尋死的念頭一出現，我就被自己給嚇到了。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0htCZYxiKA
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW65xtuuGjm
「妳瘋了嗎？」568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzTCFZfsjp
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWulCh6WTU
腦裡出現兩個我，理性的那個正在發飆，狠狠咒罵另一個我。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovZzR4eNgV
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAffHl3b8LN
而被罵的那個我，只是一個勁兒地哭。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7L136onDn
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfu94b7rwBQ
我覺得自己隨時都會爆炸、衝動行事，便躲進被窩，用厚厚的被子蓋住全身，連頭都包在棉被裡，不讓任何光線進來。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvOdBlesUE
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXcdrh3nBU
在充滿二氧化碳的被窩裡，我全身是汗，滿臉淚水。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtU5zl74sk
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqH3WQ4oEgl
我側身把臉埋進枕頭，把尖叫送進布料與棉花裡。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoUEuuWyMgs
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhPSofji9b
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2lWa9Qd4s
我往自己的腳下看，有一片草原。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡybzJOBMPVp
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqQgeOhPkY
面前有一條石頭道路，盡頭是顆大樹。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR45CxeeQbk
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3JuMYyAXN
樹下站著一個人，太遠了，我看不清他的臉。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy611BwUaiq
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfdI9NZORl
所以我走近，愈走愈近，直到我看清楚他是誰。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNmPZJjw1W5
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvZ2wcZEC6
站在樹下的人是英傑。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVEyKEv3Fi0
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf30mUK671W
我跑向他，勾住他的手。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DzvKBCUpm
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1QqjAeDr2
他對我笑著，什麼話也沒說。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyljuqP606
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRRFxBikSz
我像是要把這些日子以來，所有發生的事情都告訴他，開始滔滔不絕地講。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDjkxHku6mo
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywFCdHpyOq
他陪著我走到我原本站的地方，就停下來。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIAK1KrTRu
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LS7TZISEx
我還在講，他轉頭看我，伸出手揉了我的頭，就像他每次做的那樣。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLiPSfTEvb6
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvOiUGRCcsm
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ99v7Zh0Pwj
我張開眼睛，才知道自己夢見英傑了。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFTUs3ROa4
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwqoN4ZmCg
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQWcJFHw2qm
我開始懷疑起自己做這個夢的原因。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEKnryNiv8q
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzbjXxEq6y
是太想念英傑了，還是壓力太大需要出口？568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Y27DKWVdo
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqq1KqbmQY3
或是…他真的怎麼了，才到我夢裡來？568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjd2Lxoxpb
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpXOWzvYSL4
我心裡很害怕是後者，但我知道此時的自己無法找到真正的解答。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfNFmkriJP
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgav8N3jnic
這個夢緩解了我的情緒，也瞬間恢復了大部分的理智。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWAVcHQG0j
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbHkS8mNHm
不管是什麼原因，都是英傑救了我。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFpzHS0Phv
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOi61ExFkm
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsd1Yr3OUWL
我度過了心中的那個坎，日子雖然沒有改變，但我的心態改變了。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2xaYuZ0LM
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKt7rmVOsUH
「沒錯，都是我選的。所以，我要更努力才行。」568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xR2X78a5A
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf10WzCPiPa
雖然，從那個時候開始，過了很長一段借貸的日子。人都說救急不救窮，但我很幸運，擁有很多好朋友，如果我開口，他們總是不說二話的就拿錢給我；就算我死愛面子不開口，他們也會一直逼問是不是沒錢用。我拿著跟朋友借來的錢，繳家裡的房租、水電費、瓦斯費…然後在假日另外打零工還錢。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfpElCz2uG
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Bc7uCr1wU
高中的最後一個學期，我也差點因為沒能繳出學費而休學（當時已有就學貸款，但沒有考慮，只想著沒錢就去賺錢，別念書好了），但我那班不知該說是兄弟還是恩人的同學，硬是把一疊鈔票交到我手裡，要我慢慢還，要我和他們一起畢業。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmy8HikLQPb
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgF7cuojll0
我沒參加考試，畢業後直接去找了工作。我還清了錢，卻欠了好多人情債。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5jdn380jR
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYMoguQGNg
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnqp3qEE1b
生活條件穩定之後，也談了戀愛，生活圈的人換了幾輪，越來越趨於穩定。
只是在我心底仍有一個空蕩的角落。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7kRT41O2D
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0aeHceuAYM
我還是沒有更換手機號碼，一直抱著小小的希望，568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZzTpUBfah
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8yr7f8mGL2
可我已在心裡默默地接受「英傑可能已經過世了」的事實。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0McjZZMB6Y
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3AG6i15Y4l
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzgnQfcP1g
某天，我的皮夾不知在哪兒掉了，找也找不到。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVOM4vUD4e
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0kHOgvk4rW
我辦了卡片掛失，心裡希望有人撿到皮夾，會願意送還給我。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9TdL4MuEf
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdsGRWAPET
這時，我才想起皮夾裡有英傑的照片，也想起我們說好要另外拍照留存的事。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuU2rizzEEy
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPC2F3O3BbP
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XlHVvBZtD
我的皮夾沒回來，英傑唯一的照片也這麼沒了。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfZzZCpb8K
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmw9f4YAcNQ
有時候，我會懷疑自己已經忘記他的長相，便努力回想那段日子，但畫面只是越來越模糊。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEhbbgShW2q
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsn56uqxVw1
一年、兩年、三年，當我漸漸淡忘這段過去的時候，我卻看見他了。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAaqny978iT
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOs6x6FJIoG
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CtrrSNT6j
在電視裡面。568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZvKlQS8zg
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmirYQOtXF
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMXy1Fc2IO
568Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgT3itKBDd
待續。
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