愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXExiceZoH
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後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDjhfWXQQV
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4skYypQ5H
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAftc3uXh3
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也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HwUtZdZ9L
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但他沒有。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ5AUKTChpm
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在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVj9p6RsUF
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或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYT0bpKdk9
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYr1fz1qIui
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNm8vT6enU
花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHslgYW6XJ
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4atvsx7F1
「妳在家嗎？」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHVqBCgZ0f
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrY3ayLIKKX
「嗯。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQ5HYNtcpw
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGIjS4jfol
「下來。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGP7XGyvKAf
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我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkMQK4NPfg
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWxDAjdfgE
阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCYhEip0Ui
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「上車。」他敲敲車子。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUyMMs43Up
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJKSgX0vzg
「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJ3MsqY608
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtrPHnIeJ3b
「把妳載去賣。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQWZ5ZYmIC
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshwgCqNLQA
「嗯，好。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpgVDIFJMq
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivzRmboo6R
阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbkIJe461zD
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCeoyJcF0E
我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqm5ZDvPwg3
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「起床了。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLe1cJKz21M
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx2pyI8peNI
「快點起來，小豺！」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxm8ehEycBk
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7dcvTMQNF
我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsB0HCnPwaq
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGptx1DqCX
「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYax0f2hGIH
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSI7iv2UU3
我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4DTvT5MNk
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeX7kFim9pI
「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4iDuq6De6
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpIv8xxK84
「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzlZGci3Lqg
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1SNWm7sGF
「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAYsZjJNb9
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「在山上。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXrBi1KSxHw
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下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkQLop9twp
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「你要拜拜啊？」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUkwlirbnxf
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「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvQS0kYyHoF
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrH0EYLDdk
「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxM0ZWxniL2
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我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBICTZshb1
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Fp7AGQ1LJ
「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1YsSdX6rSX
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「我哪知道。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpA383OwiK
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「……說的也是。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1ngB2rrDw
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「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0XadW3VGjz
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「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsq7SctBJGP
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpkaazEWLu
「會發霉。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIa5aGCdhTi
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「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmKp8naygu
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8EPfsHLVMC
「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSofZAsj4Q
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdmdAjmn2s
「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8c71NUHfo
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzLlfgjpwX
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhyiJtMcjt
「啊？」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKTJDqYFkk
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OjF7dRaW1
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「哈…你很噁心耶。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCXjGRKbBC
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTRGOr7WDn
「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5wbzrlG1a
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「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGGcaru5cC
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOmA4noQfX
「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MCEq8uNbp
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ziyzug44X
我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvjL6uMtnHH
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ETdHPxKzO
「好啦，我勉強用一下。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9WvkGcs59
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTpm4DZIqa
我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNWoxfPpluj
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHcxdHyaT1c
他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBb4ip2nmdM
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGgNfPgoJb
我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdevuSnWt9o
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那是我和他最靠近的一次。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiObTYDzKoU
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待續。
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