愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76qHqKVD2S
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後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ09qZwgl1eX
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZyjYhjy6iw
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCdiviZpKj
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也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOnumuC3nB
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但他沒有。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCnKspu3fm
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在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8WKjAh99W
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或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1GVdlYGav
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZSNhnIohK
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花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVl5ltLthC
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「妳在家嗎？」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIAXArTcwA
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「嗯。」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcrpIs8V7o
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「下來。」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnL6a76RIsu
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我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0IHgBhFjfB
541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIg9SvVaK4
阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6vEcpq2Jr
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「上車。」他敲敲車子。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNea6oiiW7n
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「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3ZJw5FC8Q
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「把妳載去賣。」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO40EYInT2F
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「嗯，好。」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3vfHlFBk5
541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdGiqznzVJ
阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwC9oTporHA
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我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Z27AgRP6n
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「起床了。」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WEPyICtLA
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「快點起來，小豺！」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6goSJxfy5b
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我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0BvmhWAsc
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「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SaP0YWkIi
541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9y5Eo9XZa
我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHnzMySJdR
541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡieNzO8tymf
「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomL6FuBcl9
541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGAzekdMp8R
「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4QrzCpRj8
541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYh8FPZzzOP
「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGihdW2Lkdc
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「在山上。」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SbR7MKiUP
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下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Ez8VnlD6N
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「你要拜拜啊？」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDKaDnQUEG
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「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5zleHogeZ
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「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobPBDN57Zf
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我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9JwWtRgU56
541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLIDkSXnPqY
「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZohXHEk3KM
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「我哪知道。」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0xfBXDAsx
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「……說的也是。」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTGIpPB3B1
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「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXStoHXOL1i
541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdZiAPnbwM
「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJppbns4Jfg
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「會發霉。」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5phjG3TiX
541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ce0qJOGQC
「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WnQPUD6mg
541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Q1pPG0K7G
「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpd9ktQ4ao
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「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2UZlYFUfL
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBiK85YAT8A
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「啊？」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Uu3fDcn5t
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILmfNSgONp
541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfDl2h5bGXr
「哈…你很噁心耶。」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3xdYKVtXN
541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFKYqGtBju
「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDgSPJYSSC
541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCT4bBQq5IU
「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJdINgGmYFb
541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpyCxXnWVrF
「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSruubcCXM
541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrxykQZKVr
我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0FKHQb2tv
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「好啦，我勉強用一下。」541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwraXAg9m7K
541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomvnovk2wR
我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi615NAvZOz
541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPI56exmqW0
他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JPP712LBp
541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIRfpmephE
我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXAFEi4QDr
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那是我和他最靠近的一次。541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DxjfsTB4q
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待續。
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