I didn't know how to define the relationship I had with Tobias, and I couldn't dare to ask. I was grateful for everything he did for me, and I wished in my future life to meet him in better circumstances, and that both our lives would be much easier.
His phone's ringtone woke both us from a seren sleep, Tobias answered and I understood it was Ethan, I grabbed my phone and I texted Mabel with what was happening. I didn't want to drag her anymore, but I knew she would freak out if I didn't tell her, I spilled my guts once more and put my phone on the side table, and I heard Tobias opening the door for Ethan. The guy was about Tobias's height, his hair was black and his eyes were deep blue, he was holding a box between his hands as he approached me, he beamed "Hi, I am Ethan. Tobias told me so much about you, it is nice to meet you." "I heard a lot about you too, and the pleasure is mine." I greeted him back. A young girl with blond hair and an appalling face stepped in holding a long wrapped white sheet, she hugged Tobias and they both approached me, Tobias spoke "This is Viola Ethan's girlfriend." We said Hi and Tobias asked me to help him bring the groceries from the car, I knew he just wanted to talk and he wouldn't ever let me lift a bag. I followed while I had questions but I was in no position to ask, he explained "I understand you probably don't want to see anyone, can you bear with us just for tonight? It's gonna be fun I promise." My face expression changed from curious to soft and I approached him as he was leaning his back on the car, I stood in between his feet and grabbed his face between my palms "Are you crazy or something? This is your house and these are your friends, besides after everything you are doing for me I can never reject anything you ask, okay?" He nodded and wrapped his arms around me holding me closer, he muttered "If I am getting crazy then you are getting the credits for that." I looked at him and I knew he was falling for me just like I was, even if I was trying to avoid that and trying to hide that, because nothing in my life was working. He smiled at me "And I mean that as a compliment, in the best way possible." I rested my head on his chest and his woody herbaceous scent put me in a peaceful state.
The sun was almost gone when Viola and I organized the kitchen and started making dinner, I was clueless just following her instructions, while the guys were making something in the backyard, she was so delightful and I enjoyed her company. Tobias called me from the living room Wto come upstairs with him, as we walked up he asked me to help him make the bedrooms hospitable for the three of us, since he already has his. He clarified "The guys will get the master bedroom, you can have the one next to me just in case you need something." "Sure." I nodded. Just as we finished the rooms I managed to take a glance at Tobias's, I went in and his aroma was taking over the wooden scent, the framed pictures of his family and I couldn't help myself to look for his when he was a baby. The one I found was with his father, and I didn't notice he was behind til he spoke "That was 2 months before he died." He took the picture out of the frame and turned it around"Dennis and Tobias." He read it "That's a beautiful name!" I remarked, he opened his wallet and tucked it in, he grabbed my hand and we sat on the edge of the bed "He died when I was a year old, I don't remember him, but I can still hear his laugh in my ears." He confessed, I didn't know what to say but I had to "And that made you stronger, it made you who you are today." He smiled at me "I want to show you something." He stood and led the way to the balcony.
All my thoughts were shut, I was stunned at the way the stars were shimmering on a vague black sky, and the great trees standing tall while you can't ignore the shiny flecks from the cabins in the neighborhood, I was focused on every detail I couldn't look away, Tobias took my hand and pointed right to the stars and named everyone of them "But that wasn't what I wanted you to see. Remember what I have asked you earlier today?" He asked, that day was the longest day and no doubt eventful, yet I couldn't recall his question, he answered himself "I asked you if you want to join me and Ethan and Viola to a drive-in to watch A Walk To Remember, and you said yes. Sadly we can't go but look down." He smirked, "We basically called the movie home, but not make it too lame it's like an Outdoor Movie Date !?" The projector was pointing to that very tissue Viola was holding when they first came in, and in front of the large couch from the living room filled with little cushions, warm little lights around the fourniture, giving it a magical outlook, then it hit me. Date?! He almost asked, the smile that left me for hours was back unintentionally "This is incredible!" "I am glad you liked it." He leaned to kiss me yet I walked away, his face went from happy to puzzled "Wait." I spoke "There was something else you wanted to talk to me about." I closed the space I made 2 seconds ago and he exhaled brushing his hair back with his hands, I felt like I reminded him of something that he was trying to ignore, I wrapped my arms around my thin being but he didn't let me hanging for too long to get an answer "Okay, it's um it's - about us." My face showed an Oh reaction and I replied "What about us?" I knew he wanted to label what we had, and I; myself needed to know what we were, his vulnerable voice got the best of him and he softly mumbled "I um I have feelings for you." His eyes were showing it all, and mine were destroyed by that view and I immediately remembered the prom night and that fire lit up my whole sky once again, I felt the same way and I didn't have words to explain that, especially when I remember my position in life itself. I closed even more the gap in between us "I clearly do too, and I am just so bad at showing it, mostly with what's going on with my life, I mean you have the right to just stop all of this, I mean I am gonna have a baby in the next 5 months, I know you may stick with me but for how long? A year? Two years? But you will eventually get sick of this, of me, and you have all the rights, I can never blame you. That's why I can't get attached to you, I am but I am trying as hard as I can. Yet I am failing between yours arms." I never thought I was capable of saying that to him, but I had to so I won't get hurt again.314Please respect copyright.PENANAZNWwyLWtrW