Kat611Please respect copyright.PENANAvfSCIg3j03
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December 31, 2004
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Same day
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I know it's dumb, because I really want to kiss him but I know better. My mind is so disappointed with my body right now. I can't believe I asked him, god he probably thinks I'm desperate... or a total whore. 611Please respect copyright.PENANA2gax6biYYa
I take him in with a sideways glance. His muscles are bulging out of his tight T-shirt. His curly brown hair is just messy enough to look effortless, but he probably spent a lot of time on it. 611Please respect copyright.PENANA4QHMoUjKti
He is obviously a womanizer, he literally oozes sex appeal. I cannot let myself fall for a guy like this. I will only get hurt, like with the jerk who will not be named. I will not fall for him. 611Please respect copyright.PENANA0jALmr45b0
Ben leans in close to me. I can feel his breath on my neck, but I'm afraid to turn towards him. I might not be able to wait until midnight to kiss him. I will not fall for him.611Please respect copyright.PENANA9T0v0mhyA5
"Hey, what's going on?" I hear his voice faintly in my ear. 611Please respect copyright.PENANAltPeaYgpWu
I turn, surprised by the question. "What?" I can't remove the look of shock on my face. Why does he even care? What should I tell him? I'm not good at lying, but I can't tell him the truth. 611Please respect copyright.PENANAnAHvyHDMFB
Crap, I just realized how close our faces are. His eyes are intense and his lips are so... tempting. I will not fall for him.611Please respect copyright.PENANAEEoyaKOz66
The sincere look on his face is almost convincing, but there's no way he really wants to know. I know guys like him and they don't care. Guys like him only care whether they can get in your pants or not. Asking him to kiss me wasn't a great step in the plan to not fall for him, but like usual Vanessa bullied me. 611Please respect copyright.PENANA4BIfxRRjtL
"I don't know what you are talking about." I decide to pretend... Okay, I know it is technically a lie. I already know it's going to fail because nobody ever believes me when I lie, apparently my face gives away too much or something. They make it sound like it's something I need to change, but it's my face, what can I do about it?611Please respect copyright.PENANAk6RcxEHInU
He looks at me hard and with his stature, it is almost intimidating. "No really, Kat."611Please respect copyright.PENANAXWBNf4O4Rw
"I... uh..." Oh no, this isn't good. I want to tell him all my secrets. I need to stop drinking, I'm not thinking clearly. I need to make rational decisions. I will not fall for him.611Please respect copyright.PENANAl9I7AJLyAP
"Yes?" He asks me, with a cocky raised brow. 611Please respect copyright.PENANAJmpyKOzI2y
"I... uh... uhm... you see..." I lick my lips and his eyes dart down to my mouth. His gaze returns to my eyes as he prompts me to continue. 611Please respect copyright.PENANAVhR2gvHG70
His body is calling to mine. I lean forward, needing to be closer to him, longing to breathe him in and taste him. I've never been so ready for a kiss, especially with a complete stranger... not that I kiss a lot of strangers. 611Please respect copyright.PENANAEwT2ELkh3w
Shoot, was I saying something? 611Please respect copyright.PENANAxpukzChCPa
"I think you might be bad news." Crap. I inwardly cringe. I didn't mean to say that out loud. 611Please respect copyright.PENANA77GHTDjmyF
He smirks, showing his adorable dimples. "Bad news, huh?" God, he is so sexy. I am so screwed. I will not fall for him.611Please respect copyright.PENANA3quooSHFK6
"Mmhmm..." is all I get out before the countdown to midnight begins. 611Please respect copyright.PENANAzCSwlR3xvi
"Ten." His eyes make their way to my mouth. 611Please respect copyright.PENANASgb9RaK2KW
"Nine." He licks his lips. 611Please respect copyright.PENANAMLaQmSPeMn
"Eight." He leans in until we are touching.611Please respect copyright.PENANA5uOExHd5d4
He slides his hand to caress my neck. 611Please respect copyright.PENANANw4ocleH7Z
"Seven." His eyes burn with desire as they meet mine. 611Please respect copyright.PENANA9eDlGatLJ9
"Six." My body screams at me to kiss him, while my brain yells at me to stop. 611Please respect copyright.PENANAtTf88KSAzm
"Five." It's just a kiss. I will not fall for him. 611Please respect copyright.PENANAjozcWNJpxN
"Four." He leans in until I can feel his breath on my lips. 611Please respect copyright.PENANANiKqmffdkz
"Three." I'm breathing him in. It's intoxicating. 611Please respect copyright.PENANAInzdwSMiB7
"Ready?" He asks into my mouth. I manage to whimper, but the 'no' refuses to leave my mouth.611Please respect copyright.PENANAHlwlJUNCEo
"Two." I will not... I will not... do something.611Please respect copyright.PENANAWI7caSB5zw
I could get lost in his eyes.611Please respect copyright.PENANA3Wnw6g7ZjS
"One." Shoot... what was I doing again? 611Please respect copyright.PENANAAtHMtSnFTO
"Happy New Year," he whispers as his lips gently brush mine. 611Please respect copyright.PENANAdjhgsi0kJO
The room erupts around us, but it all fades away when his soft lips meets mine. When his mouth begins to move against mine, it feels so right. 611Please respect copyright.PENANANowDAGeFHo
It feels like this kiss is waking me up from a deep sleep that I didn't even realize I was in. I feel alive and powerful, but nervous and scared at the same time. This is so good and so very bad. 611Please respect copyright.PENANAm1LxEkY5U1
I never want this kiss to end, I want him to deepen it and take it further, but he doesn't. He keeps it gentle and slow. Forget his eyes, I could get lost in his mouth. 611Please respect copyright.PENANAbDq1H75Hqw
All too soon, he pulls back.611Please respect copyright.PENANAWkcKsSROWw
Immediately I feel lost and confused. I wanted so much more of that. So why did he stop? Maybe it's me. I'm probably a terrible kisser. Oh god, what if I am a terrible kisser? How do you know? Can I ask him that? No way, that would be too awkward. 611Please respect copyright.PENANAvnK6gFAuEG
What was I thinking? This kiss was a terrible idea. Why did I ask him? Why? This was so stupid. 611Please respect copyright.PENANA7Hu3ckdtxv
I cover my mouth with my hands, as embarrassment seeps into me. I need to know what I did wrong. 611Please respect copyright.PENANA6s0jemUz8w
"Was it bad?" I try to hide the hurt from my face, but I can feel the sting of tears in the back of my eyes. I blink to remove them, but they threaten to spill over. 611Please respect copyright.PENANAd76tATvT3W
He just stares at me with a stunned look on his face. Oh no, it was even worse than I thought. He hates me and he's probably trying to wipe the kiss from his brain. Or maybe he's trying to plan his escape. 611Please respect copyright.PENANAq3Hde9YuSH
"Ben?" I try to shout over the sound, but everyone is celebrating around us. He looks frozen. Did I break him? 611Please respect copyright.PENANAfuc3H0phuW
Crap, is it possible to break someone with a bad kiss? Do they send an ambulance for that?
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