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February 14, 2005
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Same day
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I see her across the room. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE5BUQg6HDN
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Of course I see her.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMylGqgkMx7
I always see her.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9lgyve0ba
And she's just as fucking beautiful as always. Maybe even more so.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVeY5vAS3u
Damn it.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEUGIKiPzG
I need to stop looking at her. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7PRS7pLx0
This is fucking Valentine's Day. The Holiday for desperate chicks, so why the fuck am I sitting here alone?766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtE1olRLARW
You already know the answer to that, you fucking idiot. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PatEz0BTi
Damn it.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeckurMS857
I scan the room for the thousandth time. My gaze lands on her, like it always does. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMQEvAmnaa
I want her so much, it physically hurts. I couldn't think about anyone else, even if I wanted to.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2d6WZoAAr
I don't want to. I want her, only her. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡglawzSpdNe
But I fucked it up. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMalOjxtPbn
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Of course I fucked it up.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwrcvvpgI0
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Because I'm a fucking idiot.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfklt2Z0cIy
And now she really hates me. She's been avoiding me this whole time. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnt9LqfOUpL
It feels like a fucking knife in my chest every time I see her and she's not near me.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ADA3OXX0o
I need to touch her soft skin. I want to kiss her sexy lips. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaD4jZXGyuC
Can lips be sexy?766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcLC3uQi4y
I don't know, but hers are. Everything about her is perfect. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQuqnE2Nzb
I need her. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKuST1b4Oe
A blonde approaches me, Karen, I think. Fuck, I don't know. Who cares. She pushes her arms up in an attempt to display more of her tits and any other time, I would have been interested.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1CEFNeQAW
It's feels like that was another life. Everything feels so different now.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDaVGVuIRUw
"Hey Ben." She says my name like it's supposed to mean something, but I couldn't care less about what she wants.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPeLL9wLvLl
Oh shit, I think I may have fooled around with her before. Maybe?766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHcV86GSAKf
"Hey, sorry, I gotta go. See you around." I stand quickly without a plan of where to go, but I figure I can hide from everyone in my room. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRk815b1R1U
Even her.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWcKA8BtJt
I close the door, locking everyone out and stumble to my bed in the dark. Shit, I drank too much trying to ignore the girl across the room. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0PLVqXhor
I feel something strange as I lay down...766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7b3P05ieb
I'm not alone. Fuck! Who the hell is in my bed?766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUnu5rzrZfu
"Ben?" I hear her groggy voice and instantly relax. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl6q9czP1aD
"Kat? What the fuck? You scared the hell out of me!" Why is she in my bed? Was she sleeping?766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9obIBALhQd
"What are you doing here?" Her confusion coming through her scratchy voice.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQUdE9cfhc
"What do you mean? In case you forgot, this is my room." I'm too amused to be irritated. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9P21DLEVR
"Oh." She seems to realize where she's at. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxLzAuaLOB
"Oh." I chuckle. God, she's so fucking adorable.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkJoOVLIvk
"Sorry." I can hear the embarrassment in her voice and even though I can't see her in the dark, I know she's blushing. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAszxslbJG9
She moves, in a hurry to get up and probably run away from the asshole that I am. I need to make her stop. I don't want her to leave.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1G4k2gSuN
"What are you doing in here, Kat?" I hope my question will be enough of a reason to stay at least a few minutes longer. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvSjOhEJaD
It's not. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQt3tPVnDc
She stands up quickly, just as a crash sounds through the room. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5WGiCHKw2m
"Oh shit! Ben, I think I knocked something over." I can hear her scurry around, feeling for whatever it was.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOH9zpzdrpE
I laugh. Nothing in my room is that important. "Don't worry about it, Kat."766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5ocJqUmOA
"Don't worry about it?!? I'm pretty sure there's broken glass down here!" She's frantically feeling around. She's going to get herself hurt.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNhHYt1Hom
"That's all the more reason to not feel around in the dark. Seriously, Kat. It's fine. Stop before you hurt yourself." I hear her sigh, but she stops her movement. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7fN8Pcjel
"Now, tell me. What were you doing laying in my bed? Not that I'm complaining." Shit, that last part wasn't supposed to come out.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVoQXzmENYm
I feel the bed sink next to me as she sits down. "I just needed to... get away."766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS20bwTuThI
"I know the feeling." I sigh. What I don't say is I was mostly trying to get away from her.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgllRIEhlf
"You do? You know what it feels like for all you friends to be in happy relationships and worried about you and your sad pathetic life?" She lets out a huff. Damn. I was not expecting that.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡroCdsZYTeR
"Uh... Yes?" She gives a humorless chuckle and I can just see her eyes rolling. "Well, I mean, I kinda do. Actually. I guess I just never thought about it like that before."766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3jP0qsBZ5
"Oh." Well, that shut her up, which would usually be a good thing, but I'm not sure what the fuck to say.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzY7xWu17L
I decide to use this moment to beg for her forgiveness. "Listen, I just want to say, I am really sorry. For everything. I know you're not a fan of starting over, but do you think maybe you could forgive me?"766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5UVFDdsXD
She scoffs. "Oh please, like its that easy. You don't even mean that."766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWyflLgASB
"I do too. More than anything. What can I do to make it up to you?" I would do just about anything she asks, I just hope she does forgive me.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDYsezGYaqo
"Nothing. There's nothing... at... all... Wait! I have an idea." I can hear the smile in her voice. Oh shit, why do I feel so nervous?766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6tBnkuwY3
She keeps talking, not waiting for my response. "Okay! Just hear me out before you say anything. Okay?"766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSup1vgLjth
Again, I couldn't get a word in before she barrels on. "Okay. So, I think we should date."766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtXgFkfouj
I can't stop the sound that erupts from my chest. It's somewhere between a laugh and a choking sound. I'm so in shock that my body has broken.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPye5qusFjD
"I-uh... You-what?" Words. What are words? 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboCBinZE59
"Okay, before you shut me down." I wasn't going to. "It's not real. We can just pretend to date."766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgoKldPTv3j
"Why the fuck would we do that?" Okay, now I'm really confused.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcpXb8Z85v
"Because I really need this. And you said anything!" She throws my words back in my face.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrdxJeOWHJ
I groan and rub my hands down my face. What the fuck did I just get myself in to? 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2jfhH3A0K2
"Okay, okay. Just give me a minute... to... to..." To what? What the fuck is there to think about? I can't say no. "Just give me a minute to process... all of this."766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjrNFuqNyD
"Sure, take your time." I feel her shift on the bed as she lays down. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfF539JShb
"Make yourself at home." I half joke, because I honestly don't mind her laying in my bed.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNALMpwePN
She just giggles, stretching out to get comfortable. Damn. I really missed that sound. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡem50ERbSZl
I missed everything about her.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwaa1Z9KGG
I'm going to have to do this. Pretend to be with the girl that I can't stop thinking about. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDB8DtyT9w2
Shouldn't be too hard to fake feelings, it's the keeping them fake part that's going to be a struggle. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOog332zxW
"Why exactly do you need this?" I have a right to know why we are doing this, don't l?766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGyZEp3NrH
She sighs. "Does it really matter?" 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2xRBu5Sk1
"Before I agree to your crazy scheme, I need to know why we are doing it in the first place." Why can't it just be real? Of course, I don't say that out loud because I'm a huge pussy.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRKOt31IfS
"Okay, fair enough. Everyone has been treating me like I'm fragile since the whole... you know... happened." I lay down next to her on my back.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDOfeSe9bv
"The whole you know?" I'm completely confused. What the fuck is she talking about? 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAD0cQ2UFMV
"You know... New Year's Eve?" She sounds embarrassed, but I still don't understand.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fAnFHIDLm
"Why would they treat you differently because of that?" Maybe I'm missing something?766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQXnm2pBFo
"Uh... because of... what happened... with you." Shit. This is all because of me? 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡszTtxhORvo
"Oh... I didn't... I didn't know." I can't believe she has been struggling and it's all my fault.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrOolKFr3Yt
"So uhm... Yeah... They act like I'm going to break, so I'm sick of being pitied and worried about and I just want to be normal... And you can help with that. Two birds, one stone. You know?"766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xYv7q25hO
"Uh, am I the birds or the stones here?" I chuckle. She's so weird sometimes. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6e5qFiE6g
She laughs. "Well, I guess the stone."766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTaCgRTiIl
"Okay, so what are the birds?" I'm barely able to hold my laughter in to get the sentence out.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLew8SMCK8v
"Wait. No. That's wrong. You're a bird!" She sounds excited, like she's made a huge discovery or something.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajXTaHDrtz
"So... I'm a bird now?" Seriously... She is the most adorable person I know.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlygoKlYvCp
"Okay, everyone is worried about me because they think you broke my heart or whatever. So, bird one is you. And everyone pities me because I'm single. So, being a pathetic loser is bird two."766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡahRl01MBiw
I turn on my side to face her. "You are not a pathetic loser." Completely ignoring the fact she said I broke her heart.766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxbPO8DiIH
"I most certainly am. That's why I need this. If I can just throw the stone of our fake relationship at the birds, everything will be okay." Exhaustion fills her voice as she turns to face me. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtuicRxrRkB
I can't help but notice we are only inches apart. I can feel her breath on my face. If I leaned forward a fraction of an inch, our noses would be touching. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0zvRh4NFb
Shit. This is bad. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhIyZUpoPTJ
Faking it is going to be so hard. 766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xZP2tAibF
"So... What do you say, Little Birdie? You in?" Her laugh echoing into the core of my being, reverberating and filling my chest.
I find her hand and pull it to my face, placing a kiss on it. "Let's throw that rock."766Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SdxoSTgZq
I am so fucked.
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