暑假篇：釋懷527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUiikyplESz
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「你真喺Alvin啊？」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO5gKIrxDKj
那名女生仍然一臉難以置信地問著我。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyKiYAcV4A
其實此刻，在我心一樣徘徊著同樣的問題「你真喺Ivy啊」。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFv5068cvA2
但是對於記性好的我來說，當然知道她就是Ivy了。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkO7zomuAKC
雖然她把過往的長髮修剪為及肩短髮，並開始佩帶起眼鏡。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3cNt7diwMG
然而她那張熟悉的臉孔，仍然存在於腦海之中。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ52rdG73sg
最糟糕的就是……我在一瞬間也回憶起，她哭泣著的容貌。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnKlzPDNzkf
亦都是多年前，我最後一次看見她的時候……527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpFG44ZHAm
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdeHUhzUsF
「我哋好耐無見啦！有無……有無三年啦？」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAE4kMFjfSl
Ivy在一陣驚訝過後，便隨即臉帶笑容說道。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2hLYDKPMc
再見時是哭著，現在重遇卻是笑著，是多麼矛盾的事情……527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMwiccZOBS
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUXE0uiz3S
「正確嚟講應該喺四年啦。」我回應她。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhascn2UslZ
而她在聽到我的更正後，也立即數著手指：「一、二、三、四……喺喎！原來已經四年囉，嘻嘻！」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfXNdHn4N7R
看著她傻笑起來的樣子，我的心中卻逐漸產生起一種感覺。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLpTHg5Q4z
一種難以形容的內疚感。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSGVjmL0Gc
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而在她的一陣傻笑過後，她似乎也察覺到了我並沒有多說話。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJxDIv2qSKR
於是她便接著再說：「Alvin，你成個人成熟咗。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnaDapUK8cW
「喺……喺咩。」我稍為避開了她的目光說道。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5HF8xpod1f
隨即視線也落在她的長袖衣上。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ncPfmKiFM
明明現在是夏天，外面三十多度，但她還是穿著長袖。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGdJD1Ckdt
是用來遮掩著手臂嗎？527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tuhw0xpm7
是用來遮掩著手臂上的傷痕嗎？527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPOLkIhjvS
是用來遮掩著手臂上因為我而弄出來的傷痕嗎？527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ehDFu1DFK
單是回想起昨晚Mandy所說的畫面，我便不禁倒抽了一口氣。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmoDNJnX7UW
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoBNtrZdHzY
「Alvin，你介意緊以前嘅事啊？」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSy2uFdjiLU
Ivy很快也發現了我的目光落在她的衣袖上，於是隨即便把衣袖卷起。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgpIA5VfFU
展露了手臂上的數條疤痕。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFE3msHxXiK
這一瞬間，我的心涼了。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HzFXikaS9
原來這就是我當時的決定，而導致的後果了嗎……527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2RCYDJRNe
我沉默了數秒，接著也開口說：「對唔住。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5iqTjvB2I1
道歉，因為當時我傷害了她的心。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHFDQxMbIm
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUuyp3Zkajy
「哎呀！做咩道歉啦你？」Ivy立即愕然地說道。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJgAqKsORK
我沒有回應她，只是繼續沉默著。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6RtkNAzlB1
使得她隨即也皺眉頭起來，並思考了數秒後說：「睇嚟Alvin你真喺好介意以前嘅事……真喺好對唔住！」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Od7x76RwH
然而在她話後，她卻立即向我九十度鞠躬道歉起來。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU82A3rGS2e
這次輪到我感到錯愕起來並立即說：「做……做咩突然道歉啦？！」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmERITdiynB
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「因為當年我一時嘅衝動，搞到Alvin你原來一直都介懷於心！真喺好對唔住！」Ivy繼續面朝地板說著。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnOg3fLmcg
使得我都開始有點不知所措起來，只能不斷揮動手臂，示意她快抬起頭來。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYsxZTxdgt
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjj9AhmUx6
於是Ivy也快速地把頭抬來，然後雙眼注視著我說：「如果喺一年前嘅我，我諗依家一定喊哂口。不過依家嘅我已經對一切都釋懷，所以希望Alvin都唔好因為當年嘅事而怪責自己！」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5a9oOA4Nz
「我自責緊……？」我疑惑地重複她最後一句話。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MuD09p2z8
而她只是隨即指向我並說：「我識少少心理學架！所以咪睇得出你自責緊！」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHzTe1YDQAN
是嗎，原來我一直都在自責著……527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeh66yR86Pa
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4cEOsHn7X
「其實講真啊，我都估唔到我哋會咁樣相遇翻，突然之間覺得所有嘢都好似喺琴日發生咁。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7e4IqVjGt
「如果當時我唔拒……」當我打算開口說道的時候，Ivy卻再說：「唔可以。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1sFSno9MN
「吓？咩唔可以？」我瞬間愣住。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8dBqPHDOV
而她只是搖一搖頭，並說：「唔可以因為要迎合其他人，而強迫自己失去咗自我。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtobqRiOiMV
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDHuKOnCbV
她的這句話如同子彈一樣，一下子打穿了我的大腦。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡci7QuqklcB
她說得沒有錯，我一直以來都是在扮演著一個只會迎合其他人的角色。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsyPZjiPxoR
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7cH89Pxaw
「以前我一直都會諗，如果Alvin你無拒絕我，究竟之後會點。」她說道。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyvYVsq52v
而我思考了一會後，便說：「我哋會一齊咗，跟住就唔會發生之後嘅事？」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrMXX8oUppp
「喺，我哋喺會一齊，但喺一切都只喺因為你唔想hurt我，而強迫自己同我一齊，咁樣嘅話，我哋根本就唔會過得開心！」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShpECQgseQ
她說著的時候，語氣明顯變得有點激動起來。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5eDLasSMd
但她仍然繼續說道：「咁所以，唔好再因為我嘅事而怪責自己啦！我依家過得好好，識咗一班好室友，佢哋仲教識咗我好多唔會嘅正向觀念。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzoWdMgFeGT
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而在她的一番言論後，我便合上嘴巴，並閉上雙眼，大腦開始思考起來。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjndl8kGzKt
因為當初Ivy的事件，我變得開始只會迎合他人。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWsJzYAKotC
後來與Mandy交往後，我開始執著於承諾。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftQRYt8iqE
結識依玲及Venus後，我仍然只是一直在配合著她們對我的心意而行。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9NbpHZT6I
一時是好朋友、一時是前度、一時是曖昧對象。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qmkfs2Oem
到底我的真正想法是甚麼？527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Tmr92ZkaV
而為什麼，我又會落得如此的地步呢……527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZf2tGGbj6
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0rcbKV9cN
想著想著，我便不自覺地冷笑了一下。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgxkO6L1M5
而Ivy也隨即說：「所以希望你唔好再自責啦。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjRorakQAR
我慢慢地張開眼睛，然後看著她說：「多謝你，我諗我諗通咗啲嘢啦。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCSnfmnWDy
其實一直迷失著的人，原來就是我自己。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6rDjgui96
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz14HYYPHIs
「見翻你，可能喺種緣份，喺上天安排我哋再相遇翻，然後解開心結。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVOA0iJyil
「心結？你唔喺話你釋懷咗啦咩？」我好奇問道。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxR1i1g5eVD
但Ivy接著卻突然面紅耳赤起來，並說話變得有點口吃起來：「對你喺釋懷……但對另一個人唔喺……」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhNo8XgRFUU
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1BnTBsbyTL
「喂！學生妹原來你喺到啊！」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctGy94MUKt
此時，從我的後方傳來了一把男聲。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFDm4tscu8
於是我便立刻扭頭過去查看，發現原來是剛剛那位受我邀請完成任務的Youtuber以及他的另外兩位朋友。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DPLdcy7cr
而從他剛才的對話推斷，他們應該是認識Ivy的……527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn5lvgrPjxR
莫非Ivy所說的室友就是他們嗎？！527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKr3BCYzhC4
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5MrxMMahYz
接下來，其中一名男生更走到我們的身旁時，並稍為打量了一下我。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIZSDzntmz
然後就一臉恍然地向Ivy說：「哦！原來就喺佢！」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJsF6FbucIt
「嗯？」我立刻擺出了一個疑惑樣子。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3cfZ2nA4o0
甚麼原來就是我？527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUR1OmtboJS
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywN9TUZ8wZ
然而，那名男生並沒有理會我的反應，只是繼續與Ivy說：527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwu9CEnLjSV
「你要講嘅嘢喺咪講哂啦？」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5grT1vC3lc
「講哂啦！」Ivy立即回應對方，並表情瞬間變得更害羞起來。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySdo48J7WQ
而我對於他們的對話，仍然感到萬分不解。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjiDI5YchW4
但是那名Youtuber也隨即向我說：「我哋幫你哋做完任務啦！記得subscribe同like多啲我啊！」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsERgJYLvnt
接著，那三名男生便與Ivy一同向我作了一個簡易的道別。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9cy4QIos6
然後就轉身從圖書館的另一個出口離開了。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS6Yv3IOAGp
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvP7Mm5xDY
與此同時，也只留下了完全摸不清頭緒的我並自言自起來：527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0kYBLhwSOJ
「到底講緊咩啦……」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfX2dylLOA
不過既然今天能重遇Ivy，並得知她至今還過得挺好的。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYt94BnFoyk
我想……應該是時候要放過一下自己了。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjiNmnzN0VF
當年的內疚，應該都會逐漸消散了。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpR7CkwjYX
這算是解決了我人生其中一個遺憾了吧？527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNr9sFFE3i3
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Bu2vhjN4W
但是，在解開了過往的困惑同時。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqFs14dAW8
也提醒了我，在未來，我將再次需要作出選擇。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9JoPbJKLS
而且還是三個那麼多……527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcFLVKrkbnT
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「只有釋懷，才能夠走更遠的路」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrBxxeC8Jdc
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作者閒聊：連動篇總算告一段落了。在不久將來，Ivy還是會再次出現喔，不過那已經是第二個故事了~527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyOldj3xCC
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