她以淚眼看著我好一會兒,然後以手袖擦去淚水,一言不發地回去自己的位置。我只嘆了一口氣,刻意不去看,不去聽,不去想,掛上耳機,把書看完。33Please respect copyright.PENANAjuCofP1JOC
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要讓一個人死心,無視他。愛的反面不是恨,是漠不關心。我很清楚。不清楚的是我為了什麼要讓一個女孩死心。33Please respect copyright.PENANAVIgAoRhbey
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我把座位調較至躺臥的設定,蓋好羽絨被,讓溫暖裹著我,只剩腦袋外露,涷感讓我清醒。33Please respect copyright.PENANAtfQsq9dFJ9
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會不會,我潛意識裡對蘇老闆有怨恨,並將這股負面情緒發洩在他的女兒身上?這顯然對君慎是不公平的;我和蘇日坤在這方面也無甚差異,都要不得地把無辜小孩拉了下水。33Please respect copyright.PENANAWUUlSEZdfO
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雖然無法證實,單是想到這個可能性便讓我感到很不悅,不禁有點鄙視自己。33Please respect copyright.PENANAosimRr09OR
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我繞到她的座位處,踮著腳察看她的狀況。她睡了,臉上有淚痕,身體卷著,被子只遮蓋著她的下半身。我發現她穿著我的風衣,拉鏈全拉上,但自然是不夠的。我往空姐要來了毛毯,蓋著她的上半身,往自己的手呵氣,搓了搓,伸手替她把擋在臉上的頭髮繞到耳後。我感到冷氣風口直往她的臉上吹,我便伸手調整了一下。33Please respect copyright.PENANAoUkCPY49QD
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做完這一大堆的動作,我呼了重重的一口氣。想要再看她一眼便返回自己的座位,卻發現她睜著眼,沉默地凝視著我。大概該說什麼,看著她半天都說不出一個字;嘆息,我轉身離去,手腕卻被一隻手抓著。33Please respect copyright.PENANAaI1eFixy8M
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「阿姨。」33Please respect copyright.PENANArFENQAumhP
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「把你吵醒了?」33Please respect copyright.PENANACISzzFmjpP
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「我沒睡。睡不著。」33Please respect copyright.PENANADMmqh5Yu2U
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「要不要喝一杯熱朱古力?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAVOtSADNyA1
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「阿姨。」她的手握得再緊了些,生怕我借故離去。「名字和輩份都不重要。只要阿姨不要嫌棄我就好。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAsAfGZjFDAv
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我的心痛了一痛,覺得自己很卑鄙,竟然跑去欺負一個能當我女兒的孩子。牽強地笑了笑,我坐到她的位子上;她立刻讓開了好些地方,臉上閃過一絲笑容,很快又被一陣惶恐掩蓋。把手一反,換我來握著她的手。33Please respect copyright.PENANAym66UPCVJV
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「君慎。你說得對。名字和輩份都不重要。重要的是一片真心。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAofr3wUJYaS
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「嗯。我對阿姨很是真心的。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAkqAIiJUUTO
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「哈哈哈。」我忍不住大笑,她有點愕然。「你說話,有時候真夠曖昧的,就不怕被誤會了?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAxBKH2BYs11
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「不怕啊!」33Please respect copyright.PENANA46UWKiW6Pg
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「我真的很佩服你,也很擔心你。能像你那樣豁出去去相信別人,都不知道是好事還是壞事。」33Please respect copyright.PENANA6Km0XFxpxC
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「阿姨你不用擔心。我已經不是一個小孩了。我會分辨是非,不會對每個人都這樣的。世界上也不是每個人都像阿姨那樣是個好人啊!」33Please respect copyright.PENANAiTTjej4HnQ
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有點哭笑不得。看著她天真的臉,我又忍不住摸了摸她的頭;然後忽然想起什麼,立刻把手收了回去。她就像之前一樣,愣著,牢牢看著我,一動不動,像被點了穴似的。我嘆了一聲,晃了晃腦袋,按了她座位上召喚空中小姐的鍵。來的是個空中少爺,溫柔得讓我忽然想去泰國渡假;我向他要了兩杯熱朱古力。33Please respect copyright.PENANAZlvxfvzq1m
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「謝謝。」我替她好好地整理一下毛毯和被子,她笑得很是腼腆。「阿姨真好。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAmN0Bxr2PLE
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「其實我不真的那麼好。」我苦笑,喝了一口朱古力,才把杯子置得老遠。「我不像你,我有很重的負能量,爆起來不是人一般的。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAWksakUzoNO
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「表姐說,阿姨你心情可能不會很好。是因為工作嗎?我爸爸...」33Please respect copyright.PENANA2uYiBSAfBZ
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「你表姐想多了!」我拍了拍她的手背,「反正,我不是一個很好的朋友。別看我這麼一把年紀,有時候還真會孩子氣得嚇死旁人。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAbaa3FmMXma
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「那到時候,我就可以安慰阿姨了!」33Please respect copyright.PENANALIKOjACd6r
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我們聊了個天南地北,但實際上說的都虛無飄渺、摸不著邊,說了等於沒說。不過,跟一個小孩子無聊地聊上一會兒,笑上一會兒,我的心情很自然地放輕鬆。她亦然,身體不再僵住,還肆無忌憚地打呵欠。我照顧好她睡著,像哄孩子睡一般輕拍著她的臂胳;她笑了,撒嬌讓我說故事或唱歌,我只笑笑,她也沒再說什麼,閉眼睡去。這我才回到自己的座位上,躺著,很快也睡去了!33Please respect copyright.PENANANyfq1gJ4AA
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醒來時燈還沒亮著,人們還在睡,離到埗時間尚有六個小時。我有點不忿,想要再嘗試睡睡,卻被傳來的杯麵香氣擾亂了心智。這小妹正興致勃勃地邊吃著杯麵,邊喝著汽水,邊看著我。對。看著我的睡相。33Please respect copyright.PENANACLEFh1IqE8
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侵犯私隱。這四個字又立即浮現在我腦海。33Please respect copyright.PENANAz63xFTEAK9
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「阿姨。你睡覺的樣子真的很好看。」上次我給她甩枕頭;這次,我只能無力地嘆了一口氣,把身體側到另一邊去。「別那麼吝嗇嘛!多看一眼又不會掉一塊肉。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAKi1qwzs8cu
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我這才坐了起來,揉了揉眼睛,看著她吃得津津有味的樣子,很是無奈。33Please respect copyright.PENANAhOqQn5qoXj
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「女人睡覺好看,是因為落差,醒著時像河東獅一樣終日咆哮。」33Please respect copyright.PENANA0iVpPNtE6g
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「我發現阿姨對自己相當刻薄。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAIDJhllMOoe
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「我對所有人都可以很刻薄,尤其是那些不知天高地厚,以一張萌臉和油腔滑調調戲別人的小孩,我能像後母一樣殘忍對待。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAbZLE3YyC2W
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「阿姨說話真好笑。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAewyx3ar5aX
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她果真像是聽到了一個周星馳式的笑話一般笑得很是痛快。我只聳了聳肩,莞爾。33Please respect copyright.PENANADX2MlcOWvU
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「阿姨。你知道嗎?我剛才去廁所經過那邊的位置,」她甩了甩腦袋,眼睛往某個方向瞥了瞥,然後小聲地說,「看到一個男人在iPad上看AV啊!」33Please respect copyright.PENANArd8Ohtixgd
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「怎麼了?你也想看?」我笑笑,按了召喚空姐的鍵。我的肚子也因著她那杯麵而不停在響。33Please respect copyright.PENANAzppLH0jEIb
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「噁心!我才不要看這些!」33Please respect copyright.PENANAnlkkIMJfwO
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「雖然地點不對,但看AV本身也沒什麼不妥;不沉迷,能抽身,其實很正常。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAwdxOPasJur
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「阿姨。」她往我靠了過來,小聲地問。「那你有看過嗎?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAf9pnwDXbeM
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「有啊!」我對著她驚呆了的臉微笑,然後扭過頭去跟空中少爺要了個杯麵和一杯白酒。「有問題嗎?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAusvodgn7A6
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「為...為什麼要看?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAubrP2Rxjqu
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我倒沒想到她對這個那麼抗拒,卻又像是一無所知一般。這年代的孩子不都很開放的嗎?隨便上個網,不想看也肯定會看到;更何況年青人好奇心重,根本不會不想看吧!33Please respect copyright.PENANA3DpLUmvdfK
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「我倒沒想過為什麼要看。反正看過。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAfnklRTsvKE
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「很噁心的,不是嗎?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAnxLoQWBcCe
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「噁心?」我單著一隻眼,挑著另一邊的眉,看著她,假裝在思量些什麼。「哪一方面噁心了?」33Please respect copyright.PENANATURTP70pB0
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「無緣無故為什麼要去看那些?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAlxEmWwEaNT
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「那你是說,有原因去看就不噁心了?」33Please respect copyright.PENANA8ESuYMjTR9
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「阿姨好壞。又欺負我。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAJBCLBqtnfH
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這回輪到我笑出聲來,一直到空中少爺拿來我的杯麵,我才停止那笑聲,專心一致地吃著。她則噘著咀,手裡還是拿著杯麵卻不在吃,只牢牢地盯著我。我被她的眼神打亂了陣腳,心裡覺得還是要安撫這孩子一下才行。始終是長輩嘛!33Please respect copyright.PENANA8Q0pZf5b43
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「你覺得噁心,就不看。人家沒覺得噁心,去看,也不關你的事。這世界上噁心的事還多著呢!十幾個小時的飛機,什麼都可以發生;再噁心的也都見怪不怪了!所以說,世途險惡,你這小孩事事就得當心。不過,現在就別想這些了,啊!」33Please respect copyright.PENANAMWiehUjKRs
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「阿姨還見過什麼噁心的嗎?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAWn8P1Hn1Mi
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「以你的標準來衡量,還挺多的。」33Please respect copyright.PENANASJ7kbfcOzk
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「例如呢?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAHuM7nw10xq
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「例如?」她點了點頭,「例如省得去看,直接做了!」嚇個臉色發白。「看你。我不說了!乖乖讓我吃完這麵,我們聊其他的。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAGmK9y3O9Wr
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她確實什麼都沒說,半垂著頭,看著自己的腳發呆。33Please respect copyright.PENANAIP4RmU4a9z
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看來,她比我想像中還要清純。這和蘇日坤給我的印象以致令我聯想到他的女兒的都相去甚遠。突然想起在酒店房間裡她跟我說要去英國留學,自己很害怕;我不知道我們害怕的是不是同樣的事情,反正我確實開始擔心她就是了!據說最近的人口販子變得很是聰明,喜歡打愛情牌,以浪漫纏綿的話語騙走女孩,繼而將她們強姦,不用鎖鏈腳銬而是用她們自身的自尊和羞愧之心來將人困住。她這種陌生人幫忙她一下就覺得對方是個絕頂好人,幾乎像是盲了雙眼一樣追著對方不放的,要把她拐了去販賣可真是易如反掌。33Please respect copyright.PENANARG8r0kWLvk
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「那,阿姨,你自己有試過嗎?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAQtukMWWY9Y
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「啊?」我這才被她的話語拉了出來,眨著眼,都想不起她在問什麼了。「試過什麼?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAZoq5GglgzP
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「在飛機上...」33Please respect copyright.PENANAkAswDqj3yk
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我呆著,想了好一會兒才想起剛才的話題止在哪。然後,臉鐵青般色。33Please respect copyright.PENANAH98Nzh8ou8
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「阿姨你這臉是說你有試過了?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAjJy7tAVxXC
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「我臉怎麼會說話了?」我嘗試以笑聲遮掩尷尬,但很快便知道徒勞。「哎。怎麼說,不是你想像的那樣。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAJvkfszsgiW
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「那是怎麼樣?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAYhshb0N1S2
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「你不是說這些噁心嗎?幹嘛不停地在問?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAyYs2r4dHUr
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「我...我好奇。」她又垂下了頭,然後又稍稍把臉抬起一半,「阿姨看來不像...」33Please respect copyright.PENANApOEKV61s1l
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「怎麼了?我看來像個老姑婆、老處女,或是什麼守貞節牌坊的傳統婦女,不像是會尋求這種刺激的,是吧?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAz8THLUDLSg
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「這…」她竟然臉泛紅,然後使勁地點了一下頭。我都幾乎要昏過去,直接就往椅子躺了。「阿姨不要生氣啊,好麼?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAgxVPVIZdkc
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「你這小鬼!」我又猛的一聲坐了起來,拍了拍她的腦袋,才若無其事地笑著。「反正,情到濃時,有時候還真的憋不住。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAXQ4pk7p57T
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她看著我這張笑臉,若有所思。33Please respect copyright.PENANAv2zn0Ek4Zk
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「這有什麼好想的?難道是想你的小情人了?」33Please respect copyright.PENANA2VPfMDaxv7
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「阿姨。我什麼時候說過我有情人了?」33Please respect copyright.PENANANqFFNf8FIF
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「哎?」這回換我若有所思了。「那次你不是說你有嗎?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAcnB2pUNKm5
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「我沒有。」33Please respect copyright.PENANALv9ncGLKHm
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「沒有?沒有說,還是沒有小情人?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAGD6VOxpIRC
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「為什麼要是我有的一定是小情人?不能有中情人,大情人,老情人的嗎?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAVKtF2IIZI4
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「你這孩子怎麼說話突然那麼的好笑?不過是個稱呼而已。你不是怕跟男友分開,所以害怕去留學嗎?」這真讓我有點冒汗了!她的語氣有點重;我真搞不清我說的那裡出了錯。難道代溝這回事就是這麼一回事嗎?33Please respect copyright.PENANAw1T70Or4v5
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「阿姨。我真的好害怕。我不想去留學。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAU25gCJX5D2
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頓著,我啞巴了!33Please respect copyright.PENANA6LFayhylOJ
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雖然年代有點久遠,但我還記得自己唸大學的時候因為經濟問題而放棄留學,連當個半年期的交換生也無能為力;在機場送走華丞飛時才驚覺自己和其他人的差距甚遠,心裡很是不甘心,也體會到起跑線這回事並不是今天才有的概念,也從不曾消失過。往後的日子,要撇開這種不甘,除了自己豁達面對外,就只剩奮不顧身地攀這社會階梯一途。33Please respect copyright.PENANANHfcD82S4B
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我是在這種泥沼般的弱肉強食生態裡爬出來的;她是從天宮下凡歷練的。33Please respect copyright.PENANAKDdLyF5JMK
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「或許,你可以先把情緒放到一邊去,想清楚你害怕的究竟是什麼,這才能去面對、去解决。你總不能什麼也不知道便放棄;那不很可惜,很不值嗎?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAqUZ9P3PPZS
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「阿姨。我從沒試過一個人。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAapqjI9mVJU
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「那的確是個轉變。」尤其是對於十指不沾陽春水的孩子來說,這轉變還真挺重大。「但人的一生中要面對的轉變還不少;所以,這不是讓你停下來的原因。一個人又如何?你有什麼覺得變成一個人了以後會處理不了的嗎?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAP1q5DagR8k
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「阿姨。」我的語氣很平靜,像是一個輔導員一樣;她卻還是眼泛淚光。「我現在很想攬著你。我很怕。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAU0uef3rEnX
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「傻孩子。」我沒有走過去,也沒讓她走過來;只握著她的手,臉靠近了點。「怕不要緊。但不可以因為怕就什麼都不做。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAUH5QT1nJLX
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「如果我像阿姨那麼堅強就好。」33Please respect copyright.PENANApySBEa17Qu
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「我也不是生來便這個模樣。」我苦笑,搖了搖頭,嘆了口氣。「喜歡也好,不喜歡也好,我現在這種狀態都是因為面對種種改變而練就出來的。我不敢說是好還是壞,但我就是熬過來了!對嗎?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAnyF3yEQ50x
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「嗯。」她點著頭,勉強地擠出笑容。這樣的她我見猶憐;但我必須保持中立,才算是幫得到她。33Please respect copyright.PENANAmUwnvbrZrO
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「是怕想念家人、朋友、情人嗎?還是怕環境陌生,不適應?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAjG3KMyOe15
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「我知道,只要我想的,爸爸就會答應,也會幫我安排。我甚至可以每個月都回香港,像根本沒有離開一樣。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAZQGrTWPl71
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這倒是真的。不過是去英國,有錢的話什麼都能安排,生活品質根本不成問題,也不愁見不到想見的人。這已不是那個留學等同要自己洗碗賺生活費的年代;這一代已用不著去體會這樣的生活。33Please respect copyright.PENANA0ZoxwH7JOl
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「那你還怕什麼?」33Please respect copyright.PENANATpj7nK68lN
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「我不是一個討人喜歡的人。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAr9PF0JueHP