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January 1, 2005
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As he leans forward, I know my world is about to change. This guy has way too much power over me. What am I even doing? 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0T3Gz7rs4
This is not me.801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡweF2v6F8zu
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I am not impulsive. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMbqhiavIP
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I do not lose control.801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2brbVzp1kY
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I do not kiss random guys.801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdggA3mZvv1
Okay, so he isn't completely random since his friend is kinda dating my friend, but still... I don't know him. At all. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgphgI62zw
From want Ness has told me, he is a total player. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRo35YnvGI
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I run my eyes down his body. A very hot player. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUM5wtZQkgY
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With big bulging muscles. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnPM8s9amW
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And hair a girl could sink her fingers into...801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NGzuwIETQ
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And dimples... 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzfX8nGVjp
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Encasing a heart stopping smile.801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmRNsULyNt
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And deep green eyes... That just so happen to be staring at me. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOeHW2V1xhM
Crap. He's really close. Is that desire in his eyes? Or maybe he is completely repulsed by the kiss we shared. Oh no, is he going to vomit on me? I really like this dress.801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWobjm8aB9
What is he doing? What is he thinking? Would it be weird to ask him? Duh... Of course it would be weird!801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZg9HpdhF0Z
Is he waiting for me to make a move? What should I do?801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0st2PHKTt
Crap, he has me over thinking everything. I need to stop. What does 'Ness always say? I sneak a glance in her direction, but she's stuck to Nate like a sucker fish. She is definitely not going to be any help.801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhhkOTFW9P
"Just go with the flow." I hear her voice replay in my head. Right... I can totally do that. Easy enough. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7MFInmGPxs
The flow... 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWAKeROe01S
But what is the flow here? Is the flow kissing or not kissing? Does the flow involve talking or not talking? 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSbrpp5Tf8
Gah! I need to know what he's thinking. Would I totally ruin everything if I said something? I have to say something. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1pPE5fd1Y
He pulls back slightly, giving me room to breathe. I immediately miss his closeness. I miss the warmth of his body near mine. My body notices the loss and begins the pull towards him again.801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTaAMltByE
Good god, I have been single for less than a day and I am already craving someone else. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1c2IdUZb9
I am not this girl. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqy28iGOpU
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I am independent. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7ySKu6jGf
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I am intelligent. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIf88uKYN2F
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I do not crave any guy. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG1qPKMXMV1
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I have my head on straight. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxsNO948se
I will NOT fall for him. Or his tricks.801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNmA65zcQP
"Kat?" His eyebrows draw together, giving him a look of concern. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZkMgQ1bAv0
Shoot. How long have I been sitting here staring off into space? 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDJfWJGYXy
"Uh... Yeah?" My voice comes out strained. What the heck is wrong with me? I bring my hand up to hide my face. Maybe if he can't see me, he will forget I'm the idiot sitting here. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvQX8xzD25
Hey, a girl can hope, right?801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡahA1p4PVeh
No such luck. He pulls my hand away to gently lay it on the table, but he doesn't release it. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6CXrJHYrI
"You okay?" He quirks a brow. I wonder if he feels the flow of electricity between our hands like I do. Does he feel the pull between our bodies, as though they long to be united?801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8Z3rzryTD
Or am I just totally crazy?801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwC63ExoULd
I glance down at our entwined hands ignoring my brain's plea to pull away. This connection with him is oddly comforting.801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51rHLiHIWy
My eyes slide up to meet his. "I'm fine." I manage to get the words out, but even I'm not convinced. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1NFk4inHN
He lets out a soft chuckle before leaning forward to whisper in my ear. "I can literally see the wheels turning in your brain."801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTwc8bQgSh
I pull back, my mouth dropping open. God, could I be any more awkward? 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHm5tDL5Uz
I'm not sure what to say, but he continues without prompting. "I didn't realize anyone actually thought that hard." His cocky smirk returns. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7dK4X2pnE
I scoff, yanking my hand from his. "Sorry to burst your bubble, but not every girl is an air brained bimbo." I cross my arms while leaning back to glare at him. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs48OprkpbV
His eyebrows shoot up in surprise, his hands raised in surrender. "I never said that."801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHw5wTl4d6
"Yeah, well... I have thoughts." Crap. That was really lame. "Deep thoughts." Yeah, that didn't make it better. How much did I drink?801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdI7fdPW1Ar
"I bet you do. I didn't mean to imply anything about you... or the entire female gender." He seems genuine, but maybe he's being condescending.801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60xWwSTB8t
I can't decide if I want to believe him or not. Being offended is easier than being vulnerable.801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE58bhv9z2N
"Well, maybe you don't know everything." I try to hold onto the indignation, but I feel it slipping away as the confusion fills his eyes. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxEEGLedOR
I can tell he's trying to figure out where my hostility is coming from and where he went wrong, but I just want to be angry. And it has nothing to do with him.801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01O7lDnfAq
"Never said I did." Insecurity flashed across his face amplifying my need to comfort him. Opening up could be a terrible idea. I'm going to blame the alcohol in my system. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGs15W98NsA
"I..." I let out the breath I didn't realize I was holding. "I... uh... tend to over think things. Pretty much everything. And today... actually yesterday, at this point, was not the best day." 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2nEJUE0ZR
"I didn't know..." His eyebrows draw together, the concerned look returning to his beautiful face. "You really can talk to me you know."801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPhydzwZ56
He gently pulls my hand back to his and begins to rub his thumb along my palm. An involuntary shiver runs through my body.801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgj7dZeXfSr
I am so screwed. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDyRmROw72
He's not only incredibly good looking with the body of a Greek god, but he seems to be a pretty good guy... 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34lpNpbAlA
Dang it. I will not fall for him. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49wrXdKKEk
I feel drowsy, like I'm floating. "But can I trust you?" I whisper. In the back of my brain somewhere, I know that was lame... but I can't filter anymore. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95LyIDC6bQ
"Of course." He looks deep into my eyes, like he's trying to convince me, but I'm already convinced. My eyes burn from the need to close them.801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7gaJwlonX
I open my mouth, unsure what's going to come out. "The douche bag knew I would catch him, didn't he?"801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXcWzxf1fp7
"What are you talking about?" I hear his voice through the haze. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYFFywX1It
I'm not sure how to explain. "He had... she was... he had her... doing that... in our bed. He probably just wanted an excuse to get rid of me. I was too boring. I could never do... that... what she was doing... I couldn't. I wouldn't."801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ErUl4MKB4
I hear male voices mumbling. It feels like there's water in my ears. I think 'Ness is talking, but I can't understand her. But she will understand what I'm trying to say. She always understands me.801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHdDIN1UWq
I can't stop myself now that I've started. "I really thought he loved me... God, I loved him... Didn't help though. I'm not what he wanted." Spots dance in front of my eyes. And my lungs burn.801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyVfyHtk8ZL
"Why am I such a prude? Why wasn't I enough?" It's hard to breathe... and my face feels wet. Am I crying? I really need air. Everything hurts.801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeysjPXtWlZ
I can feel my body giving into the darkness, as my mind drifts to my soft bed. I just want to sleep. I just want this night to end. I feel my eyelids growing heavy. I'm unable to stop them from closing, not that I would want to. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OvaG1Ynyv
"Kat?" I hear Ben's anxious voice in the distance, but all I can feel is my body giving into sweet sleep. My body just wants to shut down and I want to let it even though I know this isn't a good idea.801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2qa5yVhfi
As he catches me in his strong arms and his scent surrounds me, he is my last thought before the darkness pulls me under. 801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5WT8TEglQU
I will not fall... any more... for him.
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