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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpz62eF80rw
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqh3NhkFTs
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原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOfkdtc9ZD
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNWay5uvLg
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xEJR4phrI
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdgxgmy1qE
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1padTT2MKV
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPH9bNuRwL
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ89jSvmbE2i
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmt5rwXBbR
523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1SCeHguIQ
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRgN5wtvqe
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0nY6za6IeG
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQzJEy337t
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1jaATAwyE
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqY47HodPKU
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「你鍾意Alvin啊？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxQvTQZZyw
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxAIteIOEl
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvp8jq4R99
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIQerVEpRk
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYoHbcDjCs
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9lAnIlr6Ts
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「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcD46TYkjpi
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9G54YKRfL
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2i8REU9fgd
523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUqXIXiaEM
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7Nl8YerBj
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfILOx1Fhx
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIXaGdy2Et
523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJAFFyqQKi
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITJ2JLiaTm
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXkl32dI9m
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVR4l78TxPA
523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDu13K7LcW
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLhoLKeTRzD
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2oLEUHWIS
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfKohYWSLvv
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl9KGYzD2Ly
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgoMFW79LBw
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Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6fi9Zv3jN
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYiGgahsAop
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQ2Gxv2Jwc
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvwv57oDdT
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHllUOdRqX
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1t3LWyPrki
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「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vj2WpX6lN
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7QQ158FRd
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuiPEEmq6Gu
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡliGuaHM2Cq
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivavrHZjJh
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRfJBMxtKo
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHzTtU5cMm
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIk09uQKBY
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtzz1MzSOK
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUY572qU7Dv
523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKuee5oZqv
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstX08hdZTr
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYI90okk8q
隨即二人也站在了原地。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9aonufVN2T
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8LI5v4l20
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡabmfUTHz54
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiaI67aFAvM
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBHdUtPrQ9
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1S07w0vS9
523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCobj4T1Zj
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj962fhLEvh
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmp5wLWpafM
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這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUk3MrNSjO
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyK9t1QVJq
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnGS61MWewT
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡba5j6IqRyP
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDiYnkCC6m
523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8nSeyftNN
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIBPDKr2zX
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEaS44woAny
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa6u1sZsQk0
可是，她接著聽到答案是……523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1h9tVWJ29N
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8xsBWwbeE
523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOi1IL6v7Zd
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfoUs2IeeyI
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUsJfYdkA2
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3pEhJzQla
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfdkNGWagp
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFtvzqRghr
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBcFnx06ou4
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDUWt1wfCc
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然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHsn6SGyjp
523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzXXpwMfUQ
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9TbOlCTjh
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRL1QcBmLQB
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZeYM8FsJa
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3PSV5sZcl
523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21OkrDAWaf
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpvTBu12V5
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡml9pCAG9D5
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwdHgqjHBg
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVSEPV3Vmc
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDkKcOEbUN
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33ebZqSHWc
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXllj0xJDw
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPdWQScBqU
523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsUUFqIUqx
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbn64iPPX0
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3PlXobrnM
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFV1boutP8R
「嚓—」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLiUKHaQfOf
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「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZAWX3ddTb
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作者在此鄭重聲明：523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5mkskHR1M
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7nvqoYq2Y
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCPeLztxme
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgSxmU44vWQ
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ387o0eIUpj
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ZxwNisjuH
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdagJMyfQ1
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作者閒聊：523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiPkfEJ4Hn
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNfzuQNRs6
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsU2yGP7GEY
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