我牽著童桐的手，然後舉到胸前：「我同童桐…開始拍拖。」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0Zm7xsTOi
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要交代的，就只有這件事。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwVI7CMQ3N
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在旁人眼中大概很普通，很平常吧。從小到大玩在一起，待在一塊的我們成為情侶，可能在眾人眼中成為情侶是何等的理所當然。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡImsauzb2vP
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天曉得我們經歷了甚麼。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtMYpaMBrU
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「終於呀。」我媽平淡地說，一臉不出所料的樣子。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkqOAURUsl
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我爸點點頭，舉起姆指，然後出門上班去。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5hjDO3r0e
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就這樣簡單地向我父母和童桐爺爺嫲嫲交代了後，我們的生活其實沒甚麼變化。真的，我以為我與童桐會有甚麼改變，但我們之間的日常只是回到原點。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTtRO9KmWj
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「呀遊，幫我吹頭髮～」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4DwR8dXHo
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「嗯～」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHEo5vSxvD
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一如以往地幫懶惰成性的童桐吹乾頭髮。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjFpVivspx
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「呀遊，今晚我煮飯俾你食呀！」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkL5ufOznDC
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39r2rMjxBV
「咁我去買野飲？」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWCD4QfrJk
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一如以往地互相去對方的家中晚飯。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqTmUitmEF
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「亞基里斯你又痾？！」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGPbFGvB5z
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「咪又係你餵太多搞到咁…」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2apb4mPPO
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一如以往地帶亞基散步。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVeyJyOO08x
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因為我們真的太過親近，即使確立了情侶關係後我們也沒甚麼改變，身體接觸是多了，確立正式關係後會做的也做過了，但其他一切如常。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yG5vnOO43
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這使我有種…奇怪的感覺。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjOMJZOtxnh
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不過也就是「這樣子」嗎，我有這種感覺。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIaCKdYMyPO
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2RYolULI0
我看過一套動畫叫靈魂奇異記，當中有個比喻是這樣的：有一條小魚問鯨魚，「大海怎樣去？我要去大海。」，鯨魚傻眼：「這兒就是大海呀？」，小魚不信：「不不不，這只是水裡，我要找的是大海。」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZKpCVwQqT
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準確對白我不記得，但我現在感覺自己就是那尾小魚。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxb3dDh1kAA
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差別在於我知道自己已經到了終點，到了大海，我終於成為了童桐的男朋友。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIIc7QNsIQq
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但……也就是這樣罷了，大海就和水裡一樣。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHOtlTeoJ6
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說得我都好像是個渣男了，但一向視童桐為終極目標，窮一生追逐，犧牲一切也要得到的我，真的得到她了。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigFnOPevIZ
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之後呢？1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqo0attTs8
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2fYdRcAEn
沒有想像中興奮，沒有想像中狂喜，我以為自己成功得米之時，會好像中了六合彩一樣大喜大笑，會好像手機抽蛋單抽SSR，會如那天婚禮童桐主動吻我那樣吧。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4AL1vUuD9
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但沒有，完全沒有，我心情平淡得我以為自己精神或心臟有問題。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4iDm3oNne
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxXPLYCyas
我怎麼了？——在好幾次和童桐聊完電話睡覺後，我都質問自己。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2c1G14q1p6
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnAJuZvU1gO
現在的我幸福嗎？幸福。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39E7X7MY15
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現在的我快樂嗎？快樂。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEaRB9JFfz
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhs38TZL0a8
現在我的滿足嗎？滿足。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZLHFIDThD
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHs31DOR8W
那麼我現在是怎麼？為甚麼在茫然？1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr94NMdk2h9
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UGgOyjgKN
我有時甚至會看著我爸釣回來的鮮魚，本已在大海的牠氣絕於我爸的小冰盒之中，溶化的冰水中也是水裡，牠還會想找大海嗎？我會苦苦思索著這問題直到出神，直到我媽拿菜刀一刀拍昏那尾魚的「砰」一聲才回過神來。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ubvfUiQFr
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至於童桐的話，她比我正常多了。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0B746mCEHG
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGO908qJZGW
雖然我和她之間直接跳過了熱戀期，但童桐卻愈來愈黏我。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3dYxPsJ54
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xOE9gQyrN
「呀遊，早晨～」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvo2ZwR1SvP
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「What！the！Fu…」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwrwcbHRbi
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試過幾次早上瞪開眼，童桐現在不只是坐在床尾或站在我旁邊，而是鑽到我的被窩中輕擁著我。是很甜蜜沒錯，但早上醒來一張人臉貼著自己，即使童桐多可愛也有點不對勁吧。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9lxAxbIRU
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「嚇親你？」童桐在被窩中抱住我問。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUcTwRxrf6
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ7tPc0RipX
「童桐，我…未刷牙，驚把口臭到你啫嗚嗚嗚？！」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9C6ubC9m1n
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CXsuDSs8B
童桐閉上眼深深吻到我嘴上，然後用舌頭舔舔自己嘴唇笑著說：「嘻，點會。」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5iuQBiOtd
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如果我媽不是在家我真的會就地把她…！！1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNoBxgbbX4u
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsEfsK1EWDD
總之，童桐和我都彼此壓抑了自己十幾年，她這樣子才是正常吧，即使顯得有點太用力。有問題的人是我，明明跟自己說過無論童桐的好壞也會接受…但感覺也不是因為那些往事作崇。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu27Id8Iz83
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我是連幸福也害怕的那種膽小鬼嗎？1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82UlOe4lAH
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwotxMlB10R
再舉一個例。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSu7wavgCeJ
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「好，抆箭。」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBCfUrkQdn
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魚腩盃決賽定了在八月最後的一個周末，英姐和贊助比賽的發叔都說這樣子人們才難忘，選手們多點時間練習比賽也更刺激。所以已經失去了不少練習時間的正趕緊追上其他決賽的高手。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOekJ4KFzCE
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左手抵住箭靶，右手握住箭柄，發力拔箭…慢著！1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmzQKxVqjB
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「呀遊～」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRHG58Hqru
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童桐從後抱住我。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQasA8TUAEI
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsHh5g8OP1
「童…童桐？！」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzmpvhTIQb
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEh9N8jxAw
射箭運動中，其實很少人是被發射的箭矢射中而受傷，因為我們都特別注意有沒有笨蛋在射箭時越過發射線進入危險的射擊區。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPf6ugVGtj
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相反，最危險的是拔箭的時候。常有學生沒注意身後，把箭矢從靶上拔出時用箭尾插傷身後其他來拔箭的人。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1S1FYBPGLo
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「危險呀！做咩黎左既？」被童桐抱住我沒法從箭靶上拔箭。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrov0SLtuGZ
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrvtGnTyvO5
「掛住你囉。」童桐用頭輕蹭向我撒嬌。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyK1yRR3VBM
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkftVroK4sE
「嗄？我地一個鐘前先食完下午茶…」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZrytBTqXM
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「成一個鐘無見過你喇…」童桐扁著嘴說。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEXzEaZJ85c
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uJkHCiFWd
因為我這樣被她定身在射擊區內，後方其他師兄師姐都沒法射擊。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnVrOKya2wp
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「師兄，你…抆箭先呀不如？」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNUtT1h5fpU
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLaCZ5lwiC
「喂要攬唔好係度攬啦？！」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBy39U8Kh4
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惹眾怒了…1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrAYfPYyWD
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ya7W1h1L1
好不容易說服童桐回沙發區等我，我連忙高速拔出箭矢收回箭袋，跑去沙發安撫被罵而扁著嘴的童桐，結果練習次數比計畫中少了一截。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4F8En5ua0
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又例如有一天晚上我和情聖在聊Facetime.1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7fOVrd1FT
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVcjwWHSOTa
「個邊零下四十度既話，普通雪櫃算唔算係熱櫃既一種？」我問。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3pl6a5vdWn
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRi2dA37Dw
「呃…不過其實又無想像中凍，同埋難得黎加拿大渡蜜月無理由唔北上睇極光，我地之後會去個香港人開既牧場度玩…呀遊。」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrLNlR7VYH
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEHNm0BQut
情聖突然面色發青，明明他那邊是中午，他還在吃午飯。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNC6k5SMaU
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「做咩？」但我這邊是半夜，農曆七月那種。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiso0uEvDNb
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnJXVXCcF0
「你後面有個人影郁緊。」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTzG2lq0KE
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「嘩我屌呀？！…童桐？」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKggH8erQu
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNkdULcNQD
那人影一晃後突然從黑暗中高速欺近，把我嚇得差點尿褲子的人正是童桐。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKuCENeQdb
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5u2QMEOUc
「你唔係話訓覺啦咩？」我問。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPr5vgBUJ32
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BZBCbyo0C
「我見到你呢邊有光。」童桐一雙眼死瞪著屏幕說，「你明明仲同我講左早抖…你呃我？」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcgRl2o9Ipc
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgYG00oyTE
她一直在那邊監視著我的窗戶？1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTeIzBwlgd
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5aZiaPbooC
「就…我同情聖傾緊計呀。」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuiiSyJgJyL
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcBdFSXhDR
畫面中的情聖不安地吞吞口水：「Hi, 童桐～」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zAY6V2zbc
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2tLn2jMcxQ
「好耐無見，情聖～」童桐馬上笑盈盈地揮揮手，和剛剛判若兩人。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6t7xp09bJ1
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我和情聖隔著屏幕不安地交換一個眼神。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM3DHN1n0JN
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4ja9MFz6Z
童桐這樣黏我我其實很高興，我也想像過各種和童桐糖痴豆一樣的畫面，各種摸頭，牽手，擁抱以至更親密，但是現在這也太過…1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdyPgG1Qnm
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「喂你個邊咁夜，唔阻你訓啦。」情聖察言觀色，「之後再傾，明信片等陣返酒店寄，拜拜。」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKe86ti4LB
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「拜拜～」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡristAGFy06
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情聖消失在畫面上，黑掉的屏幕倒映著我與童桐。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBcNIwuVa0L
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZydzjNIsv
…半夜自己開門進來，真的好嗎？我們始終沒有同居吧，白天也算了。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCjPImJq2n
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ITkDM9Ak4
「今次真係訓？」童桐問。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡws790QD1Rg
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「嗯。」我笑著說，「攰啦都。」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsMQVqaXYno
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但看到她這表情，我也不能說甚麼。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9tvjVaBmH3
1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPFmQ0A0j6
「咁我睇住你訓。」童桐在床邊坐下，「使唔使我摀耳？膝枕？」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0iwQzrGId
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「唔…唔使，咁，真係早抖啦。」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTsV02YOEvz
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結果還是被童桐摀著耳朵，輕輕按摩頭皮直至我失去意識睡著。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFX7PixnpC
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童桐愛我，我感受到了，應該說感受不了才怪，有時連亞基都為之側目。但是這樣是正常的嗎？即使我沒有經驗，我也有看過小說漫畫電影之類，情侶即使是熱戀期也不會這樣子吧。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrgyee0PnSU
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童桐…沒事吧？她好像又瘦了？1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfggnMq7vBF
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更何況我們早就相處了不多年，童桐這樣黏著我反而有點一反常態。她時不時要擁抱要親吻要摸頭要撒嬌，每天都和我如膠似漆，更加顯得有點…突兀嗎？1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGo7EBOk5j2
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然後。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNXMJN8veW
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「妍妍今晚上黎食飯，執好間屋。」我媽拿著買回來的一袋二袋說。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUvf0jPbh7
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「咁…突然？！」我看看身邊臉色沉了下來的童桐，又看看我媽手足無措。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9pMrYzF0w
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「嗯，佢搵工個度有野問我…Ｄ後生女真係，仲有幾個月就畢業，連自己想點都唔知，ＣＶ都未寫過。」我媽扶著額搖頭。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpI7tb50Taa
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「呀遊，我幫你執屋。」童桐站起來說。1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBQoZVMqml
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「唔使啦，係我同亞基整到咁亂…」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVOT51GhUc
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「你同我坐低！！間屋我會執，只可以…」童桐回眸的雙眼放出殺氣，「…由我執。」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTtul1gXii
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「係。」1185Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡagkJg82qhE
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我和正跳來跳去耍蠢的亞基連忙坐回沙發上正襟危坐。
