我比他先到達高潮，直到那刻我仍沒有出聲，在雙腿緊繃幾秒，高潮退去後，我靠著牆滑坐到地上。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nW1IsIhV6
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然後看著他的體液沾滿手指、手掌和手銬。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnogdKpeLku
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「豺姐…？」過了一會兒，他出聲。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF8xM1ZmqPq
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb433BOnPsK
我做了個深呼吸，站起來，拿起椅子上的裙子和內褲。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJnxkQBytn
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRhZTZZYYI
「別動，等我一下。」我走進浴室清理自己。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0m1wjUnkpf
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ebtuzCh50
出來後，我從包包裡拿出濕紙巾，擦拭他的凌亂。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbJngXxOjL
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmKS2bsPUW
「我自己弄就好了…」他窘迫。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlv3qlPytU
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgj8y3QxlU
「不要動。」我說。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrX9lBAYhl2
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擦拭完畢後，我解開他的手銬、取下眼罩。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1g0biTWZ9F
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4fo16nF0k2
他慢慢地睜開眼，室內光線是柔和的黃光，他沒有花太多時間適應。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT4bXC1XPjv
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「妳臉好紅。」他盯著我。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvt4BTuVfv
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEUS2apeFL
「哪有你紅？」我笑了，對著他的身體使了個眼色。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHRSRAMt96
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他才意識到自己一絲不掛，匆忙站起來跑進浴室。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUn2wwipDVt
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而我的笑容在他進浴室後消失。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCY17ZsbUXW
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZu0XREURaV
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待他出來後，我在桌旁等他，示意他坐到另一張椅子上。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxco6WBnnCT
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcivRRlpeHk
「我們結束這樣的關係吧。」
我直接講了重點，在他出來前的內心預演統統沒有用上。說出口後，他的表情定格了好幾秒。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMTRLRO7SG
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXrLV0yM3T
「為什麼？」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXJsMW0tthg
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我想像得到他會問為什麼，但我卻沒辦法馬上回答他，只是看著他的眼睛，沉默。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtOp7qKsLO
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JkVGt0U8z
「為什麼啊？」他稍稍提高了音量。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt47DWRvfU3
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9ULNvTJpv
「我做錯什麼了嗎？」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSswCSVMzbN
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTiJaWl9OG
他不停追問，而我仍沒有出聲。有那麼片刻，我還以為我們是正在協議分手的情侶。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQyhhtzPzns
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而那種錯覺正是必需結束的主因。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2YdM02SXk
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwUfQjhugV
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwcEDXLy1x
「你是不是越來越依賴我了？」我輕輕的開口。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDtE7tP9AX
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdU2OvF8Kh
「什麼意思？我太黏妳了嗎？我可以不要太常去找妳吃飯啊。」他急著「改正」可能的錯誤。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUsq8xp7RRw
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tmlX7Rgon
我搖搖頭，「那不是問題，問題是我也開始依賴你了。」這刻，我還是盯著他的眼睛說話。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdo20ctWW1T
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5LWPLBoER
「……」他語塞。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Y2KnFB8xi
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9KNVeKoO7
「有時候我會覺得你像我的男朋友。」
「你從來沒有做過越線的事，就像你一開始保證的那樣。」
「可是當我開始希望你越線的時候，我們的關係就很難維持了。」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOgi9lPBzPK
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKisjFwzjmC
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「…妳喜歡我？」他猶疑了一下才說出口。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTg8kvV1eF
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7Sqk7GbfG
「可能有一點，或只是習慣你。無論如何，這樣不行。」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72ECpARIYC
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbWrCMvsAT
「為什麼不行？」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlaPjtHOoWZ
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJCbHwv5kn
「你喜歡我嗎？有想過跟我交往嗎？或你有想過要跟我上床嗎？」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGyPzLG8JQ
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzZbMTIa2RQ
他被我突然的問句嚇到，過了一會兒才回應。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprEjGuIBIH
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmToYMYC5Uw
「我…沒想過。」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTinGFkic8
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「是了。」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbRgk9wJXlY
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡir1nRA0ckL
「可是…可是我可以想想看啊，只是…可是…」他慌了，語無倫次。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexz7SVC4U4
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIzxojPPzc
「別想了，這樣結束就好。」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCbXdRtOIg
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkySGk7Ufcs
「我不要！這樣太突然了，我不要啦…」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsjnfLF1Sn
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKGgqco0oQ
我摸摸他尚帶有水珠的頭髮，覺得他像隻淋濕的小狗，440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj6gOC7zX0Y
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惹人憐愛。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUI6Jys94Z
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaj0tXjFo6d
從一開始就是這樣看待他的，我心裡的情感疊了太多層，無法和他明說。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPB70g9KQSb
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh15aVvWcd8
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJtWZMrMfLB
「你只是捨不得能陪你玩的對象而已，趁現在結束才不會有更多麻煩。」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKsFgOX03tM
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHo2Xu6YnvF
也許是被我冰冷的話語刺中了，他的眼睛滾下一顆淚珠。我預料中的反應。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgifJ55llG
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZqWNs4KGk
他離開椅子，跪到我面前，像犯錯的孩子。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPFhyXsqpa
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkby0ojhBN
如果是情侶，跪著的那個人大概會抱住坐著的人吧？440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2XYmFGHLn
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMbvfl9Hnm
但他沒有，就是隔著剛好的距離，恭敬的、卑微的，跪著。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQJD1X32PM
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1a0ivfRvq
那就是我們之間的距離－－主與奴的，即便我從不肯承認。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC5lFHmDapf
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡez72f2Jnhj
「如果我們變成男女朋友，我就能夠留下妳嗎？」他嗚咽的說。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFlHOcacWY
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLoAWJHMjFF
那語氣裡滿是委屈，被拋棄的、不情願的…440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZ4XjE61gy
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVmuDgeTa0
「我們不會變成男女朋友。」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjQwTF8hXl
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mMdntwm5A
我把椅子拉開，也跪坐到地上，與他平視－－不再是主與奴的視角。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzp1MrLzWdt
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jWr6LfJEA
「就算我們變成情侶，也沒辦法滿足彼此。」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dTZw93Lai
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡACxVRPDOBx
他看著我的眼神，表示不懂我說的意思。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡve1mDBiaXD
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZp9c8yzgQ
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7ohdh0YZW
我握住他的手，允許自己坦白。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSHdk3Uya4
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFowz7KeH6t
「你不是想知道我為什麼會使用麻繩嗎？不是一直覺得我對這些事很熟練嗎？」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjjCmhkQiI
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHEmF9RMgB
「那是因為我以前也做過。」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPd9NICyPY
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWG5QamaYj8
他的眼睛倏地睜大，「我沒有別的奴。」我的雙手使了點力，示意要他繼續聽我說話。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojXD54nRVT
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlCvocqbDl
「……我以前是服從的角色。」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRfxHMIczK2
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjGt2ykbhH
「那些我對你做的事，都是以前別人對我做過的。」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsM1VYfmtu
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Jn8ljlUvV
「所以我才知道怎麼進行，但以前那個人很野蠻，我都被弄得很痛，所以我才不希望你受任何傷。」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLH4pPUq4Ec
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNCkinZFZW
「我更不希望當你看見傷痕的時候會想起我。」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYAkG1TdVc
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2OqZ366vfK
我看著他，沒有移開目光。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnmtNTlryM
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKOe0YtkvU
那些時候我看著他，會把自己的過去與他重疊。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqtCX6trIZ
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRi2bNyZ6fl
對他的處境所衍生的心疼，或許也參雜了更多私心，不曉得是心疼他，還是心疼過去的自己。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNV5IFLzvFS
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNgy9mlgAb
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ0Rz5wZ9Ie
他傻住了，什麼話也說不出來。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXpqvF3aAC
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7yNz8QfCe
我放開他的手，再次摸摸他的頭髮。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWuESGu9eB
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSxCk6mIJn
「去吹乾頭髮吧，會感冒的。」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡolgpWz6HTK
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMsPYRpKRgo
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGtImc7fxS
離開旅館後，我們再也沒有見過面了。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaSGdLHEmQT
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qgjS7Mdk3
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw34ufzylAq
那天晚上我在自己的記事本裡寫了一段這樣的話：440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjdCAii4KQ
440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGsAvQmA7u
「我們都只是被情慾支配的獸，你是狗，但你不知道我是狼。」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGB8qOdZvci
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