過去篇(四)516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKf0eLNWUfF
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkS8TyaX5IO
某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKAMTPhIvH
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmd4O8SzqyR
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFK8XWjPTl
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MDQIr5Jzs
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYjefpTAtj
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7VNX6YZvf8
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnW5Jrethv
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNRXAHmKdT
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0aGf4VhKn
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQT4MvaHrvP
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFgjXUBWWm
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqBSJzjXbu
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwy2jKx8op
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ZExan3Pj8
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQLOJwmQKD
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7JTl7OiWLW
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDSb8ILcmn
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnd64Vfmsv
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwVOPMEgDH
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnFWQejrVR
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMYApjuhUA
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSUJ9vo0bW
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAxoCWW3rOx
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOKMRBiBPY
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhYh0cfJUH
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NBTqpGqij
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqGau9zI9F
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoeByO2l0W4
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20CYn0N0ch
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gJU0HiZFp
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKfAf5eUiL
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1f3ZQHGmV
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1wrrMaJsS
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtkJ856MTs
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbsPVH2IAtk
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12vTBWJUFB
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRotAcbedo
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3YKhxYcxS
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9dFcsK45G
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6w5lIBe8C7
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEXep7duTm
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSY9DAMY0M
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQhZmreE8c0
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNzeGEYyqaZ
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOSs8cPmyj
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFCxPK4hvm
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrs97lD5jN
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifDa1a4Dqy
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqsGnTM2Yy
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbi2dT1E0xb
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPlb7E8TpP
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESQWwN6JcE
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpoCjGQm7wV
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4zrsdmx3Q
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOl0L7tZfIN
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516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhwJS0CHeS
數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfiZNSpA68
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9w2bqYs5g2
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvyQwO8Iw77
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8C8g6fZG4t
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡebk7pfqCTT
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2OwDHZXrQ
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDh1zKc7yL2
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZKPSQ2nEG
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXQOlRlZpa
隨即二人也站在了原地。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52TFd9np5b
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2x24QG9SUX
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOCSNR9hIm
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfpB5g4k2va
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HswxSxwUY
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbsBcwIDOE
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8trhUfXpJF
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtpps7iZeI
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUwzdTlGnr
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFkCTqCDna
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCkar8P10w
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbrdN730a4
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZMr7Ez1sQ
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3pPOmgP7T0
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFz7QQIHPJ
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82aeMhYQHH
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8705LzOqY
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXs6Eg9NTI
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1dkNodU8X
可是，她接著聽到答案是……516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJi2zmgUMVz
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxKBpfiPMgS
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtAqmysCVWS
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpVgjSrrld
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygXeeWHD2X
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04uO5aL7y3
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ARiypgyOJ
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQGhVVYFl2
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP74o8ncPG9
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThXXut4DIM
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUj188vmL97
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUH9yP7aA9d
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxe6hWwuTlf
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUdoosnizf
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5CJkHNH28
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3KAH15yui2
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGsXUo08Lw
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwPa5H2zmU
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUzESA36ZD
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6a1WOdy6BF
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3QVPovsIr
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYPjAxATfF
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516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsOcDdAf3vn
「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMLWSRjOU1
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHnun4wIb1
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIM9U061IJQ
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3oR9x2aUj
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMp4v8lcnQC
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCbt5ulwgV
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1O5GhJWDh
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaOa7v1SPDm
「嚓—」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyz6g0aXLU
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQIGid75fZ8
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMe0GoNnbr
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKYQrT6aM5
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKX7Ey9s7sq
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJyHD5doFP
作者在此鄭重聲明：516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEae7sN7mj
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWsjNprfbeE
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRGrLeB1YM
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2Z157FUT7
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpEl5TZW2EZ
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡreF3uETcWv
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjMbOtzArOV
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJz2Cc3ujew
作者閒聊：516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1FTjtPmke8
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggDNgc76B3
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGPzxcZe7F
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