過去篇(四)478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULsgKV9lN0
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkZKVQT4Q8
某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswaamDaDNj
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuV1K5MgQK5
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2VNoM9FpIP
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhsQH0ImMM
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOWJQYMIGbl
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsJcgiKuGy
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQACSpFvnt0
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISDuyIbZeZ
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0SXFCaVpHK
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡladGh6xXqb
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLotguJPlI
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw35Zp1c55W
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSsntOp2LIQ
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡilLJgElrHK
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZYE92RAEf
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPaMpnvX3F5
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5AgYfzC7F0
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlnsQnI5sZe
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnGeIdOLZg6
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡioVn75Ssln
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3xFbYnykC
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUmzaKxpyw
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2i0NuFczVi
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6TAWPSV4K
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT5spVbFt1h
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpcKN3DnR7
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5LhZBA7IA
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQcJny8n2k
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBKKVDfV9I
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vg0OxRDYs
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqGy4yr9lq
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡao7bj15NcU
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnPCjRVTyQ
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQpPZGiGFB
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN87iqhe67W
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WOQeoN4tQ
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFgomqIisa1
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKTSrDzBH7
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcFf0gYQkC
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52gHzVAo3x
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJX2u1aXsTn
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpI3roCR54t
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFm0fHqkEU
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrUvW6NIzPZ
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCSlrbLeFE
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfsdGLuWTo
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpL34unMAY
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuhRMWQEVFc
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqasrosDNBu
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBSU9QOoE7
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZySpNbOY1
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXcU8vclYQ
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZH8whf0n8
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDhpAedgki
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxByEtbegZk
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478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaAiy2QHqDv
數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHp69SocVNQ
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCSix6kxts
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwxzzThY5T
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECncdDJ2WF
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUYyO7HOBZc
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEd1AYBylS
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhevPlj3VId
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEX4kgDo4I3
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxODZdjko0g
隨即二人也站在了原地。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5noBaWzcC
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqkWCZy9nj
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoke182dISt
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Hj3cPs5Fn
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbFqOoWnDO8
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUHNET5KHb
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNuvwLuzOpZ
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3OtIUjSFt
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPzsTa9nLxw
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsITyU74be8
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScWkYzpF0z
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1KpSO2kKjt
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvC4LTMcND
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8JOVOIiuK
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtEPqHnj233
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0Kh3lKDYR
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZt8ioVTOz
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhapHArgiaU
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4YZZhAZlGC
可是，她接著聽到答案是……478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxz3mzQIDhV
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLRFLU6jl3
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ630xqRPp8G
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWClW3Lrby9
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNViKKBmE5
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wG9aynOsP
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nT942iJx2
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡindSKonduV
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWG5OX4BKr8
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIHcayhMSB
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSwD2zU3Ri
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6iw0uw1wK
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYqUt0Er5W8
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxImdjc9kY
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMS2fexxJXQ
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVX5sZdryN
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkoLliaaoav
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLM0ZgDkVx2
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ26BqUfhGzP
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG1BX2QY7x9
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIEyb5nLW5
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6875zG17G
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478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQPGsjYWdX
「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4aQbzdVMb
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeok5xstor
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsvoi2gIOo
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq4T4pxQllw
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsLwSaG3Np
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3H0svHPoC
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmUjkWrJwK
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3KUbJDI0NN
「嚓—」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAh9iHahEi0
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyYIUApEVXi
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRNirLHx3p
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGcuIXRPUe
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GGNLKQLNP
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFOdYjEfdR
作者在此鄭重聲明：478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTtWY0mIIT
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMLpmdPSPz
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdA27MFUdWG
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbLcPlOpnM
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCGlpCDKzg
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOBArnnnn9X
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGrv2rnfPD
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡih6z8oVylW
作者閒聊：478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGpyQASvd6e
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Mbc0fgYlH
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjfKUNMFwY
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