童桐回到自己的家中後，我著她好好休息，由我過去我家那邊把枕頭拖鞋之類搬回去她這邊。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj2ojDYZizk
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正當我收拾好準備回去時，我媽卻攔住了我。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTEps9Gr8dO
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「過黎傾傾。」我媽說。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiEH5j9iR2R
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFDEDnc4Wl
我爸在書房關著門，大概是因為颱風來襲而在家工作，所以廳中只有我和我媽二人，至於亞基看到我坐到沙發上，馬上躍到我膝上扭摸扭抱。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLzTGNF5v6
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我笑一笑然後抱抱牠，再給牠滿滿的撫摸，不只牠享受著，我也感到心中的壓力藉著手中的毛茸茸感覺釋放了不少。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJjwAYDDJX
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好可愛…1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMVovD08Vj
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參考圖 IG:bordercollie_08141181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUi96O4Nr4
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「呀遊，你對PTSD有幾多認識？」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP5bEKfKlbq
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBFOMS2qLY
「睇戲睇過。」我說，「就…有咩創傷事件後，會好驚相關既野，發惡夢，見到鬼之類，你想話童桐就係咁？」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDyfFMiAcKw
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHW08srKuN
「你既算係克板印象。」我媽就，「我之前做ＨＲ個時，試過有同事出過事，升降機工業意外，成個頭扁左。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9e3PFIV5zO
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgSJJ7IXKFk
我就不去想像了。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSeP7AMo6nj
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「事後在場目擊者，或多或少都有PTSD既傾向。童桐佢依加咁樣既情況，令我諗返起個時。」我媽說。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ZpWb7aBah
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIoaLFGDwr
「…你講下係點。」我說，「我想幫童桐。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDkAlkwvmf
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHsBzX6Wsu
「童桐可能係PTSD，亦可能係PITS，詳情既你帶佢去睇心理治療師，但兩者都似。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLEyDfgoqj
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNxuGvdTBto
「又咩PITS…咩16型人格測驗？」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16pj6KpfXD
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDpBiMslu6
「唔係。」我媽白我一眼，「PTSD多數係受害者身上出現，而PITS叫加害者創傷壓力，多數出現係加害者身上，例如戰場上殺敵既軍人，屠房宰殺動物既員工，合法開槍制止暴行既警察之類。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ71M8xktvUM
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjV1ymrwExX
「童桐明明唔係加害者，利律師係差館同我講…」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23DWNEMuiQ
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Io6QHhrBb
「呀遊，佢係唔係都好，問題係佢覺得自己係。」我媽說。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpa0k21P1Q5
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFiQhT0omc
「童桐…已經係第二次遇到呢種事。」我心中一沉。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbaWmxyigSh
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡov9oTjHica
「嗯。」我媽說，「PITS患者一般黎講會比起普通PTSD更嚴重，呀遊，你明唔明，童桐依加係被好好好嚴重既心理問題困擾。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkEZmEoBgda
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx25EKiMvWi
「嗯…我知道。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpllhS1ILMP
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTewBNZN7MD
「但你唔可以怪佢，佢都唔想，就好似普通傷風感冒咁，你無只係你好彩，總之…係症狀上先當成係PTSD解釋，只係更嚴重，亦更難醫。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyI8DUpwE5
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnxzt8D64fi
接著我媽以她當年還是超級HR時處理過的經驗，向我解決童桐現在的情況。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeuDoQ6deHQ
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNFl7Alu7f
PTSD可以在創傷事件後馬上爆發，或在數月後平息，但也可能持續，變成慢性綜合症。無論是當年工業意外翌日，在升降機內抱頭痛哭的員工，還是看到一向黏自己的亞基而恐慌發作的童桐。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfO2ebRM4BK
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而創傷又可以被貯藏在程序記憶中，患者即使看起來沒甚麼異樣，但一但做出相關的動作，便會馬上病發，那個員工好像是聽到升降機超重的「嗶嗶嗶」警告聲而馬上情緒崩潰。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xMlwx1pNX
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOTGX82ugKc
至於做惡夢，性情大變，失眠，逃避或對相關人事物感到恐懼，暴躁易怒，過度警戒，易受驚嚇，再次處於相似情境會感到不安，恐懼，呼吸困難，發抖等，便和電影拍的大同小異。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjOyupiq1jF
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvuCR3yoH7
也和童桐現在身上一樣。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzMgyhq7J8
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvnyGTKHMT
「但即使係點，呢個係病，童桐仲係你認識，你鐘意既童桐，你既青梅竹馬童桐。」我媽說，「佢只係病左，而呢個病係有得醫，就同厭食症一樣。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Lu408bwYS
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDihndMD6R6
「一打完風我就會帶佢去睇醫生。」我說，「錢方面，阿媽…」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkb9grg7BtP
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73uYDeAh9L
「得啦，我本來就當童桐係我地個女咁，依加更加當佢係新抱，錢方面你唔使擔心。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEknJtMHHC
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7ohin3ET8
我愛我媽。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYz45osALGl
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSzhMKaKjAV
「你要好好照顧佢，PTSD又好, PITS都好，都係有得醫，只緊要係你陪佢，照顧佢，俾安全感佢。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9whhysDbg
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbE5ClVYF7J
我點點頭，雖然不知道我能不能辦到。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmoOgIew8Yr
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4xbhhQVBJ
「喂，你有幾鐘意童桐？」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATAyDMLfay
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwqI4Exf5B
無需任何思考。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSk3gvK6IQf
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkVkFiTpVn
「要幾鐘意就有幾鐘意。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8EaRHCnm1L
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPlKNaJg8y
我媽問：「照顧佢一世，用一世人陪佢對抗呢個病你願唔願意？講緊既係一生一世。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5gxlnBS01
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4SwZCsgyK
「幾多世都願意。」我口出狂言，但我的確有這份覺悟。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPn0iTfwQH1
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZVEY3QYWrP
已經經歷了這麼多歡笑，跨越了這麼多眼淚，這份決意我背負得起。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmldTnlWGC8
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也必須要由我背負。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHszG811LQ
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9IqZzoLtTq
即使我再弱小，這點我也不會讓步。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdoMzugpQq0
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RItyEtSis
「既然係咁。」我媽舉起右手，「就交呢個俾你。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5CGRuK1Ny
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回到童桐那邊，我首先拿出一個狗玩具。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhVPWk2lin
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZoulgV1LY
「呀遊…？」躺在床上的童桐問。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkARHYcbib
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZl5pwZW3xZ
「係亞基俾你。」我說，「佢似乎覺得自己做錯，叼左佢最鐘意個舊骨去我地房門口，應該係想送俾你想你原諒佢。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77tCKG3S5C
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpI0m2xGfS
「……佢真係好可愛。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35EPe5KaT5
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGV3AUyGINZ
「佢好唔開心。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡikFdoF6EEt
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIOO6AXfec
「我…我知道…」童桐痛心地搖頭說，「係佢救左我地，計埋之前，佢已經救左我地第三次，但我…我一見到亞基，我就聽到架車撞落Kay既聲，聽到煞車聲，我仲聽到Kay既慘叫聲，我唔應該放開亞基，一日都係我……」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMNri5ip95
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYsJ9XAhQOf
她深深地在自責。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9d34IcjGc
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXLRWE92Pv
別忘了，Kay在襲擊我們之前，是童桐的組員，二人在大學也是好朋友。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4gdi1tDgoh
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6JjnCAQicJ
而Kay不但變成拿刀砍我的女人，更加在童桐面前被貨車撞成血肉模糊。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJxMDwc2Mbq
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9V9cT90er
「佢唔會嬲你啦。」我把狗骨頭放到床頭，輕輕擁住童桐，「佢一定等緊你返去同佢玩，搓佢肚肚。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJ3CUGgOC8
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73qXrIUOmM
「我係唔係癲左？呀遊，我…」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXR514fiJst
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMX3swwNMsd
「你唔係。」我親吻她的頭髮，「等打完風我會同你去睇醫生。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvqnOAjsAa8
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifeeKK2BQZ
「…我唔想入青山…」童桐是認真的感到恐懼。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8CsTLVKCf
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibCI7OnyNQ
我笑道：「點會，只係見下社工，心理咨詢之類，記唔記得睇戲個種，坐係度同你傾計就收你貴一貴個種，哈哈。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkQIYmpmuZ
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdaHhSYEjc
「…嗯…呀遊，今晚可唔可以開燈訓？」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡacVzT6PD72
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0CjTdsMdhj
「梗係可以。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2jOG0w6cI
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kjJqJGC6S
「講個秘密你知。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxhnrN4tseK
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKm8uXJx7L8
「仲有咩秘密我係唔知？」我說。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlexdJ6xllw
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ON3anoK2Y
「其實我驚狗。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22gA0hZNn0
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BpZT0xCXb
「下？」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVeM3nrWuAR
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy7O8GPb71g
童桐說：「記唔記得細個，有一次我媽咪黎探我，我覺得佢唔想見我就離家出走出左後山個度涼亭度？」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGeTg2QfUI
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFQQlbRUNx1
「哦個次，你仲偷偷地收埋學校個種膠水飯盒添。」我說，那次我上山找童桐，結果和她一起被狗追，還好我爸找到我們。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡry182dxD7v
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZGzvvoyrM
「個次咪俾野狗追既，好在叔叔救左我同你…我個次之後就好驚狗。」童桐說，「所以我好珍惜亞基，難得我唔會驚佢，但我諗都應該係因為你…所以我唔想自己以後都驚佢…」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4npEYVMxNT
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIS1hpeVEZ
「慢慢克服。」我說，「我…我細個都驚坐過山車喇，依加咪又唔驚。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2XUNK6eSM
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqQmxAyzmu
不過原理應該不一樣。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7j8IPvlae
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpS7CtsH9Ef
「咕嚕…」童桐肚子悶響。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6NZVcsrNw
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkEx6TxE3pU
「…童桐，你上次食野係幾時？」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCYPCsqj6y
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICaawaGgAn
「係差館，菁婷小姐買左兩餸飯俾我。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKOZRAkawbG
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT50n2rCOFQ
「你依加肚餓？我去煮野俾你食。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6i0gv5zeXr
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3RQAr1MFm
「唔啦。」童桐搖搖頭，「刷左牙，唔想刷多次。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwQpfDrGcJ
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRSPbUQ9pV
看她心情也吃不下吧，還是不要強逼她好。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP8t5em9vyM
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsoNL6EKi8n
童桐成個人都憔悴了不少，很難想像一個人在一晚之間能這樣落魄，下午和她去放亞基時她還精神奕奕，傍晚出事到現在凌晨，童桐卻已經變成了一個愁眉不展，鬱鬱不歡的少女，看著我便心痛。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxqSQWD3oEx
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72QyjesY4S
我真的好想她能高高興興，像過去十多年一樣。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2FkZUiCrp
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ7JZaoC3Sr
我緊緊抱住她，她沒有回抱，但也沒有抗拒。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo2cMvh0z5w
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqij1w4JNN
「唔好有事，童桐，求下你。」我在她耳邊說。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtTCiw49RA
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「……」她卻沒有回應。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCLPuTbZJ0
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCOCMrGJHC
只要颱風一過去，便帶童桐去看醫生。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NBOcFQyNI
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這和傷風感冒是一樣的，都只不過是病。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM85BtG9NCi
1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ezWKKT9ph
只要是病而不是甚麼不治之症，便能治，也必需要治。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxrosm6dwD
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「…三號風球預計於明日日間大部分時間維持，天文台預計超強颱風氣槽將於明晚凌晨時份改掛八號風球。天文台形容，超強颱風氣槽風力強勁，速度緩慢，結構完整，堪稱完美風暴Prefect Storm.」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIM4JI4gTF
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只要風球一過，我便要帶童桐去看醫生。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2pz87G1CS
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「…繼續返黎我地既節目。」電台主持人接話。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFObw6QdQqy
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「即使風暴再強，即使風暴再完美，都唔好忘記晴天就在烏雲之後守候。」他帶有磁性的聲音格外叫我聽得入神。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNikxYEwDi9
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「世界上或者有所謂既完美風暴。但係唔會有永恆既暴風雨。風暴再完美，都會消散既一日。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCeyxxH4nN
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「風暴再完美，我地都要記住總會再次見到晴天。」1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprMEoX0aI4
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眼角泛淚。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJgqwUvbzS
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「呀遊？」童桐問。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASpLbVbizL
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「…無事。」我把眼角輕蹭到童桐身上，感受著她的心跳，她的脈動。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqriBCSK1Ek
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在我失去意識墜入夢鄉前我聽到電台在放著一首歌，最後的歌詞也呼應著窗外的完美風暴，我也擅自將之代入到我們的困境中。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡytRehB8ezl
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／／還能互安慰1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPJ5jRZqTg
不必天氣多清朗1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GHuYqh0gD
狂雨暴雪一起對抗1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZdNAeZOBu
任歲月再壞 不致心慌／／
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第二天早上，屋中卻只有冷清。1181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbiUHK0EUlX
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床上只剩我一個人，我打開童桐家中每一扇門，爺爺嫲嫲在聽著粵曲，卻沒有童桐的身影。甚至有亞基在的我家，也沒有童桐的身影。
童桐不見了。
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