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February 14, 2005
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Same day
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I see her across the room. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxPTTXppKD
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Of course I see her.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqr1AeDxcpY
I always see her.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOcA4brKY0
And she's just as fucking beautiful as always. Maybe even more so.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWS9XAKl7c
Damn it.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLAdyasrQu
I need to stop looking at her. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYsdDMM8O1q
This is fucking Valentine's Day. The Holiday for desperate chicks, so why the fuck am I sitting here alone?683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYcei2IsiR
You already know the answer to that, you fucking idiot. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzSmBaebe2
Damn it.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡia4Kafy1Dx
I scan the room for the thousandth time. My gaze lands on her, like it always does. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCvXH6oJyT
I want her so much, it physically hurts. I couldn't think about anyone else, even if I wanted to.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItIVRip3AQ
I don't want to. I want her, only her. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBkfSLfpRr
But I fucked it up. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXs8VBUykZq
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Of course I fucked it up.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyI4Bgu44xt
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Because I'm a fucking idiot.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxw2T1sSJV
And now she really hates me. She's been avoiding me this whole time. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIkLpIdMvO
It feels like a fucking knife in my chest every time I see her and she's not near me.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDClMxRvtQ
I need to touch her soft skin. I want to kiss her sexy lips. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtsy4XnTK1
Can lips be sexy?683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcyyf9edYE
I don't know, but hers are. Everything about her is perfect. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQIcHdQscKw
I need her. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ789OdT87JM
A blonde approaches me, Karen, I think. Fuck, I don't know. Who cares. She pushes her arms up in an attempt to display more of her tits and any other time, I would have been interested.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9b2gBrjFd
It's feels like that was another life. Everything feels so different now.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl96ObZ42cb
"Hey Ben." She says my name like it's supposed to mean something, but I couldn't care less about what she wants.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrBRNTgbwtl
Oh shit, I think I may have fooled around with her before. Maybe?683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMUGyoqhNv
"Hey, sorry, I gotta go. See you around." I stand quickly without a plan of where to go, but I figure I can hide from everyone in my room. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHekuZUJUVc
Even her.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuK1vbQ1QvL
I close the door, locking everyone out and stumble to my bed in the dark. Shit, I drank too much trying to ignore the girl across the room. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6m5cF4GQQY
I feel something strange as I lay down...683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy7FzdcAdY5
I'm not alone. Fuck! Who the hell is in my bed?683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46pUmEWQI7
"Ben?" I hear her groggy voice and instantly relax. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcjYYILE9b
"Kat? What the fuck? You scared the hell out of me!" Why is she in my bed? Was she sleeping?683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDb2F3HwNnA
"What are you doing here?" Her confusion coming through her scratchy voice.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWU96SJDfpi
"What do you mean? In case you forgot, this is my room." I'm too amused to be irritated. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeh9fht7AwM
"Oh." She seems to realize where she's at. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvz1Ku4zwsT
"Oh." I chuckle. God, she's so fucking adorable.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWLP2uRKWy
"Sorry." I can hear the embarrassment in her voice and even though I can't see her in the dark, I know she's blushing. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53hDq6p9Bf
She moves, in a hurry to get up and probably run away from the asshole that I am. I need to make her stop. I don't want her to leave.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡraUy8sj2JH
"What are you doing in here, Kat?" I hope my question will be enough of a reason to stay at least a few minutes longer. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2k4K5xuGiz
It's not. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡupNhu5iDGL
She stands up quickly, just as a crash sounds through the room. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKeXBQLlshZ
"Oh shit! Ben, I think I knocked something over." I can hear her scurry around, feeling for whatever it was.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1MTi2384Y
I laugh. Nothing in my room is that important. "Don't worry about it, Kat."683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1Sd43qIuk
"Don't worry about it?!? I'm pretty sure there's broken glass down here!" She's frantically feeling around. She's going to get herself hurt.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmyYfHgyRH
"That's all the more reason to not feel around in the dark. Seriously, Kat. It's fine. Stop before you hurt yourself." I hear her sigh, but she stops her movement. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1bxd6ZEZh3
"Now, tell me. What were you doing laying in my bed? Not that I'm complaining." Shit, that last part wasn't supposed to come out.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndY0wZ3R6a
I feel the bed sink next to me as she sits down. "I just needed to... get away."683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlpm4rv8ns
"I know the feeling." I sigh. What I don't say is I was mostly trying to get away from her.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqbX9ZHvK3
"You do? You know what it feels like for all you friends to be in happy relationships and worried about you and your sad pathetic life?" She lets out a huff. Damn. I was not expecting that.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4QzlWNXG9
"Uh... Yes?" She gives a humorless chuckle and I can just see her eyes rolling. "Well, I mean, I kinda do. Actually. I guess I just never thought about it like that before."683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1pNbVZILy
"Oh." Well, that shut her up, which would usually be a good thing, but I'm not sure what the fuck to say.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRrnHlG4b5e
I decide to use this moment to beg for her forgiveness. "Listen, I just want to say, I am really sorry. For everything. I know you're not a fan of starting over, but do you think maybe you could forgive me?"683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUsYOw5n2su
She scoffs. "Oh please, like its that easy. You don't even mean that."683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ26EOaXA56w
"I do too. More than anything. What can I do to make it up to you?" I would do just about anything she asks, I just hope she does forgive me.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQYWg94HdH
"Nothing. There's nothing... at... all... Wait! I have an idea." I can hear the smile in her voice. Oh shit, why do I feel so nervous?683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1dho7PE7Q
She keeps talking, not waiting for my response. "Okay! Just hear me out before you say anything. Okay?"683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17MPCZwds3
Again, I couldn't get a word in before she barrels on. "Okay. So, I think we should date."683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcab8MbbsD
I can't stop the sound that erupts from my chest. It's somewhere between a laugh and a choking sound. I'm so in shock that my body has broken.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5XQp0CuNL
"I-uh... You-what?" Words. What are words? 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoBUWMwEcUT
"Okay, before you shut me down." I wasn't going to. "It's not real. We can just pretend to date."683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOj7bzWPaAT
"Why the fuck would we do that?" Okay, now I'm really confused.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHof8pfLts
"Because I really need this. And you said anything!" She throws my words back in my face.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPbFxanSyX
I groan and rub my hands down my face. What the fuck did I just get myself in to? 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFRZXtQH8x
"Okay, okay. Just give me a minute... to... to..." To what? What the fuck is there to think about? I can't say no. "Just give me a minute to process... all of this."683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkNx5RqmiP
"Sure, take your time." I feel her shift on the bed as she lays down. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibeUllcLFT
"Make yourself at home." I half joke, because I honestly don't mind her laying in my bed.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFftp3cpYbT
She just giggles, stretching out to get comfortable. Damn. I really missed that sound. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SIA6ul4FB
I missed everything about her.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8MrdpaBb3
I'm going to have to do this. Pretend to be with the girl that I can't stop thinking about. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqgpfMOST8
Shouldn't be too hard to fake feelings, it's the keeping them fake part that's going to be a struggle. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqpOxEf7mN
"Why exactly do you need this?" I have a right to know why we are doing this, don't l?683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBUmuF77Hp
She sighs. "Does it really matter?" 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFn6yjHdvL
"Before I agree to your crazy scheme, I need to know why we are doing it in the first place." Why can't it just be real? Of course, I don't say that out loud because I'm a huge pussy.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDc2oMoNvAI
"Okay, fair enough. Everyone has been treating me like I'm fragile since the whole... you know... happened." I lay down next to her on my back.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtapmi1CAAa
"The whole you know?" I'm completely confused. What the fuck is she talking about? 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZmr7Udqc6
"You know... New Year's Eve?" She sounds embarrassed, but I still don't understand.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6R0lW3u914
"Why would they treat you differently because of that?" Maybe I'm missing something?683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYgafepwmL
"Uh... because of... what happened... with you." Shit. This is all because of me? 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OrFGtGMmR
"Oh... I didn't... I didn't know." I can't believe she has been struggling and it's all my fault.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdoSUPcAFvc
"So uhm... Yeah... They act like I'm going to break, so I'm sick of being pitied and worried about and I just want to be normal... And you can help with that. Two birds, one stone. You know?"683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsMHmgY7GW
"Uh, am I the birds or the stones here?" I chuckle. She's so weird sometimes. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadEHSLZyUk
She laughs. "Well, I guess the stone."683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUvIEMSiAf
"Okay, so what are the birds?" I'm barely able to hold my laughter in to get the sentence out.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMPxopseyI
"Wait. No. That's wrong. You're a bird!" She sounds excited, like she's made a huge discovery or something.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2eQrQWhRi
"So... I'm a bird now?" Seriously... She is the most adorable person I know.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqF2kNUbumI
"Okay, everyone is worried about me because they think you broke my heart or whatever. So, bird one is you. And everyone pities me because I'm single. So, being a pathetic loser is bird two."683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLAf3eBebf
I turn on my side to face her. "You are not a pathetic loser." Completely ignoring the fact she said I broke her heart.683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSRjMoH07q
"I most certainly am. That's why I need this. If I can just throw the stone of our fake relationship at the birds, everything will be okay." Exhaustion fills her voice as she turns to face me. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5kSSXtFLl
I can't help but notice we are only inches apart. I can feel her breath on my face. If I leaned forward a fraction of an inch, our noses would be touching. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNK78nXnlp
Shit. This is bad. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ir6b5NVDi
Faking it is going to be so hard. 683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepZlSpT2Ow
"So... What do you say, Little Birdie? You in?" Her laugh echoing into the core of my being, reverberating and filling my chest.
I find her hand and pull it to my face, placing a kiss on it. "Let's throw that rock."683Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjUf8xS8g3
I am so fucked.
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