It's been about two weeks since the wedding, and my lip has returned to its normal state. I can't say I'm not pleased.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBTDy6ANVy
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I haven't seen David since the morning after the wedding; I've had at least one photo shoot each day, which is a 180 from the level of struggles that I was facing not even four months ago.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1BocLfDEpp
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As I walk to the kitchen in my small apartment, I begin to wonder... what does David do? He's never told me. He must have a pretty good job to own two houses, but somehow, I've been fuckíng the man for weeks now and I still don't know.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJ1wwztN6j
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I shrug off the thought, and reach up to open the cabinet and pull down the jar of Jablum Instant Coffee, I feel a sharp pain in the left side of my pelvis.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYsvMxxLv2H
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"Fuck," I hiss, bending over.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6zRMcP9K6
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This is what you get for not eating dinner last night. Gas pains.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZCJIlISj1
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I straighten up and reach for the coffee again, this time retrieving it, and make myself a cup of steaming black coffee with scrambled eggs and bread along with it (I'm too lazy to do anything else).559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtscWheBzzu
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So, back to David. What does he do? For some reason, I wouldn't be surprised if he was into some shady shit. 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwcxBCDhQW
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Oh, well. 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsufPWlaew
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I guess I'll just have to ask the next time I see him. I make a mental note to do so, and even though I'm extremely forgetful, I'm pretty sure that I'll remember this.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOQTeDyR02
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After resolving to ask David about his occupation the next time we speak, I continue to eat, not really for the taste of the food, but rather out of necessity. It's something that happens to me sometimes — I don't feel the urge to eat, but I know that I have to do I force myself to.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPyfIUm5A2
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On other occasions, I'm like a pig, consuming everything in sight until I feel as if I'm about to burst like that poor man at the end of 'Monty Python's The Meaning of Life'. 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUpbXFdV2A
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I have no idea why my eating patterns are so random — they aren't affected by my mood or period, they just seem inconsistent.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKFt7yCCNS
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After I finish and wash up the plates, I go back to my room and check my phone.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZ6FoSpBPD
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I have two missed calls from none other than Marcus.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWmTFojSh2C
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"Answer your goddamn phone," he growls when I call him back.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6RlKfvLFbI
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"Whatever. Why are you calling me?"559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xmIrjvBQt
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"You have a new job offering. It's an event. But—"559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJuGCzC2qa
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"I—"559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVWXDLau9N
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"But—"559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQQ91Mm2bR
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"You—"559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3MDuCablM
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"But," he says, drawing out the word so that I will let him continue.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXbQMaZREn
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I shut up.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Ig3brUcXG
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"It's a free speaking/poetry open mic event. They're offering thirty thousand, because they're a little low on funding, but—"559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0yIWlTvWe
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"I'll go," I say before he can finish his sentence. I love poetry — and he knows it. I love reading it, I love writing it, I love hearing it. There's no way I'm passing up this opportunity.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OWS4yjoVa
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"Great. It's on Thursday coming at nine p.m. I'll text you the address and remember to get there early."559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmlwQ1XFfqL
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"Yes, sir!" I say in mock salute.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17D3b1gYeK
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I hear him laugh through the phone.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3pUs6hT5ow
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"By, Leah."559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIeNSe5ETx
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"Bye."559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNBIrJ7sr3
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I sigh as I hang up the phone. Today is Monday. What is it with all of the late bookings? 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvNvB0fhoc
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Well, at least you aren't broke anymore.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVcLe8PtPk
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With that optimistic thought in mind, I go back to the kitchen for another cup of coffee.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUB9pMh5pU
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Poetic Justice is a small, intimate setting. It is located outdoors, and has a small stage area with a few small tables and a bar located at the back.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMGmKl6J8z
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"Hello, you must be Leah," says a young woman who has just approached me, dressed in a pair of jeans and a grey blouse.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEyh3D7dfhh
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"Good evening. Andrea, right?" I ask. That's the name Marcus gave me.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjfrFO86x5f
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"Yes," she replies, and begins to walk, so naturally, I walk with her.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ094UMCDbnf
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"The bar is straight to the back. Have whatever you want; I've already told the bartender that your drinks are on the house. And feel free to come up and do a little poem; putting down the camera for five minutes won't hurt," she says with a smile, then turns and walks away.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUahXSAKpuL
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Well that's an odd offer. 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkC2N7HszPr
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I sigh and place my camera bag on a table near to me and start to set up my camera.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlVH5dtND3t
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"Leah," I hear in a voice that is all to familiar.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSp3rcOtLs
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"David?" I reply, spinning to face him. "What are you doing here?"559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNU2xyEhv1j
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"I come here all the time," he replies, his eyebrows knitted together, "and I love poetry."559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85js6mNg2z
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"So do I."559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84kzfvRqxU
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I now have my camera in my hand, and I remember the pressing question that I had for him.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRdimYpljp
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"What do you do for a living?" I blurt out.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWtiq7cbpV
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To be honest, I'm prepared to hear anything; from a drug dealer, to a pimp. I wouldn't judge him, though.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fJKl3MU9v
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"I'm a graphic designer."559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTgweTaU0a
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Well I wasn't expecting that.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI72lQWuGOu
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"I also sell ganja on the side. I have links with a ganja farmer."559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0NKON5Oop
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That's more like it.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEEtOShbim
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We stand there in silence for a few seconds, and then he clears his throat.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLGJ0Br7B5
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"I have to, use the bathroom. See you later."559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIVxacXMYa
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"Okay. Bye."559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKG4ANeVRj
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He walks off and I go to the bar and get myself a glass of ginger ale. I stand idly by the bar for a few moments, and before I know it, Andrea is on the stage.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT90WJGbmdl
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"Good evening, ladies and gentlemen. My name is Andrea, and tonight, I'll be your hostess. So as you are all probably aware, we are having a poetry/free speaking open mic event tonight. Who would like to go first?"559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2YAOKVdcJV
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A young girl around my age walks awkwardly up to the stage, and performs a dramatic rendition of Dry Foot Bwoy by Louise Bennett.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGugb0AeGNf
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As the night continues, I find myself being more and more entertained. One man performs a ballad inspired by his daughter; a young boy performs a free verse dedicated to his mother in the audience. 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUhiUEVLQT
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Then, a tall gentleman steps onto the stage.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LOdaU1Y9c
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"Hello. My name is Henry."559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TA6bnnb5V
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People in the crowd say their greetings.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfK4TQkZo6d
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"Tonight, I will be performing a free verse poem I wrote."559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulabrEdbrv
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He clears his voice, then begins.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvQQ54b8OB
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"Have you ever been in love?559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKNwHKArgz
Had your soul so deeply entwined559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡizZ2IYT7t7
With another's559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQeFykVUfN
That you cannot figure where yours ends559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwy3zUrgO7
And theirs begins?559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUaI73seMib
So madly and deeply in love559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡilpne8B5Xb
That that person's heart beats with yours;559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrrE2ZC6aew
Just looking at them is blinding; 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3Ax5yacjb
It's like staring at a supernova 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOIeIdYgZD
But you do it anyway559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSBSOGMKhD
Because when she's there559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT4uMqPjEaq
Logic and Reason die."559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdLuzUcI6x
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I feel my stomach curl with unease, tension filling my body, because I know that it's going to go downhill — I can feel it.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY3xTUgyDlN
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"Now imagine what it feels like 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RFL8BjwJW
To have that person559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Uu9RuTr1f
Ripped 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xIOPn6QA8
From your life;559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkNF8aCBPw
Torn away from you.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoH32bfDoQt
You can't breathe. 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Mc0yFxaSF
You're dead, yet you aren't,559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkIjr6YL13
You still 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBByvmPvRzi
Walk559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1D5i68OHeK
Talk559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYdqtVCPPZ
Interact 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMHUuOQntS
With the people around you,559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kcFS8bdem
But on the on the inside, 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJNX69W6OcS
You're hollow;559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVl5Udr78KR
Dead."559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8k3IRV3bQ
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This is not how my night was supposed to go.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Lgjc5QHip
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"It's been ten years,559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xnl0QMvgr
My love, 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUccMEICT6Z
And every day, 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfy6AFXoTs
Every hour, 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnrGZfGJv1
Every second without you 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfU7Mzf3rf
Feels like 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbgzzfbZ5K
Torture."559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNu3cr0TSyM
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By now, I feel like I'm being tortured. I want to leave, but as I look through the viewfinder of my camera, I know more than anything that I can't.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQNpKcraUq
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"I would ask for 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptjKusVdiS
Forgiveness,559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9NI5cC1Eg
But I can see that you've... 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2wxznin0g9
Moved on, 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGGmAdMnQQB
And found happiness elsewhere. 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG4WXPJB4Sd
And I have to live559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQGCAEXMAG
With the consequences 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8fAAfnTocJ
Of my stupid actions 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0BKV9MqLG
For the rest of my life. 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2btwjnYZGb
I have to live with this 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRJbXnyL7T
Torture, 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtl5dICzXg4
This 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XBl7nt78h
Pain,559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbR1dZc6RY
Because I have never stopped,559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlSyjmPYg9w
Loving 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcv8Ahy8XeQ
You,559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡta7Kxrr7Ub
And I don't think I ever will."559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUkH6xKnL6b
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By the end of the poem, I feel like I might drop my camera.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg2SlEasFzt
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All of the emotions that I have been trying to surprises come rushing forward as Henry says his poem, because I know exactly what that feels like. I don't want to remember it, but I do.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JevfHG15P
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Tears fill and spill over my eyes as the audience applaud Henry; I can no longer see Henry through the viewfinder of my camera.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKWYbmGghC
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This pain, this ache in my chest, this is what happens when you suppress your emotions, and pretend that your past is nonexistent, when you refuse to acknowledge what was once there.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoahj3xdUd
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Pressing the ignore button on the past — repeatedly, in my case — is not only disrespectful to the highest degree, but also stupid, because the past won't change.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrttk04eb4v
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The fact that I'm in a place called Poetic Justice and my stupidity has finally caught up to me isn't lost on me. How ironic.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprIw9lLlVt
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Suddenly, a strong arm is wrapped around me, and the camera is being taken out of my hand. I let out a broken sob into his chest as he rubs my back soothingly. I don't even know how long we stand there like this.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjyxx74Rz3
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In the back of my mind I know that I'm crossing a line, breaking my own rule letting him comfort me like this, but in this moment, I feel too broken to care.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB6JLAybFMO
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We finally pull apart, and he looks at me cautiously, as if I'll break.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt67ALqblaD
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"I'm okay," I say to reassure him.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfEqDtRG5T
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He doesn't look convinced.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPlSGixtqu
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I look down at the ground and sigh, then look back at him. 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9dJPH2mLPR
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Then I realise he isn't holding my camera.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqYPi3Radi
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"Where's my camera?" I ask frantically.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1o5UyiIlO
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He nods behind me, and I see my camera bag sitting on a table behind us. I sigh loudly in relief.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqfbhMG5j5L
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I look up at him, and maybe it's because of how vulnerable but safe I'm feeling with him right now, but what I say next just feels right.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GvO0hV0LW
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"I've been in love before; madly, madly, deeply in love," I say, my voice cracking all over the place. I take a shaky breath. "It hurts to think about what could have been; what will never be. I wanted to be a mother, to be the mother of his children." 559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0jb4fWoUU
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I'm hyperventilating.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6FWHRpySgx
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"Breathe, Leah. Take deep, steady breaths," he says to me while rubbing circles into my back.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ZXN5jSxiF
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When I finally calm down he speaks again.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcoyTeqM04
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"If you don't mind telling me... what happened?"559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhp6iHBE1yc
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My chest starts to hurt, my eyes are burning, but I owe him an answer. I brought this up.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ89Q2h6xbmD
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I look him dead in the face as my eyes fill with tears once more.559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumcswu3duc
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"He died."
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