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December 31, 2004
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Same day
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I know it's dumb, because I really want to kiss him but I know better. My mind is so disappointed with my body right now. I can't believe I asked him, god he probably thinks I'm desperate... or a total whore. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZJH5uVVKk
I take him in with a sideways glance. His muscles are bulging out of his tight T-shirt. His curly brown hair is just messy enough to look effortless, but he probably spent a lot of time on it. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8CChIFphol
He is obviously a womanizer, he literally oozes sex appeal. I cannot let myself fall for a guy like this. I will only get hurt, like with the jerk who will not be named. I will not fall for him. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kzt9zX7pc
Ben leans in close to me. I can feel his breath on my neck, but I'm afraid to turn towards him. I might not be able to wait until midnight to kiss him. I will not fall for him.754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkB7yYO8W83
"Hey, what's going on?" I hear his voice faintly in my ear. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFu7PYygU5L
I turn, surprised by the question. "What?" I can't remove the look of shock on my face. Why does he even care? What should I tell him? I'm not good at lying, but I can't tell him the truth. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFAJOjbNd0
Crap, I just realized how close our faces are. His eyes are intense and his lips are so... tempting. I will not fall for him.754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcxNfGE6juT
The sincere look on his face is almost convincing, but there's no way he really wants to know. I know guys like him and they don't care. Guys like him only care whether they can get in your pants or not. Asking him to kiss me wasn't a great step in the plan to not fall for him, but like usual Vanessa bullied me. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNyBodUFB0p
"I don't know what you are talking about." I decide to pretend... Okay, I know it is technically a lie. I already know it's going to fail because nobody ever believes me when I lie, apparently my face gives away too much or something. They make it sound like it's something I need to change, but it's my face, what can I do about it?754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLk8OvHBMT
He looks at me hard and with his stature, it is almost intimidating. "No really, Kat."754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QSy5U9gLy
"I... uh..." Oh no, this isn't good. I want to tell him all my secrets. I need to stop drinking, I'm not thinking clearly. I need to make rational decisions. I will not fall for him.754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkx8hvmXvWK
"Yes?" He asks me, with a cocky raised brow. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8HhQ2xPJy2
"I... uh... uhm... you see..." I lick my lips and his eyes dart down to my mouth. His gaze returns to my eyes as he prompts me to continue. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaq35FoOSd
His body is calling to mine. I lean forward, needing to be closer to him, longing to breathe him in and taste him. I've never been so ready for a kiss, especially with a complete stranger... not that I kiss a lot of strangers. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf27yxRVftw
Shoot, was I saying something? 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBDn0bkVKX
"I think you might be bad news." Crap. I inwardly cringe. I didn't mean to say that out loud. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgi15kxIMd
He smirks, showing his adorable dimples. "Bad news, huh?" God, he is so sexy. I am so screwed. I will not fall for him.754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwWgJcUbIK
"Mmhmm..." is all I get out before the countdown to midnight begins. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxU3VcHg5Ur
"Ten." His eyes make their way to my mouth. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHVRT1j5Uq8
"Nine." He licks his lips. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpcjkgGaAE8
"Eight." He leans in until we are touching.754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlLzTpngYz
He slides his hand to caress my neck. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5pigj98pi
"Seven." His eyes burn with desire as they meet mine. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73tYfY7e3P
"Six." My body screams at me to kiss him, while my brain yells at me to stop. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHfhoaHiKV
"Five." It's just a kiss. I will not fall for him. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtoFMa0NGV1
"Four." He leans in until I can feel his breath on my lips. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOJ1Ubfvr1
"Three." I'm breathing him in. It's intoxicating. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRollpJSxM6
"Ready?" He asks into my mouth. I manage to whimper, but the 'no' refuses to leave my mouth.754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fHEg4T3O0
"Two." I will not... I will not... do something.754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBumA9JNJ3Q
I could get lost in his eyes.754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtmOobUqZoO
"One." Shoot... what was I doing again? 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMnQkDhOsIB
"Happy New Year," he whispers as his lips gently brush mine. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9p4ARbUM2
The room erupts around us, but it all fades away when his soft lips meets mine. When his mouth begins to move against mine, it feels so right. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUZc4Ji00d
It feels like this kiss is waking me up from a deep sleep that I didn't even realize I was in. I feel alive and powerful, but nervous and scared at the same time. This is so good and so very bad. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLkyNlP7pE
I never want this kiss to end, I want him to deepen it and take it further, but he doesn't. He keeps it gentle and slow. Forget his eyes, I could get lost in his mouth. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFfV6ha5Bv
All too soon, he pulls back.754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl56CYpuhRN
Immediately I feel lost and confused. I wanted so much more of that. So why did he stop? Maybe it's me. I'm probably a terrible kisser. Oh god, what if I am a terrible kisser? How do you know? Can I ask him that? No way, that would be too awkward. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHKeQOyp3w
What was I thinking? This kiss was a terrible idea. Why did I ask him? Why? This was so stupid. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUURsKVcSZT
I cover my mouth with my hands, as embarrassment seeps into me. I need to know what I did wrong. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37dKG3Denm
"Was it bad?" I try to hide the hurt from my face, but I can feel the sting of tears in the back of my eyes. I blink to remove them, but they threaten to spill over. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzMLvlPylE
He just stares at me with a stunned look on his face. Oh no, it was even worse than I thought. He hates me and he's probably trying to wipe the kiss from his brain. Or maybe he's trying to plan his escape. 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lwNZXJCwK
"Ben?" I try to shout over the sound, but everyone is celebrating around us. He looks frozen. Did I break him? 754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44mogfMpH9
Crap, is it possible to break someone with a bad kiss? Do they send an ambulance for that?
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