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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIWauRe9BI
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKudGewOOU
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjkwolLCyI
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUyJdkeqVN
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjW3PIv0EQF
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrbkS0f1ng
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycDkzQJnA1
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcXi5862IJd
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2TUQwNlVGQ
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJwhLmIIJ9
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1ucfgyV9d
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfLD0qvsZ6
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhPU5Z3Nm5
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxyA7BMYEjb
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnz4VSkbPCV
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ULWIk5QJ6
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVBs8WVDx9a
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKg8FncFvO7
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX53b9BFQDM
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvqEUsL51x
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9JjRCnHxtw
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7DawCrEFf
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSYEsIQyoI
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06lIxj6Pko
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFaloxIwrQB
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUWboTxaXM5
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74gWglBUZs
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntuiEYwFMj
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGcpxy5M0Rz
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kPRdFVbde
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6At4ueUDXx
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLcSDnDHtS
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4tG4b28w3
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9W3zsP3KnU
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGMlWu4xWB
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡae3S5Zd2sg
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0LwtvJSWh
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Mo91llGoC
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5vuTxE9zi2
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpVD4YTsvbT
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDAis3tmOKg
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOdpSiBGOz
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKC7yuqSzt4
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDIhKkXwsP
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1EhqdKNNF
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHl8xd3bId
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZuOQ3W5t1
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtzFTwiNTC
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4bRutwdYR
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUH9ny17UI
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpjiE8O5f3
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvaJQZYRe6V
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8LJog5E31
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1ZKBcwidA
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNU6gH4eij
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454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLGE6CCGwF
數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyyz2wUjEH
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMC8I4l1mk
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlnLVRDgWPd
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vF7rwQdUI
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp421BpMp4c
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRDLvS0vzV
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOC3sp27hI
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BYOUFSq8U
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAvWT5qAXp
隨即二人也站在了原地。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPWIdEEjID
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsb0VjvIFe
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpd81UcRZ9
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhriO3Lclzs
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSADjH5wsIP
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyc0jhTp8U7
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUQ15OUW1q
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8y7XqCs9u
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoggitJYPxn
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU2WBPY75UX
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUU1IojZ0jG
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMdY8bv9Hd
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4f3Dnz1leW
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvpMj9Z2Mj
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8kd1NWlJk
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBuEI6VwEe9
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡktqTBIfZFV
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjJmdsqRMk
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpd9NXZsSX
可是，她接著聽到答案是……454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxoPUpCkU0
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQbDItu6H1
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzzLCnJ8ebI
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsPAJC8nHN
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0cO0NHQ0E
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaKogowuGw
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQ19LP6DJ2
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs9BBI8D8In
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtdWwbK3yn
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJdT9klyseV
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCm3naoSYkE
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4DzkkEDrG
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSpFSI5Kvy
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAPVJJsJiZ
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqK79I50Ms
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHE2GlfRRKG
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKhyNs8DUK
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEZb7tKr6L
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Zvg3BIfr3
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOAGgk0vi5
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfNlS7ElnQ
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCin1Mt0uP1
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡks0SWNEwrp
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQchGSSbbj4
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0zPj2RcIe
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnp5cFvUmn6
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhagXmDxqCH
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0PbS41KzG
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6mjvCOViqz
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrip8d2yAo
「嚓—」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3A0tVpguoi
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0FP5dONHF
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT71mmJ7EF7
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ78o5a0GnMm
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOWsbzYwQB
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoUhf6z4bcJ
作者在此鄭重聲明：454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjlCptvxhS
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ277ojIxJJX
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIb3Ep71zwL
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKyu94V1Od
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbheQJuoBl
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3pl76Y4Ws0
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJG7eQy7ln
454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEP0yPkCWG
作者閒聊：454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBW0eWxNM0B
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVqxzgXDfX
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1pLlJk2gOO
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