尋死的念頭一出現,我就被自己給嚇到了。533Please respect copyright.PENANAcnb84hOVI3
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「妳瘋了嗎?」533Please respect copyright.PENANADo2G4tpGYJ
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腦裡出現兩個我,理性的那個正在發飆,狠狠咒罵另一個我。533Please respect copyright.PENANA4izyJmX78r
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而被罵的那個我,只是一個勁兒地哭。533Please respect copyright.PENANAH3yR1Mz8MD
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我覺得自己隨時都會爆炸、衝動行事,便躲進被窩,用厚厚的被子蓋住全身,連頭都包在棉被裡,不讓任何光線進來。533Please respect copyright.PENANA1C5c0vy3mK
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在充滿二氧化碳的被窩裡,我全身是汗,滿臉淚水。533Please respect copyright.PENANARdfMN0UyU5
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我側身把臉埋進枕頭,把尖叫送進布料與棉花裡。533Please respect copyright.PENANAVolOJZvpzT
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我往自己的腳下看,有一片草原。533Please respect copyright.PENANAOz2ymixWLK
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面前有一條石頭道路,盡頭是顆大樹。533Please respect copyright.PENANASUrBdYQ6g9
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樹下站著一個人,太遠了,我看不清他的臉。533Please respect copyright.PENANA4n6pQlpYl1
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所以我走近,愈走愈近,直到我看清楚他是誰。533Please respect copyright.PENANARZ7Lf6f0ky
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站在樹下的人是英傑。533Please respect copyright.PENANAZOntBdSyTq
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我跑向他,勾住他的手。533Please respect copyright.PENANAsslgCEXJXw
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他對我笑著,什麼話也沒說。533Please respect copyright.PENANA1HwwleYXOx
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我像是要把這些日子以來,所有發生的事情都告訴他,開始滔滔不絕地講。533Please respect copyright.PENANAUSiHp9k0t6
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他陪著我走到我原本站的地方,就停下來。533Please respect copyright.PENANA4hUMELoKY1
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我還在講,他轉頭看我,伸出手揉了我的頭,就像他每次做的那樣。533Please respect copyright.PENANAP5OBxVqLgU
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我張開眼睛,才知道自己夢見英傑了。533Please respect copyright.PENANAXU9KMCtp53
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我開始懷疑起自己做這個夢的原因。533Please respect copyright.PENANASlda2rtG2Q
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是太想念英傑了,還是壓力太大需要出口?533Please respect copyright.PENANA3S4jIWPViv
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或是…他真的怎麼了,才到我夢裡來?533Please respect copyright.PENANAPN8qd4nNfV
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我心裡很害怕是後者,但我知道此時的自己無法找到真正的解答。533Please respect copyright.PENANAKElHOsW9I6
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這個夢緩解了我的情緒,也瞬間恢復了大部分的理智。533Please respect copyright.PENANA8cfGn3l6gD
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不管是什麼原因,都是英傑救了我。533Please respect copyright.PENANAIYASIHx4Nr
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我度過了心中的那個坎,日子雖然沒有改變,但我的心態改變了。533Please respect copyright.PENANANoi2niEVVE
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「沒錯,都是我選的。所以,我要更努力才行。」533Please respect copyright.PENANANiUC9wY2mn
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雖然,從那個時候開始,過了很長一段借貸的日子。人都說救急不救窮,但我很幸運,擁有很多好朋友,如果我開口,他們總是不說二話的就拿錢給我;就算我死愛面子不開口,他們也會一直逼問是不是沒錢用。我拿著跟朋友借來的錢,繳家裡的房租、水電費、瓦斯費…然後在假日另外打零工還錢。533Please respect copyright.PENANAyMrsq3BiuR
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高中的最後一個學期,我也差點因為沒能繳出學費而休學(當時已有就學貸款,但沒有考慮,只想著沒錢就去賺錢,別念書好了),但我那班不知該說是兄弟還是恩人的同學,硬是把一疊鈔票交到我手裡,要我慢慢還,要我和他們一起畢業。533Please respect copyright.PENANA42x2KpF7XC
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我沒參加考試,畢業後直接去找了工作。我還清了錢,卻欠了好多人情債。533Please respect copyright.PENANABAoZHc76kd
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生活條件穩定之後,也談了戀愛,生活圈的人換了幾輪,越來越趨於穩定。
只是在我心底仍有一個空蕩的角落。533Please respect copyright.PENANAA8Fcpttt8L
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我還是沒有更換手機號碼,一直抱著小小的希望,533Please respect copyright.PENANATkRfO1jp6a
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可我已在心裡默默地接受「英傑可能已經過世了」的事實。533Please respect copyright.PENANAZz0svaYpn7
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某天,我的皮夾不知在哪兒掉了,找也找不到。533Please respect copyright.PENANAEt5J613XjZ
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我辦了卡片掛失,心裡希望有人撿到皮夾,會願意送還給我。533Please respect copyright.PENANAJM5JgM1kAn
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這時,我才想起皮夾裡有英傑的照片,也想起我們說好要另外拍照留存的事。533Please respect copyright.PENANAwbe3SmLqkc
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我的皮夾沒回來,英傑唯一的照片也這麼沒了。533Please respect copyright.PENANAm5pQVXVbdw
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有時候,我會懷疑自己已經忘記他的長相,便努力回想那段日子,但畫面只是越來越模糊。533Please respect copyright.PENANAx0WVslJK2J
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一年、兩年、三年,當我漸漸淡忘這段過去的時候,我卻看見他了。533Please respect copyright.PENANALeLwV2y37A
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在電視裡面。533Please respect copyright.PENANAopFpASo2SF
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待續。
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