愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdjnuzVm0Q
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後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLd4di5eFlX
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpmwCQPgx2
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0GTKCvQKU
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也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXBBrUA80I
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但他沒有。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nVfH5pE9B
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在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡafIF3dXLGK
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xjNVkL22g
或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2tS2wdS1y
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmQjZGYK0T
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5iiQt6w1YV
花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfoIXHHt1NX
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「妳在家嗎？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBmNqQ8t6F
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「嗯。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6un3HVb2Z4
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「下來。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡme9JsJcSFa
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3CQARrYDg
我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJhmBvRDFu
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJSQcODYOYR
阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtngql3B93Q
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57aUlewJu3
「上車。」他敲敲車子。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6FD4YIrCv
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXctor7Rw8v
「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDC7WNHz8Gq
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZUX8nycA6
「把妳載去賣。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9I5pBqKNY
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTmCDCq619
「嗯，好。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVKBkelAkz
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5eHph759OT
阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKzGTajSc0
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我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjAtmiJ1PH
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「起床了。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6yut0t1Bel
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxHDlMdWjk
「快點起來，小豺！」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcUrHpj9XNd
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKlXL0v1H47
我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSI8qEUei2E
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6tZSf8N49
「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvWXDVYFa4
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76PD28nUGS
我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GW3IwvCjl
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuM4LPEjtO4
「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZAMiUq0SJ
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPw1Gytq4G
「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1g3eksRj7
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1akJDbs6BY
「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLkt2YtBp4
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「在山上。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmm9TH7JaZx
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下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZw4UHglDMN
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「你要拜拜啊？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmSNn0MEPR
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡne6YFp1FLU
「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFDadUWSU5
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYazmK9RYQR
「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBZmnOlg5l
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我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbxvmMGYOA
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7OA9WSYZe
「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCeTBxwD8U
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「我哪知道。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqyy6y8vN4
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「……說的也是。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgClJOdRFq2
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「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIk7gW5iCI
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSd5xMU70Lv
「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh91G2yfjdK
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkE0FrJjpEV
「會發霉。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJwq8L8TbT
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3pfCZvVV1o
「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn63ggNPJUl
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTsogL32Pcc
「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbZ9KfJ5oZw
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnFW0AuzhG
「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGeaVMPy33n
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgHqVDp3om
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGC96T3NsmM
「啊？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm596QWQeya
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeyep3HiqKs
「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqq93Im7w99
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9beAkNA5SH
「哈…你很噁心耶。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGB6whwX6IF
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSjgKb5OSi
「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOww7AgjdWo
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQte5qNQSQl
「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpMHc9mbbPH
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTuWqUvi0k
「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3Qir2CkkQ
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDgBa2XwJR
我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9drLiSA7G
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「好啦，我勉強用一下。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlxgFEWglr
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGCnfWNIY1
我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNiN3Mlkw9Y
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGh6WtSkLx
他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5H0p94co68
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHH0joC3cHI
我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ031bMYiLBT
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPxTzVKus5
那是我和他最靠近的一次。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQQCQMVmpv
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待續。
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