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February 25, 2005
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What is going on?
Nate and Ness are being super weird.
Why are they even here? Nate has his own place, they never hang out in our little dorm room.
They must be keeping away from his house.
"So, just wanted to hang out in a dorm room, huh?" They insisted we watch a movie and stay here.
"Uh huh..." They both continue munching popcorn, staring at the television.
This must have something to do with Ben.
"Okay, what is going on?" I glare at them, hoping I'm intimidating enough to get some information.
"Nothing..." Vanessa's eyes dart around. She really is a terrible liar.
"What is it?" I turn to Nate. "Why can't I go to your place?"
"No reason." He shrugs, but his eyes stay on the screen. He's definitely hiding something.
No, it couldn't be... my stomach drops at just the thought.
"Does Ben have a girl there?" Vanessa squeals, spilling popcorn all over her bed.
That doesn't make me feel better.
"What? Why would you think that?" She jumps up, scooping the popcorn back into the bowl.
"That's it, isn't it? Why wouldn't you tell me?" I get Nate is protecting his friend, but she's supposed to have my back.
This hurts more than I thought it would.
"Kat, it's not what you think." Nate tries once again to defend his douchebag friend.
"What I thought was that I could trust you, Vanessa!" I grab my purse, heading towards the door. "You sat here pretending like everything was okay? Why would you lie to me?"
"Kat, please don't leave. I promise we were only trying to help." She looks apologetic, but I don't even care at this point.
"Help who exactly?" I turn and walk out the door, not caring to hear her answer.
The drive to Ben's is a blur, all I can think about is how stupid I've been to trust him, even a little bit.
He doesn't care about me. He never has and never will.
When I get there, I can hear Ben talking with a girl. I walk in the unlocked door, expecting the worst.
I hear Ben say he loves me and then they kiss. What the heck is going on?
"Ben?" Why did I speak? I should have just left.
He shoves her away, turning towards me. "Kat? What are you doing here?"
His eyes are so wide, they look like they might pop out. Is he shocked that she kissed him or shocked that he got caught?
"Just leaving, apparently." I turn to walk out the door, but he runs to me, grabbing my wrist.
"Wait. Please don't leave." His eyes plead with me, but I don't know if I can handle this right now. Real or not, this is a pretty big breach of trust.
"See, he can't even be faithful to you. You should just go." The girl tisking, before showing her perfect smile.
No wonder he likes her, she's blonde and tan with giant boobs.
I will never look like that.
My hair is an ugly brown trainwreck and I'm so pale I could probably be used as a nightlight. My chest isn't exactly small, but it's nothing compared to hers.
She's everything I'm not. She's the one he should call beautiful.
He turns on her. "Shut up and leave. Now."
She smiles. "Ohhh... feisty Benny, I like it." She steps closer to him, reaching out to touch him, but he steps back.
"Get. The. Fuck. Out." He's seething.
What did she do to him before I got here? And why were they kissing? It seems like he hates her, but maybe he's just pretending now that I'm here. None of this makes sense.
She pouts. "Oh, Benny. You were just a little boy when we were together, but look at you now, you're a man."
She winks at me. "I did that you know."
"You didn't do anything, Samantha." He steps closer to me, wrapping his arm around my shoulder.
It's weirdly comforting, despite the fact I want to kill one of the two people in this room. Still trying to decide which one.
"Wait... So this is Kat?" Her eyes go wide, as she points at me. "Oh please, like she's any competition for me. Don't kid yourself, Benny."
Well, I think I've made my decision on who should die.
Ben's arm tenses around me. "I swear to god, if you don't leave right now, I will hit you." Woah. I'm weirdly turned on. I think he's defending me.
"Like you would ever hit me. Deep down, you still love me." Just as he steps forward, Vanessa jumps in front of us.
"He might not, but I fucking will." Uh oh, Mama Bear is here.
She moves forward, closer to the crazy person. What on earth is she doing?
"And you are?" She giggles. "Jeez... How many girlfriends do you have, Benny?"
Nate steps forward, beside Vanessa. "This one's mine." He wraps his arm around her waist, pulling her close. "And this house is mine. So if you don't leave right now, I'm calling the cops for trespassing."
She rolls her eyes. "Whatever." She walks past us, towards the door, before turning back to Ben. "When you get bored of this one, give me a call."
Ben laughs from beside me. "I deleted your fucking number."
"Actually, I did." Crap. I didn't mean to say that out loud. She was about to leave and I probably messed that up.
"Yes, you did, Beautiful." He kisses me hard, making me almost forget we have an audience.
I barely even hear her stomp out or slam the door.
"Get a room, you two." Vanessa laughs.
"Come on, let's get a room." Ben smirks before pulling me by the hand.
He pushes me down to sit on the bed, before joining me. "You were awesome, Kat. Thank you."
"Sure. No problem." I feel awkward.
I feel like I shouldn't be upset because it's not real, but she insulted me and kissed my man.
My fake man, but she doesn't know that.
"She's such a bitch. She shouldn't have said those things about you." Those things hurt, but I'm just really relieved she left.
"Why did you kiss her?" Dang it. I can't help myself.
"Why? Are you jealous?" He laughs, poking me in the side.
"Would it really be that weird? I mean you are my boyfriend after all. I think most girls would be jealous." I glare at him. I should be upset, right?
"It doesn't really feel like I'm your boyfriend." Ouch.
"I just thought it would make things easier." This week sucked, I felt like I was single again. What's the point of having a fake boyfriend if your still lonely?
"What things?" Oh crap. How can I answer this?
"You know, our feelings." Shoot. I didn't mean to say it like that. He's going to think I meant I have feelings.
"Our feelings, huh?" His smile is mesmerizing.
"Oh, you know... Like confusing fake for real." I'm really not making this better.
"And what's confusing you?" He leans closer, his mouth inches from mine.
"You." It's all I can get out before his lips crash into mine.
He's frantically pulling me closer, devouring my mouth with his. We're just hands and lips, feeding our desire.
Yanking his shirt over his head, I run my hands all over his chest. He pushes me down on the bed, before his mouth descends on mine.
He's rocking into me, making me feel things I've never felt before.
I want to be with him so much, but I don't know if he feels the same.
What if he does? What if this wasn't pretend anymore?
Ben pins my hands above my head with one hand. God, he's so strong.
His muscles ripple as he moves on top of me. God, he's so hot.
I moan, as he kisses my neck. He's driving me wild.
"Fuck, Kat. I want you so much." And just like that, reality comes crashing back.
"Wait, stop." He immediately let's go of my hands, so I push up on his chest.
"What's wrong? Did I hurt you?" Crap. I ruined a great moment.
"You want me or you want my body?" I need to know.
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