等我能見到他時，又過了一個月。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVaHWEx9udI
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUkx8GRaUT
深呼吸了好幾口氣，練習了幾次微笑，我才踏進病房。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZBDB89OoA
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDZOc13Cnp
他盯著我走近，待我在床前站定，見我微微一笑，他便咧開嘴笑了。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCXRIYuAWx
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3Yw2Ntcl2
「我妹怎麼變這麼漂亮啦？」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8QgAk12Z2
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7qDZWiGsD
我沒理會他的玩笑，只是看著臉色蒼白的他，當下覺得自己的微笑只是一道不讓自己哭出來的防線。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdkIXU4IL6
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ImNFq3bvI
我查過他的病，既然已到末期，治癒機率已經極低，幾乎是零。也知道他會長期處在各種疼痛裡。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnconcKiWO3
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWRohnnFsM
所以我無法開口問他還好嗎，也沒辦法要他振作，更不能祝福他康復。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYnWHDzFddJ
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6v3rF1bodt
只是他仍然對著我笑，笑得那麼真。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19rnbEpuWH
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVgUhYVp9T
「幹嘛傻在那裡，過來這邊坐啊。」他指指床邊的椅子。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpEg6k47uoj
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbfmuVRjNiC
我走過去，把椅子拉近病床，坐下。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIsrjHCcBs
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGM36djlnH
我們幾乎是同時伸出雙手的。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTKQo35pzM
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZ6C9hNdmj
碰到他的手時，我的鼻子就酸了，眼睛也模糊了。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgIaTtxEAm
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzpVOTjpTb
「不是答應我不哭了嗎？」那句話有著溫柔的指責。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡebF0a8ib0t
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXbCOrJXAT
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPaDB3j2smR
「現在有沒有哪裡會痛…？」我開口問。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXf3DGoY0Ma
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡor5H7PxBd3
「每天都在痛啊，肚子也痛、頭也痛，骨頭也都會痛…」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYUp0K7r52
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgZmST2BMg
他數家珍地說出，而我的眉頭也因此糾結。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3AVoIO2hpJ
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ELTZcpH5X
「現在不痛啦，看到妳都不痛啦。」見我皺眉，他胡亂地撒謊。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZt7BKA7ZQ
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUWK1hwCZWp
我揉著他的手，好像有很多話要說，但又覺得沒什麼好說。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuoodpP0DlC
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1jAFvokfn
「爸…妳爸爸，有說什麼嗎？他知道嗎？」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQcbFbDl5ek
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLHHqp1VTd
我愣了一下，沒想到他會問這個問題。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7NOJvAD5A
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAERRUcuFp5
「他應該知道，但他沒跟我說什麼…」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxbkIzl8rr
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdihVzd6tdR
「是嗎…我想也是啦。問問而已，妳不要多想。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKLm6N6SEI
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtpMfQLUrWl
那一瞬間，我覺得父親的無情是無法被原諒的。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2A6TYBR3BY
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxEfCMq0K3
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGBDZUOMmP
我拿出那晚編好的手繩，放到他手裡。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzDec8d35w
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE16vtfd0Jx
「這是新編的。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmBBR0R2nH
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRBXcDqo8y
他看了看手繩，又看看我。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYn8G06iB25
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUoat37hB8W
「妳幫我拿櫃子裡的皮夾出來。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB0rUNg6Le4
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuvEQ62tTLV
我把皮夾遞給他，他從皮夾裡拿出了…好幾年前的那條幸運手繩。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtnzCWE8fe9
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡupC89HyhPp
白色的線都變成灰色，已經髒髒的了，他拿出來時還是小心翼翼。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡey1LDkvelF
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCOCwqJpQv
「妳看。」他得意。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpncBv1rdyz
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIxinN3IWi
「虧你能留那麼久，我之前皮包掉了，你的照片也搞丟了…」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9dBbSMCdBp
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqW8tz7ZcY
「幫我戴新的在手上。」他說。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOGXFfCSpn
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCOT5Gtke3
我一邊把手繩綁上他變得好細的手腕，一邊說著…564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKEcMvFFOZ
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9VSFMfbTp
「我們以前還說要一起合照，但都沒有做到…」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMv68AGtwNQ
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8IGam22lb
「現在拍。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZOMI3FaTt
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fB3vbh32D
「啊？」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAanvJl8tqn
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNsgMNaEhJ
「現在就拍啊，妳手機有照相功能吧？」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuapCJvPSGN
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qgTOzoOE6
「有。」我拿出手機，翻開摺疊螢幕，開啟相機功能。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DpEyYeald
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbj8seP9rc8
「等一下等一下。」他伸手拿了旁邊的眼鏡戴上。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGPX6JYsI8
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1Y929sQkR
「我這樣看起來比較不像流氓吧？」他又在笑。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwQFvdzfYx
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZs3LBEbiMh
我笑了，起身貼近床，把頭靠在他臉旁，拿著手機對著我們倆的大頭拍了一張照片。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBLb1k23GO
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxx512SvznG
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVk35QhQOO
我坐回椅子上，有那麼一段時間，我們都沒有看著彼此，也沒有說話。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXs0TYQwUa
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8xQSBkZZw
「我離婚了。」英傑突然說。
「我被抓後，妳嫂子自己提的。」
「簽字是一定要簽的，拖著她也不對。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFuAtC5mBk5
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJIA4s4t3fF
我想起那個沒有喊過他「爸爸」的兒子，但我沒有勇氣開口問。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK04cCxwYtZ
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEix1PVaGAk
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMJDWuq1Bu
「妳還有在寫小說嗎？」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYuXiKKXkrW
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9nPxfmvC1
「…有寫一些小故事。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXOrlzC11YM
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJnkwbGZkw
「那就好，不要隨便放棄喔。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxdN6MZF0XW
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc53r6licsM
「嗯。我好久沒看到你寫的詩了。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaF56cvH2yc
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNU8qE3GEBF
「我太久沒寫字啦…字已經不漂亮，腦子也沒東西了。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUTGtJfztK
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1slVM1Oxo
「不會啦，字跡不會隨便改變的。」情感也是。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4vJu79pXW
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpgLv4QsQx
「妹。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiYUhIw0b59
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLmBo3mzsb
「嗯？」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9xSWvkCJg
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHHnXLbs6j
「人真的要走到末路的時候，才知道只有家人會無條件的陪在身邊。」
「所以妳一定要好好珍惜家人，不要交壞朋友，也不要太相信外面的人。」
「也不要抽菸、喝太多酒…」
「如果可以，就回去念書，這個社會還是很看學歷…」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3wChPvgDYA
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xVHgY5hXP
我突然意識到他正在做什麼。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEj6mnyagAM
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigH2Tkk8LS
像是交代後事般的叮嚀，我聽在耳裡，痛在心裡，但我不能阻止他這麼做。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX55qsWk32b
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPRIvzjaMD
因為我甚至不知道還有沒有下一次見他的機會。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWCIqq37T0
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3nwxj4kvh
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXJrh3kmws2
那天我在醫院陪他直到晚上才離開，他始終笑著，在我面前不表現出痛苦或難過。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEM3snpxn0F
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBoci8IeJLv
他也答應讓我再去看他，只是要先跟他聯絡。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOXNtCkfCx
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmSwWHX2Au
「我媽有點介意，所以不希望妳們碰到面。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgv3AlKtsha
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bDTOtaqq1
爾後我又見了他兩次，其中一次他告訴我，他信了主耶穌。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbHLYcSSTC
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWazO7GFiR
我知道是身體病痛的折磨，讓他尋求精神上的慰藉。他親自寫了信給教會的小孩子，用自己的經歷告誡孩子們勿入歧途。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeeRoN2YiRF
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb8293JYyVE
我知道他害怕，知道他尋求救贖。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAm1Z7V2LAm
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyMtIwvLtC
我知道他就算把地獄或罪人掛在嘴邊，仍是害怕受苦的。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4S4OX94IJ
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6r0tIrAEUc
我知道他也許到了這一刻才開始後悔。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuaoaX5KIIo
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4F5aLRpIz
但我是欣慰的。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISVOVdjuBE
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRMLiaT6E1
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvoLq1Dsak
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNNYiPqchdC
那一天來的又快又急。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEziUiga86P
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mzUJSLo6A
「妹…」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdtF1Qwh9h
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqyCSrajVkJ
我接起電話，只聽到英傑喊了我，然後是沉重的喘息與啜泣。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKiKM8wzm2i
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdIuM7OyAZ
「你怎麼了？怎麼了？」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrnRTTu7IzP
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtai7SLX7P
還拿著手機和他說話，我已經起身準備出門去醫院。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡagDgd2aynt
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BRbwPW4ht
「我還不想死…」他哭著說。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjR9ROFGamK
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlE1bOeXqBs
那句話狠狠地撕裂了我的胸口。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTAPfkvGQU
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjoPtjOVH7e
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxRU7j3BGd
我跑進病房，英傑似乎剛剛才穩定下來，吊著點滴、眼眶泛紅、面容消瘦，也比上次更加蒼白、手臂上都是青色與紫色的瘀青。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ758hG4qS5U
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuCsgVoarkW
他的母親與姐姐看見我，臉色明顯地不自在。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNRPEJvf01
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbRGkEb7wO0
英傑打那通電話給我的時候，她們是不是也在呢？564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxlHlkMsMr9
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvp37vqC3Az
她們小聲地和英傑說了幾句話，就走出病房，留給我和他說話的空間。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BEXXNCJgV
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZkQ8qnQi2F
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4MXZ3MQW1y
我坐到上次的位置，握住他的手。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fI63j6RxB
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVacXIEDKz
那雙手已又更瘦更冰冷了。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7e51tg1ONs
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76gFn5EPnP
「我真的，還不想死。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHupeu8VJW4
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJ6fFQAr4h
我握著他的手出了點力。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzHBDTMBn1
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDMyxXD7WY
「我很害怕。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzIbk2oGDIW
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg6i6wlkNF4
「我很怕死…」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgaiDfy65Q
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6ULWs578F
他沒看著我，只盯著手。說完，他的眼淚就掉下來。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbsG8XU7gxk
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHUmsUFSfZ
那是我第一次看見他掉眼淚，也是最後一次。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3BI3fEWoPw
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCh5p2On06S
「你已經悔改了，你一定會去天堂的。」我已經滿臉淚水，但還是看著他的眼睛說。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Db14MBieY
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTG86CIW6y7
「全身都很痛…」他終於抬頭看我。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9jS5WLqPK
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYhRdHe8X45
我趕緊抽幾張衛生紙擦他的臉，他的雙頰與眼窩都已經凹陷，我的手盡可能地放輕力道，就怕他疼。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZ1ooIfM5J
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAW9NAR8Xnx
「你很努力了，我知道你很努力了…」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8E4aqa2j4
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgop9Ienwb0
我抱住他，驚覺他已弱不禁風的事實。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOWdhbmfql4
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdNHLiohRA
這讓我倏地停止了自己的眼淚。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPV8DN0Qf2
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QO6e9V4JW
「沒事的，你的主會帶你離開，之後就不痛苦了。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90HkKYlVot
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9QloMrIQH
英傑在我的臂彎裡哭泣了許久，才安靜下來。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCntPAfObA
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznUiaPfVGK
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡweSbVEt5Gp
「妹。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdH3HAtbpGe
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDRzAVfImZ
「嗯？」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqp5R51hoE
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1bkqxNwuV1
「抽屜裡有一封信是給妳的。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWsB3iNXQ7
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8kxQAyvkQ
我打開抽屜，拿起那個信封。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLS4xp6fHQR
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「回去再看。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIjOOEiCPy
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mF86gng0R
「好。」我收起信。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmaXBtWWwW
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTu1RoW7tKO
「妳回去吧。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OyvjUo3fN
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「什麼？」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2qa3Eg2Pe
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxUFrEdRE9
「謝謝妳來…可是不要再來了。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1ZmxDSKx0
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9kS9bgBc6
「為什麼？」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYTjmtlRC9
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrnGbfbCwU
「我不想要妳送我離開，妳會很傷心，我也不想要看到妳那麼傷心。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxatXCagePu
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「……」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1yrMKHOcy9
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「回去吧。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEv814FvOpc
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmG3LVGgkLc
他看著我，又對我笑了，那個笑看起來很費勁，也是他一直以來對我的溫柔表現。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvItCk8lDd
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOSq7EU99L
不讓我送他走，也是哥哥對妹妹的溫柔。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FJcCzwJiW
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftUSSrwbDt
我又抱了抱他才離開。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xTLPHPvPD
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHzHvNT3FB
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCsXyCJVbJ
當天晚上十點多，我收到他姊姊的簡訊。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeskjZF8u2N
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSIei8TJxY
「英傑已經走了。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0OooRqIoE
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8z6JKymtm
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBKfWuapwsO
那一瞬間我向心裡所有知道的神祈求，希望英傑能到更好的地方，希望他不要再受苦了。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQczcnhiSQX
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2Ecs8ZdID
我打開信封，裡面只有一張書籤大的紙。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLZt4SzJPy
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0W6KhvOTe
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHjMvgiMkk
「Dear 妹：」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbyOTPd7mzD
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「妳永遠是我的天使，564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmj3eZFfZwP
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF799KsSfzp
請不要忘記我。」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRcqSl27n5
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhnYbHXV27
「哥 英傑」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMzZ47o2Ur
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我抱著自己，放任自己哭到睡著。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93zd21HT1O
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6T1DyAF83N
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquHtV1gzup
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtlh9dGAaJ
之後的每一年，我不選在英傑的忌日，而是在他的冥誕當天悼念他。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTYcuh6jLt
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKmkBnjIvg
每一年的五月三十，我都會寫一封信，表達我的思念，讓他知道「我沒有忘記他」。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRfP9IddAhr
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPW9KD4suwd
前幾年每到這天，我總是哭，總是放任自己因為想念而哭得泣不成聲。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzHiZMEiWF
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡddcxGwJPFo
後來的後來，我漸漸不哭了，但沒有改變在這一天寫信的習慣。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6h6O6naZt
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqoACCpqvkt
英傑的回憶有時像巨石背在背上，有時像羽毛沾在胸口，無論哪一種，都是無法遺棄。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4oJ0TT3TrR
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzGO7lrKrZM
他走後，我便不再輕易評論一個人的好與壞。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Zo0oTGJJI
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5mjXJAss8
曾經我在英傑的新聞底下看見很多網友的謾罵、抨擊甚至是汙辱，我感到憤怒與心痛，想一個一個回應他們「你們什麼都不知道！」564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4cdpSzmeS
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但我什麼也沒做。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDudKbVt4x
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因為那些人不認識他，也永遠不會認識他。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmASHyzItb
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaU1ZqEOfLA
所以我再也不對任何新聞或社會事件做評論。因為我知道，我不認識當事人，更不能體會當事人的親屬心情。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWQqu47gcN
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsmKsvjwVz
我回去念書，考進了大學，年年以取得獎學金為目標，只為不要白學。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0J6xnlyeeo
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzPGT1j3zW
一直沒有放棄創作，可能也是因為惦記著他說過的話。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOt6dZyIg48
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhymjDmKdJ
說起遺憾，大概是我喊他「英傑」比喊他「哥哥」的次數要多更多了吧。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVkFjiPMNgQ
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCu1xTJf69
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjyx7ASz4M
去年，我沒有寫信。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdksb7R3hF
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE3uFbcxSdu
我選擇在當天完成他的故事。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgY5qxWHeWi
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvkKr5QATE
他是一隻孤傲的鷹，獨自在天空闖蕩，受盡風霜，最後回巢，在家人身邊闔上眼。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFrHCQa59h
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17dCfZtIt7
我是活在地面的狼，只能抬頭望著，用我的爪在沙上畫下他在天空翱翔的姿態。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFP0KRQhdXt
564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡosAdfpTfas
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這是，我哥哥的故事。564Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTNgPHG6xo
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