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January 1, 2005
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As he leans forward, I know my world is about to change. This guy has way too much power over me. What am I even doing? 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0GkWM37kXb
This is not me.771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxRpCAa1QZ
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I am not impulsive. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UWzFrIrjq
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I do not lose control.771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLStb4ilq6
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I do not kiss random guys.771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdWc6dmYcq
Okay, so he isn't completely random since his friend is kinda dating my friend, but still... I don't know him. At all. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4fBxdnexH
From want Ness has told me, he is a total player. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpcgbemZOZQ
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I run my eyes down his body. A very hot player. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0IgQaa19Z4
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With big bulging muscles. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1dAbWgfC5
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And hair a girl could sink her fingers into...771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOQplOnXLT
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And dimples... 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjiZ9ijHmD
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Encasing a heart stopping smile.771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3GRmLgUPa
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And deep green eyes... That just so happen to be staring at me. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8J8PWrbeq
Crap. He's really close. Is that desire in his eyes? Or maybe he is completely repulsed by the kiss we shared. Oh no, is he going to vomit on me? I really like this dress.771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ611F2J2U9Q
What is he doing? What is he thinking? Would it be weird to ask him? Duh... Of course it would be weird!771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEYvI9gjAT
Is he waiting for me to make a move? What should I do?771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ02HgZFxPgI
Crap, he has me over thinking everything. I need to stop. What does 'Ness always say? I sneak a glance in her direction, but she's stuck to Nate like a sucker fish. She is definitely not going to be any help.771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8XNSHxCQ9
"Just go with the flow." I hear her voice replay in my head. Right... I can totally do that. Easy enough. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYoScQufHq5
The flow... 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhM2a0EAQ33
But what is the flow here? Is the flow kissing or not kissing? Does the flow involve talking or not talking? 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhRM2Qq6FS
Gah! I need to know what he's thinking. Would I totally ruin everything if I said something? I have to say something. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BIL9Pr1om
He pulls back slightly, giving me room to breathe. I immediately miss his closeness. I miss the warmth of his body near mine. My body notices the loss and begins the pull towards him again.771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmMce57gMd
Good god, I have been single for less than a day and I am already craving someone else. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCGcolY4nD
I am not this girl. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtk24qVrVk8
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I am independent. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNirQDXuqZ
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I am intelligent. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2TshFW7Zs
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I do not crave any guy. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdh307EsnLo
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I have my head on straight. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7g3KJ5Y18p
I will NOT fall for him. Or his tricks.771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJvtcebTGD
"Kat?" His eyebrows draw together, giving him a look of concern. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpyZVD6AL6T
Shoot. How long have I been sitting here staring off into space? 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDedLSptyx
"Uh... Yeah?" My voice comes out strained. What the heck is wrong with me? I bring my hand up to hide my face. Maybe if he can't see me, he will forget I'm the idiot sitting here. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4uOeISQen
Hey, a girl can hope, right?771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUYP0J9nob
No such luck. He pulls my hand away to gently lay it on the table, but he doesn't release it. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgt87YHPoH
"You okay?" He quirks a brow. I wonder if he feels the flow of electricity between our hands like I do. Does he feel the pull between our bodies, as though they long to be united?771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIH8ocTk8H
Or am I just totally crazy?771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBi46HpoG5
I glance down at our entwined hands ignoring my brain's plea to pull away. This connection with him is oddly comforting.771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10C3QpWEjO
My eyes slide up to meet his. "I'm fine." I manage to get the words out, but even I'm not convinced. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuhX70fViSY
He lets out a soft chuckle before leaning forward to whisper in my ear. "I can literally see the wheels turning in your brain."771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ902tGtYOD
I pull back, my mouth dropping open. God, could I be any more awkward? 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWx7CSL5tkh
I'm not sure what to say, but he continues without prompting. "I didn't realize anyone actually thought that hard." His cocky smirk returns. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1t6Av62qx
I scoff, yanking my hand from his. "Sorry to burst your bubble, but not every girl is an air brained bimbo." I cross my arms while leaning back to glare at him. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHSQa5Ss29J
His eyebrows shoot up in surprise, his hands raised in surrender. "I never said that."771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqcUEbx6HYd
"Yeah, well... I have thoughts." Crap. That was really lame. "Deep thoughts." Yeah, that didn't make it better. How much did I drink?771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1VcHRp5nGg
"I bet you do. I didn't mean to imply anything about you... or the entire female gender." He seems genuine, but maybe he's being condescending.771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJoCMutnprU
I can't decide if I want to believe him or not. Being offended is easier than being vulnerable.771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFE7SXpPWy3
"Well, maybe you don't know everything." I try to hold onto the indignation, but I feel it slipping away as the confusion fills his eyes. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jvZWydDzr
I can tell he's trying to figure out where my hostility is coming from and where he went wrong, but I just want to be angry. And it has nothing to do with him.771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPHxjtvdAO
"Never said I did." Insecurity flashed across his face amplifying my need to comfort him. Opening up could be a terrible idea. I'm going to blame the alcohol in my system. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDM8SzLlOh
"I..." I let out the breath I didn't realize I was holding. "I... uh... tend to over think things. Pretty much everything. And today... actually yesterday, at this point, was not the best day." 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4e4hpwhQ6U
"I didn't know..." His eyebrows draw together, the concerned look returning to his beautiful face. "You really can talk to me you know."771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHCW9OOvAz
He gently pulls my hand back to his and begins to rub his thumb along my palm. An involuntary shiver runs through my body.771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWzAIH5RIa
I am so screwed. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGY9xuqyt8j
He's not only incredibly good looking with the body of a Greek god, but he seems to be a pretty good guy... 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31BqC50qRc
Dang it. I will not fall for him. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepwRowL1Vb
I feel drowsy, like I'm floating. "But can I trust you?" I whisper. In the back of my brain somewhere, I know that was lame... but I can't filter anymore. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuh2Y9xEQo7
"Of course." He looks deep into my eyes, like he's trying to convince me, but I'm already convinced. My eyes burn from the need to close them.771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQ3Xqj1jDI
I open my mouth, unsure what's going to come out. "The douche bag knew I would catch him, didn't he?"771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIuI3NmDUTz
"What are you talking about?" I hear his voice through the haze. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QSUL3csTX
I'm not sure how to explain. "He had... she was... he had her... doing that... in our bed. He probably just wanted an excuse to get rid of me. I was too boring. I could never do... that... what she was doing... I couldn't. I wouldn't."771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLH1NTglzHz
I hear male voices mumbling. It feels like there's water in my ears. I think 'Ness is talking, but I can't understand her. But she will understand what I'm trying to say. She always understands me.771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6kV9db8gy
I can't stop myself now that I've started. "I really thought he loved me... God, I loved him... Didn't help though. I'm not what he wanted." Spots dance in front of my eyes. And my lungs burn.771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWcNneDxMR5
"Why am I such a prude? Why wasn't I enough?" It's hard to breathe... and my face feels wet. Am I crying? I really need air. Everything hurts.771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzLiruCMxG
I can feel my body giving into the darkness, as my mind drifts to my soft bed. I just want to sleep. I just want this night to end. I feel my eyelids growing heavy. I'm unable to stop them from closing, not that I would want to. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9HDL8lkUN
"Kat?" I hear Ben's anxious voice in the distance, but all I can feel is my body giving into sweet sleep. My body just wants to shut down and I want to let it even though I know this isn't a good idea.771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡugJG2bmMwQ
As he catches me in his strong arms and his scent surrounds me, he is my last thought before the darkness pulls me under. 771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WpDE7KEV7
I will not fall... any more... for him.
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