等我能見到他時，又過了一個月。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGCJSazCzEW
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深呼吸了好幾口氣，練習了幾次微笑，我才踏進病房。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0AdusH1fKJ
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他盯著我走近，待我在床前站定，見我微微一笑，他便咧開嘴笑了。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhDoghRpnO
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「我妹怎麼變這麼漂亮啦？」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡizufoFLgJ1
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXzOKgxXaw
我沒理會他的玩笑，只是看著臉色蒼白的他，當下覺得自己的微笑只是一道不讓自己哭出來的防線。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9sTgbp0nsC
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0AgHrbGjcY
我查過他的病，既然已到末期，治癒機率已經極低，幾乎是零。也知道他會長期處在各種疼痛裡。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0O4eNflXIN
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所以我無法開口問他還好嗎，也沒辦法要他振作，更不能祝福他康復。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXoRc9mfgr
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxU2aI7PFTw
只是他仍然對著我笑，笑得那麼真。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcf0dHq0mKG
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5g8tcysof
「幹嘛傻在那裡，過來這邊坐啊。」他指指床邊的椅子。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjeuvOwQcv6
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwd9LzGifQD
我走過去，把椅子拉近病床，坐下。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UBg1c7gDY
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpr07z8ZtY
我們幾乎是同時伸出雙手的。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjb71tE4vk9
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCyg91CvRP
碰到他的手時，我的鼻子就酸了，眼睛也模糊了。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2u9Gs9JcD
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJmAprEras
「不是答應我不哭了嗎？」那句話有著溫柔的指責。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrRci1hjIc
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「現在有沒有哪裡會痛…？」我開口問。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCZNbnO5bi
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHKTnE4Wix
「每天都在痛啊，肚子也痛、頭也痛，骨頭也都會痛…」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0H5dpEM2aM
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkJgE7OPHx
他數家珍地說出，而我的眉頭也因此糾結。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwTK91AFqCp
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHTACc6qsYL
「現在不痛啦，看到妳都不痛啦。」見我皺眉，他胡亂地撒謊。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Xy5upak5p
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhJYef3pxU
我揉著他的手，好像有很多話要說，但又覺得沒什麼好說。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrjOoIKNG3
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnM03GEp8mE
「爸…妳爸爸，有說什麼嗎？他知道嗎？」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmMJCP0o8m
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSvdZpKlk1
我愣了一下，沒想到他會問這個問題。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12mARaBN3r
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYZm02on1F
「他應該知道，但他沒跟我說什麼…」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZEa9zgdYP
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpVyygxwhdD
「是嗎…我想也是啦。問問而已，妳不要多想。」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZ47tGcQoX
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5eJU0Z4Wr7
那一瞬間，我覺得父親的無情是無法被原諒的。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8xRP4dKGZ
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dJyZXRn5k
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOJjZCDW50
我拿出那晚編好的手繩，放到他手裡。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoBplbxCayH
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「這是新編的。」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoojeqYSn3I
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYVnaD1P0A
他看了看手繩，又看看我。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzHcqnKV3k
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyi4oYPckz0
「妳幫我拿櫃子裡的皮夾出來。」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZDr0aVtTb
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCEUL4qCt0O
我把皮夾遞給他，他從皮夾裡拿出了…好幾年前的那條幸運手繩。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NLATia36u
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHdE0uWLXf
白色的線都變成灰色，已經髒髒的了，他拿出來時還是小心翼翼。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKXBMA3wCi
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3tlyp769p
「妳看。」他得意。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwh5azbwZS
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZuDGHeslj
「虧你能留那麼久，我之前皮包掉了，你的照片也搞丟了…」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRK4R9aU8sh
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「幫我戴新的在手上。」他說。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVz5ejsdSn1
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3Sn9Ac4Ui
我一邊把手繩綁上他變得好細的手腕，一邊說著…537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KqxMJYWaM
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBKwWSeWln
「我們以前還說要一起合照，但都沒有做到…」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsGsjD7d3e
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「現在拍。」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0z0AABGYDr
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「啊？」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYo63h0Zmog
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「現在就拍啊，妳手機有照相功能吧？」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwUiKK3xfw
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDTne3ygLt
「有。」我拿出手機，翻開摺疊螢幕，開啟相機功能。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxSjnCGKyvE
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo445UUpcMu
「等一下等一下。」他伸手拿了旁邊的眼鏡戴上。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2X1MMu6QR
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6wP08Tjt9
「我這樣看起來比較不像流氓吧？」他又在笑。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlCGBGPGPJi
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoBsgRzHT96
我笑了，起身貼近床，把頭靠在他臉旁，拿著手機對著我們倆的大頭拍了一張照片。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUJYxjk4Es
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodw2sLxSsa
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我坐回椅子上，有那麼一段時間，我們都沒有看著彼此，也沒有說話。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUtG5kQZxP
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9zXBQ5yod
「我離婚了。」英傑突然說。
「我被抓後，妳嫂子自己提的。」
「簽字是一定要簽的，拖著她也不對。」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUluS82rPRy
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlCHJLq6ApG
我想起那個沒有喊過他「爸爸」的兒子，但我沒有勇氣開口問。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5a6FOwV67P
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUGUHep8JCw
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「妳還有在寫小說嗎？」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRYkx77vmM
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmo9v5OBKPv
「…有寫一些小故事。」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4k1NtfmVh
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「那就好，不要隨便放棄喔。」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFH9r3Dfjxu
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDiOpXyTn0
「嗯。我好久沒看到你寫的詩了。」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGkhF7XA75
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「我太久沒寫字啦…字已經不漂亮，腦子也沒東西了。」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNigGWcwyV
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xh975Du9Z
「不會啦，字跡不會隨便改變的。」情感也是。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5XlRaQNzW
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVAWfVFd2sd
「妹。」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBi9wu3CW2
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXgzLcK6yG
「嗯？」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxKxqic1An0
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4UR0tr28K
「人真的要走到末路的時候，才知道只有家人會無條件的陪在身邊。」
「所以妳一定要好好珍惜家人，不要交壞朋友，也不要太相信外面的人。」
「也不要抽菸、喝太多酒…」
「如果可以，就回去念書，這個社會還是很看學歷…」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrYKDodJle
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqRaBDAXAJ
我突然意識到他正在做什麼。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VttpUCilZ
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7uwsvGgOK
像是交代後事般的叮嚀，我聽在耳裡，痛在心裡，但我不能阻止他這麼做。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4AIVbvy39
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqf1Ri2xas6
因為我甚至不知道還有沒有下一次見他的機會。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnvUN2xGxD
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL0zShQx9Mj
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMx8eeAPWQ
那天我在醫院陪他直到晚上才離開，他始終笑著，在我面前不表現出痛苦或難過。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpoYF428J3
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7VY5YswUNY
他也答應讓我再去看他，只是要先跟他聯絡。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mqEcKWunE
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8XhzSXbEC
「我媽有點介意，所以不希望妳們碰到面。」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqqCnOXuK9P
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJ2ywq0CcE
爾後我又見了他兩次，其中一次他告訴我，他信了主耶穌。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24QAKrNSDo
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLHhbEvhU2
我知道是身體病痛的折磨，讓他尋求精神上的慰藉。他親自寫了信給教會的小孩子，用自己的經歷告誡孩子們勿入歧途。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDUHKZRBl4
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqbNYc9kTQ
我知道他害怕，知道他尋求救贖。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuWrVQ8S4GK
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3C3KganTH
我知道他就算把地獄或罪人掛在嘴邊，仍是害怕受苦的。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iOJvtbt19
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTPqV9zSPi
我知道他也許到了這一刻才開始後悔。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTWf4yjAw7
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但我是欣慰的。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgLVpJTB9c
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那一天來的又快又急。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJlRx3G0Yj
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMOVXDuibg
「妹…」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNiCF6rPLK
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV92h1vazTl
我接起電話，只聽到英傑喊了我，然後是沉重的喘息與啜泣。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfSeMw07oq
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2AbS9A86A
「你怎麼了？怎麼了？」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbC2gQrc4LI
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv3chKBkT4J
還拿著手機和他說話，我已經起身準備出門去醫院。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwmz4F9DkY
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡip7i6r8XGh
「我還不想死…」他哭著說。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLBi6uMv0P
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvMmewFjz5
那句話狠狠地撕裂了我的胸口。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE46FkO9JXy
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmBnTJmvIp
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我跑進病房，英傑似乎剛剛才穩定下來，吊著點滴、眼眶泛紅、面容消瘦，也比上次更加蒼白、手臂上都是青色與紫色的瘀青。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZO2spAOyOv
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQCORCfEqP1
他的母親與姐姐看見我，臉色明顯地不自在。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ATPkkPbEd
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHr1jEduBVH
英傑打那通電話給我的時候，她們是不是也在呢？537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJaZmDvHjn
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeb2EUUnAkQ
她們小聲地和英傑說了幾句話，就走出病房，留給我和他說話的空間。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Yqg60uKGc
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我坐到上次的位置，握住他的手。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTHBfl0vgo
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那雙手已又更瘦更冰冷了。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgB24YRp7R2
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「我真的，還不想死。」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60nfdAQkMT
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOvzQPawuK
我握著他的手出了點力。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxrhNRcROM
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「我很害怕。」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLFrbncrTV
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「我很怕死…」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbraVEv3LSn
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他沒看著我，只盯著手。說完，他的眼淚就掉下來。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkqQFhXpcY9
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8oWnAY5GeG
那是我第一次看見他掉眼淚，也是最後一次。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgy1yD6HPH
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6b3ndj6Yk4
「你已經悔改了，你一定會去天堂的。」我已經滿臉淚水，但還是看著他的眼睛說。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSFN3uDWPX
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDU2kxMSo4
「全身都很痛…」他終於抬頭看我。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPj5f6sohc
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNUCCDHDCY
我趕緊抽幾張衛生紙擦他的臉，他的雙頰與眼窩都已經凹陷，我的手盡可能地放輕力道，就怕他疼。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡruMcoDwEZ8
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「你很努力了，我知道你很努力了…」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQEMSaXAIm
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6fmNyc6fv
我抱住他，驚覺他已弱不禁風的事實。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrUZsHJLWyZ
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKK3SFCoAO
這讓我倏地停止了自己的眼淚。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnmWtb2wL1
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「沒事的，你的主會帶你離開，之後就不痛苦了。」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qxyPBUNSv
537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrEjR30nur
英傑在我的臂彎裡哭泣了許久，才安靜下來。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwSThpQaq6
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「妹。」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaLqY8fUxCx
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「嗯？」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwkQCulwQn
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「抽屜裡有一封信是給妳的。」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQGs41hu15
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我打開抽屜，拿起那個信封。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrMH76kdvI
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「回去再看。」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1pQSUZr9X
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「好。」我收起信。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOneStVuGT4
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「妳回去吧。」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKzPNkX9SP
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「什麼？」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2piNNFIh7w
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「謝謝妳來…可是不要再來了。」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9n6TzPDgbm
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「為什麼？」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡACKsCbznRG
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「我不想要妳送我離開，妳會很傷心，我也不想要看到妳那麼傷心。」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHsJOi3QXg4
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「……」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt99EDhWqXG
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「回去吧。」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULfxpl96Nm
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他看著我，又對我笑了，那個笑看起來很費勁，也是他一直以來對我的溫柔表現。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSsvfJDf8q
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不讓我送他走，也是哥哥對妹妹的溫柔。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECv3OdsPEr
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我又抱了抱他才離開。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTq8g6GhZyk
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當天晚上十點多，我收到他姊姊的簡訊。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOQ3asxJz5
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「英傑已經走了。」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHRERThnfA
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那一瞬間我向心裡所有知道的神祈求，希望英傑能到更好的地方，希望他不要再受苦了。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ILePUwTI6
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我打開信封，裡面只有一張書籤大的紙。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGvesCYvOpr
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「Dear 妹：」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwNuUnDiYn
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「妳永遠是我的天使，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuVdpMB65zj
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請不要忘記我。」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHzMkPhPrt
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「哥 英傑」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsf7VLpXXYA
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我抱著自己，放任自己哭到睡著。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyPH2yFQ78
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之後的每一年，我不選在英傑的忌日，而是在他的冥誕當天悼念他。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrsk75NH74a
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每一年的五月三十，我都會寫一封信，表達我的思念，讓他知道「我沒有忘記他」。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrnkelwfSza
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前幾年每到這天，我總是哭，總是放任自己因為想念而哭得泣不成聲。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTij16XHC1D
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後來的後來，我漸漸不哭了，但沒有改變在這一天寫信的習慣。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2VaL9obZ50
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英傑的回憶有時像巨石背在背上，有時像羽毛沾在胸口，無論哪一種，都是無法遺棄。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kHFQFBZxK
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他走後，我便不再輕易評論一個人的好與壞。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBTAYXiomr
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曾經我在英傑的新聞底下看見很多網友的謾罵、抨擊甚至是汙辱，我感到憤怒與心痛，想一個一個回應他們「你們什麼都不知道！」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUfHMixzif
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但我什麼也沒做。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7prSzWXd4l
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因為那些人不認識他，也永遠不會認識他。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6RIAloYhUs
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所以我再也不對任何新聞或社會事件做評論。因為我知道，我不認識當事人，更不能體會當事人的親屬心情。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNpSoRXgTW
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我回去念書，考進了大學，年年以取得獎學金為目標，只為不要白學。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGLAAabEDT
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一直沒有放棄創作，可能也是因為惦記著他說過的話。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAq0pgQiTJc
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說起遺憾，大概是我喊他「英傑」比喊他「哥哥」的次數要多更多了吧。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4a0ZKtGKp8
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去年，我沒有寫信。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPyhdwZxfkU
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我選擇在當天完成他的故事。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrpX6JS5J4J
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他是一隻孤傲的鷹，獨自在天空闖蕩，受盡風霜，最後回巢，在家人身邊闔上眼。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYeWHaXlXh
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我是活在地面的狼，只能抬頭望著，用我的爪在沙上畫下他在天空翱翔的姿態。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeThdXYXEOG
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這是，我哥哥的故事。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8iUQthLZht
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