等我能見到他時，又過了一個月。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodiSpXZvqy
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深呼吸了好幾口氣，練習了幾次微笑，我才踏進病房。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrj1YhRb1p
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他盯著我走近，待我在床前站定，見我微微一笑，他便咧開嘴笑了。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqrl0U0iUI
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「我妹怎麼變這麼漂亮啦？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHrutilTWj
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiuGIALNhJ
我沒理會他的玩笑，只是看著臉色蒼白的他，當下覺得自己的微笑只是一道不讓自己哭出來的防線。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE1xzG6qEyh
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我查過他的病，既然已到末期，治癒機率已經極低，幾乎是零。也知道他會長期處在各種疼痛裡。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUYnsxMYaK
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所以我無法開口問他還好嗎，也沒辦法要他振作，更不能祝福他康復。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVBBMWsxKEr
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只是他仍然對著我笑，笑得那麼真。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPnYRbqFeE
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgjyDC5af1U
「幹嘛傻在那裡，過來這邊坐啊。」他指指床邊的椅子。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLEa67UVJf
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我走過去，把椅子拉近病床，坐下。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEvnYHYfrh
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我們幾乎是同時伸出雙手的。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2qlk6E28z
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碰到他的手時，我的鼻子就酸了，眼睛也模糊了。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDknAYkXXv
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「不是答應我不哭了嗎？」那句話有著溫柔的指責。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFbemDeZmM
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「現在有沒有哪裡會痛…？」我開口問。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYHlvd5phX
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoUGNbMZ6D8
「每天都在痛啊，肚子也痛、頭也痛，骨頭也都會痛…」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6jIJrMYeE
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJihjgCS2BH
他數家珍地說出，而我的眉頭也因此糾結。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG1rmS4JVNI
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「現在不痛啦，看到妳都不痛啦。」見我皺眉，他胡亂地撒謊。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODgIBzdJbU
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我揉著他的手，好像有很多話要說，但又覺得沒什麼好說。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7sClMhzAaE
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「爸…妳爸爸，有說什麼嗎？他知道嗎？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM80ZoR3tQh
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKIK7aFRGwo
我愣了一下，沒想到他會問這個問題。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpeLmw46oE
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gsh5oqgRX
「他應該知道，但他沒跟我說什麼…」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzRj4qDk62
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJVcKVA2X0
「是嗎…我想也是啦。問問而已，妳不要多想。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDVmQwpXE7
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那一瞬間，我覺得父親的無情是無法被原諒的。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwviNJ1cjHj
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我拿出那晚編好的手繩，放到他手裡。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXr2zd08Wy
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「這是新編的。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOyDGyceOXo
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他看了看手繩，又看看我。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjlBm2c7vL
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSNEtULTma
「妳幫我拿櫃子裡的皮夾出來。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBu8RTtC6zQ
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Wl9CvRso4
我把皮夾遞給他，他從皮夾裡拿出了…好幾年前的那條幸運手繩。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHeg7PMe2W
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZfUFQBir4
白色的線都變成灰色，已經髒髒的了，他拿出來時還是小心翼翼。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpnDhbLDOd
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「妳看。」他得意。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVfGpiBoZ4
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「虧你能留那麼久，我之前皮包掉了，你的照片也搞丟了…」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDnsyoCMkU
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsF1LclYu0
「幫我戴新的在手上。」他說。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3MgfbLOyus
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我一邊把手繩綁上他變得好細的手腕，一邊說著…517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjwDDUC2fQ
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBKpuFbVD8
「我們以前還說要一起合照，但都沒有做到…」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwcbHbonnE
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「現在拍。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjGROISODC
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「啊？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpt3jfVWnxd
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「現在就拍啊，妳手機有照相功能吧？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqP8uyJiqk
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「有。」我拿出手機，翻開摺疊螢幕，開啟相機功能。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFwBN08M8n
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「等一下等一下。」他伸手拿了旁邊的眼鏡戴上。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp6hc1NhvZx
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MUeYBValC
「我這樣看起來比較不像流氓吧？」他又在笑。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlxAX2np6q
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbRTt6cmEK1
我笑了，起身貼近床，把頭靠在他臉旁，拿著手機對著我們倆的大頭拍了一張照片。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡss48BwfaSh
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSi35zPYgzZ
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我坐回椅子上，有那麼一段時間，我們都沒有看著彼此，也沒有說話。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ490sibcI6l
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe26YorWrfd
「我離婚了。」英傑突然說。
「我被抓後，妳嫂子自己提的。」
「簽字是一定要簽的，拖著她也不對。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5cnYh0jj1
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQC8cvDhYXd
我想起那個沒有喊過他「爸爸」的兒子，但我沒有勇氣開口問。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBlqLNYzjh
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9tvE3mNxf
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「妳還有在寫小說嗎？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkuAmhAl8cs
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「…有寫一些小故事。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxjxeq8FqT
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「那就好，不要隨便放棄喔。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rffPfDROv
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「嗯。我好久沒看到你寫的詩了。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsz6XvZ1Mai
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「我太久沒寫字啦…字已經不漂亮，腦子也沒東西了。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInbmLX0sjw
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFawqyDCkQG
「不會啦，字跡不會隨便改變的。」情感也是。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9lGqMFvj5
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdDYZDMfYA
「妹。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLHEznvqa6
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「嗯？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnVOtJbhNO
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「人真的要走到末路的時候，才知道只有家人會無條件的陪在身邊。」
「所以妳一定要好好珍惜家人，不要交壞朋友，也不要太相信外面的人。」
「也不要抽菸、喝太多酒…」
「如果可以，就回去念書，這個社會還是很看學歷…」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjAeeeu8hs
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEFhY1YjIJ
我突然意識到他正在做什麼。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGS6mWnIeZ
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像是交代後事般的叮嚀，我聽在耳裡，痛在心裡，但我不能阻止他這麼做。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQ2amdv2H9
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsx7TyAGGUm
因為我甚至不知道還有沒有下一次見他的機會。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9jcZl2sg9r
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那天我在醫院陪他直到晚上才離開，他始終笑著，在我面前不表現出痛苦或難過。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItklUYZw0Q
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfivhuLjW87
他也答應讓我再去看他，只是要先跟他聯絡。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Ph67FXcLH
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「我媽有點介意，所以不希望妳們碰到面。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqfc6SvcdE
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Bmc05MKhf
爾後我又見了他兩次，其中一次他告訴我，他信了主耶穌。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGbBFuQZtN
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我知道是身體病痛的折磨，讓他尋求精神上的慰藉。他親自寫了信給教會的小孩子，用自己的經歷告誡孩子們勿入歧途。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJ6CLz0u1y
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我知道他害怕，知道他尋求救贖。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWX7Pnw6sE8
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我知道他就算把地獄或罪人掛在嘴邊，仍是害怕受苦的。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfq55PS3NW
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我知道他也許到了這一刻才開始後悔。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOPrpW1zGc
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但我是欣慰的。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHoSohQt7m6
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那一天來的又快又急。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzrFzar8Af
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「妹…」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNkwmKNl4L7
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我接起電話，只聽到英傑喊了我，然後是沉重的喘息與啜泣。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukUrBITFb2
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8C03YNdRfI
「你怎麼了？怎麼了？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbGLbK4ECO
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhsSJT13Hr
還拿著手機和他說話，我已經起身準備出門去醫院。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQpTVCp04b
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Bq3Ej2YbO
「我還不想死…」他哭著說。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEwSOhfkGh
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6mN7wAWCZ6
那句話狠狠地撕裂了我的胸口。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53P4bxhFXu
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我跑進病房，英傑似乎剛剛才穩定下來，吊著點滴、眼眶泛紅、面容消瘦，也比上次更加蒼白、手臂上都是青色與紫色的瘀青。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT97P7Kr9ea
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjvf8i9IUp
他的母親與姐姐看見我，臉色明顯地不自在。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyfmj2tA1i
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuz9PmwK9e
英傑打那通電話給我的時候，她們是不是也在呢？517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLjOr7myFY
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她們小聲地和英傑說了幾句話，就走出病房，留給我和他說話的空間。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLsgp1QcGd
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我坐到上次的位置，握住他的手。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvSzuY4k2B9
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那雙手已又更瘦更冰冷了。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxftvGHnz25
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「我真的，還不想死。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqM52rcrcdh
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我握著他的手出了點力。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcFblmaVGUb
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「我很害怕。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3rLiIUmHVn
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「我很怕死…」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbjrEsiqXF
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他沒看著我，只盯著手。說完，他的眼淚就掉下來。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXJlTB3V7KJ
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那是我第一次看見他掉眼淚，也是最後一次。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBmsPepi66A
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「你已經悔改了，你一定會去天堂的。」我已經滿臉淚水，但還是看著他的眼睛說。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMq8rceKDdl
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUYhCi7ush
「全身都很痛…」他終於抬頭看我。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIM9Hybr8f
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTK4ardl13A
我趕緊抽幾張衛生紙擦他的臉，他的雙頰與眼窩都已經凹陷，我的手盡可能地放輕力道，就怕他疼。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHq7pdUF3A
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「你很努力了，我知道你很努力了…」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLK61eZduSi
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我抱住他，驚覺他已弱不禁風的事實。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mjnSRNGqi
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這讓我倏地停止了自己的眼淚。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf1lIxabYdA
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「沒事的，你的主會帶你離開，之後就不痛苦了。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9ViG3ybe4
517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzHZgawOViy
英傑在我的臂彎裡哭泣了許久，才安靜下來。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhriVKznONP
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「妹。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhn4EiujajL
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「嗯？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yD8L7BFkP
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「抽屜裡有一封信是給妳的。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NUvW7bHTT
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我打開抽屜，拿起那個信封。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoeR65ddz3E
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「回去再看。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXCdTNh2KR
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「好。」我收起信。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkGvschFRS
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「妳回去吧。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCturtoylNj
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「什麼？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMXxx9h08H
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「謝謝妳來…可是不要再來了。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbni9BjZfxi
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「為什麼？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4fdWHWbmC
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「我不想要妳送我離開，妳會很傷心，我也不想要看到妳那麼傷心。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHevJyN5XdF
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「……」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtMAXhGzOM
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「回去吧。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJNJv4IWjFq
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他看著我，又對我笑了，那個笑看起來很費勁，也是他一直以來對我的溫柔表現。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTCSb0GRdF
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不讓我送他走，也是哥哥對妹妹的溫柔。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynVAz67k1W
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我又抱了抱他才離開。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KmekXlB7I
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當天晚上十點多，我收到他姊姊的簡訊。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwVDjdhjec
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「英傑已經走了。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HBYaZ0ujf
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那一瞬間我向心裡所有知道的神祈求，希望英傑能到更好的地方，希望他不要再受苦了。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDqPkgKC0g
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我打開信封，裡面只有一張書籤大的紙。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmRTX9AvI9
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「Dear 妹：」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGcZzAIiRLp
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「妳永遠是我的天使，517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5oPidTPNYR
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請不要忘記我。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7uigN94RZS
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「哥 英傑」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6aqF3Cjbm
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我抱著自己，放任自己哭到睡著。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyLGWku6uPv
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之後的每一年，我不選在英傑的忌日，而是在他的冥誕當天悼念他。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBxRPMyfCL
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每一年的五月三十，我都會寫一封信，表達我的思念，讓他知道「我沒有忘記他」。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVi7q8OSwwu
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前幾年每到這天，我總是哭，總是放任自己因為想念而哭得泣不成聲。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZSmKYSBuM
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後來的後來，我漸漸不哭了，但沒有改變在這一天寫信的習慣。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4lsVjPx8AV
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英傑的回憶有時像巨石背在背上，有時像羽毛沾在胸口，無論哪一種，都是無法遺棄。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYES8KgT8w
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他走後，我便不再輕易評論一個人的好與壞。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡniDtzetsQR
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曾經我在英傑的新聞底下看見很多網友的謾罵、抨擊甚至是汙辱，我感到憤怒與心痛，想一個一個回應他們「你們什麼都不知道！」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8TYlbAYNj
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但我什麼也沒做。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhtKTmH1Nsw
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因為那些人不認識他，也永遠不會認識他。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7QCEWGGEK
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所以我再也不對任何新聞或社會事件做評論。因為我知道，我不認識當事人，更不能體會當事人的親屬心情。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzChdvsaFP
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我回去念書，考進了大學，年年以取得獎學金為目標，只為不要白學。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUgQWjd7Mv
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一直沒有放棄創作，可能也是因為惦記著他說過的話。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vgufYdSDH
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說起遺憾，大概是我喊他「英傑」比喊他「哥哥」的次數要多更多了吧。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZ74Xrxr6G
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去年，我沒有寫信。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNmgb8yDK5R
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我選擇在當天完成他的故事。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUedBtHehMH
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他是一隻孤傲的鷹，獨自在天空闖蕩，受盡風霜，最後回巢，在家人身邊闔上眼。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPatxQyLh3
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我是活在地面的狼，只能抬頭望著，用我的爪在沙上畫下他在天空翱翔的姿態。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkogiz4lSX
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這是，我哥哥的故事。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTE2iFY6g05
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