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No Plagiarism!PByejoVPO9XBOKuMt9IZposted on PENANA <p>2 days ago I went to the dentist. Yeah, anyone who's ever bled onto latex gloves at one of those sneak-previews at what Hell's probably like now can take a good guess as to why I titled this entry the way I did.</p> <p>I had panic attacks the rest of the day, where I was counseling at a sports camp and did something funny with my leg joints, and stayed up all night at a friend's sleepover afterward because of aforementioned anxiety and insomnia.</p> <p>I didn't type this yesterday because almost as soon as I returned home, I slept until 7 PM, stayed up until 9, got ready for bed, and battled insomnia until after midnight when I passed out again until 11 AM this morning. Fun, huh?</p> <p>As if that weren't enough, I can only post on mobile, so you're stuck without my usual sarcastic-in-italics personality. And I can only type in one paragraph. So I'm using ">" to show when I'd normally end a paragraph. And maybe "/" for italics. Maybe.</p> <p>Anyway, in between the dentist and sports camp, I was having extreme amounts of dysphoria. Anyone who has come across this blog knows that I am deeply rooted in my identity as an asexual. However, that brought to my mind the fact that a lot of people are not accepting of my identity, even fellow people who have been discriminated against by anti-LGTBQ+ (really, I think MOGAI might be a better acronym, but whatever. I'm still gonna be a part of AVEN.) people. I'm not celibate, or waiting patiently for some guy to see my sexuality as a challenge and knock my socks off with his "skills" in bed. But most of the world simply doesn't seem to hear my voice, or the voice of 1% of the entire world! Why can't they just acknowledge me? And when LGBTQ+'s see me, they say I'm not valid because I'm a heteroromantic! I mean, why does the world have to be so mean against my people?! I'm just a stupid girl who doesn't exist or isn't "right", is that it?</p> <p>No. /NO./ Screw the lot of them. They can't change me, and I won't even let them /try/. Anyone who accepts who I am without saying anything negative against me, welcome, take a seat, let's have some fun together. Whoever says I'm going to Hell for being asexual: my sexuality is not a choice. And if anything, my lot in life is easier than yours, because if your backing is in the Bible, it says sex outside of marriage is a sin. By not feeling the need to do that because of someone's looks or anything of the sort, I have a much better chance of making it to marriage without adultery on my record. And, being asexual doesn't mean someone can't enjoy sex, to boot. Just because I don't at this very moment? I'm 16. I might change, I might not. Who cares besides me, anyway? It's my business. I'm gonna buy an asexual beanie, and I am going to wear it with pride.</p> <p>My point here is that you should never have to feel bad about who you are. You can't force yourself to change to fit others' standards. Be happy as who you are. Every human being deserves as much.</p> <p>Love to all,</p> <p>shnuffeluv
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