<忽然一陣敲門聲 – 我不知道門外將要進來的是誰> by 艾加。凱磊
(用博客來電子書)(原文寫於 2018冬)
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今天meeting整個被打趴在地146Please respect copyright.PENANAw1bDsSPP3F
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分屍挫骨146Please respect copyright.PENANAynL0ZVDbc5
還丟到海裡被鯨魚吃的概念...146Please respect copyright.PENANAiHeDZ0CgEc
沮喪到一邊吃水餃一邊想哭146Please respect copyright.PENANAAKpAcORxNG
但吃完收到日本來的回鍋肉真空包跟海鮮煎餅146Please respect copyright.PENANAnsCXP9DqUP
突然覺得有一點點回溫的暖意(很容易滿足跟感恩)146Please respect copyright.PENANAPoyoKASOlX
回家啥事都不想做146Please respect copyright.PENANA9EyX7rRMtI
只好寫心得146Please respect copyright.PENANAUlhSOtADOy
自己辦的讀書會第一次讀書心得(自己挖的坑自己填)146Please respect copyright.PENANAVuq2r7YLd5
期限快到了 一直沒空寫146Please respect copyright.PENANADkfWK4q2Ox
拜meeting ko之賜 二十分鐘就寫完了146Please respect copyright.PENANAIwBAhwW33f
就像<忽然一陣敲門聲>裡說的146Please respect copyright.PENANAyC2s0Sd9c8
「會痛?那就別下床。還是痛?等著:如果不死,總會過去。」P137.146Please respect copyright.PENANAeberCy7UMe
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好的,痛完了,明天再戰!146Please respect copyright.PENANA4jnrw2JwpL
<忽然一陣敲門聲 – 我不知道門外將要近來的是誰> by 艾加。凱磊146Please respect copyright.PENANAs9GdfwxRdI
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這真是我寫過最難寫的心得146Please respect copyright.PENANAshn0krCZ6p
但不是因為故事不好看146Please respect copyright.PENANARaR1tSikLX
相反的正是因為它的故事都很短暫146Please respect copyright.PENANAEiyuBxt01R
卻又每一篇都讓人意猶未盡 充滿寓意146Please respect copyright.PENANAMwsJdJxS4d
讓人不停思考146Please respect copyright.PENANAAwZmQaiztj
在故事結束之後146Please respect copyright.PENANA8DUWaDWV4h
那些人以及人生將如何繼續下去。146Please respect copyright.PENANAPzV9IooEli
以及某個人沒說的某句話146Please respect copyright.PENANAZC2q3ssLPi
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或是多做的某個動作是代表什麼意思146Please respect copyright.PENANAeZrb42CXu0
正是這種必須讀者自我思考的部分146Please respect copyright.PENANA1RJ9TYmYgn
沒有正確答案的問題充滿著整本書146Please respect copyright.PENANAkO0OQ68VZP
所以才難寫出它的精彩在哪146Please respect copyright.PENANAdi64bF7OzI
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整本書的故事都很短146Please respect copyright.PENANATvmKy1VIbo
短到第一個故事讀完146Please respect copyright.PENANACm6KHutZeS
結束時我以為缺頁了…146Please respect copyright.PENANAfq86WBkmRd
又翻回去讀一遍146Please respect copyright.PENANAFNkvTh51C5
我相信讀凱磊的書有人會說充滿著藍窗簾146Please respect copyright.PENANAriuEW7MTn7
或是充滿著讀者的腦補146Please respect copyright.PENANA1C3HfBPSwZ
但這味挺合我的146Please respect copyright.PENANALN2veuErjl
我就是喜歡自己想像那些故事未盡之處146Please respect copyright.PENANAJEztLf3c4C
還有那種當時沒有講明白146Please respect copyright.PENANALbmkK0RAIy
一陣子或多年之後某一刻因為某件事或某個人146Please respect copyright.PENANAhvqReb7klx
你突然領悟那時檯面下所沒有直訴的善意或惡意146Please respect copyright.PENANAi5h4evI5mp
我喜歡那種了悟當下的心裡的雞皮疙瘩146Please respect copyright.PENANAYrTalENSM8
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第一個故事似乎寫出了作者自己踏上寫作之路的原因146Please respect copyright.PENANA93hhOAmYlP
故事中一位作家被三個人上門恐嚇146Please respect copyright.PENANAlh2RHM0gC5
要他寫出一個故事來146Please respect copyright.PENANAVfmpEOYv8X
故事總在 「突然一陣敲門聲」出現時146Please respect copyright.PENANA0g7HkCU4Wv
(故事中)真實的世界就會出現一個敲門的人146Please respect copyright.PENANAyQaTPaZ0TY
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每個人都需要故事146Please respect copyright.PENANA0MUlz9edz2
因為所有人都需要有個出口146Please respect copyright.PENANAwRvWggITB3
作者經歷兵役 更在服役時親眼看見摯友自殺的慘狀146Please respect copyright.PENANAVnwKCLoIFN
他訴說當下回到房間146Please respect copyright.PENANAg9GXCZxtkP
他只能一直寫 胡亂地寫146Please respect copyright.PENANAZZXQTDRzfc
否則他將失去理智146Please respect copyright.PENANA1YD5hmmBeL
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每一個故事都是我們心中對外界的反應146Please respect copyright.PENANAlj6uKtf1Bn
猶如書中說的「無中生有是憑空捏造,沒有價值,誰都能做;有中生有卻表示東西一直都在那裡,在你裡面,你只是發掘出它的新面貌而已。」P16.146Please respect copyright.PENANA63rYwz1u72
故事帶給我們逃離現實的機會146Please respect copyright.PENANAiKQk23K2kF
更是我們鏡射反省自己的“有中生有”的方式146Please respect copyright.PENANAETTESVsdPU
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猶如銀翼殺手中說「每一個人曾經有過的每一個想法都是真的…」p304146Please respect copyright.PENANAkdEB3Y3eIw
包括故事146Please respect copyright.PENANAJ29JnKtOzo
包括我們所說的每一句話146Please respect copyright.PENANAPtnlf4Hx9K
每一個謊言146Please respect copyright.PENANAixqOfKp7XX
我想到書中第二個故事「謊言之地」146Please respect copyright.PENANAk23Cz7vedF
我特別有印象 也特別喜歡146Please respect copyright.PENANATfBGq4Pytd
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它訴說一位男孩在人生第一次媽媽給錢要他去買東西時146Please respect copyright.PENANAuQuc5d1Io5
他把錢拿去買了冰淇淋146Please respect copyright.PENANAC1Sg06SnpG
並把找零的錢藏在家後院的大石頭下146Please respect copyright.PENANAlp6AFt9mLW
回到家他跟母親說146Please respect copyright.PENANAPbz4LmLGt9
錢被一個紅髮的巨大的缺了門牙的男孩搶了146Please respect copyright.PENANAUEOhFvuAaY
母親信了146Please respect copyright.PENANA81IwAJP3zO
也開啟了他一生謊言的開始146Please respect copyright.PENANAcSytPQAExx
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為了逃兵請假說遠方來的阿姨得了癌症146Please respect copyright.PENANA2Uj1HkGUGr
上班遲到他虛構出了一隻車禍被撞斷後腿的狗146Please respect copyright.PENANAdt2UblBQXp
日復一日146Please respect copyright.PENANAe3r5A1W1nF
直到有一天他夢見過世多年的母親146Please respect copyright.PENANAQcuERRGgZ8
在夢中要求他給她一顆在扭蛋糖果機裡的糖果146Please respect copyright.PENANAJJB7tenYmR
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他說他沒零錢146Please respect copyright.PENANAg1n7nX97Q1
母親說 說不定零錢還在後院的石頭下146Please respect copyright.PENANA4TtBEOwIbi
他醒來後 因為夢裡過於真實146Please respect copyright.PENANAb9xWDb3lZ4
於是他半夜的開車到以前的家去(已經成了超商)146Please respect copyright.PENANA0S4gCesafN
到後院找到石頭146Please respect copyright.PENANA0i3lPEWjPb
搬開卻沒有錢146Please respect copyright.PENANA8qPSe9LllG
只有一個洞146Please respect copyright.PENANAmhHAEvepTl
他伸手進去摸到了扭蛋的鈕146Please respect copyright.PENANA8gl2ZKudPZ
一轉 眨眼間就來到的另一個房間146Please respect copyright.PENANAzyamq8798Q
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而他還未反應過來146Please respect copyright.PENANALRfSbf0sht
就有個人重重地踢了他一腳146Please respect copyright.PENANAEgj1L98NGC
他一抬頭 是一個紅髮的高大的男孩146Please respect copyright.PENANA4KXYqMiZQA
他問「你是誰」146Please respect copyright.PENANA6oL78ZC80O
男孩露出缺了門牙的笑容說146Please respect copyright.PENANAh9iY8UpNko
「我是你第一個謊」146Please respect copyright.PENANAy8RDEbgUHz
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他走出醒來時的小房間146Please respect copyright.PENANA6aDr4cKoGf
路上遇見許多人146Please respect copyright.PENANAaigj9SAwYN
有的是他的謊言 有的不是146Please respect copyright.PENANAHya6P9Immv
但大部分的生物都過的不太好146Please respect copyright.PENANAlyC1tpk0ga
包括那隻為了他上班遲到而只能拖著兩條後腿走著的狗146Please respect copyright.PENANAwIyEW6M0oc
(牠看見他依然開心的舔著他)146Please respect copyright.PENANAOPzFR6NsI0
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後來回到真實世界後146Please respect copyright.PENANAFuSvTxF5RV
男主就漸漸少講謊話146Please respect copyright.PENANAYf9W71T4iZ
即便要說 也盡量是說好話146Please respect copyright.PENANAbM5eU1NmRI
但「正面的謊話只有一個問題,就是比較難編,要編得可信並不容易。一般來說,如果你跟人家講的是件壞事,人家立刻就會相信,因為感覺上很平常;如果你講好事,人家反而會起疑。所以,漸漸地,羅比就不太說謊了,主要是懶得說。」P23.146Please respect copyright.PENANAkc5b0CfT0b
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故事還有後續146Please respect copyright.PENANABQFQIwiGjq
但不重要了146Please respect copyright.PENANAjvw47MY74v
作者塑造出一個即便是謊言中存在的人146Please respect copyright.PENANAPgVUfi68lu
也會有自己的世界跟生命146Please respect copyright.PENANAbxPpaXT3C3
我們每一個念頭都是真實的 不論善惡146Please respect copyright.PENANANDrZddkk9C
(大概是佛家說的 一念三千)146Please respect copyright.PENANAAudbE9b76W
而在我們可見 不可見的人生折疊處146Please respect copyright.PENANAv991qYgUZm
總也有人為我們說的謊言而付出代價146Please respect copyright.PENANAPxjyR7zPUy
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「痔瘡」這個故事的文筆可以排上我其中最愛的故事前三146Please respect copyright.PENANAnD4suTEGQr
實在把人生的齷齪跟無厘頭表現的太好了146Please respect copyright.PENANA8tj7Txb4yi
故事中從一個人跟他的痔瘡的角度描寫人生的“掙扎”146Please respect copyright.PENANAxrsncB85to
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「活著就是受罪,活著就是冒汗,活著就是一種你他媽忘不掉的痛。因此,別人做重大決定時候會傾聽自己的良心,他傾聽的對象是痔瘡。而那個痔瘡,跟其他痔瘡一樣,會給那人一些屎意見。」P104.146Please respect copyright.PENANANyoNCt87K4
(讚嘆譯者,屎意見翻的太好了)146Please respect copyright.PENANA358BaTSFL2
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「活著就是要盼望,活著就是要發燙,活著就是要把事情搞砸然後等著翻身。痔瘡會聽那人的話。就像別人聽肚子咕咕叫就吃東西一樣,痔瘡對那人也相當順服。多虧那人,痔瘡努力去相信自己能活也能讓人活,能學會原諒,能忍住不去鄙視人家,就算口出惡言也不會提及人家的母親。」P104.146Please respect copyright.PENANAMmThU1QlmD
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最後一個故事結束在「你是哪種動物?」146Please respect copyright.PENANA5bu8HKRa4n
再度收尾在故事可以讓殘酷的現實生活146Please respect copyright.PENANAugQxPq7U7B
得到一點紓解146Please respect copyright.PENANAB6CqpCFUFT
一點即便是表象的美好對快要崩裂的人來說146Please respect copyright.PENANAswuMVqt7Na
也足夠暫時可以把齷齪的現實擋在外面146Please respect copyright.PENANAb2QqBKmrcD
撐過多一秒 多一瞬間146Please respect copyright.PENANAHkjGM5Ijlh
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其他的故事也都很棒146Please respect copyright.PENANA2P9aDFHMvg
「健康的開始」跟「你會向金魚許什麼願?」146Please respect copyright.PENANAwPvMUbmxNY
都表現出了人的寂寞146Please respect copyright.PENANAfosHjhspCO
有時我們都很想成為別人146Please respect copyright.PENANAaeYRpyoz2H
成為那個生活中可以被一個人愛或恨或花時間一起吃頓飯的人146Please respect copyright.PENANAQHJGxWrrEa
而不是自己這個孤單無助的生命
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「瘋狂膠」 這故事詭異到太討喜了 我喜歡146Please respect copyright.PENANAhk8iUy3DGd
「拉開拉鍊」說的是我們都有另一個自己146Please respect copyright.PENANAoG7YqBaHbQ
「越界」這故事結尾耐人尋味146Please respect copyright.PENANAYUpfqOGkx2
到底是他死後變柔軟了 還是成了他殺的那些被他唾棄的人146Please respect copyright.PENANAQhxsAvSIFf
那才是一個殺手真正的地獄146Please respect copyright.PENANApDVii5aSMH
也都是很吸引人的故事146Please respect copyright.PENANAoMW1Ye9RaP
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當然也有幾個故事很“深”146Please respect copyright.PENANAIM9iR0RLvT
還需細細思考146Please respect copyright.PENANAMwMQy0zQks
例如「神秘感」、「這個故事大獲全勝」跟「只要$99.99含稅含郵」146Please respect copyright.PENANA7MP1vL79JE
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總之這是本故事短短的146Please respect copyright.PENANAJjNWxF6IVh
但思考跟餘韻卻長長的書146Please respect copyright.PENANAXQRGCXSBOA
作者對人生中閃現的那些人物146Please respect copyright.PENANAszBZkJ7CFC
以及他們背後可能的故事的描寫很細膩跟精巧146Please respect copyright.PENANAymv2ZHW3gW
可推146Please respect copyright.PENANAbmMQf2FQb9
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註:作者的故事將要被拍成電影,紀錄片的短短預告146Please respect copyright.PENANAg6IEWBCkd5
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-mw3tRGit5I&feature=youtu.be146Please respect copyright.PENANAW0RWrb5CnK
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p11. 他在十八歲時服了三年兵役,親眼目睹摯友自殺,腦海中只留下好友額頭被子彈貫穿,整個人被釘在樹上的震撼畫面。他剛結束十二小時的執勤,接下來四十八小時都得在房內獨處,他說當時自己只能在紙上不斷地胡亂寫,投身於另一個世界,才能免強找回繼續活下去的動力146Please respect copyright.PENANAZBSxGaxSWz
p11. 「逃離現實」是他開始寫作的契機,也是我們需要這些故事的根本原因146Please respect copyright.PENANAvRz1WvwLdV
P11. 再搜亂語戰爭頻發的以色列居住,人們經常會感到不安與緊張。我們於外在築起高牆,為了維護高牆內的信念而戰鬥,但內在被壓抑或忽視的感情卻嚴重阻塞。我認為我的小說正是一道排水口,讓人們得已排遣這樣的情緒。146Please respect copyright.PENANAtAIc8HV12T
P16. 無中生有是憑空捏造,沒有價值,誰都能做;有中生有卻表示東西一直都在那裡,在你裡面,你只是發掘出它的新面貌而已。146Please respect copyright.PENANAestJnib3kl
P23. 正面的謊話只有一個問題,就是比較難編,要編得可信並不容易。一般來說,如果你跟人家講的是件壞事,人家立刻就會相信,因為感覺上很平常;如果你講好事,人家反而會起疑。所以,漸漸地,羅比就不太說謊了,主要是懶得說。146Please respect copyright.PENANAfs1RiDlrxM
P72. 有些人從三樓掉到屋外,除了背後瘀青,沒有大礙;有些人下樓梯一個不小心,就進了醫院,上了石膏。大衛和她想必都屬於後者。146Please respect copyright.PENANAXs3tk45HiE
P72. 我鼓鼓滿滿的口袋裡放的就是這個:微乎其微的機會,能夠說「有」而不避遺憾的機會146Please respect copyright.PENANArSEWuvuVUh
P87. 他想,癌症是什麼,不就是來自天上的恐怖攻擊?神做這是不就是要恐嚇我們,對我們所做的…某些事表達抗議嗎?那些事太過崇高,146Please respect copyright.PENANAkHYW7KtBdp
超出了人類的知識範圍,我們無法理解。146Please respect copyright.PENANAN3I0h4d5fI
P87.多年來,生活似乎不過是個陷阱,是個迷宮,不,連迷宮都算不上,只是一塊圍在牆裡的空間,沒有門。他一直想,堅持要想出點什麼來,總有什麼事我希望會發生的吧,就算不可能辦到也沒有關係……他逼自己站起來,心想:「要是那天她們去上班,要是我開車送她,現在她就會活得好好的,和我一起坐在廚房裡了。」146Please respect copyright.PENANAleDah4Y2VM
P93. 若是他遇上會說畫的金魚,那麼別無所求,只求能把魚放進大玻璃缸,永遠擺在架子上,成天和牠說話。要講什麼都可以,可以聊運動,也可以聊政治,金魚愛聊什麼他們就聊什麼。聊什麼都行,那俄國人說,只要別讓我孤單一個人就好。146Please respect copyright.PENANAEZ0OqAgrea
P104. 活著就是受罪,活著就是冒汗,活著就是一種你他媽忘不掉的痛。因此,別人做重大決定時候會傾聽自己的良心,他傾聽的對象是痔瘡。而那個痔瘡,跟其他痔瘡一樣,會給那人一些屎意見。146Please respect copyright.PENANAnEPV1YGgRX
P104. 活著就是要盼望,活著就是要發燙,活著就是要把事情搞砸然後等著翻身。痔瘡會聽那人的話。就像別人聽肚子咕咕叫就吃東西一樣,痔瘡對那人也相當順服。多虧那人,痔瘡努力去相信自己能活也能讓人活,能學會原諒,能忍住不去鄙視人家,就算口出惡言也不會提及人家的母親。146Please respect copyright.PENANAkM7i1thBsy
P137. 會痛?那就別下床。還是痛?等著:如果不死,通總會過去146Please respect copyright.PENANAqVkzIKzSfk
P143. 我兒子問那個德國人:「妳是哪種動物?」我幫他把問題翻成英語。「我不是動物。」她一邊笑,一邊用長長的指甲梳頭髮,「我是怪物,來自海的另一邊,專吃你這種漂亮小孩。」「她說她是會唱歌的鳥,」我把她的話翻譯給兒子聽,態度自然,無懈可擊,「她說她是隻紅色羽毛會唱歌的鳥,是從很遠很遠的地方飛來的。」
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