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December 31, 2004
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Same day
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I know it's dumb, because I really want to kiss him but I know better. My mind is so disappointed with my body right now. I can't believe I asked him, god he probably thinks I'm desperate... or a total whore. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhs0vGQdcQF
I take him in with a sideways glance. His muscles are bulging out of his tight T-shirt. His curly brown hair is just messy enough to look effortless, but he probably spent a lot of time on it. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOgB37GyL5
He is obviously a womanizer, he literally oozes sex appeal. I cannot let myself fall for a guy like this. I will only get hurt, like with the jerk who will not be named. I will not fall for him. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfv5chVqMi
Ben leans in close to me. I can feel his breath on my neck, but I'm afraid to turn towards him. I might not be able to wait until midnight to kiss him. I will not fall for him.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxz8LJHY0Jb
"Hey, what's going on?" I hear his voice faintly in my ear. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KGVwqGUll
I turn, surprised by the question. "What?" I can't remove the look of shock on my face. Why does he even care? What should I tell him? I'm not good at lying, but I can't tell him the truth. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrSsow015v
Crap, I just realized how close our faces are. His eyes are intense and his lips are so... tempting. I will not fall for him.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOHYTyihgb
The sincere look on his face is almost convincing, but there's no way he really wants to know. I know guys like him and they don't care. Guys like him only care whether they can get in your pants or not. Asking him to kiss me wasn't a great step in the plan to not fall for him, but like usual Vanessa bullied me. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8cDYAOZB7
"I don't know what you are talking about." I decide to pretend... Okay, I know it is technically a lie. I already know it's going to fail because nobody ever believes me when I lie, apparently my face gives away too much or something. They make it sound like it's something I need to change, but it's my face, what can I do about it?818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdf58e5u3H
He looks at me hard and with his stature, it is almost intimidating. "No really, Kat."818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrCAO0X8Dw
"I... uh..." Oh no, this isn't good. I want to tell him all my secrets. I need to stop drinking, I'm not thinking clearly. I need to make rational decisions. I will not fall for him.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaf4ktpWKl1
"Yes?" He asks me, with a cocky raised brow. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQcyZy4qTF
"I... uh... uhm... you see..." I lick my lips and his eyes dart down to my mouth. His gaze returns to my eyes as he prompts me to continue. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECWsYY1ekd
His body is calling to mine. I lean forward, needing to be closer to him, longing to breathe him in and taste him. I've never been so ready for a kiss, especially with a complete stranger... not that I kiss a lot of strangers. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnT85kMODti
Shoot, was I saying something? 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1buOWtKJep
"I think you might be bad news." Crap. I inwardly cringe. I didn't mean to say that out loud. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoqyEd6xtIe
He smirks, showing his adorable dimples. "Bad news, huh?" God, he is so sexy. I am so screwed. I will not fall for him.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMoweFAvUmV
"Mmhmm..." is all I get out before the countdown to midnight begins. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhNo32ne4Hm
"Ten." His eyes make their way to my mouth. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaqvuzkvX2w
"Nine." He licks his lips. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdtMqMTdbU
"Eight." He leans in until we are touching.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡORxpiMxtmF
He slides his hand to caress my neck. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5SizbWiF5
"Seven." His eyes burn with desire as they meet mine. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VA4qW4XED
"Six." My body screams at me to kiss him, while my brain yells at me to stop. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWv5YJEfZF
"Five." It's just a kiss. I will not fall for him. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXkmYHlRmxL
"Four." He leans in until I can feel his breath on my lips. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1HgSOyPS4k
"Three." I'm breathing him in. It's intoxicating. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtEMojAWzt
"Ready?" He asks into my mouth. I manage to whimper, but the 'no' refuses to leave my mouth.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTjCUaOndk
"Two." I will not... I will not... do something.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMRwxzCzC0
I could get lost in his eyes.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54xqAxCFTk
"One." Shoot... what was I doing again? 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SB8vpoa6m
"Happy New Year," he whispers as his lips gently brush mine. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lntjf1aGE
The room erupts around us, but it all fades away when his soft lips meets mine. When his mouth begins to move against mine, it feels so right. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2pc5j8Kuh
It feels like this kiss is waking me up from a deep sleep that I didn't even realize I was in. I feel alive and powerful, but nervous and scared at the same time. This is so good and so very bad. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ16excRAvb
I never want this kiss to end, I want him to deepen it and take it further, but he doesn't. He keeps it gentle and slow. Forget his eyes, I could get lost in his mouth. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLU4KHsKQ6O
All too soon, he pulls back.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkO5DMnLdIj
Immediately I feel lost and confused. I wanted so much more of that. So why did he stop? Maybe it's me. I'm probably a terrible kisser. Oh god, what if I am a terrible kisser? How do you know? Can I ask him that? No way, that would be too awkward. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KZ80QEFRs
What was I thinking? This kiss was a terrible idea. Why did I ask him? Why? This was so stupid. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVBoJymcqe
I cover my mouth with my hands, as embarrassment seeps into me. I need to know what I did wrong. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHe3nhIpOUH
"Was it bad?" I try to hide the hurt from my face, but I can feel the sting of tears in the back of my eyes. I blink to remove them, but they threaten to spill over. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDAOEFtt399
He just stares at me with a stunned look on his face. Oh no, it was even worse than I thought. He hates me and he's probably trying to wipe the kiss from his brain. Or maybe he's trying to plan his escape. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO20TnXMRCG
"Ben?" I try to shout over the sound, but everyone is celebrating around us. He looks frozen. Did I break him? 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTKy5sRjYc
Crap, is it possible to break someone with a bad kiss? Do they send an ambulance for that?
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