愛情像顆種子,深埋在胸口,有天它無預警地冒出了小芽,你甚至沒注意到它呢,它就開始茁壯了。377Please respect copyright.PENANAfBGmpJGhPx
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後知後覺的我,待胸口的芽已成了小樹,才意識到它的存在。377Please respect copyright.PENANAOfxJuC1OdI
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它,而是拿起大剪,抹去了它未來的可能。377Please respect copyright.PENANAZLtPO4pE3H
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面,每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕,刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。377Please respect copyright.PENANATCRinQaHOZ
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也許我心裡某處的希望,是他戳破我的刻意,把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。377Please respect copyright.PENANAmFGvqfy3LK
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但他沒有。377Please respect copyright.PENANAJCKlw0XGod
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在第五個或第六個週末,他不再打電話來;而我,也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。377Please respect copyright.PENANAft3lFgVKvI
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或許是直覺,也或許是太了解,我知道就算阿龍喜歡我,他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是,我們很容易因為自私,而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久,加上這段時間的相處,我也知道要是兩人交往,會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉,而是害怕我們的關係一改變,就再也回不去。
說穿了,就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足,阿龍也是。377Please respect copyright.PENANAJygioIAFyT
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。377Please respect copyright.PENANA31GGQbATcJ
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花了半年時間,體會了一段荒謬的戀愛,還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾,搞得全世界都知道了,當然也包括阿龍在內。377Please respect copyright.PENANA3ewD2pyqGG
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「妳在家嗎?」377Please respect copyright.PENANAUpDp48E1cu
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「嗯。」377Please respect copyright.PENANAbNHS64cTi1
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「下來。」377Please respect copyright.PENANAeip3EjSN7O
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我下樓,看到阿龍的車停在門口。377Please respect copyright.PENANAkDppRKswqz
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阿龍從車裡出來,戴著墨鏡,咧嘴笑開,他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。377Please respect copyright.PENANAEno6QLAUyr
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「上車。」他敲敲車子。377Please respect copyright.PENANA9WbxLQk72M
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「去哪裡?」扣好安全帶,我問。377Please respect copyright.PENANAXjtJ99sT8w
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「把妳載去賣。」377Please respect copyright.PENANAQ0SEboFbV5
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「嗯,好。」377Please respect copyright.PENANAaaJeCRbyEh
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阿龍又笑了,雖然我沒笑。377Please respect copyright.PENANABZJbGDIm4k
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我把椅背往後仰了些,閉上眼睛,整個人躺在椅子上。其實,我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。377Please respect copyright.PENANA1PKcvobAiQ
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「起床了。」377Please respect copyright.PENANAjryDlDS80S
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「快點起來,小豺!」377Please respect copyright.PENANAb3DPgfi8L9
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我張開眼睛,居然睡著了啊…377Please respect copyright.PENANActv3uGditl
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「妳是多累啊?有好好睡覺嗎?」377Please respect copyright.PENANAAh2JZBzFez
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我還躺在椅子上,只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍,他戴著墨鏡,我看不清楚他的眼神,但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。377Please respect copyright.PENANAVDaKmxmnEo
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「我臺灣人啊,上車睡覺,下車尿尿。」377Please respect copyright.PENANAXq6vs4DY0B
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「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。377Please respect copyright.PENANADGFP64tJfA
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「我們在哪?」我坐起來,解開安全帶,看看車子外面,我們在某個停車場。377Please respect copyright.PENANAwuRIu2qnGg
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「在山上。」377Please respect copyright.PENANAcMpgAzNTYv
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下車後,看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像,還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…377Please respect copyright.PENANA50jHlZnIqa
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「你要拜拜啊?」377Please respect copyright.PENANAo8q1TCXL3M
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「沒有,妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎?帶妳來山上走走啊。」377Please respect copyright.PENANAtgjd9BhSGi
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「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。377Please respect copyright.PENANAPxgHJDSHrV
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我們延著樓梯,爬到了山頂的土地公廟,便隨意找了個地方坐下,那是山頂的展望區。377Please respect copyright.PENANArzJDl4O0sH
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「那是什麼山啊?」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。377Please respect copyright.PENANALan8Pgfjdl
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「我哪知道。」377Please respect copyright.PENANAGB0vE9qXNW
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「……說的也是。」377Please respect copyright.PENANA8ONdBVDzIX
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「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後,阿龍開口說。377Please respect copyright.PENANALFmWN2Z20a
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「嗯。」
我知道,阿龍是帶我出來散心的。377Please respect copyright.PENANAXRLCaJ4Yy2
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「會發霉。」377Please respect copyright.PENANAd8IvxaIHSa
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「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞,再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看,有沒有發霉的味道?」377Please respect copyright.PENANAtVMxCi9yFr
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「噁,有耶,妳看妳的手,都長香菇了。」377Please respect copyright.PENANA2KGwXIsoyn
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「我這是靈芝,你懂屁啊!」377Please respect copyright.PENANASSFGPVLLLb
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」377Please respect copyright.PENANA2rGPFls8Ki
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「啊?」377Please respect copyright.PENANAZMdEjndtks
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」377Please respect copyright.PENANAVt8wSx5sMg
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「哈…你很噁心耶。」377Please respect copyright.PENANApOv16NjeTT
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「什麼噁心,欸,我的胸口還算結實吧?」他搥搥自己的胸。377Please respect copyright.PENANAxiTK6ET4vc
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「是啦是啦,好結實,可是我不需要啦。」377Please respect copyright.PENANAnyZe1t5jT9
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「不識貨,那不然肩膀?」
他又拍拍自己的肩。377Please respect copyright.PENANAvBKsfPVIMW
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我笑出來,這傢伙真是夠了。377Please respect copyright.PENANALdttaGdeZo
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「好啦,我勉強用一下。」377Please respect copyright.PENANAZAacSMInrs
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我坐到阿龍旁邊,把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣?」我說。377Please respect copyright.PENANAKPTYLOM21R
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他把手繞過我,摟住我的肩,這個動作,讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。377Please respect copyright.PENANAcZrTKXViCM
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我聽得見阿龍的心跳,以規律的速度跳動著,咚,咚,咚。377Please respect copyright.PENANAjsBJYvvTwR
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那是我和他最靠近的一次。377Please respect copyright.PENANATUCfeHMaFv
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待續。
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