthony eventually realized that trying to talk to Jim about his constant absences was entirely pointless. Jim was clearly hiding something and he just refused to be open about it. At this point, to say that Anthony was extremely worried about Jim was a complete understatement.
Before long, the unthinkable happened. Jim flat out stopped visiting or answering his phone. He also stopped sending the "I'm fine" text messages. Jim was now shutting away his family altogether.
Anthony and Ellen weren't the only ones who were worried about this. Mr. and Mrs. Burleson, several cousins, aunts, uncles, and even Anthony's children began to panic and worry about Jim on a daily basis. Hannah once ran over to her parents crying because of how much she was worried about Jim. It was clear that Hannah was still very close to her Uncle Jim despite not having the same bond that she had had with him years earlier.
Thankfully, Anthony at least had the word of a Starbucks employee to prove that Jim was still alive. Every Saturday, Anthony would walk into Starbucks (Anthony always avoided going to Starbucks when Jim was working as he didn't want Jim to cause a scene) and privately speak with an employee about how Jim was doing (because having these conversations without Jim's consent was illegal, they needed to remain as secretive as possible). The employee always assured Anthony that Jim was doing great and his performance was just as amazing as before. Though the employee always sounded completely honest, it hardly helped Anthony feel better. Jim was clearly feeling upset about something and he didn't even want to talk to his family about it. That great relationship that Jim had formed with his family was once again gone.
One night, after six months of no contact with Jim whatsoever (not even on his birthday), Anthony officially was unable to take it anymore. He needed to find out what was going on with Jim. He was not going to settle for anymore of Jim's "I'm fine, stop worrying" statements. He was going to truly figure out was going on. If that meant making Jim feel extremely angry and uncomfortable, then so be it.
When Anthony told Ellen about what he was planning on doing, she greatly objected. She did not think it was right for Anthony to be so hard on Jim if he truly was feeling upset about something (especially since Jim was clearly already forever heartbroken). As much as Anthony understood what she was saying, he didn't care. He couldn't handle Jim constantly being sad anymore. He needed to do whatever it took to help Jim feel just as happy as he had been back when he was Hannah's playmate. Even if it meant going to drastic measures.
Thankfully, tomorrow was Anthony's day off, so Anthony could pay Jim a visit the very next day. Anthony at first planned to head over to Jim's house first thing in the morning, but then he remembered that he had promised to give his parents a ride to the airport at eleven the next morning (they were traveling to Arlington to visit Anthony and Jim's aunt). Because Anthony didn't want to be on such a short time limit when talking with Jim, he decided it was best to wait until later when he didn't have any other errands to worry about. He would head over to Jim's house immediately after dropping all of the kids off home from school. Joel had a basketball game at eight o'clock, but Anthony was sure that the talk with Jim wouldn't last for over five hours (or, at least he hoped). Besides, Joel never even started in games, so Anthony more than likely would still get to see Joel playing even if he showed up late (that is, if Joel even played).
This visit wouldn't be anything like the past few times that Anthony had tried to speak with Jim at his house. No matter how "busy" Jim claimed to be, Anthony was going inside and talking with him no matter what. Anthony was going to find out what was going on. He was going to make things right.
I'm coming Bro, Anthony thought as he shut his eyes and rolled over in his bed. I'm coming. You're not going to feel sad any longer. We're going to find a solution. We're going to find you happiness.
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