The next day I woke up to the sound of the baby crying. Mason told me to go back to sleep while he went to pick her up and cradled her to hush her up. I pressed the button on the side of my bed to page the nurse. Mason began to sing this Spanish song I never heard of, I smiled as asked "What's this song?"
He answered in a whisper "mi línda manítas, my pretty hands"
"Baby why don't you get some sleep you have been up all hours of the night" I whispered to him.
"I'm okay, that's the price that pays to be a father and I'm helping my wife so that doesn't matter to me" "Please baby I'll take over."
"She's already asleep though"
"Give me her" I said reaching out my hands.
"Mkay"
He slowly handed me her, I smiled at her then I looked at my husband who looked sheepish like a zombie, I kissed his lips and said "Good morning, thank you and goodnight"
"Umhum, I love you"
"I love you to now go back to sleep"
"Okay" he walked back to the uncomfortable hospital chair and drifted off to sleep as fast as his ass hit the cushion. Two minutes later there was a knock on the door, it was the nurse. She came in and asked "Is everyone okay?" I shushed her and pointed at my husband who was knocked out exhausted. She mouthed the word "sorry" she tiptoed to me and asked "Is there anything you need?"
"The beeper thingy"
"Right" She turned off my monitor, I'm going to feed her while you get some rest"
"Okay" Just when I was going to hand her over she didn't awake which worried me.
"What's wrong with her?" I asked worried. Suddenly her breathing dropped from the monitor and said "Can you page the doctor?" I did and yelled "What's wrong with my baby!?" Mason jerked out of his sleep and asked in a panic "What's going on?"
"Izzy, they won't tell me what's going on!" A bunch of doctors and nurses came in and surrounded her trying to revive her. I was so scared I felt like I was going to have another panic attack but although I can see it in Mason's eyes too, he said "Stay with me and breath, she will be okay baby" One of the doctors said "Mr. Cortez I'ma need you to leave now"
"I can't and I won't until my wife feels okay because I think she's on the verge of having another panic attack, please tell her that our girl will be okay even if there is a chance she won't be," Mason pleaded.
"I can't make promises but we will do all that we can, can you please we will explain everything but you have to go" he pushed the Doctor's hand away from his arm "No. I'm not leaving"
"It's going to get crowded in here" The doctor debated.
"Mason I-I feel like I can't breathe, it feels like I can't breathe!" I said.
"Can someone get her a mask!?" Mason yelled out. One of the nurses came back with one and hooked it to me. I held Mason's hand but my hand was the only one shaking. He called over the doctor and I said "I feel light headed" I couldn't stop trembling, I began to sweat.
Mason yelled for a doctor, one came and he tried to get a response from me. "Mrs. Cortes, can you listen to me? Do you hear me?" His voice was going away and my vision slowly faded into darkness. For what felt like fifteen minutes later, which was really a minute, I heard Mason sing a song to me as he held my hand. I was still panting, then the doctor said to me "Listen to me, try to take controlled breaths that last at least fifteen seconds. Breathe in for five seconds, hold for three seconds, breathe out for seven seconds. Don't hold your breath, but rather try to continue breathing in a much slower way." I did what was instructed. It took me a while before I can be back to normal. I didn't realize it until now that I was crying hysterically. I was still trembling but my breathing wasn't skyrocketing anymore. I suddenly realized that Izzy was no longer in the room.
"Where's my baby?!" I asked the doctor, worried. Mason replied pulling me into his chest "Calm down baby she is fine they just needed to take her to the baby's ICU to put her on an oxygen monitor but she is okay now"
"Good, w-will I be able to take her home with me?" I asked afraid of a bad answer.
"No, not today, but we'll see in two days just in case she isn't stable enough."
"What do you mean, not stable enough?"
"Her breathing been on and off and we need to make sure she stable enough for her to go home with you two"
"Well fuck it. I'm not going home without my baby then"
"You have to leave because we need rooms for other patients"
"But-" Mason grabbed my hand and whispered in my ear "Baby come on they will make sure she is okay"
"But my baby.... I feel incomplete when I don't have her near me"
"You will tomorrow, I promise"
"Okay"
Mason turned to the doctor and asked "Can you give me the discharge papers?"
"Sure" He left to go get the paperwork and I said "Come here" Mason turned around to me and asked "Yes?" I cupped my hands on his cheeks and kissed him, but let it linger for a bit. He smiled and asked "What was that for?"
"Everything.... you have no idea how grateful I am for you"
"Me too my angel"
He kissed me after saying that and then he added "I love you"
"I love you to baby" I put my hand over his as he placed it on my jawline. When the doctor came back he gave Mason the clipboard that held the discharge papers. He signed them and the doctor said "You are free to go Mrs. Cortes"
"Okay"
"I'll give you two some privacy so you can get dressed. Oh and I forgot to mention your stitches, I will come back with your antibiotics for it"
"Okay and how long it will take to heal?"
"About two to three week, but for you it will about well however long your body wants"
"How do I know that I'm healed"
"Go to your gynecologist and he or she will tell you"
"Okay"
With that said he left, but on the way out he closed the curtains before closing the door behind him. Mason helped me out of bed, but I almost lost my balance from not being enabled to stand up for two weeks and all this craziness that happened. He grabbed my hand and held my waist with one hand and my hand with the other. I laughed at how I felt like I was a baby again getting help to walk. I wobbled to try and manage my balance but it was so hard. I whined to him "I can't do it"
"come on then do it for me"
"But the stitches hurt"
"Hold onto my shoulder if you need to and I will help you get dressed."
"Ugh fine"
When we finished getting me dressed, we had to wait for the doctor to come back to give me antibiotics. When he finally came back thirty minutes later he said "Okay here is the prescription for the antibiotic"
"Okay thank you. But can I ask you something, is my daughter okay?"
"She is fine now, would you like to see her before you head out?"
"You just read my mind" Mason grabbed my stuff for me with one hand and with the other, I put my hand in his as the doctor led us to the baby's ICU. I saw my little girl in the nursery, attached to a breathing monitor and mask. I started crying as if I heard her crying. I wanted to hold her so badly but I couldn't. When the doctor said we had to leave I really didn't want to but I knew I had to. We had gone to my dad's car and drove off.146Please respect copyright.PENANAjhDJci0Cds
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When we got into the car, he drove off, I locked my fingers in between him and laid my head on his shoulder. He kissed my head and asked "Qué pasa nena?"
"Nothing I'm fine"
"It's okay you don't have to talk but I will get it out of you later, where do you want to go?"
"Good luck trying because it's not going to work."
"We'll see"
"I just want to go home today, I want to see my family but....I'm just not in the mood"
"Okay angel but we're getting you something to eat where do you want to go to eat"
"don't know, don't care"
"It'll be okay we'll see her tomorrow" I didn't respond. She just sighed and closed my eyes the whole ride to IHop. I wish we could've stayed a little longer so I could hold her. I wish I could make things better for her. When we got to the place we all ordered our drinks. My parents had orange juice, I had iced tea and Mason had water. Then we ordered our food. He asked me what I was having, but I didn't answer because I was lost in my thoughts. When Mason called my name to snap me out of what I was thinking about to get my attention. I jerked and said "What?"
"Ordering"
"Oh...right can I just get a veggie omelet?"
The waiter wrote it down and said "I will be back in a few." While we waited my sister Maddie tried to not make things awkward as she began a conversation at the table "So... Lizzy are you okay?"
I shrugged my shoulders as I snuggled up on Mason bicep. My parents were just having their own conversation. So, Mason decided to try and have a conversation with me although he knew I wouldn't answer. "Why did you just order an omelet?"
"I wasn't hungry" I mumbled.
"Is this really bothering you"
"please not right now I just want to spend time with my family and just go home"
"Fine, but please talk to me?"
"Later" When the waiter came with the food, we all dug in. He was expecting for me to be eating but all I was doing was cutting the omelet with the fork edge. I really wasn't in the eating mood. He put his hand on my left forearm and asked "What's going on baby?"
"I don't want to talk about it right now I told you"
That's fine... I guess"
"Can you at least eat half of it if not more?"
"I'm not hungry"
"We aren't leaving until you eat some of it or drink your tea"
"You can't be serious?"
"I'm not playing if you're not going to talk things out to me you at least have to eat. I don't want you to starve. I tried to be civil with you but she didn't want to listen, I hate when you get like this it's really frustrating."
Everyone at the table was looking at us. I didn't even realize it. But they didn't say anything because they knew that it was between husband and wife. I angrily picked up my fork and started to eat. By now everyone was done eating and I was the only one with a full plate. As I began eating I yelled smartly "There you're happy Dad?!" I said before shoving a fork full of food in my mouth.
"Yes I am, Delilah" he smartly said.
"Shut up and let's go home already"
"Okay" He kissed my forehead and our family left. When we got home I felt uneasy. While we were watching TV, I said "I um....want to go take a shower"
"That's fine you need help"
"I'm okay"
"Okay" I continued to watch whatever was on TV. When night hit, we were just about to watch a movie when he asked me suddenly "Baby now can you tell me what's going on, please talk to me"
"I told you no" He almost raised my voice "There isn't a 'No', you have been ignoring me all day and I want to know why. Is it about Isabella? Is it me? Is-" I cut him off before I could finish "Stop it Mason! It's not fucking Izzy okay?! And it's not you! You wouldn't understand what I'm worried about even if-It's too hard to explain...especially to you"
"What do you mean?"
"Forget about it. Can we just watch the damn movie?"
"No we're not, not until you give me an explanation"
"Please don't, I just want to enjoy our time together"
"Fine...whatever but I will get this out of you"
Some time passed through the night and as Mason was drifting off to sleep I was wide awake just staring into space. He asked "Why are you still up?"
"I'm not sleepy and plus I can't sleep"
"What were you thinking about?"
"Just...stuff"
"Like?"
"Izzy, the hospital, my health, us...just everything"
"Do you want to talk about it?"
" I'm fine, I just needed to clear my head that's all"
"Oh okay then why do you want to do it?"
"Watch whatever is on TV"
"Okay that's fine with me."
Mason turned the TV back on and started to surf the channels when I said for me to stop and I did it on ABC family, The Fosters was on. "Baby I think you shouldn't be watching this show in the predicament."
"Don't tell me what to do," I said in a demanding tone as I snuggled closely. We were enjoying the episode but then a commercial for baby pampers came on having Silent Night playing in the background as they showed different babies sleeping. It made me think about Izzy and I broke down crying after seeing it. He turned the tv off and asked me "What's the matter?" I didn't respond. He wrapped his arms around me and said "Shhh it'll be okay, everything will be just fine.... we'll see her tomorrow "
"But I don't know if she is going to see tomorrow "
"Let's just have an okay baby?"
"Yeah"
"I love you"
"I love you to baby girl" He wiped my tears that stained my cheeks and kissed my lips. Then I just laid my head on his chest while he ran his fingers through my hair and let me cry out all that pain that I have been holding in all day since this morning.
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