等我能見到他時，又過了一個月。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmM7eam7Aly
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深呼吸了好幾口氣，練習了幾次微笑，我才踏進病房。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcp6PrxgxBZ
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他盯著我走近，待我在床前站定，見我微微一笑，他便咧開嘴笑了。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgEqN3qLZ8
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「我妹怎麼變這麼漂亮啦？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAMkG8UjoB
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我沒理會他的玩笑，只是看著臉色蒼白的他，當下覺得自己的微笑只是一道不讓自己哭出來的防線。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrW8UzdkmnI
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我查過他的病，既然已到末期，治癒機率已經極低，幾乎是零。也知道他會長期處在各種疼痛裡。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZS7LLurF6
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所以我無法開口問他還好嗎，也沒辦法要他振作，更不能祝福他康復。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsN26GY9zfG
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只是他仍然對著我笑，笑得那麼真。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4VazQvBXB
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「幹嘛傻在那裡，過來這邊坐啊。」他指指床邊的椅子。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTUSAkFZKH
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我走過去，把椅子拉近病床，坐下。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5Dsc9ldk6
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我們幾乎是同時伸出雙手的。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVoRXSnaOKu
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碰到他的手時，我的鼻子就酸了，眼睛也模糊了。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDSPda51uj
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「不是答應我不哭了嗎？」那句話有著溫柔的指責。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7ZS69vc6E
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「現在有沒有哪裡會痛…？」我開口問。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwdE4SH9tqm
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「每天都在痛啊，肚子也痛、頭也痛，骨頭也都會痛…」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbBdqFg36p
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他數家珍地說出，而我的眉頭也因此糾結。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhNbF986Xhs
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「現在不痛啦，看到妳都不痛啦。」見我皺眉，他胡亂地撒謊。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKe2GI8lr2c
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我揉著他的手，好像有很多話要說，但又覺得沒什麼好說。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQx05ug3XRR
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「爸…妳爸爸，有說什麼嗎？他知道嗎？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wV5IgpBzW
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我愣了一下，沒想到他會問這個問題。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDc34t4jBH
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「他應該知道，但他沒跟我說什麼…」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4Lr3v1wn2
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「是嗎…我想也是啦。問問而已，妳不要多想。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzPXUyakIK3
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那一瞬間，我覺得父親的無情是無法被原諒的。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylwsghxiQi
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我拿出那晚編好的手繩，放到他手裡。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGz4lrkea6
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「這是新編的。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIDjx4li7N
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他看了看手繩，又看看我。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKS9Zi7QC4
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「妳幫我拿櫃子裡的皮夾出來。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT48iUX6c9U
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我把皮夾遞給他，他從皮夾裡拿出了…好幾年前的那條幸運手繩。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEDB6U9D5m
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白色的線都變成灰色，已經髒髒的了，他拿出來時還是小心翼翼。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡURPBJJFce0
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「妳看。」他得意。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAgYqZ6Ne7
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「虧你能留那麼久，我之前皮包掉了，你的照片也搞丟了…」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGTHyfh6XN
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「幫我戴新的在手上。」他說。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1FJdEjy3d
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我一邊把手繩綁上他變得好細的手腕，一邊說著…523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSF5awq4uB
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「我們以前還說要一起合照，但都沒有做到…」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QRASnPCoN
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「現在拍。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3abzYObVbn
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「啊？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡheJ5LY44Hn
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「現在就拍啊，妳手機有照相功能吧？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmf0iRhw6R
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「有。」我拿出手機，翻開摺疊螢幕，開啟相機功能。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRjp7aDk7A
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「等一下等一下。」他伸手拿了旁邊的眼鏡戴上。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBU10sL3nR
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「我這樣看起來比較不像流氓吧？」他又在笑。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGTSHECSAP
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我笑了，起身貼近床，把頭靠在他臉旁，拿著手機對著我們倆的大頭拍了一張照片。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDy35KX9xy
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我坐回椅子上，有那麼一段時間，我們都沒有看著彼此，也沒有說話。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBSUGkGNT4
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「我離婚了。」英傑突然說。
「我被抓後，妳嫂子自己提的。」
「簽字是一定要簽的，拖著她也不對。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypCZBZiXOo
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我想起那個沒有喊過他「爸爸」的兒子，但我沒有勇氣開口問。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcMgkXbnG6
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「妳還有在寫小說嗎？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxfGKQ0BZX
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「…有寫一些小故事。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKOlrtcbGn
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「那就好，不要隨便放棄喔。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXMdkeZ9wJ
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「嗯。我好久沒看到你寫的詩了。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRKaTbXOOR
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「我太久沒寫字啦…字已經不漂亮，腦子也沒東西了。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32QWlo6Q1Y
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「不會啦，字跡不會隨便改變的。」情感也是。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPr0M0aZLbV
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「妹。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyJNRzwpsF
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「嗯？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNmgmn78fA
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「人真的要走到末路的時候，才知道只有家人會無條件的陪在身邊。」
「所以妳一定要好好珍惜家人，不要交壞朋友，也不要太相信外面的人。」
「也不要抽菸、喝太多酒…」
「如果可以，就回去念書，這個社會還是很看學歷…」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KjaE8txQ6
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我突然意識到他正在做什麼。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GLLLem7EO
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像是交代後事般的叮嚀，我聽在耳裡，痛在心裡，但我不能阻止他這麼做。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3et2038Im
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因為我甚至不知道還有沒有下一次見他的機會。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4Z2W4KVTY
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那天我在醫院陪他直到晚上才離開，他始終笑著，在我面前不表現出痛苦或難過。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBq2HfmTxFy
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他也答應讓我再去看他，只是要先跟他聯絡。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiAdCqRfpdq
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「我媽有點介意，所以不希望妳們碰到面。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dkvQn4uUg
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爾後我又見了他兩次，其中一次他告訴我，他信了主耶穌。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsu5nEoRAOB
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我知道是身體病痛的折磨，讓他尋求精神上的慰藉。他親自寫了信給教會的小孩子，用自己的經歷告誡孩子們勿入歧途。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKrW1I0Vge
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我知道他害怕，知道他尋求救贖。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdeNywunnpY
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我知道他就算把地獄或罪人掛在嘴邊，仍是害怕受苦的。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2xEsOhDc5
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我知道他也許到了這一刻才開始後悔。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1jq1PJ0vK
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但我是欣慰的。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEf9WjZPfj0
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那一天來的又快又急。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH80uyDnHoG
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「妹…」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOBYTrnHCg
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我接起電話，只聽到英傑喊了我，然後是沉重的喘息與啜泣。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5E6cfmvogz
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「你怎麼了？怎麼了？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87PCNLjLSz
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還拿著手機和他說話，我已經起身準備出門去醫院。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWje3Q0sej
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「我還不想死…」他哭著說。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrK6Vl3d5Q
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那句話狠狠地撕裂了我的胸口。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59RbnDkkB5
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我跑進病房，英傑似乎剛剛才穩定下來，吊著點滴、眼眶泛紅、面容消瘦，也比上次更加蒼白、手臂上都是青色與紫色的瘀青。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwS3HLnifm0
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他的母親與姐姐看見我，臉色明顯地不自在。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfPgbeZpgB
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英傑打那通電話給我的時候，她們是不是也在呢？523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCdGz3o9Ob
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她們小聲地和英傑說了幾句話，就走出病房，留給我和他說話的空間。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2u545jVS6
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我坐到上次的位置，握住他的手。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTFme6FgDUG
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那雙手已又更瘦更冰冷了。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1gqXvEdvJ
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「我真的，還不想死。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZZyIZOZ7C
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我握著他的手出了點力。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOWgHROedt
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「我很害怕。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBbfA89zxrE
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「我很怕死…」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaQ1rkWW7Y
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他沒看著我，只盯著手。說完，他的眼淚就掉下來。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rOLHPQVCu
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那是我第一次看見他掉眼淚，也是最後一次。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkoXKe7F9s
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「你已經悔改了，你一定會去天堂的。」我已經滿臉淚水，但還是看著他的眼睛說。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9LdPu1ZwT
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「全身都很痛…」他終於抬頭看我。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwPNdmYtSVR
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我趕緊抽幾張衛生紙擦他的臉，他的雙頰與眼窩都已經凹陷，我的手盡可能地放輕力道，就怕他疼。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfJpbSYkZO
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「你很努力了，我知道你很努力了…」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rcmMzWSrU
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我抱住他，驚覺他已弱不禁風的事實。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XdECJMium
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這讓我倏地停止了自己的眼淚。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFgxKt27As
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「沒事的，你的主會帶你離開，之後就不痛苦了。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJ02JtkcRW
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英傑在我的臂彎裡哭泣了許久，才安靜下來。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2CpQ5b74e
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「妹。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePZD6oiQN9
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「嗯？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkNXqZ7b7h
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「抽屜裡有一封信是給妳的。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77CH8LbHLU
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我打開抽屜，拿起那個信封。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSeixsEwSl
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「回去再看。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7TeHD5jvp
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「好。」我收起信。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZo1KPI72M
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「妳回去吧。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIKQ1uGCoZ
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「什麼？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVYH6Udn1Q
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「謝謝妳來…可是不要再來了。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywklbTinpt
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「為什麼？」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeeviD5E7AM
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「我不想要妳送我離開，妳會很傷心，我也不想要看到妳那麼傷心。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6lxyCjWeT
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「……」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTr1b7F0bQ
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「回去吧。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFSV3C9tjB
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他看著我，又對我笑了，那個笑看起來很費勁，也是他一直以來對我的溫柔表現。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdQQOO5Po7
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不讓我送他走，也是哥哥對妹妹的溫柔。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHOvOjlBJy
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我又抱了抱他才離開。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarG0J8jRMC
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當天晚上十點多，我收到他姊姊的簡訊。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1rUqDjyWn
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「英傑已經走了。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lieERDEBn
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那一瞬間我向心裡所有知道的神祈求，希望英傑能到更好的地方，希望他不要再受苦了。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWHcXy3cQt
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我打開信封，裡面只有一張書籤大的紙。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUDfRrbjt5Y
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「Dear 妹：」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Hc61EpdCS
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「妳永遠是我的天使，523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEla1YVXx5q
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請不要忘記我。」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwqbbmuW1p
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「哥 英傑」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiE42yvUcyq
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我抱著自己，放任自己哭到睡著。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEj6hKfxwq
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之後的每一年，我不選在英傑的忌日，而是在他的冥誕當天悼念他。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyq36vCmomd
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每一年的五月三十，我都會寫一封信，表達我的思念，讓他知道「我沒有忘記他」。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPOmRO5yKPH
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前幾年每到這天，我總是哭，總是放任自己因為想念而哭得泣不成聲。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOzlaDmfj4
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後來的後來，我漸漸不哭了，但沒有改變在這一天寫信的習慣。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnGUHO30Bk
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英傑的回憶有時像巨石背在背上，有時像羽毛沾在胸口，無論哪一種，都是無法遺棄。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE3CGKEnksq
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他走後，我便不再輕易評論一個人的好與壞。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHfq1wV9Wt
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曾經我在英傑的新聞底下看見很多網友的謾罵、抨擊甚至是汙辱，我感到憤怒與心痛，想一個一個回應他們「你們什麼都不知道！」523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq4clJOFF1w
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但我什麼也沒做。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKUDPJT42U
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因為那些人不認識他，也永遠不會認識他。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8Juc1ayI2
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所以我再也不對任何新聞或社會事件做評論。因為我知道，我不認識當事人，更不能體會當事人的親屬心情。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWc8bchvjO
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我回去念書，考進了大學，年年以取得獎學金為目標，只為不要白學。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvQZaOlNK6
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一直沒有放棄創作，可能也是因為惦記著他說過的話。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgKaKhwN0Q
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說起遺憾，大概是我喊他「英傑」比喊他「哥哥」的次數要多更多了吧。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73hKmmDCtb
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去年，我沒有寫信。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjHh3uSmp2
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我選擇在當天完成他的故事。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQS7RwsqOgd
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他是一隻孤傲的鷹，獨自在天空闖蕩，受盡風霜，最後回巢，在家人身邊闔上眼。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2G8OVvYDQQ
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我是活在地面的狼，只能抬頭望著，用我的爪在沙上畫下他在天空翱翔的姿態。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoAw0F83TrF
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這是，我哥哥的故事。523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSxfDusqV8
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